Author's Note: What's up, my peeps? Yeah, I'm gansta. Not. Anyway, thank you for reviewing! I love you! Thank for reading if you did! If you didn't, I can't say anything, because you won't see this AN! And now for shameless self-promoting: I wrote a one-shot called It's All His Fault. It's a Tragedy and you should really go read it! Yay!

Disclaimer: I don't own Big Time Rush.

Kendall didn't sleep for the rest of the night. He lay awake, staring at the ceiling. His dream had been try. Carlos hadn't said anything, but Kendall could see it in his eyes. He didn't know what to do. Sure, they'd been times where one of them was depressed, but never suicidal. Suicide was something they heard about on TV and thought, I wouldn't give in to that. I'm better than that.

Kendall shivered. He'd seen something else in Carlos' eyes. Something darker. Kind of like anger. Maybe regret? He hadn't been sure. And Carlos hadn't opened his mouth at all. He hadn't even tried to comfort Kendall when he'd started crying. It was as if Kendall hadn't been upset, as if he hadn't been sobbing on Carlos' bed.

Kendall was scared. He was scared and he didn't want to give into it, but was finding it harder and harder. If Carlos was capable of attempting to kill himself and still felt the same way, who was to say that he wouldn't try again and succeed? If that woman hadn't found Carlos…

The door opened and Kendall turned to the door to see Katie and his mom walking in. He looked at the clock. It was later than he'd thought it been.

"Hi, Kendall!" Katie said brightly.

"Ready to go home?" Mrs. Knight asked him. Kendall nodded and smiled. He was pretending for his mom and Katie's sake. They didn't need to know the details.

"What's wrong, honey?" Mrs. Knight saw through it. "You look like you didn't sleep well."

"Just had a bad dream," Kendall shrugged like it was no big deal.

"Logan and James are here, too," Katie hopped onto Kendall's bed. "They just went to go see Carlos. They said they'll meet us down there."

Kendall nodded. He wondered if Carlos would even acknowledge him after what had happened during the night. He wasn't sure he even wanted to see Carlos, in case he lost it again.

It took an hour for the doctor to release Kendall, but soon, he was walking down the hallway with his mom and Katie to Carlos' room. Kendall knew that he would only be coming back here to visit Carlos if he could help it. He didn't want to get stuck in the hospital again.

They reached Carlos' room and went inside. Carlos looked up, but refused to meet Kendall's eyes. Logan and James smiled at them, glad to see Kendall on his feet and not in a wheelchair.

"Hi," Kendall waved.

"Hi!" Logan said, smiling. James grinned. Carlos just nodded, looking down at the bed. Kendall sat down next to James, willing Carlos to look at him. He wished Carlos would just admit what was going on. Then they would make sure he got the help he needed, and Carlos wouldn't feel bad anymore. Kendall wished he could tell Carlos this telepathically. He didn't want to say it in front of Katie and Mrs. Knight.

Logan and James looked at him curiously. He shrugged in response to their questioning looks. He had no intention to tell them about the dream. He didn't want to tell them that Carlos had attempted suicide, but he figured this was a very important piece of information that they deserved to know. He needed to tell them. He would need their help with Carlos.

Carlos seemed oblivious to Kendall, but he did interact with James, Logan, and Katie (Mrs. Knight didn't stay in the room long, so there wasn't any way for him to interact with her). Though Carlos still didn't say anything to them, he nodded and gestured to them, allowing them to understand him. Kendall stayed quiet, but watched Carlos carefully for any sign of wanting to talk to him. There wasn't any. Kendall wondered briefly if Carlos was angry with him, but then he shook it off. Carlos didn't seem to be angry.

If only he knew how wrong he was.

Author's Note: Okay, so I wrote most of this last night and some if it this morning, so if it seems a little...jumpy, I'm really sorry. And this was a filler chapter, so yeah...don't kill me.

And now, I need for you to go to my profile page. By the time this is posted, I should have a poll up about what the heck I should do with my stories. I'm really confused. Oh, but if I do finish this and do a sequel and a Kendall story, I actually thought of an idea! So, that should put some confidence in everyone's head...although that depends on what you think of the idea. Here, I'll put a little summary.

Kendall's biological father left before Kendall was born. He's always wondered what his real father was like. He never expected it to be like this.

It'll be Hurt/Comfort and there will be plenty of angst and pain-infliction. Ha ha...anyway, I know this had been done to death, but I have an idea to take it into a different direction. So if you like it, please vote on my poll. Or, you could tell me what you think in your review. If you're still reading this, I would really like to give you a cookie. Sorry...