KPOV-

''There,'' I set Grace in her booster chair at the kitchen table, and wipe some more tears from her face.

''What's wrong with Grace,'' Jacob asks, chewing on his waffle.

''She's just a little upset because her ear hurts,'' I explain, trying to make it easier for the four year old ,''How did you all sleep?''

It's Wednesday, and Liam, Jacob, and Jade have been with us for three days.

Jade and Jacob have warmed up to us pretty well, Liam not so much, but I won't pressure him. He's not rude, just quiet and reserved. That just may be his personality.

Either way, Blaine and I are accepting these kids as they are, for who they are.

''Will she better soon,'' he asks, looking at her in wonder.

''I sure hope so. The doctor gave her some medicine,'' I nod ,''Did Blaine leave already?''

''Yes,'' Jade nods, ''Where does he work?''

''Darren Everett High School,'' I then turn to Liam ,''And since you're going there, he'll be taking you to school.''

He nods, then goes back to his breakfast.

''So you make dresses and clothes for celebrities,'' Jade excitedly asks.

''Yes. And I have my own clothing line,'' I laugh at her energy.

It's so contagious.

''Who have you met?''

''Well, a lot of people. Starchild, Tina Cohen-Chang, Mercedes Jones, Rachel Berry-''

''Rachel Berry!,'' she gasps, then turns to Liam with a mischievous smile, ''Liam always says that's his girlfriend.''

''Shut up,'' he playfully mutters, gently tugging on the end of her braid.

''Well, I don't know how permanent this is…. but if you guys want to meet her...''

''Can we,'' Jade gapes, and even Liam's eyes widen.

''Before we knew that the three of you would be coming to stay with us, I made plans last week, and forgot to cancel. How about we go out for lunch today?''

''This is insane. I'm going to meet Rachel Berry,'' Jade squeals, and Liam smiles a bit wider.

''Breakfast first,'' I nod towards their food ,''FInish up. Then, Liam, will you help Jade do the dishes while I change Grace.''

He nods, then continues to eat his breakfast.

I spent yesterday playing with Grace and Jacob, and talking to Jade and Liam. Even if his answers were short, he wasn't mean or rude about it. He is going through a lot. I can totally relate to losing parents.

So now we are responsible for four kids. And some may argue that with my fashion line becoming more popular than ever and Blaine having four classes plus glee to teach this semester that it is too much…

But it's nice. Without Blair and Rory here, it seems quiet. Grace is a toddler, yes, but she's so quiet. She's barely had a tantrum, although dad says we should wait for the 'Terrible Two's'.

Now there's laughter from Grace and Jacob, who I'm pretty sure, even if he understands the gravity of the situation, is handling it in his own way. And Jade may be timid to open up to us, but she's a burst of positivity. And Liam is polite, and does offer to help around the apartment.

''Hello,'' I answer the phone as I grab Grace another pair of training pants.

''Hey, Kurt, it's Adam.''

''Hey,'' I smile, ''Can you give me a minute?''

I set the phone down, and put the training pants on Grace before setting her back on the floor.

She immediately toddles over to Jacob, plopping down next to him as they watch television.

''Sorry, I have an impatient one year old. What's up,'' I ask, cleaning up some of her toys.

''Just needed to talk to you,'' Adam explains, and I can almost see him shrugging, ''I do have fantastic news.''

''And what might that be? You and Chandler are back together?''

You deserve to be happy, Adam. And just like it took someone to show me that, it may take someone to make you see that.

''That may or may not happen. We're talking it out. But, no, the real reason I called is that Rachel Berry wants the glee club I coach at the community center to open up for her at her charity benefit dinner. And half of the money will go to funding us.''

''Adam, that is incredible! I have heard those kids, and they are really good. This is amazing,'' I tell him, sharing his excitement.

''I assume you had something to do with that,'' he laughs.

''No, actually. But Rachel did take Grace to her ballet class last week, and she probably heard you. I had nothing to do with this,'' I admit, ''You just benefit from my friendship.''

''That's the truth,'' he jokes, and I know he's smirking, ''I have to get back to practice, but I wanted to call and sure that bit of information with you. I'll see you around? And Blaine, of course.''

''Of course,'' I nod, glad that we're both aware of the line that is not to be crossed.

