I wake up later and see my baby girl in a little bed next to my bed. I lean in and see her asleep. I look around my room and see no one. I smile and lay back down thinking about everything.
I have a beautiful baby girl. I never thought this would happen but it did and I couldn't be happier. The games are over and I and no one else has to worry about them ever again. My family is happy and doing well. Gale has not had a drink in months and him and his family are getting along again. Haymitch has gotten better and doesn't drink as much and actually has been dating. Everything is going great in my life but why do I feel like something is wrong? Something is missing…. Its Peeta.
I worry about him. I would love for him to be here and see his daughter and us be together again. I love him and I will always love him. We have been so much and I cant just forget about that. I miss him. I wish he was with me through all of this but he wasn't ready and I understand.
My door opens and I see a lady walk in and smile. "Your awake." I nod and she walks over to check on everything. She then walks over to the baby and smiles, "DO you want her?" I nod and she picks her up and places her in my arms. She helps me position my arms better and smiles, "Good." I look down at my beautiful girl and smile. "Do you think she is hungry?" The nurse laughs, "Oh honey, you will know when she is hungry." I smile and look down at her.
The lady comes over and smiles, "Do you want me to help you when she is hungry?" I nod and she smiles before walking out the door and leaving me holding this cute sleeping thing. She is so tiny. I take her tiny hand and play with it and soon she wraps her hand around my finger and I smile. She opens her beautiful eyes and I lean down and kiss her cheek. "You are so adorable." She coos and I relax just enjoying holding my kid.
All of a sudden this loud crying starts to come from her and I lay her between my legs and I don't know what to do. "Um.. Are you hungry?" I look down and up biting my lip. "Of course you cant answer me." The lady from before walks in with a smile, "Oh, someone wants something." I look up and sigh, "I don't know what to do." She walks over to the bed and smiles. "Check if her diaper is dirty." I look at her and then back at the lady, "Umm.." She laughs, "If the line is blue she needs changed and if she is stinking or full in the back, she needs changed." I nod and look between her legs and see she is blue. "Blue." She nods and hands me a diaper, "She peed. So we need to change her." I nod and with the help of the lady I get her changed and smile as the crying stops.
The lady looks at me and smiles. "You are going to be good. Just have to go with your instincts." I nod and She starts crying again. Sighing I look down and she smiles, "Hungry." I look at her and she laughs. "How about we do boob first." I nod and she laughs, "Pull your gown down to reveal your breast and then hold her to it and she will take care of it." I nod and do as she says and I laugh because it feels so weird.
After a few minutes I look at her then the lady, "How do I know when she is done?" She smiles, "You will know." I nod and wait a few more minutes until she pulls away and I look at her in amazement. The lady then smiles, "Time to burp her." I look at her confused but she laughs, "take and hold her next and place her on your shoulder and pat her back." I do as told and she laughs, "Little harder." "There you go." After she lets out a burp I smile and do it a little further and she lets out another one and I smile and lay her back between my legs. I look at the lady and smile, "Thank you so much." She smiles and nods, "Honey, everyone needs a little help at first. At least you have the basics now." I nod and she smiles before walking back out the door.
I pick Emily up and smile as I hold her in my arms. I hear a knock and then I see my mom poke her head in with Prim. "Can we come in?" I nod and she walks in holding a teddy bear in pink. I smile as she walks over gushing over Emily. "She is so cute. Even more beautiful every time I see her." I smile and hand her to my mom as Prim comes over and hugs me. "How are you feeling?" I shrug, "Little sore and tired." She nods and then takes the baby from mom. "Katniss, she looks like you and is beautiful." I smile, "Thank you." My mom comes over and hugs me, "Sweetie, you did amazing, I am so proud of you. I heard you already fed her and changed her." I smile and nod, "It was weird." She laughs and kisses my cheek, "You can go home tomorrow. I need to go though, I have others." I nod and she hugs me again. Prim hands me Emily and they walk out the door.
