Hello guys, I wanna say I'm sorry for the long wait, things didn't go well so now I'm feeling bad.. London didn't work, I came back after some day so.. It isn't a good period.. I still wanna thank who is following this story and who reviewed. I'll try my best to continue this story. Oh I'm sorry for my eventual mistakes!

After 2 weeks I'm still not used to have Quinn in my house, our house now. Don't get me wrong, she's fine , my mom adores her, not as much as she adores Santana, but we are almost there! I'm learning to be around her, to know her.. She doesn't really know how to be her self, she's always scared she did something wrong, specially with my mom even though their friendship is growing fast, more than ours. My mom is scared to ask her to see someone,like a psychologist, she doesn't want Quinn to get wrong idea, we just want to help her and if I have to be honest it wouldn't be bad to Santana either, but do you have to courage to ask her?! She'd eat me alive!

Anyway we're taking small steps with Quinn mostly because we don't want to make her feel bad about her situation, I hear her cry almost every night, who wouldn't if their parents resented them? Her father doesn't really care, I hear him once says Quinn is in rehab because she's a drugged, thankfully Rachel was with me or I don't know what I would have done to him, her mother, I don't really know where she stands, she didn't contact her or anything, but a week after Quinn moved with us she left an envelope on our door with a credit card inside on Quinn's name, she puts money on it every week for her.

Now we can say we are more stable, I mean she still cries sometime, but she doesn't cry all day anymore for them , she moved all her things in the guest room and now we all act normally around eachother, the first week was so awkward , we didn't know what to say when she would come out from her room, or she didn't know how to ask things to us, but fortunally everything is settle. My mom and her talked so long one day, she told her that we are a family, not a conventional one maybe, but still.. Maribel is her legal guardian even if she's living with us, the Lopez know her since ever, it just came up this way, it felt natural from the beginning.

The school situation is a bit different, no one really figured out what really happened, but they know something's wrong, different with Quinn, she's still on the top with Santana, but they're spending time with me and Rachel sometimes and Quinn comes to school with me every morning, but everything is still under control. The last thing we want is a revolt to Quinn, she needs time to let her be herself even at school, so she can balance who she is and still be the top Cheerio and Glee club is helping her doing it. I can't say the same thing about Santana, we're still at the same point, yeah we spend some time together at school, but never alone and she's always so careful to not touch me or say anything that could be misunderstood.

When we're alone she turns in another person, she's all over me, I know she's always the same Santana, that she misses me when we are at school, that she wants to be with me and everything, but I can't say I don't feel hurt sometimes, I let it go for the Quinn situation, but I know that "that talk" is getting closer. I mean, what are we? I don't even know if we are some kinda couple or anything, I'm already a secret what else? Just someone who she plays with? I know she doesn't want to hurt me and that she hates labels, I hate them too, but I need to know if we are going at least in the same way. I know she needs time to come out, fuck I don't even want her to come out for me, I just want her to let herself go a bit.

Now we are all in my living room watching a movie, I'm sit on the armchair while Santana, Rachel and Quinn are on the couch, it's so weird to see them so close and not shouting to eachother. I remember the day Rachel found out she was leaving with us..

The doorbell rings.

"Quinn can you open?" but then I think that it could only be Rachel and she still doesn't know about Quinn, I run to the entrance, but she was already opening the door.

"Bri- umh, what are you doing here?" Rachel says and she looks around like she rang the wrong house.

"Ehy Rachel" I say and she opens the door entering passing Quinn.

"Please walk on me!" Quinn mumbles rolling her eyes and Rachel turns to her and then to me again.

"I saw you!" I say.

"What's happening?" Rachel asks tired to be ignored.

"Quinn lives here"

"Say what?!.. No wait, this is too much I need to sit down" And she walks to the couch.

"I knew it something wrong was coming from all of this" Quinn says rounding her index finger in front of me.

"Shut up!" I laugh "we have to talk to her, do you wanna tell her what happened?""

"Do I have a choice?"

"Nope"

"I'm waiting" Rachel shouts and we go sit near her "So? Santana was already a huge thing to take in but this? Explain me how you found yourself dating Santana Lopez and living with Quinn Fabray!"

"Well you already know what happened with Sant-"

"Be honest Britt, you told me nothing about you two, but you know what I meant, how come Quinn lives here?"

"She-"

"My parents kicked me out" Rachel stays open mouthed.

"You're kiddin me right? I don't believe you, your parents love you and you wouldn't come to live here anyway"

"She's telling you the truth Rach, don't push her" I say.

"Don't push her? Do you hear your self Britt? What's happening? I'm still in the same world I was?"

"Is she always like this? Even outside school?!" Quinn asks me and I nod.

"See? She's the same Quinn who jokes about me, why should I believe her?"

