Castiel moaned restfully and stirred opening his eyes to see the hospital ceiling and turned his head to see Anna staring back at him. He blinked startled and looked around for Dean confused.

"Where…where's Dean?" he murmured feeling lightheaded and sore.

"Dean is getting a cup of coffee, Gabriel was here but he had to leave" Anna said taking his hand and squeezing it. "I was right about you being sick weren't I?"

"Yes" he whispered squeezing her hand back.

"I think I'm right about lots of things these days"

"What do you mean?"

Anna shook her head when he closed his eyes and sighed.

Dean re-entered the room with two coffees and handed one over to Anna and caught sight of Castiel awake.

"Oh"

Anna swallowed grabbing the coffee and placing it down. "Toilet"

Dean watched her leave and turned to Castiel who frowned beckoning him over, Dean dropped down in the seat and smiled when Castiel laced their fingers together.

"Has she said anything?"

"No, is she shy?"

"No why?"

"She hasn't spoken a word to me…only yes when I asked her if she wanted a coffee" Dean said with a shrug.

Castiel frowned looking over the now closed doors and back to Dean.

"You're still here?"

"I called the school and said I would wait till the doctor gave the all clear, Martin didn't mind since it's nearly the end of school"

"What? How long have I been asleep?"

"Six long hours" Dean said with a smile.

Castiel gaped and nodded looking up at him through his lashes and smirked when Dean gave him a knowing look.

"You love me" Castiel murmured.

"Shush" Dean said poking him in the arm. "Public place"

"Where everyone is dying?"

"Cas!"

Castiel chuckled and winced at the wound on his head. Dean noticed his pain and frowned in sympathy.

"Want me to get the nurse?"

"I want you to kiss me"

"You are delirious with the drugs" Dean said with a roll of his eyes. Castiel smirked rolling onto his side watching him closely when Dean sat back in his chair.

"Kiss me"

"We're in a very public place with sick people, nurses, and your sister"

"Then draw the curtain…"

"Cas, I ended it for a reason" Dean said in a soft voice. Castiel watched him with hurt eyes and sighed rolling back over.

"Fine"

Dean bit his lip closing his eyes knowing he was hurting and this just added to his pain. Castiel looked over to the woman dying in the bed next to him and was met with cold emotionless grey eyes that frightened him.

"Everyone is born in the world alone and it turns out that you die alone" Castiel murmured and watched as the grey eyes looked away from him. Dean's brow furrowed and he reached over tugging his arm so he faced him.

"Stop being morbid, Cas"

"I'm not" he whispered with a smile leaning forward and pecking his lips before drawing away. Dean looked around startled but no one noticed, Castiel winked and fell back on the pillow softly.

Outside of the door, Anna watched through the glass and swallowed looking away and down the corridor.

"God" she breathed taking a deep breath and walking back into the ward. Dean was sitting back in his chair watching Castiel closely.

"How are you feeling?" Anna questioned standing near the bed.

"Sick and sore"

Dean coughed and stood up pulling out his phone to check the time. "I better be off"

"Thank you" Anna said nodding at him when Castiel looked up at Dean and smiled. Dean met his gaze and tilted his head at him before nodding at Anna and walking out. Anna watched him leave before turning her gaze back towards him.

"I think we need to talk" Anna said circling the bed and sitting down. Castiel watched her and settled into the cushions when she clasped her hands together.

"Whatever you want to say, say it" Castiel said shifting so he was more comfortable.

"Are you going to explain to me why you are secretly seeing your history teacher?" she said startling him and was met with horrified blue eyes.

"What?" he whispered alarmed.

"I'm sorry, but the other week I grabbed your phone by accident mistaking it for my own cause they are similar and I read texts from a person called D. I mean, I thought I was mistaken when Dean introduced himself but I was curious about the interest he held and why he stayed for you but what I just saw confirmed it"

Castiel swallowed hard looking over to the window and back to Anna with realisation in his eyes.

"You saw me kiss him?"

"Yes, I saw you lean over and kiss him. I'm thankful it wasn't the other way around"

"Oh god" Castiel breathed leaning against his cushions. He had hoped to not have this conversation so soon and cursed himself for not putting a lock on his phone.

"Castiel, what is going on?"

Castiel opened his eyes and looked towards her to see no bitterness or hatred in her eyes just open curiosity and fear.

"You wouldn't believe me"

"Try me"

"Fine. I've been secretly seeing my history teacher since October 31st" he said looking over to her and watching as her eyes widened and she sucked in a shocked breath.

"Why?"

"Lust at first, I hated myself for wanting him but I couldn't help it and neither could he. He isn't a pervert, Anna, if that is what you are thinking because I know so many would and if he is with me, he could be with anyone. That's not the case, he tried so hard but I wouldn't cave and it just…happened".

