Vampire Seductress
Disclaimer: Characters taken from Stephanie Meyer's Twilight© and used in this fanfiction do not belong to me.
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Chapter Recap......
"Bella…….." I whispered and pulled her closer very slowly. She didn't pull away and I could feel her small shaking breaths. I stroked her face from her temple to chin and then lifted her chin up to my face. I moved forward and pressed my lips to hers very lightly. I felt the heat flow through me quickly before I relished in her soft lips and how I'd missed them. But before I could think, she had pulled away and was pressed against the wall. She was breathing hard as she looked at me. She was shaking her head at me and her eyes were bright. "I…….I……" She breathed, stuttering slightly. I didn't try and move toward her as she stared at me. She shut her eyes, trying to gain control of her voice.
"I can't……do this Edward. Goodnight." She said quickly and then rushed into her room and shut the door. I stood there for a minute and then turned away from the door and went downstairs.
A/N: Hello one and all. So this chapter, one of my readers has been waiting for it because she came up with the idea for it.Sorry for the issues from last chapter, don't know what the heck happened. Anyway this chapter is dedicated to *mamato* she was the one who wrote almost all of Bella's questions and the whole idea was hers, so thank her for it. Thanks to everyone who reviewed and everything that happens, is for a reason, so please don't be worried. There's no cliffy so you'll be glad about that and of course you're sneak peek awaits after you review. *kisses* XOXO Teddybeargurl
Chapter 26: The Cup Runneth Over
BPOV
I ran into my room, shaken. I leaned against the door, and took a deep breath. I slid to the floor and ended up sitting there. I ran my hands through my hair in frustration. What the hell just happened? How did I end up kissing Edward just now? That had not been my plan when I'd woken up to check on Lizzy.
Part of the reason I was so shaken, was because Edward had kissed me, but the other part was because all I had wanted to do while he was kissing me was pull him into my room and have my way with him. I couldn't be feeling this way with him, but when he'd kissed me all my old feelings for him had resurfaced. I sighed, I really needed to sort out my frazzled emotions .
I got up, shut my light off and climbed into bed. I wrapped my arms and the blanket around myself tightly. I shut my eyes trying to contain myself when I heard my door open. I opened my eyes to see Edward standing there. He looked sad but he shut the door behind him and moved over to me. For one second I thought about it and then I jumped out of the bed and pulled him to me. I pressed my lips to his and I heard his intake of breath right before he ravaged my lips with his own. This wasn't anything like our previous kisses, it was passionate and rough and Edward pushed me onto the bed as his lips converged over mine erotically. His mouth was open and I slipped my tongue in quickly, taking control of the kiss and wrapping my arms around his neck as I felt his hard body pressing me into the mattress.
He let go of my bruised lips so that he could nibble his way down my chin and across my neck. One of his hands was roughly pulling my nightgown up. He moved himself closer to me, forcing my legs wider. I could feel how aroused he was, and it was making me anxious for him. I tried to press myself closer as he dragged my nightgown above my waist. I heard a quick snap and my panties fell off, the strap severed. I heard him take a ragged breath as he pulled off his pants swiftly and then in one fluid motion, entered me.
I moaned out loudly at the feel of him and I shut my eyes tightly relishing in the long thrusts. I took a deep breath and searched for his lips, but when I opened my eyes, it was very bright in my room and Edward was not in my arms, making love to me. I blinked and saw the lights of the day shining through the window. It had all been a dream…..crap, I thought.
I sat up and looked around. I listened and heard the quiet breaths of Edward and Elizabeth in their room, and Esme humming downstairs. I glanced at the clock and saw that it was after ten, the others had gone to school. I fell back onto my pillows in a huff. I lay there for a long time, wondering what I'd do today. I figured I'd practice some of my dancing alone for a while.
I got up and went into the bathroom. I took a shower and got dressed. I put on the simple track pants and the large striped sweater that Alice had left for me. I checked my hair and tied it into a high ponytail and pinned back my bangs.
