Notes: Thanks almathea for reviewing
Day 57:
River 1 was not the right one. Disappointing, I really need to get to the city. Big Guy didn't care much for my theory, he thinks they're dead either way but I don't need his blessing. I just need a way in. I have to find out what happened to Helen and the others, I still don't believe that she's dead, even in the very slim chance she is I have to know how.
None of this would be happening if I had just got to go with them, what ever happened to "never leave a man behind?" I should have been there, at the very least I would know what happened. This is what I truly hate, not knowing. I'm not used to not knowing things, it's a very pathetic feeling.