A/N: Here's the update. I don't have much to say besides, I hope you enjoy this update. Thanks for all the reviews. Thanks for reading. Enjoy the update.

It was roughly two weeks after Spencer decided to finally deal with her problems instead of masking her pain with pills. It was her first day back in school...since what seemed forever. She hadn't talked to anyone from school since the entire world found out she was gay and Ashley Davies was her girlfriend. She didn't know what her cheerleading squad was going to say, let alone do to her. She was still contemplating quitting, but she figured might as well stick with it since she's been doing it forever.

Spencer tried to shake out all her insecurities about coming back to school. She had butterflies in her stomach as if it was her first day at kindergarten. Spencer turned up the music as she drove to school. She looked over at Ashley and smiled. It seemed as if Ashley made everything better. Looking at her almost made her loose the butterfly feeling in her stomach...almost.

"You should have let me drive today," Ashley said as she turned down the music.

"Why? Am I driving badly?" Spencer started to get a little self conscious about her driving.

Ashley laughed, "No, but you're going about like ten miles an hour. Are you trying to delay the time or what?"

Spencer looked down and glanced at the speedometer "Oh, I didn't realize I was going that slow. I guess my foot just knows how badly I want to turn around and not go to school. I don't know how bad it's going to be...people are probably talking about me. I mean I'm used to people talking about me, but not this kind of gossip."

Ashley reached over and took the back of her hand and gentle touched Spencer's face. "It's going to be fine, I'm sure of it. What's a little meaningless gossip going to do us? You got passed the rough part...you're parents. So if you can deal with them, I'm sure you can deal with a bunch of stupid high schoolers."

"You're right. You're completely right." Spencer tried to believe what Ashley said, but she couldn't. Ashley doesn't care because she wasn't the most popular girl in the school, head cheerleader, and school council president. God, I just wish the whole world didn't have to find out. Maybe they will not mention anything and just feel bad about the whole kidnapping thing.

"I know I'm right."

Spencer parked the car and looked up at the building. Today the building looked surprisingly large. The building was swallowing Spencer whole, she was so not looking forward to school like she used to.

"Deep breaths Spencer, deep breaths. Today is going to go by faster then you know it."

Spencer looked over at Ashley, "I hope you're right."

Spencer got out of the car and slammed it shut. She already felt eyes looking at her. Even if people weren't looking at her, she felt as if they were. They were right on time for school, thanks to Spencer's slow driving. She didn't want to arrive extra early and have more awkward stares. The bell rang and Spencer was happy she didn't have to stick around and talk to anyone.

"Hey, I'll see you at lunch, later." Spencer shouted to Ashley as they parted ways.

"Yup, see ya at lunch!!" Ashley shouted back.

Spencer slowly walked to her class. I can just hop back into my car and head out. No one will notice...maybe they will understand. No Spencer, come on. This isn't who you are. You are a hot, confident girl, now show it damnit. Spencer sucked it up and headed to class. She was trying to change her way of thinking around and go into class happy about it.

Spencer whipped open the door to her class and the rest of the students were already sitting in their desks. She felt every eye look into her direction. She felt every eye give her an empathic look and some gave her a disgusted look. She wanted to turn invisible at every look she received, but she decided to embrace the attention like she used to.

She sat down next to Brittany and Amber. "Hey guys, what's up?"

Brittany and Amber were her so-called best friends and cheer squad buddies. Her so-called best friends hadn't called her since they found out she was gay. They called her once they found out she was kidnapped, but once they saw the news, they hadn't bothered to call her.

"Why are you talking to us?" Brittany snapped.

Amber slapped Brittany's hand, "Be nice."

"Guys, I'm still the same friend you had all throughout junior high and high school. So chill. I'm still your squad captain--"

Spencer was interrupted by the teacher, "Spencer Carlin. I know this is your first back in classes after a long leave of absence, so I take it you can't remember that we are supposed to be silent while I am talking?"

Spencer rolled her eyes, "Sorry Mr. Dublin."