Anna bit her lip leaning back in her chair and sliding her hands together clasping them hard.

"It's not seedy or disgusting because he isn't like that and he's ended it because it was the right thing to do at the time. I fell in love with him"

Anna looked at him and rubbed her lips together not speaking a word.

"Anna, say something!"

Anna smirked and covered her eyes shaking with laughter. Castiel stared at her shocked as she laughed and breathed in looking at him.

"You fool!" Anna said hitting his arm and sitting back giggling.

"What?"

"How old is he?"

"Dean's twenty six, there is a nine year difference between us" Castiel said with a shrug. Anna shook her head and coughed out her laughter before settling down.

"This is so you, you never listened or even obeyed a rule when you were little and you don't now. You threw away the rulebook and you made your own" Anna said amused.

"Why are you not furious?"

"I don't know, maybe that's Gabriel's job" Anna said with a shrug. "So is it really over?"

Castiel shrugged and looked around the ward. "It was over because my friend, Jo, found out and told her mom about us. Dean ended it when her mom told him to so…"

"He could go to prison, Cas"

"I know! Everyone keeps saying that and he won't, I won't let him. I was going to wait till I left school to be with him probably"

"Does he want that?"

"Yes" Castiel said with a nod. "I know he does"

Anna rolled her eyes at him and moved forward. "I'm not mad and I'm not going to threaten you to never see him again because you will anyway but I am telling you to be careful, Cas, this could so wrong for you and even him. I don't want to see you truly hurt"

"Hurt more than this?" Castiel said gesturing at his head.

"Yes" Anna said taking his hand and squeezing it. "I want you to concentrate on your studies and follow through on this future you want instead of throwing away"

"I am building my future, I want to become a doctor, I want to make money, and most of all I want him" Castiel said turning towards her. "I don't care about his age, his job, or even what everyone will think. I love him, Anna, I'm eighteen but I can still tell when someone has took my heart"

Anna sighed kissing his forehead and moving back. "If the whole world comes crashing down on you and everyone hates you…you will always have me"

Castiel looked up at her speechless and nodded slowly wrapping his arms around her neck and hugging her hard.

"Gabriel won't be the same" Anna warned hugging him back.

Castiel chuckled and let go. "Please don't tell him, not yet"

"He will have to know one day" she warned pointing a finger at him. "An older man? I can't believe it"

"I know, but he's so different"

Anna gave him a sidelong glance. "I had a crush on a teacher once when I was fourteen; I seriously liked him and planned out our marriage"

Castiel bit his lip amused when she laughed into her hand. "It must run in the veins"

"It must do"

"I didn't follow through on my little crush though"

"You are not me" Castiel said with a snort and closed his eyes feeling tired. Anna swallowed reaching out and moving away a stray hair on his forehead and didn't feel all comfortable with her little brother dating an older man plus a teacher but it was his decision. Anna had raised him with their father becoming a mother figure and a sister for him rolled into one. She refused to become the one who turned around and forbid him to ever see Dean; she wouldn't see her brother hating her.

Castiel drifted off peacefully thanks to the drugs in his system and felt a sense of peace.

~0~

Castiel woke up that morning and felt more than better when the doctor came to see him.

"I am going to prescribe you with sleeping tablets, Castiel, regular dosage every night and I have entrusted your sister to provide you with regular meals every day. I would also recommend a few days' rest, you don't want this happening again" the doctor said.

"Yes, I will…can I go?"

"You may but you will need to return in a week for us to remove those stiches"

Castiel nodded looking over to Anna who helped him out of the bed and he sighed.

"It's good to get out of here" he said fixing his jacket on and following her out carrying his bag of medicine with him.

"Rest remember"

Castiel snorted and followed her outside to the car and inhaled the smell of fresh air and felt a pang inside him. He wanted and needed to see Dean. Castiel eyed her and climbed in the car when she started it up.

"Gabriel is frantic to see you"

"Why isn't he here?"

"I left when he was still sleeping" Anna murmured and looked over to him. "Night shift, our brother is scrapping all our money together"

"Why?"

"So we're not poor forever"

"I'll get a job?"

"You will not!" Anna protested turning into the main road and settling back into the seat. "You have your finals in a few weeks, Cas, and we want you concentrating on them and nothing else"

"Not even Dean?"

"Not even him" she warned and he rolled his eyes looking out of the window. They were silent throughout the journey until they reached home.

"Get inside and lie down"

"I'm perfectly fine, Anna" he said with a huff when she shoved him inside and onto the couch. Anna laughed delicately and dropped his bag next to him.

"I asked you that the day before you fainted and cracked your head open didn't I? I don't believe you"

"I am!"