I went into Edward and Elizabeth's room and looked in on them. They looked like angels sleeping in their cribs like that and I didn't want to disturb them, so I left after a few minutes and went downstairs. I walked into the kitchen and Esme smiled up at me.
"Good morning Bella." She said. I smiled back and watched as she picked up a paper with writing on it and put it into a folder she's pulled from the cupboard. I frowned.
"Esme what are you doing?" I asked as she put the folder back in the cupboard.
"Oh, Emmett keeps leaving all of his recipes lying around so I keep them organized in this folder." She said as she went into the fridge and pulled out a plate covered in cling-wrap. She unwrapped it.
"Emmett left this for your breakfast. He said I should heat it up for you when you woke up." Esme said as she slipped the plate into the microwave. I smiled and shook my head. Oh Emmett, I thought.
"I should thank him when I see him. He's always pampering me with his amazing food." I said as Esme took out the plate and put it front of me. She smiled.
"Oh Bella, it's always so lovely to have you in the house, especially now that the twins are around. I love them so much." Esme said. I smiled up at her.
"I enjoy it too Esme." I smiled lightly and sighed a little before I went back to my food. I could feel her eyes on me, even though I wasn't looking at her.
"Not as much as you could, and Edward keeps you away sometimes." She thought. I glanced up at her and sighed.
"Oh Esme, you forget that Edward's ability is now one that I possess." I said. She looked into my eyes.
"I'm sorry to even think it Bella, but I know that it is the truth."Esme said, I sighed.
"That's not always the reason……" I stated, but she shook her head.
"But it is the reason as to why you hesitate to come over or stay over." She said. I couldn't deny that, as I played with my food.
"Can you blame me? Sometimes it hurts too much to see him…" I whispered. Esme sighed and came over to where I sat. She wrapped her arm around my shoulder and looked in my eyes.
"Oh Bella, if you only knew the full extent of Edward's love for you. It is quite real and he is so desperate to be with you. I wish you'd let him show you that." Esme said. I stared at her for a moment and then went back to my breakfast. I sat there in silence, eating it and running Esme's words over in my head. She moved away and left a little bit later and went into the living room. I cleaned up after myself and went to use the computer. I sat there, doing absentminded things on it for a long time before I decided I wanted to go home to see if my university application forms had come in the mail yet.
I went into the living room where Esme was sitting on the couch reading a book. I looked down at her and she looked up from her book.
"Esme I'm going to go home and get my mail and then I'll be back. The twins are asleep upstairs." I said. Esme nodded.
"Take you're time Bella." She said with a smile. I grabbed my keys and my jacket and went out to my car. I hadn't realized, until now, it had snowed the night before as I drove down to the house quickly and parked. I got out of the car and stepped toward the mailbox and opened it. There were four large envelopes in it. I looked at them and noticed the different university emblems on the top right hand corner of the envelopes. I smiled and then looked at the driveway. I made a mental note to shovel later and then went into the house. I wanted to get some simple clothes to practice my dancing in. I quickly went upstairs to grab a few things. I got some of my easier dancing outfits and changed into them at vampire speed. That's when I heard a knock on the door.
I froze for a millisecond before I went downstairs and opened it. I looked in shock at Adam. He was standing there with pink cheeks and a beanie hat on. I smiled at him and then realized how cold it was, so I let him in. He smiled and I shook my head at him.
"Are you following me?" I asked sarcastically as he took off his hat. He laughed and shook his head.
"Actually no, I was driving to get some groceries and I saw you at your front door getting the mail. It was just a coincidence." He said. I stared at him and looked in his thoughts. He was telling the truth. He looked at me, and then smiled.
"Were you dancing?" He asked after a quick glance at my clothing. I looked down at my leggings and loose short black peasant dress. I smiled up at him.
"I was just about to start actually.,,,,,um do you want to practice with me?" I asked as I looked at him. He nodded and then looked at his own turtleneck and jeans.
"I'm not really dressed, but give me five minutes. I don't live far from here, so I can go home, change and come back." He said. I blinked in surprise.
"You live in Forks?" I asked. He nodded. "For now. I rent a place a couple of blocks away from here." He said with a grin. I smiled and nodded.
