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Cat POV

I could feel my heart racing in my chest. Where did that come from? Jade and I haven't been… since… I gulped. I looked up and blushed at Carter. I had fallen asleep on his shoulder. Carter had fallen asleep too. His warm strong arm was wrapped around me. He was so sweet. I giggled to myself then I remembered the dream. That was so long ago… when Jade and I would do it. I don't remember how it started… It just was. I was her kitty, she was my mistress… she did whatever she wanted to me and in return she protected me, cared for me, and loved me.

Not to say that Jade wasn't Jade. She had her violent tendencies, her hurtful words, and a cold heart. But I saw a side of her no one else did. Because after all the torment, the words, and abuse. She would hold me tight, pet me, and tell me she loved me. It made me feel so important to her.

She never told Beck she loved him nearly as much as she told me. And I was with her for the longest. We've known each other for years. That's why when Jade was dating him, she'd still call me her kitty, still do things to me that hurt me a little, but she would make up for it in the love she showed me. But that's a secret I promised to carry to the grave, or Jade would make that trip faster for me…

I looked up at Carter. Maybe it was because I'm here. That day… that night… when I came home from Carter's when I was over to do homework, only to get grabbed by Jade before I could get to the door. She did it to me harder than ever before that night. She wanted to mark me as hers, remind me that I'm hers, maybe even… remind herself that I was hers…

This place, it made me think of it, dream of it. That time when Jade would keep me as close as she did Beck. Even closer. But now she has Tori, or at least she's trying to have her. I hope they do work out. I want them both to be happy, but I miss my friend. I tilted my head at the thought.

"Mmmm…" Carter yawned and looked down at me. A blush spread on his face, "How long was I out? I'm sorry, Cat."

"It's okay, I just woke up," I smiled wide up at him trying to shake theses thoughts. "I think we both just needed a little nap to refresh ourselves."

Carter smiled and nodded, "Sounds about right."

Jade POV

I jumped awake. I looked around Tori's room in sheer shock. My heart was pounding so hard in my chest I could feel it all through my body. I remember that day so clearly now. Why was I remembering that day so clearly now! NOW! Of all times. I could feel cold sweat trickling down me. It felt unnatural.

I put my face in my hands. I had promised myself that I would never think about that time again. When I would hurt Cat like that. Put her through sick mind games to get my kicks. I do have a heart, surprisingly as it seems, but then I was darker then I am now. I would toy with anything I could get my hands on. That's why so many students fear me. They know what could be coming if they offend me.

I shook. That image, of me petting Cat, holding her in my arms after I just used her. I shook again. Cat always bounced back. No matter how hard I pushed her down, hurt her, abused her, used her, she'd bounce back as happy, perky , and Cat like as ever.

It was a game then. But I should have known how wrong it was. Especially to do that to her behind Beck's back. The truth was… I enjoyed torturing Cat more than I did being with Beck. It was sick. I know.

But I'm a messed up person.

I had pushed this out of my mind long ago. I never thought about it again. Once a long time ago, I had gone overboard. I had her all to myself all weekend long. She was alone in my house all weekend. No contact to the outside. I had told Beck I was getting dragged to my Dad's business trip, and Cat had lied about being with another of her friends for three different sleepovers in a row. When she had walked in the door, I stripped her. took her phone and turned her into an animal in my eyes and treated her even worse.

Believe me. I regret this now.

I fisted the sheets and tried to force the thoughts from my mind. Cat and I were fine now. We'd made up. I had promised never to harm her like that again; I'd just bully her like I do to everyone else. We stayed friends, best friends, because Cat forgave all I did to her and still loved me…

I heaved a deep breath. It's over West, why drag this up now? What could possibly make me think of that. I'm with Tori, and I'm happy. I don't want to do that kind of thing to her… I want a relationship. Don't I?

"Jade?" Tori rubbed her eyes and sat up. She wrapped her arm around me, "You're sweating? Are you alright? Did you have a nightmare?" Her eyes widened with concern.

"I'm fine. Bad dream," I laid back down rolling onto my other side facing Tori. Tori laid down facing me. She slipped her hands in mine.

"Okay," she squeezed them and kissed my nose, "We have practice tomorrow so if you have any more bad dreams, remember I'm here for you."

What a sappy thing to say. I thought smugly then chuckled. Tori raised her eyebrow at me. I chuckled more, "Don't worry, your sappiness will help."

Tori blushed, "Shut up…" she whined.

I looked at the ceiling and tried to space out or even drift off.

Something kept nagging at me. About the dream. Something my mind wanted to tell me, warn me? Was it telling me not to be like that to Tori? I already know I'm not going to be like that. If I even had the slightest desire to put her through that inhumane degree of humiliation and pain I wouldn't be here trying to win her heart.

What am I missing?

"Jade?" Tori nuzzled into my neck.

"Yes?" I tried to play it off and nuzzled her back.

"Your eyebrows are all furrowed," she stroked them for effect. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing."

"It's that dream, tell me please," she whined squeezing my hand.

"I'm fine Tori-" I started

"No you're not. You're bothered by this. Tell meeeee!" She interjected and whined more.

"No." I folded my arms across my chest.

"Yes!" She shouted already exasperated with me.

"No." I stated and narrowed my eyes into hers.

"Yessss!" she grabbed and shook my shoulders.

"Noooo…" I mocked her and pushed her arms away.

"Tell me please!" She begged. "Jade!"

"Tori!" I groaned back.

"Alright fine…" I rolled over and bit my lip.

"Yes!" Tori grinned wide.

"I'll tell you…"

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