The next morning, Sebastian woke up with a killer headache. He pulled his pillow over his head. How did he get home? He closed his eyes trying to remember. It was all a blur. He remembered being at the bar. Kurt. Kurt must have walked him home. He remembered being pissed off. Oh god, Patrick was here.. But then Santana helped him get undressed. Patrick didn't stay. The thought made him feel a little better. But he knew he had to apologize to Santana. He got up and pulled on some pajama pants before walking out into the hall. His eyebrows knit together as he heard a familiar sound.. His eyes went wide. Anger filled him as he imagined Patrick in Santana's room. He remembered that he left. Or maybe he didn't.. Sebastian let his emotions take over as he burst into Santana's room, Santana was on the bed, naked, save for Sebastian's hoodie, with her legs spread wide as she arched off of her bed, in the middle of her orgasm. Her hand moved quickly as she fucked herself with the toy Sebastian bought her. "Fuuuck!" She cried, obviously not hearing him come in.
Sebastian froze at the sight. He knew he should leave but she looked so hot. Unwillingly, Sebastian turned around, accidentally slamming her door behind him.
Santana let out a loud cry at the noise, quickly sitting up. "Ohmygod!" She panted heavily.
Sebastian leaned against the wall. He couldn't believe what he just saw.
"Sebastian?!" Santana called out. Sebastian wasn't about to let her know what he saw so he quickly just walked to the kitchen. He put his head down as he started to make coffee.
Santana came out a bit later in shorts and an oversized t-shirt. "Morning.." She said quietly.
"Morning.." Sebastian said, rubbing his head.
"Want me to make you some eggs?.." She asked, looking up at him.
"Umm.. Uh, sure." Sebastian said. "Hey.. About last night.. I'm sorry."
"It's fine. I owed you one." She smiled at him and Sebastian felt the breath get knocked out of him. She looked so gorgeous. Her long black hair in messy waves around her face. He felt she never looked more perfect than in this moment.
"What?..Is there toothpaste on my face?.." She asked, wiping her mouth.
"No.. It's.. It's nothing." He said as he looked down to hide his slight blush. Santana nodded, walking to the fridge to start on his food. Sebastian couldn't help but watch her when she wasn't looking. She could feel Sebastian's eyes on her as she cooked, but she tried to concentrate. She brought him his plate after a while and had to fight the reflex to lean down and kiss his temple.
"Thank you, San." Sebastian said as he took the plate.
"Don't mention it.." She smiled, pouring herself a cup of coffee. "So.. Patrick is an asshole."
"Yeah. I could have told you that." Sebastian said seriously. "I mean, I can be a dick. But that fucker.. He's something else."
"Oh yeah. I mean, he was pissed because I wouldn't fuck him last night." She sighed, sitting across from him.
"That's why he never gets passed the first few dates. Why didn't you want to be with him?" Sebastian asked carefully.
"Well.. We kissed. I just didn't feel anything.." She shrugged. "I think I'm just done with guys.."
Sebastian just nodded his head slowly.
"Just.. Other guys are dumb.." She said, pouring sugar into her coffee.
"Yeah.." Sebastian said, trying not to show any emotion. "What about jasmine?"
"I'm attracted to her.. I just. Don't have any romantic feelings towards her.." Santana said, looking up at him.
"Makes sense." Sebastian nodded.
"I just. Don't think I should date.. Other people.. I just don't think I want that.." She said, looking up at him.
"What do you want?" Sebastian asked.
"To take time to figure myself out."
"Do you need me to stick to myself? Or just be normal like before everything?"
Santana looked up at him. "I don't need you to do anything you don't want to do.."
"What? You're confusing me."
Santana sighed deeply. "I don't want you to think this is going happen overnight. I might date other girls. I probably won't. But if I do, it's my business. You can date other guys. That's none of my business. But. You know how I feel about you. I just need...I need time. And I need space. I need to forgive you.."
Sebastian nodded. "I understand."
She let out a deep breath. "Good.."
"Well.. I'm going to go for a run.."
"Okay.." Santana said, standing and grabbing his empty plate for him.
Sebastian sighed before going to get ready. How long was this going to last? Would she ever forgive him? He just had to be patient.
Over the next week Santana mostly kept to herself. One night while Sebastian was reading, she knocked lightly on his door.