"Okay go home and change and I can get the living room ready." I said. He nodded and went out the front door and back to his car. I quickly shut the door and went into the living room. I went over and moved the couches and the recliner to the side of the room. I then pushed the TV to the corner so that there was a large space, big enough to use for dancing. I flicked on the light, so that he could see better and made sure everything was in order. Then I went and got my phone. I dialed the Cullen's home number and Esme picked up.
"Esme." I said.
"Bella, is something the matter?" She asked.
"Oh no Esme, I was just going to tell you that I am going to stay at home and practice my dancing for a little bit. I know the twins are sleeping, so I don't want to disturb them with my dancing. We're still not sure how sensitive their hearing is. I'll only be an hour." I said.
"Oh don't worry Bella. Come back whenever you're finished." She said and I smiled.
"Thank you Esme. Bye." I heard her say goodbye and then I hung up. I heard the knock on the door. I grabbed my ballet shoes and answered it. Adam came back in quickly and I took his jacket and hung it up as he took off his boots. He had a small boom box with him as I led him into the living room where we would practice. He set it down and looked at me. He put on his ballet shoes as I did.
"So where do you want to start in the routine?" He asked.
"The beginning." I said. He nodded and pressed play and came to stand behind me in the beginning pose. The music started and we began to move. My memory of the routine was flawless now, so I made sure to do each move correctly. My technique still wasn't what it was before I got pregnant but it was very good. Finally we stopped and Adam went over and stopped the music. He came back to me.
"Okay, there's a few lifts in the dance that I can show you now, if your comfortable with that." He said. I grinned.
"Yes, let's practice some lifts." I said. He came to face me and then put his hands on my shoulders and turned me around. He put his hands on my waist and I put my hands on top of his.
"Alright, start in a cabriole and then go into an arabesque. I'll lift you up and then down slowly during the arabesque. Alright, on three. One….two….three." He said and I did the simple movements and felt myself lifted off the ground. It was quite exhilarating to be lifted and this was always one of my favorite things about ballet. When he put me down and let go, I spun in the circle of his arms and ended up standing face to face with him. He smiled and I put my hands on my hips and grinned.
"Easy. Let's do another one." I said. He shook his head and rolled his eyes. We did a few more lifts which grew in difficulty as we progressed. I did them and then afterward, we did the whole routine again, incorporating the lifts. During one of our breaks, my stomach grumbled and I looked at the clock. We'd been working for almost three hours. Adam smiled at me and stopped the music.
"Hungry eh?" He asked with a smirk. I smirked back.
"Ha ha." I said sarcastically. He raised and eyebrow and I sighed. "But if you must know yes." I said. He smiled and thought for a moment.
"We could order something." He said suggestively. I squinted at him.
"Order something?" I echoed. He smiled.
"It's just eating together after practice. If you want we can order Chinese." Adam said as he slipped off his ballet shoes. I frowned at him.
"Chinese? There's a Chinese place in Forks?" I asked. He nodded.
"Yea and they're really good. The owner told me, that they only opened up last summer." I stared at Adam and thought. I had always like Chinese food when I had been living with my mom, so I guessed it was worth a try.
"Okay, fine. Order the food." I said. Adam smiled largely and then got out his cell phone. He called quickly and in thirty-five minutes, a large order of Chinese food was delivered to my door. I couldn't believe how much food he'd gotten and he brought it into the living room and put it on the carpet.
"You know I do have a kitchen with a table that we could eat at." I said as he began to open the bags and take out the cartons of food.
"I know, but I want to eat here. Now come join me." He said. I shrugged and sat down with him to eat. He had ordered every kind of food they had. There were chicken balls, spring rolls, egg rolls, fried rice, string beans, noodles and all types of flavored chicken and steamed vegetables. For a while, we ate in silence before Adam said anything.
"It's quiet." He said. I looked at him, understanding the subtle meaning in his words.
"They're not here, they're with their grandparents and their father." I said with out any hesitation. He nodded.
