Something I Can't Have
By InuYashaBaby1
I don't own Twilight or any of its many characters. But I do own the character Kristi!!! Oh and Meghan; I own her 2! I don't pretend to know anything medical, either.
AN: Heyy. I just wanna say, I really appreciate you troopers out there. At least I know there is two of you. Readers? Are you out there? Oh, and although after months of planning one ending, I had a sudden burst of inspiration and changed the ending. Yay..?
Jake: Kimi, don't start this again.
Kimi: XP
Rose: Don't you say Exp to him!
Everyone: . . .
Kimi: On with the chapter!
Chapter 21
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Jake POV
"THIS WAY!" I cried out, running down the dank corridors. Emmett pulled ahead, Bella following closely behind. Smoke flooded through a doorway, and I was appalled to see a mangled corpse burning in pieces. I heard a scream, and I started to push faster, my breath heaving and heaving with the burden of keeping up with the Cullens. Kristi's smell filled my nostrils, we were getting closer. We turned the last corridor, to see Jane, left armless, standing smugly. She saw us coming, and, kicked Kristi's head into the wall. While distracted, Edward (who, just seconds before appeared down for the count)tackled her and a metallic ripping sound filled the air.
"KRISTI!" I screamed, running full speed at her limp body. Her eyes were dizzy, awake yet unaware completely. A red fluid filled her already flaming hair.
"Don't move her," Carlisle commanded.
I knelt quickly beside Kristi, grabbing her hand.
"Jake?" She questioned, looking around.
"Yeah, baby, I'm here, I'm here. You're okay." I told her, running my hand over her soft face, which was drenched with something wet, possibly tears.
"We didn't break the curse, Jake." She licked her chapped lips. Her face was pale, and the skin hung loosely, as if all muscle in her face had gone.
"We did, we did." I nodded, feeling my own tears slide my face.
"Jacob, she's losing blood!" Edward yelled at me. "We have to go, now!"
"Kristi, come on, we have to move you, okay?"
"Jacob," Alice looked me seriously in the eye. "There's another way."
"Another...?" I paused, thinking briefly at what she meant. Turning Kristi into a bloodsucker, is what she meant.
"No there's not." I hissed at her. Kristi wrapped her arms around my neck, and kissed me, her lips frantic and rushed. She pulled away.
"Be happy." She mumbled before she fell backward. I put my hand at her neck, there was still a weak pulse.
"We have to get her to a hospital." Bella demanded. I nodded, and Edward grabbed Kristi.
"I'll meet you guys there." I blinked, and he was gone. I quickly phased, and chased after him, feeling the lick of the fire at my heals. The whole building was in flames, and it appeared to melt to the ground. I just kept running. I was not too far behind the Cullens, but I was far enough to feel behind. I took I shortcut around and ended up beside Edward. He glanced at me, and we just kept running.
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"Hello?"Edward called as we walked into the ER (In case you're worrying about my clothes, I had borrowed a pair of jeans and tee from Emmett) "We have a patient here!"
"You're going to have to wait," The receptionist said before looking up. She was a little old lady, too old, and her little glasses shook off her face. "Doctor!" A tall doctor (this guy was taller than me!) with long silver hair tied back in a pony tail stood before us. He grabbed gurney, and placed Kristi on it. He shouted medical orders back and forth. He pushed me back when I tried to follow him. "Sir," his voice was clear English, but with a hint of Japanese accent, "You're going to have to wait here."
"She's pregnant." I said quietly. The doctor looked at me, and I noticed a red smear across his lips. Lipstick, maybe? Kristi's blood? I shuddered.
"We'll take that into account." He nodded, placing a hand on my shoulder. He raced away with the gurney.
"I'll we can do is wait." Rose said from behind me. She was right, all we could do was wait.
So I waited. I watched at least 4 re-runs of 'That 70's Show', that weren't in order. It seemed odd, the rest of the waiting room was empty in comparison to this large 'Cullen' cluster in the back corner. The ER door slid open, and a pale, thin Jackie walked in. I hadn't seen her in the longest time. Her face had thinned out, and her green eyes had lost their luster. Her brown hair was unkept and pulled back. She saw me, and ran over.
"You jerk." She hissed, and slapped me dead across the face. "Everything's backwards. You've made it that way. Everything was just fine until you came along." She started crying, her lower lip trembling.
"I didn't mean to hurt anyone." I looked directly at her. "Would you like to sit and wait with us?" She looked around and saw all the Cullen's.
"Look's like you brought the whole gang," She motioned the clump of friendly, cold, faces (oxi-moron, I know)
"We all love Kristi." Edward confirmed.
The tall doctor came out, his face sad.
"She's in a coma, and there's so little brain activity, it won't be long until she's brain dead." He ran his hand through his long, unnatural hair.
Brain dead? I couldn't breathe.
"We're keeping her alive on machines, we checked, and the babies are surprisingly okay. If you'd like, we could keep her on the machines, feed her, and the babies should grow and be fine. When the babies are to term, we'll perform a c-section, and you'll still have two healthy children." The doctor bit his lip, searching for approval.
"Yeah," I choked out. "Yeah, okay."
I fell back upon the uncomfortable chair behind me, and closed my eyes.
