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When we got home the nursery was set up so nice, Matt once again out did himself. He made the very large room into two smaller rooms for the kids. The room on the left was right next to his room so he made a connecting door so it would be easier to take care of Mathew.
Whisper was asleep so we put her in her bed. I started to clean the house when Matt looked at me and told me to sit down and rest.
I told him that I didn't want to rest now I was to wound up. I need to keep busy to keep my mind off of Mathew right now. I hated the idea of having to come home without him.
Matt said I know, I am going back up there in a little while if you want to come.
I don't know if I can or not it's the first day home with Whisper and Jeff. God this is going to be so hard. Matt just embraced me and told me that every thing would be ok.
Jeff came back in from letting the dogs out and told me the same thing as Matt to chill out a little bit. I told him the same thing.
Jeff told me that he knew Matt was going back for a little while, and why don't I go with him.
Really you don't mind?
Jodi, Mathew is your son also you need to spend some time with him there as well as here with Whisper and I.
I realize that this is going to be a hard situation, but we will get thru it. Now go with Matt to spend some time with Mathew because I know that you haven't spent any time with him yet today.
Jeff you are the best thing that has ever happened to me and I love you so much. (I sat on his lap and laid my head on his shoulder) thank you so much for understanding. (Giving him a passionate kiss and hug)
Matt walked in and said I am going to the hospital; I will see you in a couple of hours.
Hey Matt wait up I am going with you.
(In the car)
Jodi, why are you going with me, you have Jeff and Whisper at home to take care of.
Matt, I have not spent any time with Mathew today and Jeff told me to come and see him with you. I hope that was ok with you. (As I took his hand in mine)
Of course it is ok with me. Any alone time with you I will take it no matter how little it is, as he gave me a quick kiss at the stop light.
When we got to the hospital parking lot Matt's phone started to ring. He looked at it, it was Jeff. Matt just handed the phone to me and told me to answer it while he parked the car.
Hello Jeff.
Jodi?
Yes who else would answer Matt's phone when you would be calling?
Where are you?
Parking the car in the hospital lot, why?
I need to talk Matt.
Jeff, what is so pressing that you can't talk to me?
Jodi, just let me talk to Matt.
Fine, Jeff wants to talk to you.
What's up Jeff?
I just wanted to give you fair warning that the hospital called just a couple of minutes ago and Mathew stopped breathing for a few minutes but he is fine. I just wanted you to be expecting the news so you can figure out ahead of time how to act when Jodi freaks, because you know as well as I do it's not going to be a pretty site.
I will handle the situation thank you Jeff and yes I will pick that up on the way home for you. (Lying of course)
(On the way into the hospital Matt takes Jodi's hand)
Jodi, you know that Mathew has a lot of health problems right now.
Yes, Matt I know that. I don't know what we will walk into from day to day or even hour to hour. Why.
I just want you to be prepared for any updates that we may get good or bad.
Matt what are you trying to tell me? What did Jeff tell you?
Let's just go and see our son.
Matt what did Jeff say to you. Is some thing wrong with Mathew?
No Sweetheart every thing is fine now. (As he kissed me on the forehead)
What did happen? Matt tell me!!
Mathew stopped breathing for a couple of minutes but he is fine now.
I broke from Matt's grip on my hand and ran to the side of Mathew's bassinet and just held his tiny little hand. There was even more wires attached to him.
When Matt joined me by my side, the nurse came by us and told us that Mathew had stopped breathing and what had caused it was a condition called sleep apnea. He would be wearing a monitor measure his breathing and if he stopped it would sound an alarm to tell us that he needs to be stimulated to get him to breathe again. When he goes home he will be on this monitor also. Some times babies grow out of this. Some times they don't. It is really easy to take care of a child like this all you need to listen for is the alarm and make sure he gets his medicine. The medicine is a stimulant itself to prevent it from happening.
Wait you make it sound like it is no big deal my child stopped breathing and all you do is just put this machine on him and the next time it happens you just what like snap his foot and that will make every thing ok. (Looking at Matt) I don't know about this.
The nurse just told us that before he left the hospital we would be fully taught how to deal with the situation and how to work the machine. Now who wants to hold him first?
Can we pull the couch up close and both sit with him?
The nurse said I can do you one better. She took his whole unit and put it in the privacy room and we got to hold him together on the love seat in there. It was much warmer in there so we could keep him out longer. As I held him Matt sat next to me holding me and playing with Mathew's finger's and nose.
Matt, this feels so right. With you and I like this with our son. It for some reason it doesn't feel the same with Jeff. I feel so bad, Matt he is my husband. Why do I feel like this?
I don't know why Jodi, but I know what Jeff means when he said that you make him feel alive when you are around, because that is how you make me feel.
Really Matt, because when I am with you I feel so complete and so at ease, I have been feeling like I have been walking on pins and needles ever since I had went back to work with you from Jeff's end. Now I am feeling a lot of tension to because of the baby situation also. I don't know what to do when Mathew comes home and you are around a lot more in between shows. I don't know if I am going to be able to contain myself not to be able to touch you and feel you touch me.
Jodi I know exactly what you are talking about. Are you coming back to work when the doctor says it is ok?
I don't know Matt, Jeff is dead set against it right now; because I have two babies to take care of and it is different they both are not his. He has told me he will not help me take care of Mathew.
I am not sure what I am going to do. I really want to go back. I love spending time with you. In and out of the ring, but Jeff is what standing in my way.
He told me that the babies should come first as well as him.