"But by all means, if you're conversation is so much more important, why don't you join the rest of the class in on it." The rest of the class turned their heads and stared at Spencer.

"No thanks, I'm good."

"I thought you'd say that. Now, don't mind if I start teaching again? Okay..." The teacher trailed off into his lecture and Spencer just glared at him the entire time. I've always hated this teacher and I couldn't remember why until now. The bell finally rang and Spencer was relieved to get out of that class.

Amber caught up with Spencer after class, "Hey, sorry about Brittany. You know how she can be sometimes. Sorry for being such a bad friend and not calling you. So, how have you been? How are you holding up?"

Spencer always knew Amber was the better friend. She was always so understanding and meaningful. "Thanks, I needed to hear that. But I am doing well thanks for asking. Today's been a little rough already, but I think I'll make it."

Amber smiled and playfully hit Spencer on the arm, "Puh-lease, we have been through a lot worse together. Getting dirty looks isn't the first time we have gotten them and it won't be the last. So are you still going to be cheering with us? 'Cause I remember you were thinking about quitting a while back." The bell rang and both girls rolled their eyes, "Hey I'll walk you to class as we finish talking." Amber grabbed the rest of the books out of her locker and walked Spencer to her class.

"Thanks. Well, yeah I figured why quit cheerleading when I have done it so long, ya know? So hopefully the rest of the girls on the squad don't hate me or don't look at me differently now that they know I'm gay. But oh well, we will see at practice tonight, right?"

"I'll have a talk with them, but I'm sure they are all understanding...hopefully. If not, you have Brittany and me to stand by your side. Well, here's your class, I'll talk to you at lunch, right?"

"Yes, I'll see you at lunch." Spencer smiled and hugged Amber good-bye. Oh shit, I told Ashley I would have lunch with her. I don't know if they will like her at my table. I've had boys sit at the table with me, when I was dating them so Ashley's no different, right? I hope so. But I know how unwelcoming my group of friends are, if I can even call them my friends. Amber seems like she's still a good friend. God, when is this class going to be over.

Spencer felt the person behind her tapping her on her shoulder. She slowly turned around, "yeah?" She annoyingly asked. The guy snapped her out of a good day dream.

"I uh was wondering if you had a pen I could borrow?" The guy asked her. He seemed to be new because he didn't look familiar to her.

"Yeah sure." Spencer dug through her purse and found a spare pen, "here you go."

"Thanks. I'm Jack, by the way. Are you new? I haven't seen you since I got here. I moved here like two weeks ago."

Spencer smiled, "How cute. Nope, I've just been uhh absent for a while. But I've lived here all my life."

"I haven't really met anyone yet. Maybe you can show me around town?" Jack smiled at Spencer.

"Yeah sure, I'd love to." Shit, did I just agree to that? Damnit, not like I can take it back now. Spencer was used to openly flirting with guys and making conversation. She accidentally accepted his offer. Well, it's not like it is a date or anything. He just wants to get acquainted with the town and make friends.

The bell rang and Spencer was saved by it. It stopped the conversation from going farther. "I'll see ya later bye." Spencer shouted to Jack as she walked out of the class.

She went to a couple more classes then she ended up at lunch. She saw Ashley sitting at a table waiting for her. Ashley spotted her and waved her down. "Hey Ash."

"Hey...so how has your day been so far?" Ashley threw a grape in her mouth after she talked.

"Uh, interesting so say the least. Hey, Amber wanted me to sit at lunch with them; did you want to sit over there?"

Ashley looked back at the table and looked back at Spencer. "Seriously?"

"Yeah, she asked. So I figured I would humor her and ask if you actually wanted to go over there." Spencer tilted her head as she asked. She was still standing by the table and had yet to sit down next to Ashley.

"I'd rather not, but if you want to go have lunch with them. Go ahead; I don't want to stop you."

Spencer touched Ashley's hair and ran her hand through it, "I'd rather have lunch with my girlfriend." Spencer sat down next to Ashley.

