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Beca POV

I came out of hospital yesterday and now we were on our way to Jesse's family home in New York. I was sat in the passenger seat staring out the window. I was trying to stay calm so I didn't bring on another attack. I had two in the hospital yesterday and another one this morning. Jesse had been told how to deal with me when I had them. It made me feel like a baby when he had to lay me down and breath with me to calm me down, but there was nothing I could do about it. I'd booked an appointment with the counsellor for a weeks' time once we were back on campus. I turned the radio up just as Bon Jovi Living on a Prayer started playing. Jesse started to sing too it quietly, then he got louder and louder till he was practically screaming the chorus. I just laughed but before I knew it I was singing along with him. We must've sung about 30 songs by the time we pulled up outside his house. It had been a good distraction and had put any butterflies to rest for a couple of hours. However now that he was unloading the bags from the car they were waking up again. I could feel them fluttering about inside me, making me feel sick and dizzy. This must've shown on my face as Jesse was suddenly wrapping his arms around me in a reassuring hug. It settled them a little bit but he was trying which is all that mattered. He picked up the bags and we walked to the front door. It felt weird being here, he was about to open the door when it was opened from the other side. A medium height, skinny brown hair lady stood before us.

"JESSE darling, its soo good to have you home!" she squealed, embracing him in a big hug. I felt awkward right now. "Oh and you must be Beca! I'm so glad you could make it after what happened!" She hugged me but I stiffened up and started to panic. Within seconds I could feel an attack coming on. Jesse obviously sensed it as he pried his mum off me and held me close to him. It calmed me down just in time before the attack came. She looked upset even though she was smiling. I smiled weakly at her, trying to say sorry.

"Come on in then guys, leave you bags in the hall, the boys will take them up later, come meet the family!" she had cheered up within seconds, I was thankful because I felt bad about the hug. We followed her into the family room, I stayed close to Jesse holding his hand the whole time. Two younger boys about 15 jumped up and ran to Jesse, giving him a playful punch on each arm.

"Good to see you bro!" one of them said, they looked nearly identical so I guessed they were the twins.

"Beca, these are my brothers Glen and James." He introduced. Glen took my hand a kissed it, flashing me a flirtatious smile. Jesse smacked the back of his head, "oi back off she's mine!"

I laughed. They seemed nice enough, Glen had slightly lighter hair and was a bit taller than James. James just smiled and waved at me. Clearly not as cocky as his brother.

A girl only about 16 walked over to Jesse and hugged him. I was guessing it was his sister, but I couldn't remember her name.

"Amber, this is Beca. Beca this is my sister Amber" Jesse smiled at us, he was clearly nervous about something. Amber politely smiled and shook my hand. I got the feeling she didn't like me much. I tried not to let it bother me, younger sisters were always like this.

"Oh and this is my dad!" Jesse added as an older, stockier version of Jesse walked over to us.

"Hello, call me Harry, and you've already met Sarah my wife!" he hugged me, I stiffened again but he let go quickly before I started to panic. I smiled and said hello to everyone. I was nervous as hell.

"Boys, will you take Jesse and Beca's bags up to his room please?" Sarah asked as she came back into the room carrying some glasses and a bottle of wine. The boys ran off to take our bags up while everyone else headed to the couches, I wasn't sure what to do so I followed Jesse, hanging back a little bit unsure of where to go. Jesse sat down and pulled me down next to him. I sat down but didn't feel comfortable. I held Jesse's hand tightly; he obviously sensed my nerves and squeezed it tightly.

Everyone was talking and sharing recent stories except me. I sat there listening but not really being there, things were flashing through my mind, things I didn't want to think about. Glen asked me a question and brought me back to the room.

"Erm what was that? Sorry I zoned out," I laughed nervously.

"It's okay, I said how are you finding it dating my big geeky brother," he asked again.

"It's alright; he is a massive nerd though!" I said sarcastically, trying to get into the happy swing of the family banter.

"Yeah but you love me so it's okay!" Jesse smiled back at me, clearly happy at the fact I was joining in a bit more. There was more banter thrown around the room, it was nice I was starting to relax. I didn't say too much, I just sat back and listened. I glanced over at Jesse, he looked so happy and so at home. I was glad that after the events of the last few months we could finally have some time to wind down and relax.

Jesse POV

Beca and I headed up to my room after spending the afternoon downstairs. I was eager to find out what she thought of my family. It was clear they adored her and accepted her I just hope she felt comfortable. I opened the door to my room and smiled. It was full of movie posters, DVD's and I still had my Star Wards bed sheets.

"Wow." Is all Beca could say. She gazed around my room taking in all the posters. "you really are a nerd" she laughed as she turned back face me.

"Yeah but it's okay because I'm your nerd!" I laughed back as I pulled her in for a kiss. Before I knew what was happening, the kiss got more heated and more passionate. She tugged my top over my head, barely breaking the kiss to do so. Her hands roamed over my chest, sending shivers down my spine. I pulled away from the kiss and pulled her vest top off. I brushed my hands across her bra causing her to moan just a little. We fell back onto my bed, I took my weight in my arms as I hovered over her, kissing down her neck and chest. I rolled her to one side and pulled the covers up over us then I began I undressing her more.

As we laid cuddled together a while later, I thought about how I loved the feeling of her naked body pressed against mine. It was only about 5:30pm and dinner would be soon, I just prayed that nobody had heard us, Mum and dad had been out shopping but Glen, James and Amber were still home. Fuck I'd never live it down if they heard us. I kissed her head and pulled her close to me, how I ever found someone as special and amazing as Beca I'd never know but I was sure glad I did.

*a slightly happier chapter, a bit of steamy romance was included aswell. Sorry that I've not been updating much these last two days but I found it difficult to write this chapter and keep it up to the standard that the last 4 chapters have been! I hate thinking that I'm disappointing my readers!*