"So….you live here by yourself? Well…..here with just you and your kids?" He asked. I nodded. "It's not for a specific reason, but my mom travels a lot and…..my dad passed away last year, so I'm here alone." I said with a twinge of pain. I saw Adam's face look pained.
"I'm sorry." He said. I nodded and smiled lightly.
"Thanks." I said and then we ate in silence again. Finally when we were full, I packed up the leftovers and then handed them to him. He shook his head but I forced them into his hands.
"I have like tons of food here, plus I have a friend who always cooks for me, so take it. You said you had no groceries." I said. He thought about that for a moment and then nodded. I walked with him to the front door as he put on his boots and I gave him his jacket.
"So this was fun. I'm glad that I actually have a student who is so good and picks up choreography so fast." He said. I grinned at him and crossed my arms.
"Hey, who are you calling a student? I was schooling you today." I said jokingly. He laughed lightly.
"Yeah that's true." He said. I opened the door and felt the cold breeze of the late afternoon blow in.
"Do you want to practice again tomorrow?" He asked. I nodded. I liked dancing, it gave me a semblance of normalcy.
"Okay great. Do you want me to come over tomorrow at the same time?" He asked.
"Yeah that would be good. Like tomorrow at 1." I said. He nodded and then took my hand really lightly and squeezed it. That surprised me, because no one had ever done that to me as a goodbye before. He smiled at me.
"Bye Bella." I smiled back as he went to his car and I watched him go. I stood there for a moment, thinking about Adam and that's when I made up my mind about him. I quickly went into the living room and put everything back. Then I put on my boots and jacket and went outside to shovel.
EPOV
The school day as always was boring. Part of me was sad to know that once this year was over, we would be moving onto something else, but I didn't really care where I went, as long as Bella was there with me.
At the end of the day, as we drove home in the Volvo, Alice gasped. I glanced at her for a second, not looking into her mind. She had told me she didn't want me doing that anymore. I waited as her vision played out and then she focused back into the car. She didn't say anything as Jasper stared at her, so I guessed it was either about Bella, or it was something unimportant.
When we got to the house, I totally forgot about Alice and went to find Bella to talk to her about the night before. I went up to her room and knocked lightly. I waited, but I didn't hear anything, so I opened the door and looked in. The room was empty and I frowned. Had she gone home?
I then went to the twins' nursery and looked in. They were in there, playing with some toys in their cribs, with Esme looking over them. I smiled at Esme as I peeked in.
"Esme do you know where Bella is? I want to talk to her." I said.
"She went home to get her mail and to practice her dancing." She said. I nodded.
"Daddy come play with us." Lizzy said. I smiled at her.
"I'm looking for mommy honey." I said to her.
"Bring momma with you, when you find her." Eddie said. I nodded.
"Okay. I'll be back." I said. I left the room and went downstairs. I went out the front door and ran through the forest, quickly going over the snow, barely leaving footprints. I reached Bella's house and saw that she was shoveling. She was also talking on her phone, as I could see. I could hear her voice as she spoke.
"Of course you did." She said as she rolled her eyes. I saw her listen to the person on the other line and smiled.
"Obviously when I made up my mind about that, things such as kissing would be involved." She said. I gasped and Bella looked up at where I stood in the trees. She pursed her lips before she spoke again.
"Alice I'll see you in a few, I'm almost done shoveling and I just got a visitor. Yes, we'll talk when I get there. Bye." She said as she snapped her phone shut. She slipped it into her pocket and then looked at me, as she finished the last of her shoveling. I stepped out of the trees and went over to where she stood.
"Hi Edward." She said as she moved up the driveway with the shovel. I moved into step beside her.
"Hi. I wanted to talk to you about…..last night." I said. She went into the house and put the shovel into the closet.
"Okay, so talk." She said as she turned to me. I took a deep breath and caught an unfamiliar scent swirling around. Bella raised an eyebrow at my hesitation. I frowned and lost my train of thought for a moment. She sighed and turned toward the kitchen. I shook my head slightly and then spoke.