"I don't care! Lie down" she said watching him huff and lie down on the cushions with a pout and a mood. Castiel grumbled when she set about making him some real food.

"I am under strict orders to make sure you eat three meals a day, Castiel, and I will stick to it…" she ranted from the kitchen. Castiel watched her for a moment before jumping up and grabbing his keys creeping towards the door. He opened the latch carefully before slipping out and closing it quickly. Castiel didn't look back as he quickly walked away from the house and down the road.

"Gabriel must…still…be…asleep. Oh, Castiel" she said walking back inside the living room and gritting her teeth. "You are dead, sunshine"

Castiel rounded the corner and headed towards the apartments taking out his key that he still had in his possession and opened the main door.

Dean was in the middle of eating a burger when the door went and he turned towards it startled. Castiel smiled softly when he opened the door to reveal Dean who blinked at him.

"I came to stay thank you" Castiel said when he shot him a questioning look.

"Oh" Dean said confused and opened the door to let him in, Castiel accepted and stepped inside eyeing the place and was pleased to say it hadn't changed. Dean wiped his hands on his t-shirt and grabbed a bottle of beer from the fridge.

"I wasn't going to leave you on the ground, Cas, I'm better than that"

"But it's not just that, Dean, you stayed and you helped me" Castiel said facing him. Dean swallowed nervously and looked at his hair.

"How do you feel?"

Castiel hummed moving closer to him and tilted his head to let him see the stitches.

"I took the bandage off, it irritates me"

"It's there for a reason"

"You know I never listen to reason" he replied with a smirk when Dean looked him up and down. Dean felt nervous and agitated at the fact he was in his flat again and looking very attractive in tight black jeans defining his ass and a jacket he wanted to tear off.

"You should be going" Dean murmured avoiding his eye contact.

"Oh should I?" Castiel murmured eyes on his face. "I don't really want to"

"Cas, don't do this" Dean warned staring at his counter top.

"Do what?"

"This! Stop it" Dean warned when he hovered in his personal space and shrugged.

"I'm not doing anything, Dean, I'm simply standing here…but would it be so wrong?"

"Yes"

"You got your goodbye, where's mine?"

"Stop it"

"You keep telling me to stop it but you're not stopping me" Castiel murmured peering into his eyes and giving him a little smirk. Dean swallowed when licked his bottom lip and he followed the action breathing in and out deeply.

"It's not wrong, it's right. We've done this before, Dean, and I miss you" he murmured looking up at him through his lashes and touching his neck.

"Cas…" Dean whined pressing into him and Castiel gasped feeling a sense of triumph.

"I love you and I miss you, these past two weeks have driven me crazy…not seeing you, touching you, do you know how hard it is to not be able to kiss and hold the one you love?" Castiel murmured against his cheek feeling Dean quake and moan breathlessly into his ear.

"This is over, Cas, you know it's over. Stop this now" he hissed gripping his wrists and gasping when Castiel brushed his lips over his.

"It's not wrong" he whispered. "Screw the rules…don't think about anything, just feel"

Dean exhaled shakily when his hands cupped the sides of his neck and he hovered inches away from his lips.

"Your move, cowboy" Castiel whispered.

Castiel gasped when Dean moved towards him crashing his lips against his in an almost painful way. Dean cupped the back of his neck fully conscious of the fact he was still injured. Castiel whimpered gently when he pulled away backing him into the counter with a smack and reattached his mouth.

Dean was in way over his head as he pushed his tongue into his warm mouth tasting bad coffee and something sweet like cake, he grinded his hips against Castiel who gasped into his mouth pulling away with a moan.

"Bedroom…now!" he hissed gripping the back of Dean's hair. Dean grunted pulling off Castiel's shirt, picking him up so he could wrap his legs around him and carried him into the bedroom. Castiel groaned when he hit the bed and panted for more. It was a frantic race filled with need and passion as they stripped off their clothing. Dean pinned his wrists down when they were free of all clothing and sucked a wet path down his collarbone listening to his needy sounds.

Dean inhaled the sweet scent of his skin and groaned mouthing against it leaving harsh red marks, he hadn't realised how much he had missed this, missed him, and he couldn't get enough. Castiel gasped arching his back when slid his cold hands over his ribs and pressed his mouth over the bud of his nipple.

"Has anyone else touched you?" Dean said leaning over him when he shook his head.

"No…only you"

"Since the last time"

"Y-Yes" he stuttered when he angled his head and kissed under his ear.

"Good boy" he whispered into his ear and smirked when he moaned. Dean snatched the lube of the side table and wasted no time as he prepared him slicking the hole and his fingers. Castiel let out a cry when his fingers penetrated him and nearly wept in relief at how glad he had this again. Dean scissored the hole wide enough to slide in three fingers into the tight heat and crooked them deep inside him listening to him muffle a scream. Dean removed them kissing him hard and sheathed his cock deep inside him. Castiel gasped arching his neck leaving Dean to suck hard on his adam's apple leaving a mark.