Ashley smiled, "Great. Now, let me tell you what happened today."

Spencer grabbed a handful of Ashley's grapes and ate them, "what happened?"

"My dad--" Ashley was cut off by Amber plopping down at their table.

"Spencer! I thought you were going to sit by us today. Plus, we have this amazingly gorgeous guy talking about you and asking about you! He's new and he just moved in--oh right, I forgot. You're not into guys anymore."

Spencer gave a half-smile she wasn't sure what to say. "Yeah, must be weird for you huh?" Spencer said sarcastically. "This is my girlfriend Ashley."

Amber smiled, "Hi, I'm Amber...sorry about that whole pushing you in the fountain thing, that happened ages ago."

Ashley rolled her eyes, "Yes that was so nice of you guys. But, thanks for the apology. Better late then never, right? Isn't that what they say?"

"Well, I'll sit over here with you guys today, if you don't mind."

"No, not at all." Spencer said. She was happy she was talking to her old friends. Because lately the only person it has been, was Ashley. Ashley was great, don't get me wrong...but it's nice talking to my old friends I have known forever. I miss the old me.

"So what I was trying to tell you was that my dad called me today and left a voice mail saying that he was tired of sitting at home all the time and not living on the road... so he decided to pack a bag and head out to L.A for the week. He said he's going to play with a friend's band for the week." Ashley laughed.

"Are you alright? Oh my god, your dad just packed up and left?" Amber chimed in before Spencer could say anything. Spencer set her hand on Ashley's thigh and caressed it for comfort.

"Yeah, it's no biggie. He said he'll come back in a week. I understand and I'm kind of glad. He's been annoying at the house all these months. Frankly, I'm impressed he lasted this long. He was taking up unusual hobbies, playing golf, being Mr. Fix-it around the house. So, I think a week away will be good for him. He's been going crazy around the house." Ashley turned and looked at Spencer and smiled. She grabbed a hold of Spencer's hand under the table and held it tight.

Amber shook her head, "I see. Well that's awesome. A week at home by yourself? Party at Ashley's?" Amber menacingly grinned.

"No, no, no. No parties. I am not cleaning up that mess." Ashley shook her head and refused to clean up after a bunch of stupid drunk kids.

"Well, hey. If I get the rest of the squad to clean up the morning after mess...come on party at Ashley's?"

Ashley realized she was never going to back down, "All right, all right. I will think about it."

Amber got extremely excited and started clapping.

"I said I'd think about it... it's not a yes yet." Ashley laughed at how excited she was.

The bell rang and everyone was off to the rest of their classes. "Walk you to your class?" Ashley asked Spencer.

Spencer smiled, "I'd love that." Spencer and Ashley walked hand and hand as they walked down the hall.

"Want to come over later? I have the house to myself..." Ashley hinted around.

Spencer smiled and blushed, "Why, Ashley...I'd love to. We can head there after school. Here's my class. Meet me by my car once school's over, kay?"

"Okay." Ashley leaned in and kissed Spencer on the lips. "Bye."

Ashley walked off and Spencer walked into her classroom.

Spencer thought about going over to Ashley's house after school. She wasn't sure if she was ready to have sex with Ashley yet. She just started getting over her paranoid feelings about Matt always being there. She just started to kiss Ashley again without having the horrible flashback to...him. She was starting to get over it, but it was slow. She so badly wanted to have sex with Ashley, but she didn't know if her mind was ready for it. Her mind played tricks on her and she wasn't sure if her mind was going to do it again. She felt as if she was ready to at least try.

Spencer kept thinking about it, but she was interrupted by a tap again. She slowly turned around and smiled, "You want another pen?"

Jack grinned at Spencer, "I just wanted to see your gorgeous face."

Spencer smiled, she loved getting compliments. She shook her head and turned back around.

He leaned in and whispered in Spencer's ear, "You were supposed to respond... hey Jack I like to look at your sexy face too." He quietly giggled.