"Bella, last night when we kissed, I thought it meant that we would try again." I said. She stopped at the table and picked up her keys. She turned back to me slowly and looked in my eyes. Those deep brown eyes stared at me for a moment, before she spoke.
"It was just a kiss Edward. It didn't mean anything." She said to me. I frowned.
"I don't think that's true. I know you felt something." I said. She walked past me.
"How do you know that?" She asked as she went to the front door. I grabbed her arm and stopped her.
"Bella I know you care at least a little." I said. She turned and looked at me.
"I do care, but not the way you want me to. That kiss was a mistake. It was just us echoing things from the past." She said. I shook my head as I stared at her. I could see she was struggling with her words.
"You don't believe that it was a mistake. I know you don't." I said as I moved her against the door and blocked her in, my arms pressing against it, trapping her. She turned her face so that she didn't have to look at me. I waited and she still hadn't looked at me, so I slid my fingers under her chin and brought her eyes up to mine.
"It wasn't." I whispered.
"It was to me." She whispered back. I sighed and stepped back and she walked out of the house. She went to the car and turned back to me.
"I'm going to get the twins. Do you want a ride home?" She asked. I shook my head and shut her door. I moved past her in the snow and walked to the forest. I needed to go somewhere to think and be alone. I needed to go to the meadow.
BPOV
The next two weeks flew by before my eyes. I continued to practice with Adam, now that I knew when the showcase night was. I had barely spoken to Edward in that time. It seemed he was always so angry and every discussion we had, would turn into an argument. By now I had totally stopped going over to the house and only had the twins going over there.
By this time, Adam and I were becoming quite close. We were laughing and joking around more and had grown much more comfortable around each other. He was very sweet and I felt good when I was around him. It seemed like our relationship was growing more and more, but we hadn't done anything more then just hold hands and hug.
As I walked him to the door after one of our practices, I smiled at him as he stood in front of the door.
"Tomorrow then?" He asked easily. I nodded and he pulled me into a hug. I sunk into his arms for a moment as he held me and then he pulled back. I sighed because I had wanted him to kiss me, but as he began to turn, I realized if things were going to happen, I had to set them in motion.
"Adam?" I said. He stopped and looked at me.
"Yeah?" He asked, and I grabbed him and swung him into the wall. I trapped him there with my body and then kissed him. I hadn't kissed anybody other then Edward in so long, and the fact that Adam's lips were so warm made it nice. I felt his lips move underneath mine and kiss me back softly. He wrapped his arms around my waist and then spun me into the wall. He held me there, but also pulled me close. His lips began to grow in intensity and I giggled as we pulled apart.
"Well, if that's what you wanted why didn't you say so?" He asked with a grin. I smiled and tucked a strand of his hair behind his ear.
"I thought I'd set things in motion." I said slyly. He smiled and then kissed me again before he pulled back completely. He held onto my waist as he grabbed my light jacket and I slipped on my flats. He held me close as he helped me put my jacket on. He took my hand and we walked outside together, hand in hand. Since it was now March, it was much warmer.
We walked to where his car was parked and he leaned against it facing me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and looked into those blue-grey eyes.
"God you're eyes are beautiful. I swear in the light, there's like gold flecks in them." He said to me. I laughed.
"You've got pretty eyes too." I whispered as I leaned in.
"Thanks." He whispered right before our lips met. It was sweet and soft and I pressed myself against him. I tried not to squeeze my arms too tightly as I ferreted my fingers through his hair and caressed the back of his neck. In the background, I could hear a faint growling sound, but I paid no attention to it. I pulled back and smiled.
"Tomorrow." I said as I pecked his lips and then let go. He smiled and then kissed my forehead.
"Yes tomorrow." He said as he moved away and then got into his car. I waved at him as he drove off and I sighed. As I turned, I heard the growl again. I rolled my eyes knowing who it was now, and really not caring. I walked up the driveway and got to the door just in time to hear Alice and Rosalie's voices.
"Cool it Edward, God." Rosalie said.