Not that I'd never do anything to hurt my marriage, but I don't want to make Blaine feel more insecure than he already has been feeling.

We say our goodbyes, and I walk back to join the kids.

Jade sits next to me, Grace and Jacob are on the floor watching television, and Liam is leaning against the couch.

''We'll leave around twelve,'' I admit, ''Rachel will be done with her rehearsal by then. She can meet today.''

''Awesome,'' Jade chirps, and Liam nods with a smile.

This is my life, and I love it just as much as Blaine does. I would never be able to do any of this without him.

Sure, we won't have much time for… personal time, but the kids come first as always. And we'll make it work just as well as it always have.

And everything is going right with my life, with our lives, and our kids are bringing new lives into the worlds.

Everything is moving forward, and I am so aware that none of it is really going to slow down. However Blaine is right by my side, so I can handle whatever this crazy life throws at me.

Hopefully I can say the same for Blaine.

RyderPOV-

''I have to thank you,'' Penny smiles a bit, but continues putting out the new CDs.

''For what,'' I ask, starting on my own pile.

''You're really just a good friend. And you're such a good person. Jason tried to get me to take him back, but I thought about what you said yesterday. And I told him that it just could not happen.''

''That's great,'' I agree, ''You can do better.''

''Well, thanks for making me see that,'' she hugs me then, quickly pulling away with a blush.

''So…,'' I run a hand through my hair ,''I think that we need to talk about what happened yesterday.''

Before I do something stupid, and hurt my girlfriend.

''Drop it, Ryder,'' Penny looks at me out of the corner of her eye, before going back to the CD's.

''I can't, Penny. That kiss meant something,'' I tell her.

''I'd be quiet if I were you,'' she looks to Rory, who is working at the cash register ,''He is her brother after all. Come with me. We have to get the next box of CDs.''

I follow her to the back room, and she turns to me.

''That was a mistake. You love Blair, don't you?''

''Of course I do. She's not perfect, but neither am I. And we are good together,'' I nod.

''Then why try to mess it up,'' she looks at me with a raised eyebrow.

''I'm not trying to mess things up with her. I love her, but I feel like I've been lying to her,'' I sigh, ''It's only been one day, and I feel like she deserves to know the truth. She's so sweet and innocent and trusting… I think she deserves the truth. And to find the truth, I need to know if that kiss was more than a heat of the moment.''

''You feel so guilty because you haven't told her that you are unsure about the baby. That kiss was a mistake, Ryder. I was hurt, and you were here, and you were nice to me,'' she insists.

''Rory's nice to you, too,'' I lean against the wall.

''Rory is married. And I have spent more time with you, '' she reminds me.

''So you didn't feel anything. That's the story you're going with.''

''Ryder, why do you care about a kiss that lasted about ten seconds,'' she turns to me, arms folded over her chest.

''Because in high school, Blair and I went through a rough patch. Her ex came back in her life, my ex came back in my life. I knew who I wanted, but it took her months to decide.''

''And she chose you-''

''I think I deserve the same thing.''

Silence engulfs us, and she lets out a heavy sigh.

''Ryder, you are nineteen. I am twenty-one. The age difference doesn't bother me, but you're still learning. So am I. And there is a dramatic difference between who you are now, and who you will be in two years.''

''If I stay with her and I know that I have feeling for someone else, won't I just hurt her?''

''One, you are my friend. Friend, that's it. Guys and girls can be just friends. And I think I've figured out what you're running from: You're scared, Ryder,'' Penny looks at me ,''I get that. You really just started college, and now you have a baby on the way. But… this isn't right.''

''I don't want to cheat. I just want to know if there's something there,'' I point between her and myself ,''Between you and I. Even if I can't act on it.''

I'd never do that to Blair.

''That kiss meant nothing. I was mad and hurt, and you made me feel pretty. I used you, we used each other basically. You were scared, and that made you forget about the baby for a minute. Don't hurt her,'' she insists, eyes flicking down to my lips before back at me, ''I feel nothing. Nothing at all.''

''Right,'' I nod ,''Look. I'm sorry. I don't know what's gotten in to me.''

Blair made it very clear that she's not going to be my doormat, and that if I mess this up that's it. And I really don't want to lose her. I love her, and it's surprising enough that she still wants me after all that we have been through. We've hurt each other enough as it is..