"Come in.." Sebastian said softly.
Santana walked in and smiled. "Dear god Smythe.. Shave much?.."
"I'm trying something new. I told you I would." Sebastian grinned.
Santana giggled as she looked at him. He had a good bit of stubble going and he was looking a bit shaggy. "At least get a haircut.."
"I might." Sebastian shrugged. "What's up?"
"Nothing.. I was just bored.. And I um. I have a dance recital tomorrow night. If you want to come."
Sebastian nodded. "I'd love to. I love watching you dance."
"It's like.. Boring ballet stuff. You don't have to." She said quickly.
"I'll go." Sebastian said softly.
Santana smiled. "Okay.. Dress up. And clean up."
"Will do." Sebastian chuckled. "Are Kurt and Blaine going?"
She nodded. "We're going to the piano bar after. Blaine wants to sing."
"Okay. I'll try to find them so I have someone to sit with." Sebastian said.
Santana nodded again, walking over to the bed and rubbing over his jaw. "Oh god. " She giggled, grimacing.
"What?"
"It's all rough. Guys love it though, right?" She giggled.
"Some do. It's kind of like when you get stubbly before getting another wax. I don't mind it."
Santana nodded, letting her hand linger before pulling away. "Want some lunch?.."
"Sure."
"I'll make your favorite." She smiled.
"Pretty much everything you make is my favorite." Sebastian laughed.
Santana grinned. "Well I'll make your favorite, favorite."
"Can I watch? I might actually learn something.."
"Sure." Santana said happily, standing. Sebastian set his book down and followed her. Santana walked into the kitchen and started on making Sebastian a steak sandwich. "This isn't that hard."
"I know. But yours always turns out better."
"Because I make them with love." She teased, sticking her tongue out at him.
"Whatever." Sebastian smiled. Santana grinned. This was so easy. Flirting and joking with him.
"Santana.. Can I ask you something?"
"Sure."
"Can I take you to dinner Friday? It doesn't have to be a date or anything." Sebastian said quickly.
"Where to?.." She asked, looking up.
"Whatever you're in the mood for.."
Santana nodded. "Okay. That sounds good."
"Cool." Sebastian said with a smile. Santana leaned against him a bit as he watched her cook.
"How is cheer?" He asked casually. He missed things like this. When they could just be close.
"Good. We haven't been doing much but coming up with new routines.."
"I bet they're amazing."
"You always say that."
"Well, you're good at what you do." Sebastian said seriously.
"And you're good at.. Law." She giggled.
"I have to be."
"Whatever. You're good at what you do too."
"I know." Sebastian smiled.
Santana plated up Sebastian's sandwich and handed it to him. "For you.."
"Thank you." Sebastian grinned as he sat down.
"No problem."
Sebastian moaned loudly as he took a bite. "So good.."
Santana bit her lip. "I'm glad.."
Sebastian smiled as he ate.
The night of Santana's dance rehearsal approached quickly and Sebastian rode with Kurt and Blaine to the concert hall.
"How have you two been?" Kurt asked.
"Okay I guess.." Sebastian sighed.
"What's going on?" Blaine asked, turning to look at Sebastian.
"We're friends." Sebastian said softly. "I don't know if she even wants to be with me anymore."
"Give her time. She will let you know." Kurt said. "But she has to feel that she can trust you with her heart again."
"I know. But it's nice, you know? Just hanging out with her like we used to."
Blaine nodded. "I'm sure she likes it too. I mean, she invited you tonight. She must have wanted you here."
Sebastian nodded. "As a supportive friend."
"For now at least." Kurt said. "It'll be okay."
"Hey. And don't forget what you told me you saw." Blaine grinned. "It'll happen again."
"Oh my god.." Sebastian giggled.
"What'd he see?" Kurt asked.
"Santana was in his hoodie and masturbating." Blaine laughed.
"Oh my god.." Kurt groaned.
"She had to have been thinking about you. I'm surprised you actually left the room." Blaine said.
"Me too." Sebastian laughed.
Blaine just laughed as they pulled into the parking lot.
Sebastian got out, straightening his tie and sighing. "Do I look okay?"
"You look great. I don't know about the face hair." Kurt teased.
"I'm trying something different." Sebastian said. At this point it was starting to kind of look like a beard. "At least I got a haircut."