"Yeah I saw what you were about to do, not a good idea. Now go home, Esme was looking for you anyway." Alice said. I stopped at the front door and turned to see them coming out of the forest waving. I smiled at them, knowing they had come to ask for details on Adam. I went into the house and waited for them. They both hugged me when they got into the house and I went into the living room and sat down on the big sofa. Alice and Rosalie followed and sat around me.
"So, tell us." They both said in unison. I laughed at that and then rolled my eyes.
"We kissed today." I said. Both of them squealed and I laughed at that.
"Okay, so tell us everything about it. Is he a good kisser? Did you guys French? Everything, everything, everything!" Alice said almost jumping out of her seat.
"Well, I kissed him first, because I don't think he knew I wanted to be kissed, but once I did, he kind of took control. I mean I was leaning against the wall and he was holding me there, but pulling me close too. It was just…..amazing. And he kisses so sweetly, real gently but passionately." I bit my lip thinking about it and Alice and Rosalie squealed again.
"Oh my gosh, we're so happy for you. It's been so long since we saw you actually smile without something sad behind it. And you haven' t had that goofy smile on your face in forever." Rosalie said. I smiled and looked at the two of them. I clutched their hands in mine.
"Thank you guys for being so supportive." I said. They both smiled.
"Always." They both said. I rolled my eyes then and stared at them.
"I love how you both came here without my kids." I said sarcastically. They shrugged, and I punched them and stood up to go and get my babies.
March 9
Another blissful week spent with Adam came and went. We seemed to be spending much more time together then we actually were. We were both so good at our routine, that we spent only half the time really dancing, while the other half was spent talking and just being together.
We were sitting on my floor, me leaning against the wall and him lying on the floor with his head in my lap. I was running my hands through his hair lightly and he had his eyes closed as he lay there. I listened to the completely silent house as I knew that the twins were with Edward today, as they always were when Adam was over.
"You're hand feels really good." He whispered as I ran my finger across his hair line and caressed his temples. I smiled as he opened his eyes. It was so easy to be with him, it was strange that I had grown to be so comfortable with someone else so easily.
"So tomorrow is our day off." He said as he sat up and leaned on the wall beside me.
"Is it? Since when?" I asked. He smiled.
"Since I realized that we haven't really gone out on a date before." I sighed and looked down. He took my hand in his and began to caress it.
"Dates are overrated." I said as I looked up at him.
"Why do you think that? Did your ex ruin that for you too?" He asked. I shook my head and bit my lip.
"He didn't ruin it……just turned me off." I said, and Adam squeezed my hand.
"Bella, you say you want to get over him, but restraining yourself from things that remind you of him, mean you're letting him have some kind of control over you. You're holding on to him when you do that." He said. I looked at him in surprise.
"Thanks a lot Dr. Phil ." I said jokingly. He laughed.
"Yeah all that high school psychology really paid off. But anyway this date is not a big thing, it's just dinner and a movie. Cliché and boring. Can you do cliché, just for one night?" He asked. I looked up at him and nodded.
"Sure. Cliché is great. What should I wear?" I asked. He shrugged.
"Since I've only ever seen you in dance wear, I think something casual would be good." He said. I nodded.
"Okay." I said as he put his arm around me and pulled me closer. I lay my head on his shoulder as he caressed mine lightly. We were still holding hands and we sat like that for a while in silence. It was nice to have arms around me and just be able to relax in them without talking. Finally I glanced at the clock and saw that Alice would be here with the twins in five minutes. Adam had to go. I moved out of his arms and stood up. I pulled him up with me and led him to the door. He sighed.
"My kids will be here in a few minutes. But I'm excited about tomorrow." He sighed as he slipped on his shoes and got his things.
"I still can't meet them huh?" He asked. I smiled and stroked his face lightly.
"Not yet." I said. He sighed and then pulled me into a hug and I wrapped my arms around his neck. His arms held me tightly around my waist. I felt him press his face into my hair and take a deep breath. I knew I had that attractive scent of a vampire now, even though it wasn't as strong as a normal vampire's.