''I am attracted to you,'' Penny admits, pulling me from my thoughts ,''Blair's a lucky girl, but you need to keep in mind that you are lucky to have her. I… I don't want to mess that up.''

''No, I get it. Thanks for talking me out of it,'' I nod as she presses a kiss to my cheek.

''But, as long as this doesn't turn into something more…''

Other than Blair, Penny is the most confusing girl I have ever met, and she confirms that when she brings her lips back to mine.

I don't know what it is, because it's definitely not what I feel with Blair, but it's there.

And it only increases when she deepens what was supposed to be a simple peck on the lips.

Penny presses against me, her hands moving to my shirt and beginning to take it off..

Blair. Dammit, this is so wrong. It's not right. I can't do this to Blair-

We hear footsteps, and I push her away from me just in time for Rory to look in.

''Guys, it's fifteen minutes until twelve. I've got to go to class, okay,'' he looks between us, but shrugs it off.

''Y-yeah, go ahead. I'll see you tomorrow,'' Penny smiles a bit, and Rory nods before leaving.

''What the hell happened,'' I look at Penny ,''Didn't we just agree that nothing could happen.''

''I was trying to convince myself more than I was you,'' she groans ,''I'm a horrible person.''

''So am I. It's not like I pushed you away,'' I remind her.

''We're both going through something right now. And I honestly think you are looking for a distraction, Ryder. Then again, so am I. We have no feelings for eachother, we just wanted something physical ,'' she insists ,''But that's not fair to you, me, or Blair. You love her, but you're scared. Talk to her. Tell her you're scare, before it's too late.''

''You're right,'' I nod ,''And… thank you. You're a great girl, you really are. Penny, it would be so much easier with you. But she's the one. ''

I do know that much.

''Well, it's up to you. Either way, this can't happen again until you make a decision.''

She leaves then, and I follow before collecting my thoughts and grabbing the box of CDs.

I do consider Penny attractive. Hell, I may even have feelings for her. But I know I love Blair. And I can't just leave her with no explanation. I have to tell her this, how I feel about the pregnancy… everything. Either way, someone's going to be hurt, but I've made my choice.

And I need to make things right before they spiral out of control again.

BlairPOV-

''I don't know,'' I tell Harmony as we clear the last table before our shift is over, ''He's been acting just… odd. Like, more so than usual.''

''Ryder's always acting weird,'' she jokes ,''But in all seriousness, how is he acting?''

''I don't know… one word answers half of the time, and yesterday he just kept changing the subject when I asked him how his friend Penny is doing. He seems… jumpy, I guess. Anxious.''

The same way that Kate was right before she admitted that she'd been cheating on me…

No. Ryder's not like her. He and Kate are two different people, and he would never hurt me like that.

I don't give him enough credit.

''Maybe he is nervous about the baby. You don't want to give the baby up for adoption, but is he ready? And are you absolutely sure that you are ready,'' Harmony asks as I follow her to the kitchen.

''I love this baby. I want to raise him or her. And Ryder does, too. He keeps telling me that. He'd never lie about something this important,'' I insist.

''Do you think something's going on between him and her,'' she continues.

''No. Ryder knows what it's like to be cheated on. He wouldn't do that to me.''

He's not like that. He loves me and makes me feel beautiful and has been there while I'm dealing with the pregnancy and treatment.

''Then you have to talk to him. An open, honest conversation,'' Harmony suggests, handing me my coat as she takes hers, ''I'll see you tomorrow?''

''Yeah. And thanks. Courtney's always busy, Sugar's dealing with her own thing… thank you. I needed to talk to someone.''

''No problem. And just remember: you aren't perfect, and neither is Ryder. But if you're giving this relationship your all, and he's not trying, you deserve better.''

''I guess you're right,'' I smile a little ,''Thanks.''

With that, we go our separate ways, and I head home.

''Hey,'' Ryder greets when I walk into the apartment ,''I picked up dinner.''

''Thanks,'' I wash my hands, purposely avoiding his eyes.

''How was work,'' he asks, taking some plates down and opening the box of pizza.

''Fine. You?''

''Fine.''

How can silence be so uncomfortable?

''Look, we need to talk,'' I take the plates from him, and take his hand in mine ,''I love you.''

''I love you, too,'' he gives a half smile, and I know he's at least telling the truth about that.