I do feel an obligation to him and Whisper also, because after all he is my husband and she is my daughter too.
So we will take them on the road also, just like you did with Jessica. We can have Mark's daughter watch them like she watch's the rest of the kids and I heard that they hired another person to help her.
But Matt, Mathew is a special needs child with the monitor.
We can train them on what to do it will all work out. Jeff can go back to being our manager, singles and tag team.
You will need to convince Jeff to go back out on the road, because he out and out told me no.
I will take care of Jeff; just leave it up to me.
I let Matt hold Mathew. The nurse came in with a bottle to feed him with. We had to wake him up to be fed. Matt looked like a natural feeding Mathew. I just laid my head on Matt's shoulder and watched him. He was such a natural. After an hour we had to put Mathew back in his unit. Just before we left the doctor came in and told us that if he keeps going the way that he has been he should be able to come home by the end of the week. We were thrilled to hear that news. Matt and I just took each other in each others arms and just hugged and kissed on hearing the good news.
The end of the week came and Matt and I were at the hospital visiting Mathew, they had, had him out of the heating unit for a whole day and he was maintaining his own body temperature well.
The doctor came and told us that we could take him home. We were taught how to give him his medicine and how to use the apnea unit and we were on our way. When we got home Jeff was waiting on the couch. He was happy that Mathew was home. He actually asked if he could hold Mathew. I said yes he could. He fell in love with him almost instantly.
He said you know he may not be mine, but he is still my nephew and I still love him just as much as I love Whisper. (Just then Whisper started to cry)
I started to go and get her, but Matt insisted on going to change her diaper and bringing her down to be fed. Jeff just looked at him and told him that would be fine for this time.
Matt went up to get Whisper. When he got back Jeff told him he wanted to trade babies. I took Whisper and Matt took Mathew. Matt then gave Jeff Whisper. Jeff was feeding Whisper as Matt fed Mathew. The kids both fell asleep in their daddy's arms I just let them be for a while. I got dinner ready. I made two trips taking the kids to there rooms. Then we all ate in silence until Jeff broke the silence and told Matt that he meant what he said about taking care of Mathew.
Matt said I intend on it.
Latter on that night Matt went out with Angie. Mathews monitor was going off every ten minutes. I was so tired going between Whisper and Mathew. I wish Matt would get home. I was exhausted. Jeff was sound asleep, he didn't hear a thing. It was about four in the morning when Matt finally showed up at home. When he showed up he found me passed out on the floor in Mathew's room. He woke me up and asked me what was going on. I told him between the two kids I am totally exhausted. Mathew's monitor w had been going off every ten minutes. I guess I just passed out.
Matt told me to go back to bed; he would take care of Mathew. I thanked him with a big hug.
I went to bed and twenty minutes latter Whisper was crying all I heard through the monitor was a small voice is I have her don't tell Jeff. It was a two way monitor, all I said was thank you.
It was seven in the morning when the kids both started to cry again I went to get Whisper first and her bottle and then I then I went to get Mathew and his bottle. I had them both on Mathew's floor changing them both half a sleep. Then I propped them up on pillows and stuck a bottle in both of their mouths, to feed them, nodding in and out of sleep. I would take turns burping them but they would cry in between me getting to the other. I tried to do both at once but it just wouldn't work I think I was crying more than the kids at this time.
Both Jeff and Matt came into the room looking for me. I was a wreck. Matt took Mathew from me. That made it so much easier for me to burp Whisper. I was just a wreck I was covered in baby puck. Jeff asked me how much sleep I had gotten, I told him like an hour. Matt got home at four and then he took care of Mathew and he even took a shift with Whisper, because he found me passed out on Mathew's floor.
I know how you feel about him taking care of her but I just couldn't do it.
Why didn't you wake me up?
I was dead to the world all I heard in the monitor was I have her, and I left it at that.
Then this last time they both started at the same time I thought I could take care of them, but I guess I proved that I am a failure at that. I handed Jeff Whisper and just left the room crying and said I am just a failure this time around period because of being so stupid.
Jeff give me Mathew and go after her, you can do it better than I can.
Are you sure?
That's ok just put Whisper in Mathews crib for now and I will contend to Mathew.
Jodi, wait up. Give me one good reason why I should. Matt caught up with me grabbed my arm and spun me around.
Jodi you are a good mother. Yeah look at me I can't even care for my own babies.
Jodi that will come in time, this is all new to you it will get better I promise.
Matt, what happens when you go back to go back to work, how am I suppose to cope?
You just need to ask Jeff for more help when it comes to Whisper, because of Mathew being a special needs baby you will need to spend a lot more time with him and I know that Jeff told me he was my responsibility, but I am sure if you really need help he will help you.
But Matt he has made it very clear to the both of us that he won't.
Jodi, he is up there right there now finishing up feeding Mathew so I could come and get you and talk to you. He is my brother he is not as cold hearted as he has come across to be. I think the initial shock has worn off and he now sees the repercussions that this situation is going to have on you.
Just then Jeff came into the bed room and pulled me onto his lap, he said that both kids were asleep in Mathews crib, and thanked Matt for coming and talking to me. I just laid my head on his shoulder and cried. I am so sorry I am such a failure I can't do this.
Jeff and Matt just both took me in like a group hug and told me I was not that, I am a good mother that I just need time to adjust and that they both were going to be there to help me. They did not want a repeat of last night. It should have never happened like that. Matt said that he was sorry for being out so late, he should have known better, he has Mathew and it was not fair to push him off totally on me the first night of him being home.