I pulled back enough so that I could kiss him. He kissed me gently but passionately, his lips surging over mine. I opened my mouth and he did too, slipping his tongue in and caressing mine sweetly. I pressed myself onto him more urgently and he held me tighter. Finally we needed to take a breath and I pulled away. I smiled at him as he looked into my eyes.
"I'll be here at seven to get you." He said. I nodded before he pecked my lips and then went out the front door. I stood there holding the door, watching him get into his car. I waved, and saw as he pulled out, that the silver Volvo was coming.
I stayed where I was as the car pulled up and I saw that Edward was driving it. Great, I really didn't want to be pushed to hard today, or I was really going to push back.
He stepped out of the car and went to the back seat. I could hear the kids giggling as he opened the door and smiled at them. I went down the front porch and opened the other door to see a giggling Eddie. I unstrapped him.
"Hi momma. You have fun dancing?" He asked as I pulled him out of his seat and shut the car door. I walked with him close to me and I kissed his face.
"Yes, but I missed you and your sister terribly." I said to him. He smiled and I took him inside. Eddie yawned and rubbed his nose. I laughed at him and kissed his forehead.
"I think you should go lie down sleepy head." I said as I went upstairs and took him to his room. Edward followed with Lizzy and put her in her crib as well. I looked at the two of them.
"I don't wanna sleep momma. I wanna stay awake with you and Daddy." Eddie said as he sat up in his crib. Lizzy sat up well.
"Ya." Lizzy said. I smirked at the two of them. I went over to the stereo and pressed play on the CD player. The soft sounds of Clair de Lune began to play.
"Well if you're not going to sleep, at least have some music to keep you guys awake." I said with a grin. I knew that they always fell asleep when they heard this song. I could see Eddie's eyes drooping and Lizzy's head was nodding.
"When you guys wake up, we'll play." I said. They smiled, but slowly lay back. I beckoned Edward forward so that we could leave them to sleep. I went downstairs and walked into the kitchen. I figured that Edward would leave after that, but when I turned around he was standing in the doorway watching me.
"So how was practice?" He asked in an annoyed voice. I glared at him for a moment and didn't say a word. I tried to keep calm, but his thoughts were quite loud and hard to block out.
"They probably didn't even do anything. It's probably just an excuse to be here. He probably just keeps coming here so they can make out, or worse……" At that I turned to him with a growl. He raised an eyebrow at me.
"Look, I'm really not in the mood to hear your horrible words or thoughts. You have no right to come into my house and start suspecting things. You always want to know everything. But I've never once questioned you, even though I've wanted to. So stop." I said coldly. We both stared at each other.
"I didn't say anything other then how was practice. I didn't know that was a crime." He said rudely. I turned to him my temper rising.
"No, but you're thoughts are loud and clear, thank you." I said angrily.
"It's not my fault that you can hear me. I don't hide my thoughts, I don't have the privilege that you have." He said to me cheekily. I scoffed at him.
"Don't even give me that bullshit Edward. You wouldn't be able to handle even one of the questions that I have swirling around in my head, so why don't you go home and wallow about how much you miss me, and save me the bullshit that you'll spout in my ear." I said. His face grew hard and cold and he walked up to me and stood in front of me.
"What questions? Ask them." He said. I tried to control my temper, but his dark eyes were maddeningly smug and I couldn't help myself as an evil smile pulled across my lips.
"Alright Edward. Tell me, how was she? And by she, I mean Tanya. Was she better then me? Better then me in kissing?" He was slowly stepping back away from me. His hard face was slowly crumbling as I stalked toward him.
"Was she better in bed then me? Tell me, how did it feel when you slipped it in Edward?" I said as he fell into a chair at the table. He looked uncomfortable as he sat there.
"Oh nothing to say now? I want answers Edward. You're always telling me that I'm a liar and you can't trust me, but how do you fucking expect me to trust you, when you slept with Tanya? You waited 100 years to lose your virginity to me, and then when things got tough, you run to the first available woman and fuck her? How in the hell do you expect me to understand that? Hmm?" I asked. My temper was flying free now, unleashed. He'd finally pushed me over the edge, my cup had runneth over.
"Bella, I….." He struggled over his words and I laughed.