Castiel spread his legs wider feeling every sensation inside him erupt and explode when he thrusted his hips harder inside him. Castiel wrapped a hand around his cock pumping hard only to have it slapped away and replaced by Dean's hand.

"Yes, god, yes, I love you!" Castiel rambled before letting out a heartfelt moan when he came and exploded onto Dean's chest. It felt like moments after when Dean rode out his own orgasm and climaxed inside Castiel. Dean faltered and collapsed leaning against Castiel who welcomed the warm weight. Dean pulled out when he was soft and dropped down on the bed with a hefty sigh. Castiel swallowed feeling a dull pain in the back of his head and looked over to Dean staring up at the ceiling.

"Let me guess…you regret it"

"That should have never happened! I ended it for a reason!" Dean hissed covering his hands over his eyes. "You're a tempting dick"

Castiel smirked amused and rolled onto his stomach pressing a tender kiss to his shoulder.

"It was amazing, I can't believe I've missed out on nearly three weeks now of sex. It's like cruel torture"

Dean rolled his eyes at him and watched as he parted his thighs and slid in between them resting on his chest.

"I don't want this end"

"It has too"

"No it doesn't…we can pretend we're not together when we are! Plus, we can pretend to hate each other, you…spineless, waste of air"

Dean gasped poking in the side watching him laugh and smiled at him shaking his head.

"That won't work!"

"It will! We'll make it work, carry on hating each other till after my finals, after my prom, and when I leave…boom! I've actually fell in love with him" Castiel replied nuzzling his nose against his stubble.

"You're insane"

"I am" Castiel said with a nod leaning his head against his chest. Dean kissed the top with a sigh.

"Cas…."

"Shush! No thinking, just feel" he muttered looking up at him. Dean bit his lip and stroked his fingers into his hair and placed a gentle kiss on his lips. Castiel smiled underneath them and pulled away.

"So…secretly see each other but pretend to everyone we're not and we hate each other? We can have amazing sex to make up for it…or end it all now?"

Dean contemplated those questions and sighed rolling them over so Castiel was settled into the cushions staring up at him.

"Do you know how many times I have had a wet dream about you? Wanked myself raw over sex memories and watched you with Balthazar?"

"No" Castiel said with a smile.

"Enough times to know you have changed my life forever and if this is what I have to do to keep you then…so be it" Dean said with a shrug. "Screw the rules"

Castiel grinned wrapping his arms around him and pulling him into a heated kiss.

"Forever and ever" Castiel murmured and laughed when Dean covered his mouth pushing him down into the covers.

~0~

A man in a black suit and tie stepped forward to the guard who scanned him over and nodded letting him into the room. He looked over the glass where a man in his mid-forties with thinning brown hair and tired dark blue eyes sat waiting.

The man sat down and picked up the phone.

"I see you contacted Brady"

"I needed to get in contact with you, I had no other way…I'm sorry"

"What do you want, Charles?"

Charles swallowed glancing around and moved forward clasping the phone.

"I need you to get me out, Crowley" he whispered in a low voice

Crowley chuckled licking the inside of his mouth. "I don't just get anyone out, darling, you have good enough excuse and money then maybe…we have a deal"

"I have three children out there and one of them is in danger"

"Poor excuse"

"No! Listen…" Charles snarled and breathed out looking calmer. "My youngest son is possessed by a demon"

Crowley turned his eyes onto him and raised an eyebrow. "A demon?"

"This demon is corrupting and changing my son, he's my baby boy, and I need to save him. My other two children stopped the exorcism before it could be complete and it needs to be completed before he ruins himself"

Crowley eyed him and cleared his throat unsure what to think.

"I heard you nearly killed him"

"It's a lie, he was perfectly alright, he can survive…he's strong" Charles murmured and gripped the phone. "I can pay you, I can pay anything"

Crowley clucked his tongue and nodded once. "Okay, it'll take time and patience"

"Just get me out of here!" he hissed.

Crowley chuckled and hung up watching desperate eyes follow him as he walked out of the room and nodded at the guard.

Charles hung up and looked over to the next guard who led him out and back to his cell. Charles sat down staring at the white wall feeling his own insanity creep into his mind as he thought of getting out. He would save his son no matter what and if the consequences meant he had to die to save himself so be it. Charles would not rest until Castiel was exorcized of his "demon" and this time he would do it himself.

A/N: Sorry for the long update, guys, I had a struggle with my mind. It wouldn't let me type.

It's like a mix of emotions in this one and yes, there is going to whump and angst in the upcoming chapters. Be prepared, but you know how to, we all watch Supernatural.