"True. It doesn't look that bad. I just like giving you a hard time." Kurt smiled.
"Santana hates it. I'll shave when we get back together." He grinned.
"I would." Blaine chuckled as they walked inside and found their seats. Sebastian looked at the program and saw Santana was last. He couldn't help but smile proudly.
"You should see yourself." Kurt smiled as he shook his head.
"What?" Sebastian asked.
"You're so in love, you'd think it's worse than Blaine and I."
"Whatever.." Sebastian scoffed, looking up as the lights dimmed.
Blaine took Kurt's hand as the show started. The dancers were very talented. Sebastian was very impressed with them. They watched the other performers as they waited for Santana.
When Santana came out, Sebastian gasped. She was in a beautiful black body suit with black rhinestones and a black tutu. Black lace went down her arms and her eyes were a smoky black with a few rhinestones across her face. He watched as she moved her body perfectly to the music. The way her body glided across the stage was magical. He felt like she was the only one in the room as she spun. Santana did her twirls and spins so well. She was so amazing. He couldn't wait to see her teach kids when she graduated.
At the end, she took her bow and Sebastian didn't even realize he had tears in his eyes as he stood, applauding her. He was the last one to sit as the show came to an end.
"That was amazing." Blaine smiled.
"She was." Sebastian nodded as he wiped his eyes quickly.
Kurt smiled, squeezing his shoulder. "Let's go meet her backstage."
Sebastian nodded as he followed them. They went back and Saw Santana picking the rhinestones off of her face. "Hey!" She smiled.
"You were so good!" Blaine grinned as he ran over to hug her.
Santana stood, hugging him tightly. "Thank you.."
"San.. You were so.. Perfect.." Sebastian said in awe.
Santana blushed, "Really? I was so nervous.."
Sebastian nodded. "That was literally perfect. I like the outfit too.."
Santana giggled. "Thank you.. I just need to change and let my hair down. Then we can go."
"Okay. We'll wait here." Kurt smiled.
Santana walked off before returning in some white heels and a medium length black dress, her hair in dark waves behind her. "You guys look amazing.. Especially you Kurt.. If Blaine wasn't here."
"Still not interested." Kurt laughed. "But thank you. Are you guys ready?"
"Yeah." She grinned, linking arms with Kurt.
"Well.. It was great seeing you dance, San. Have fun tonight.." Sebastian said softly before turning the other way.
"Wait, Sebastian.. You don't want to come with us?" Santana said quickly.
"I didn't know if you wanted me to.."
"Of course I want you to." She smiled, holding her hand out. Sebastian couldn't help but smile as he took her hand. Santana blushed lightly, hoping Sebastian wouldn't notice as they walked to the bar.
Sebastian bought the first round of drinks and made a toast to Santana. Santana shrugged humbly before they drank. After a few drinks they were all feeling pretty good and Santana was leaning against Sebastian, touching his arms and shoulder as she spoke to him.
"Are you singing tonight?" Sebastian asked.
"Maybe.. Are you?.." She giggled, looking up at him.
"Yeah." Sebastian smiled. "I love it.."
Santana smiled back, sipping her drink. "Then I will too.."
"You want to dance?" Sebastian asked.
Santana nodded, setting her drink down. Sebastian carefully placed his hands on her sides just above her hips. Santana let him lead her out on the floor a bit more before she wrapped her arms around his neck and rocked her body slowly.
"You really were great tonight." Sebastian said over the music.
"Thank you. It means a lot coming from you."
"Why me?"
"Because you're my best friend, stupid." She giggled.
"Doesn't mean I know anything about dance." Sebastian laughed. This felt good.
"Still. Your opinion means a lot to me." She said, placing her hands on his chest.
"I'm glad I could help." He said softly. Santana smiled as a slow song came on and she leaned against him, closing her eyes. Sebastian held her close as they swayed.
Blaine smiled at his boyfriend. "It won't be long.."
"As long as he keeps doing what he's been doing." Kurt agreed. "I can't believe he thought she didn't want him."
"I can't either." Blaine sighed.
"Promise me you'll never ask for a threesome." Kurt giggled.
"Those days are behind me." Blaine chuckled.
"Good. All I need is you." Kurt grinned, pulling him close.