"You are such an asshole Edward. Always trying to make me feel bad about lying to you about a friend. A friend, that's all Mark is and will ever be, but you could not listen or open your mind to the possibility that maybe I did it because you were too blind and thick headed to see that I was always honest with you. I'm sorry that I wanted a unhappy bit of my past to be reconciled and become a better present and future. I'm sorry that I wanted to be friends with another male who wasn't you." I said, my voice raising in volume.
"So now it's my turn to question and probe. I want to know every detail and moment. Like for instance, how many times did she make you cum?" I asked. His eyes widened in shock and then he shut his eyes. I waited, I wasn't going to read his mind this time, I wanted to hear the words come out of his mouth.
"Bella I don't think that's something we should discuss." He said and I slammed my hand down on the table, making a large crack run across it and causing him to jump.
"Do not tell me that! You want to always know everything. So I know want to know everything. So answer the damn questions. Did she make you cum harder then I did? Did you make her scream out you're name? Did you like it when she did? Did she suck your dick? Did you like that? Did she talk dirty to you Edward?" I said as I whispered into his ear and he shuddered. His hands were shaking. I could see he was starting to get mad as well. Good, I thought.
"Did you talk dirty to her? Did you whisper in ear? What kind of things did you whisper Edward? Things that you whispered into mine? Did you tell her you loved her? Did you whisper those love lies into her ear as well?" I said harshly into his ear and at this he stood up.
"Stop it!" He yelled. I could see that he was angry now. He had been uncomfortable first, but my words had been getting to him.
"No, if you have the balls to fuck her, then you can look me in the eye and tell me what you did with her. I've never lied to you about what I've done. So talk!" I said just as forcefully.
"Fine. You want to know what it felt like. It felt damn good! I can't really compare how good Tanya was to you. I actually was able to let loose instead of always having to be in control because of your puny human self. She made me cum many times and every single time, it felt damn good." I was breathing hard now as I listened to him, as he began to walk around me. I was tense as he circled me, taunting me.
"She was so willing and so sexy and it felt amazing to be inside her. She screamed my name many times, because I made her and she loved it. And if you must know, she did suck my dick and it was great." He said into my ear. I turned around and pushed him into the wall roughly.
"Did I cross your mind even once as you were fucking her?" I said as I forcefully held him to the wall. I knew that tears were starting to form in my eyes. It was mostly because I was angry, but a small part of it was because what he was saying was hurting me. I could see that he saw the tears and he quickly lost all his anger. He gripped my arms and looked me in the eye.
"Of course you did, more then once. That's why I felt so horrible about it afterward." He said, his voice softer now, less gruff. I pushed him away from me, shaking my head.
"That can't possibly be true because if it was it would have stopped you but it didn't. How can I even listen to anything you have to say? You're the liar, because I know if I hadn't been able to hear your thoughts you would have told me nothing. Every single lie I told, could have been forgiven. Lying because you want to hang out with your friend is so insignificant compared to lying because you cheated. That would not, and is not something you can forgive. I know you never would have told me about Tanya if I hadn't found out myself. I know it." I said, blinking the tears away so that my vision was clear. I would be strong, I would not cry. He shook his head imploringly and took a step toward me.
"No, that's-" He started and I interrupted him.
"Don't lie!" I yelled at him. He stared at me sadly.
"Get out." I said and turned my back on him.
"Bella, I'm sorry. Can we just…." I spun around and went over and pushed him hard onto the floor.
"GET OUT!" I said as he looked up at me from the floor. He swallowed and then got up and went through the front door, slamming it behind him. I took a deep breath, trying to gain control of my shaken emotions and then heard stirring upstairs. I sighed and went to check on Eddie and Lizzy, I had probably woken them up.
A/N: I know I know!! Don't be mad, you know the expression the calm after the storm, well this was the storm and the calm is next chapter. Thanx *mamato* again love ya. Just review and tell me what you think. Everything is out there now so there is nothing holding them back from being together....well almost nothing. You'll see next chapter. Don't hate me LOVES XOXO TBG