''I am always honest with you, even when it's painful. And all I ask is that you be honest with me.''

Ryder looks down, then back at me.

''I don't want to lose you,'' he whispers, and it's broken.

''Ryder, we've been through so much. And I'd gladly go with anything else with you. But you have got to talk to me.''

''You're gonna leave me. Damn it, I'm so stupid,'' he wipes at his tears.

The last time I saw Ryder cry was right after Grace was born.

''Ryder Lynn, you are not stupid. Whatever you did can't be that bad,'' I wipe at his tears, but he pushes my hand away.

''Don't. I d-don't deserve you.''

''I don't deserve you…. tell me what happened. Is it the baby? School? Work? Something with us? Just tell me. I love you, you know that.''

''I love you, too,'' he sighs, then runs a hand through his hair ,''You might want to sit down.''

The same thing my friend told me before she said she thought Kate was cheating.

But I listen to him, because he'd never do something to hurt me, like I won't hurt him again.

So why does it feel like the wall is about to come falling down?

RoryPOV-

''You're home late,'' Sugar announces when I walk in.

''My last class was over at eight. We ended late.''

Then I took some time to think about what would be best for our babies.

''I thought you were avoiding me,'' she admits, ''Because of yesterday.''

''I did take some time to think, Suga. I trust that you did the same?''

Because we really have to talk about this.

''Yes. I did. And I think I should try to make you see my side, and you do the same,'' Sugar explains, standing up and facing me when I sit on the couch.

''Fair enough,'' I agree.

And it gives me time to get my emotions in check.

''Okay. You have to know I love these babies. Our babies,'' she looks at her stomach, ''And all I want for them, all that I will ever want for them, is that the be happy and safe and loved.''

''That's all I want,'' I nod, and she continues.

''We just got marrie, Rory. We are still trying to figure this out, just the two of us. That's hard enough,'' she looks down ,''And now we're adding two people who are going to be completely dependent on us. I'm not sure I am ready for that.''

''Sugar, I get that-''

''No,'' she cuts me off quickly, ''You don't. This isn't easy, but I have thought about it, and thought long and hard.''

''And what did you come up with,'' I ask.

''That, yes, adoption is the best choice,'' she quietly responds.

''I see,'' I nod ,''Well, that is very interesting. I have thought about it, and my decision remains the same as it was yesterday: I think that we should keep our babies.''

Her eyes snap to mine, and she grimaces before her face relaxes.

''You don't get it,'' she groans ,''We're not ready for this.''

''I don't think that anyone is one hundred percent ready when it comes to kids, Sugar. But I can't imagine having my children, this little piece of me, grown up and be raised by people who aren't us, and never seeing him or her again.''

''They have open adoption,'' she rolls her eyes.

''Yes, but you'd never do that,'' I remind her ,''You'd insist on closed adoption, because it would be just as painful for you to see our babies if we weren't raising them. What are you afraid of?''

''I told you.''

''That was crap, and you know it. Give me an honest reason that you think we can't raise our children, and not put them up for adoption, Sugar. I'm your husband, and those are my kids, and I deserve the truth. Please, talk to me. That is the only way that we will make it through.''

''Alright, fine,'' she wipes the tears that are rapid feeling her eyes ,''I don't know the first thing about babies. I'm scared that I am going to be a terrible mom, and make them feel like I did growing up.''

There we go.

''Look at me,'' I take her hands ,''Neither one of us knows what we're doing… but we can figure it out together. We can keep our babies, and raise them together. We're gonna make it. I wouldn't lie to you.''

Please, just agree with me. Let's keep our babies.

''Can I have a week to think about it,'' she looks anywhere but at me.

Damn.

''I think that is fair,'' I finally respond ,''One week. And then we can talk to dad and Blaine? Maybe they can help.''

''That sounds reasonable. I'm sorry for all of this.''

''Don't be. We are working this out like adults. Now, come on. I have class tomorrow, and you have work. We'd better get some sleep.''

That is a lot easier said than done, because I can't seem to fall asleep.

All I can do is lay awake, and hope that Sugar sees things like I do.

So should Rory and Sugar keep the babies? Because I can work either way. And Blair and Ryder usually work it out, because I don't wanna break them up alot, but what do you think about his confession? And Rachel in the next chapter

Disclaimer- glee belongs to Fox and Ryan Murphy.