Spencer rolled her eyes and turned around, "You wish." She was used to flirting and playing hard to get. It came out naturally. I hope I'm not leading this guy on or anything. I hope Ash wouldn't be mad at me for flirting with this guy. Shameless flirting went on throughout class and it helped pass the time. Before they knew it the bell rang and it was time for them to leave.

"Hey, you want to hang out after school?" Jack asked as he grabbed Spencer's books off her desk. "I'll carry these for you to your next class."

Spencer tried to grab her books back, "You really don't have to."

"Oh, but I do and I want to. Are you dodging my question? Do you want to hang out after school? Get some ice cream?" He asked as they playfully fought over who was going to carry her books. Spencer finally gave in and let him carry the books.

"I can't. I have cheerleading practice then I have to go to my girlfriend's house."

"Girlfriend? As in friend, right?"

"Yeah as in friend." For some reason Spencer didn't want to tell him she was gay. He was the only person who didn't know in the school and she wanted to keep it that way. She felt it was the way it used to be. He was the only person who didn't look at her differently. Spencer really liked that about him.

Jack and Spencer bumped into Ashley on the way to their next class. "Hey Spence?" Ashley said with a confused look. She saw that the guy standing next to Spencer was carrying her books.

"Uh thanks Jack, I'll take my books back. I'll catch up with you later." Spencer took her books back from him and he walked away.

"Who was that?" Ashley asked with a tone.

"Just this new kid in my class. He insisted on carrying my books... but I forgot I have cheerleading practice after school, so do you mind waiting an hour by my car? I'll give you the keys you can take it for an hour." Spencer smiled and reached into her pocket for her keys.

"I'll just wait in your car. An hour is nothing, if I'm waiting for you." Ashley took the keys out of Spencer's hands and they parted ways.

School was over and Ashley sat in Spencer's car and waited for her. Spencer came storming out of the gym and headed to the car early.

Spencer got in the door and slammed it shut.

"What's wrong? Practice end early?" Ashley sat up in her seat and looked at Spencer.

"They kicked me off the fucking team. Whatever. I'm over it. They will take it back." Spencer turned on the car and headed out of the school parking lot.

"Are you sure you're okay? Want to talk about it?" Ashley didn't take her eyes of Spencer.

"I'm sure, whatever. I'm sure they will come around, because they will totally suck with out me. So, whatever. I'm ready to go over to your house and relax." Spencer sighed and turned up the music. She sang her heart out on the way back to Ashley's. Ashley didn't say a word and let her get out her frustrations on the music.

"Ready to come in?" Ashley said as they sat in the driveway.

Spencer turned off the engine, "I'm so ready."

Spencer and Ashley were soon lying on her bed together. Spencer and Ashley's tongues were clashing against one another. Spencer gently bit Ashley's lip and Ashley giggled. Ashley let out, "oh how I've missed this." Ashley pushed Spencer off her and put her on her back. Ashley started to unbutton Spencer's jeans. Ashley kissed Spencer's stomach slowly and made eye contact with Spencer. She was waiting for Spencer to reassure her that it was okay to keep going. Spencer smiled and nodded at Ashley. She didn't want her to stop. Every touch, every feel, felt amazing.

Ashley unzipped Spencer's jeans and slowly pulled them down. Spencer started to get Matt flashbacks once Ashley's warm hand touched her bare thigh. Spencer learned to force them away, but it wasn't budging this time. Spencer closed her eyes and wished it go away. Wished her moment of bliss wouldn't go away. Ashley started to slide down Spencer's underwear when Spencer started to kick. "Stop, stop. I can't. I'm sorry. It's too soon." Spencer quickly sat up on the bed.

Ashley smiled and threw on her shirt, "It's okay Spencer. I'll wait forever, for you."

Spencer smiled and wasn't sure if this horrible thoughts were ever going to go away. She hoped and they have slowly, but why do they keep occurring? Spencer still felt unsafe. Even though Matt was behind bars awaiting trial, she felt that he could still escape. She knew she couldn't rest easy, until he was fully put behind bars or dead.