Blaine leaned up, kissing him softly. "Although... There is this hot blonde girl at the bar." He teased.
"Whatever, Anderson." Kurt laughed. Blaine smiled, kissing him again.
"Do you think Kurt and Blaine ever fight?" Sebastian asked.
"No. They're like so perfect it's actually annoying." Santana sighed, giggling.
"That's so true.."
Santana sighed as the slow song ended and she pulled back again. "You wanna sing first?" She smiled.
"Yeah." Sebastian said before biting his lip. Santana nodded, squeezing his hand before smiling and walking back to the table.
Sebastian made his way to the stage and sat at the piano that was up there. "My name is Sebastian. This is one of my favorites.." He said softly before starting to sing.
"When I see your smile Tears roll down my face I can't replace And now that I'm strong I have figured out How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven.."
Santana watched and listened carefully. Sebastian was so amazing.
"When I see your smile Tears roll down my face I can't replace And now that I'm strong I have figured out How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven
It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. Seasons are changing And waves are crashing And stars are falling all for us Days grow longer and nights grow shorter I can show you I'll be the one
I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven.."
Sebastian looked up and focused on Santana.
"Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart Please don't throw that away Cuz I'm here for you Please don't walk away and Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah
Use me as you will Pull my strings just for a thrill And I know I'll be okay Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven.."
Santana fought tears as she and the bar clapped as he finished. Sebastian thanked the crowd before heading to his friends.
"That was beautiful." Santana smiled.
"Thank you. I'm really glad you liked it."
Santana nodded before finishing her drink. A while later she stepped up to the mic and introduced herself before starting to sing.
"See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while I'm with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while I'm with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
Baby I don't know why ya treatin me so bad
You said you love me, no one above me
And I was all you had
And though my heart is eating for ya
I can't stop crying
I don't know how I allow you to treat me this way and still I stay.."
Sebastian sighed as he listened. Her voice was so beautiful.
"See, when I get the strength to leave
You always tell me that you need me
And I'm weak cause I believe you
And I'm mad because I love you
So I stop and think that maybe
You can learn to appreciate me
Then it all remains the same that
You ain't never gonna change."
Santana closed her eyes as she sang before looking to Sebastian.
"See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
Baby why you hurt me leave me and desert me
Boy I gave you all my heart
And all you do is tear it up
Looking out my window
Knowing that I should go
Even when I pack my bags
This something always hold me back.."
Sebastian's heart sank. He thought things were getting better. But now he felt like he was fighting a lost cause.
The crowd applauded as Santana returned to the table. "I say shots!" She said quickly.
"I second that." Sebastian said as he turned to the bar. They all ordered a few rounds of shots and soon enough even Kurt was drunk. Sebastian was quiet the rest of the night. Santana grabbed Sebastian's hand as they took a cab home. Sebastian gave a small smile that didn't quite reach his eyes. Santana thought to ask if he was okay, but decided to wait until they were alone.
When they got to the apartment, Sebastian paid the cab and led the way up the stairs.
"Are you okay?.." She asked quietly, trying to hide her slur.
"Yeah.." Sebastian nodded.
"Don't lie to me." She said as he opened the door.
"I just.." Sebastian sighed deeply. "I don't want to overstep any boundaries. I'm trying to respect that you need space. And I'm afraid if I tell you what I'm feeling then it'll ruin everything."
Santana looked down. "I haven't dated anyone for a reason."
Sebastian turned to face her. "Really?.."
Santana sighed as she pulled her hair up in a ponytail. "Yeah. You wanna help me get to bed?" She asked quickly, nearly tripping over her heels but Sebastian held her up.
Sebastian chuckled lightly. "Yeah. I can do that."
Santana nodded as Sebastian led her to her bedroom. He helped her change into pajamas and pulled the covers over her. Sebastian kissed her forehead. "Thanks for inviting me. You were amazing.."
"I'm really happy you came.." Santana whispered.
"Me too." Sebastian said with a small smile.
"Do you want to lay with me?.." She asked, her eyes closed.
Sebastian nodded. "I'm going to change. I'll be right back."
Santana yawned, curling up to her pillow. Sebastian quickly changed before climbing into Santana's bed. Santana let Sebastian wrap her arms around her before pushing back a bit. Sebastian couldn't help but smile. Maybe they could work out.