Chapter 26: Afterwards.
Waking up. Not on my top priority today. I want to pull the covers over my head. I'm still wrapped in Fang's arms. I sit up, and stare blankly at the wall. I can't help but feel empty. I rub my hand over my belly until Fang's hand takes hold of my hand to stop me. I put my hand down. I don't know what to say so I get up to take a shower. I get out, and go to the back porch. I sit in silence, and watch the sun rise. I rub my empty stomach again. No one knows what I'm going through. There's no one who can fully understand. Sure they might be sad or upset over this, but I'm completely broken. I hear voices from inside the closed door. Right now I just want to be left alone. I have to get ready for work. I stand up, and go inside.
"There you are momma." Fig says, and latches around my knees. I reach down, and pick him up. He rubs his nose gently against mine, and I kiss him.
"Hey, Baby." I hug him, then set him down. He goes to the table, and go back to eating. I go get ready, and see Fang is still asleep. I go over, and tap his shoulder. I sit on the edge.
"You've got to get ready for work." I say. He turns over, and wraps his arm around me, and uses the other to rubs his eyes.
"Ok." He sits up, and wraps the other around me as well. I lean my head over on his shoulder, and feel my toughness drop. I feel like crying my eyes out. And I let a few tears out. Fang kisses my hair.
"I'm sorry." He says. I wipe my face into his shoulder, and get up. I get my work clothes together, and start to get out of my night clothes. Fang walks passed me to the shower. I get changed, and go on out to get something to eat. I tell everyone goodbye, and go on my way. I work with Robert.
"Hey, Max." He says, and put his hand up for a high five.
"Hey." I greet him. Finally someone who didn't know I was pregnant, and wouldn't question me on how I feel.
'What's up?" He asks.
"Nothing. What about you?"
"Same. How's the family?"
"They're great."
"Tell, Tyler we need to hang out sometime." He turns his attention to a customer. Fang still uses Tyler as his social name because he thinks that name is more normal than 'Fang'. He actually uses it because people think he's gothic, and with that name it only raises the bar.
Fang POV
Here I am. At work around back crying my eyes out. The strong and fearless Fang, who never shows his emotions, I'm losing it. I couldn't be like this in front of Max. I had to be strong for her. Now, I'm alone, and no one was watching me. I heard someone call my name, I look up, and wipe my shirt over my eyes.
"Tyler!" The voice calls again. I stand up, and walks right past them. I go sit at my desk. I look at the pictures that are there. One of Max and Fig when he turned 3. A group picture. And one of Max and I holding Fig after he was born.
"That's some family you got. Very good looking." John says from behind me. I turn around to look at my boss.
"Thanks." I say, and my voice totally gives it away that I'm upset. Steve was right, when I first met him he told me that if we lost that baby our lives would be turned upside down. Granted he was talking about Fig, but same concept.
"What's bothering you?"
"It's nothing."
"No, tell me." There's a moment of silence. He sits on the corner of the desk.
"My wife had a miscarriage." I compose myself before I lose it again. I put my hand over my mouth, and wipe the corners of it.
"I'm sorry. Are you ok?" He asks.
"Fine. Just need to do some work to get my mind off of it."
"Ok. If you need something, you know where I am." He leaves. Hours pass. I finally go home, and everyone is asleep, so I join them.