I am smiling down at her as she looks up at me, "You are loved, very much." I hear another knock and then Gale pokes his head in. "Can i?" I nod and he walks in with a pink rattle and flowers. "I can't stay long but I wanted to come see how you were doing and if you needed any help." I smile and shake my head, "Thank you, but I am fine and I am just a little sore and tired." He nods and leans down kissing my forehead. "Can I hold her?" I nod and place her in his arms. "She is adorable." I smile and lean back.
"Katnip, I am proud of you." I sit up and look at him. "You went through the games twice, you went through hell with Peeta, and you just gave birth to this amazing little girl. You are amazing and I respect and admire you." I smile and kiss his cheek, "You are the best friend I could ever ask for. You went through everything with me and you were and are always there for me. Thank you." He laughs and places my daughter in my arms and kisses my forehead. "Get some sleep Katnip." He walks out the door and I place Emily back in the crib before laying back and going to sleep.
I wake up feeling like someone else is in the room with me. I look to the window and see that it is dark. I stretch some and look over to where I feel the presence. I see Peeta sitting in the chair next to my bed just staring at me.
"Hi." He looks up and smiles slightly. "Hey." I smile slightly back at him and sit up a little bit. I start to talk but he shakes his head, "I am so sorry. I wasn't ready Katniss. I just wasn't. I seen you getting bigger and bigger and I wanted so bad to touch you. I saw you glowing and smiling the more you grew. I don't think I have ever seen you that happy well until tonight. I was a jerk and I know that. I never should have acted the way I did. I regretted it every day since that day. I am so sorry." I nod and smile, "Peeta, I understand. You weren't ready, I was. I understand I really do."
He smiles and looks around then he looks at the crib, "Can I see her?" I nod and I pick her out of her crib and hand her to Peeta. He looks down at her and I see a smile take over his face, "She looks like you." I smile, "Yeah, but she has your eyes." He smiles and looks at me, "She is beautiful. What is her name?" I smile, "Emily Hope Everdeen." He looks down at her and smiles. "It is a beautiful name." He looks up at me and smiles, "I see this beautiful little girl and I want more than anything to thank you. She is so adorable and beautiful and I can't believe I am her dad. I was so happy when we because real and then you wanted a baby and I knew I would do anything for you, I wanted to give you that baby. I never thought we would be together when it happened and it messed with me. I love you Katniss, I love you so much and am so sorry. I just wanted to give you everything you ever wanted. I am so sorry for how I acted. I understand you probably not wanting me near you guys and I promise I will never mess up. I just want to be there for her as anything, I don't care if I'm her uncle or whatever. I will wait forever until you tell me it is okay. " He hands her back to me and I hold her in my arms as she sleeps. "I just want to tell be honest."
He looks at me, "Katniss, we have been through a lot together. Most people never have to go through what we did. We suffered a lot." I nod and he takes a deep breath, "We both went into the games. Never imagining winning. I was sure I was not going to make it out of the first game. You surprised me and I fell in love with you even more. We both came out of that game as winners. We had nightmares and sometimes it seemed like we never left the arena but we left as winners. We toured as winners, we went back into the games and I was sure we weren't making it out this time. I wanted more than anything to make it out with you but I knew it wasn't possible and that Snow would never allow that. When everything happened and I finally came around, I was so happy you were safe. I still have nightmares and its not always about what happened in the games or when Snow had me, Sometimes its about you and you not being with me or that something happened to you. Katniss, I never wanted nothing to happen to you, ever. We were winners of the first game. We were considered the rebellion and you the Mockingjay for the second game. We are still considered the winners of both games, however Katniss, That's not right." He stops and I look at him with tears in my eyes as my face is shocked and confused.
"Katniss, it has always been you. We both came out winners but you were always the winner in my eyes, you always deserved it, I was just a tag along." I am shaking my head and go to talk and he shakes his head.
"Tonight you proved it, we both came out, we were both considered winners, But you Katniss are the one winner in all of this."
I HOPE YOU LIKED THE LAST CHAPTER. I tried so hard on this. I AM WRITING AN Epilogue and then the story will be over. I loved writing this story. I love the hunger Games and I will always think about this story but I feel like it is time to come to an end.
I love the part with Peeta because he never really talks in the Books and this is how I think he felt about everything. I really hope you liked it.
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