Flashback(3rd person)
"You're sooooo wrong!" Kristi pointed her slim finger at Jake. "I'm telling you, it's Monday."
"Are you kidding? More suicides take place on Friday." Jake protested.
"No, you're wrong, baby." She intently listened to the TV game show in front of them.
"Let's repeat the question," The old celebrity has-been wash up asked the contestant. "What day has the highest suicide rate?"
"Monday?" The portly woman answered questionably.
"YOU'RE CORRECT!" The asker smiled, and the woman jumped, to Jake's dismay, up and down.
"Ah, god." Jake whined. "I'm such a loser."
"You're not a loser," Kristi protested, kissing him sweetly. "because I love you."
"That makes me even more of a loser." Jake complained jokingly.
End Flashback
"Jake?" Bella asked.
"Huh?" I said, looking up at her blankly.
"The doctor said you can go in and see her." I stood up, moving quietly so Jackie didn't wake.
I walked down the quiet hallway, it was long and the constant hustle and bustle of a hospital seemed blurred compared to my need to see Kristi. I walked into the hospital room. It was wide, open with a cool breeze fluttering through an open window. I walked through a curtain, and there she was. Hooked up to a respirator, hand glued to an iv needle, cuts all over her were bandaged.
"Hey," I whispered.
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"Uh, well, I saw Jackie." I said to her, taking her hand in mine.
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"This is so hard,"
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" 'Cuz I know you can't answer me, but I want you to."
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"I love you, so, so much. I really do, and I know I didn't exactly say it enough."
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"I really do love you." I watched her chest rise and fall with the motions of the respirator.
"Jake?" Edward called from behind me. I turned to face him.
"Yeah?"
"We're taking Jackie home so she can get some rest, but she'd like to say hi to Kristi first." I nodded at Edward's words. I stood up, and kissed Kristi's hands. I passed Jackie, her shoulder bumping my arm. I walked towards the bathroom and stared at the mirror.
I had aged, even more. There were deep circles under my eyes, and the eyes themselves had lost their flare. My cheeks were covered in black soot. Jackie was right, everything was topsy turvey.
How could things had gone so wrong, so quickly? It seemed that just yesterday, just yesterday, I had seen her face for the first time.
What a rush that was, seeing her, it was like the whole world was revolving around her and me, it hurt not being near her, not just running up and grabbing her. If the whole earth broke around us, we'd be okay. Just dandy, because we had each other. Well, the world was crashing now. Not around us, between us. Life just sucks. It S-U-C-K-S!
Now I was all alone.
She isn't dead yet, a slim part of my brain pleaded.
She's pretty damn close, I snapped at it.
I was alone, and the world was crumbling. It wasn't okay, it wasn't dandy. Kristi was going to die. It was a certainty. The only things keeping her alive were machines. I could only watch her in her distorted sleep.
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Kristi POV
It was so bright. There was white all around.
"Kristi." A voice I recognized pulled me towards it. It was bouncy, and cheery. A voice I missed desperately.
"Bethie?" I said, astonished. I turned to see her, she was more beautiful than ever. Her hair was pulled back and curled, her smile curled along her bright teeth. She didn't have her glasses, and her eyes glittered. Her great form was complimented by a pair of white pants and a white tee shirt.
"Do you know where you are?" She asked.
"No." I shook my head. "But I'm guessing it's not good."
"You have a good instinct." Her smile faded.
"Am I dead?" I asked plainly.
"No, but you're close." She bit her lip. "I've come to take you away."
"Away where?"
"Let's not get into a religious debate here," She smiled, but I found no humor.
"I have so much I want to ask you."
"Fire," She tucked some hair behind her ear.
"Why didn't you tell us about Pete?"
She didn't answer.
"Can you not tell me?"
"I'm not sure why I didn't tell you," she looked me dead in the eye. "I should have."
"What about the baby?" I asked her, directing my finger to her stomach. She lit up.
"A healthy little girl, thank you for asking. She's really cute, I've been told she looks like me."
"So how did that go?" I walked toward her.
"Well, we were two different people. So she went away, then I did."
"So she's like really tiny?"
"Yup."
"Huh." I looked at my own stomach.
"Don't worry about them."
I looked at her, and she looked at me.
"They're fine; you're dead but they're fine. The doctors are using your body like a giant life support machine." She assured me.
I let out a breath of air.
"You're not dead yet, though." She added. "You just can't use your body at all. You can hear all you want, you can talk with me all you want. You can't see though, because your eyes are shut."
Jake's voice echoed in like a giant intercom.
Hey. His voice said.
"Hey, good looking." I joked, Bethie giggled.
Uh, well, I saw Jackie.
"Yeesh, I hope she didn't hurt you." I licked my lips and turned to Bethie.
"She slapped him." My deceased friend confirmed.
`This is so hard.
"I wish I could be there with you." I started to cry, and I wanted to touch his perfect face.
'Cuz I know you can't answer me, but I want you to,
"I want to answer you, I am answering you. You just can't hear me."
I love you, so, so much. I really do, and I know I didn't exactly say it enough.
"You said it plenty, Jake."
I really do love you
"As I do you. I love you so much."
End Chapter 21
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AN: ... Sorry, now you're going to hate me forever, huh?