"Then believe me Rach, I wouldn't lie to you, her parent really kicked her out, they just love the idea they have about Quinn.. they found out about her break up with Finn, Glee club and her being friend with Santana and me"

"What's wrong with being your friend?"

"They know she's lesbian and they don't want me to be associated to her or someone could think I'm gay too and Santana.. she's just hispanic" Quinn says and Rachel looks really shocked.

"I can't believe it"

"I told you the truth!" Quinn shouts immediately.

"No I mean I can't believe they think that way.. I'm sorry.. Even if you did bad things to me and other people you don't deserve this" Quinn starts crying "Why are you crying?"

"She always cry when we talk about her parents" I say.

"No it's just, I don't deserve this, amazing people like you and your mom, or the Lopez and .. I deserve this, I'm an awful person, I was awful to you Rachel, but you .. you're here telling you're sorry and everything" she keeps crying and Rachel sit next to her and takes her hands.

"Listen to me, yeah you weren't a really good person, but you didn't deserved this ok? Your parents are so wrong, they didn't have any right to do this to you, they don't deserve you ok?" Quinn nods "And if you feel bad for what you did you can always say you're sorry, so you can start feeling you deserve amazing people around you" Rachel smiles and Quinn just hugged her making Rachel widen her eyes.

"You should hug her back" I say winking at her.

"Shut up" Rachel says hugging Quinn back.

Quinn obviously apologized to Rachel after that talk, I can't say they are friends now, but they talk and I know they're starting to care about each other already, even if they'd deny it.

Her face was so hilarious, anyway I'm looking at Santana, well I'm sending her glances and she just ignores me, I told her she could sit with me, that Rachel doesn't care and that she already knows about us, but she feels uncomfortable anyway.

"I want popcorn, do you want some?" Quinn asks.

"I'm fine" Santana says.

"Britt where are they?"

"I know it" Rachel says following Quinn in the kitchen.

"So" I sit on the couch next to Santana.

"I said no" she immediately says.

"You're so stubborn, she already knows"

"Did you told her?"

"No"

"Good now I have to discover if someone else did"

"She knows because she knows me, no one could tell anything Santana, we barely speak at school" I say with an annoyed tone.

"What's this? Are you mad?"

"Yeah I'm mad, because not only do I have to hide us in public, now I have to do it even in my house"

"Brit-"

"Here we are" Quinn says entering the room with popcorns in her hands.

"What the hell Santana, I have all the patience in the world, but you need to do some step sometimes and I'm not asking you to come out or anything, but fuck, you can act as yourself here, in my house, they all know who you are, they know what we are.. well not really, I don't even know what we are.. But you know what I mean" She stays silence looking at me, Quinn and Rachel near the couch eating the popcorns as they are watching a serie tv "Rachel knows, she knows because she's my best friend, she accepted your apologizes, she accepted Quinn, what else do you need? I didn't ask you to make out in front of them, I just wanted you to sit near me" I stand up and go to my room slamming the door behind me.

After awhile I hear the front door close, I suppose Santana and Rachel left, I don't like this and worse I don't know what it means for now, is Santana going to come back? Is she going to ignore me? I turn on my back on the bed and close my eyes and someone opens my door.

"Quinn I don't wanna talk" I say and then she's straddling me "What the hell" I immediately open my eyes and starting to sit up, but then I see it's Santana and I stay with my back down.

"Rachel and Quinn went to the mall" she says taking my hands in hers on my belly "I'm sorry. You were right, I should have sit next to you and not only because I'm at your house or because they know, but because we are friends first. I shouldn't be so scared to be your friend in public, I'm not gonna coming out any time soon, I'm not ready, but we are.. We are us"

"Can you please tell me what us is?" She smiles and leans down kissing me.

"It's this, we are special, you're special"

"When you want you're really sweet, but you still didn't answer my question" I smile.

"We are.. I don't know how to describe us, I was focused on living us, to discover us and then maybe label us as something, but if you ne-"I stop her with a kiss.

"It's ok, we can keep discover us and then we'll see, oh and be friends in public!"

"I'm really sorry" she lays down next to me, my arm under her neck and hers around my tummy.

"I know" I kiss her forehead "I just want us to talk more, I feel left out and hurt when we are at school and I don't like it.

I just want us to.. To want us. I want this Santana, whatever it's happening between us, I want it, I want you" I say looking into her eyes, she doesn't answer, she kisses me slowly, one of her talking kisses, her famous kisses, when she kisses me like this I just get lost.

Some day later.

"Your girlfriend has just weirded the school" Rachel says while she sits next to me at lunch time.

"Don't call her that" I say without looking up from my phone.

"I don't understand why don't you just ask her"

"Ask what?" Quinn asks joining us.

"Ask Santana to be her girlfriend"

"Aren't you already?" Quinn says and Rachel made a face as "see?!"

"Shut up you two, what has she done?" I ask.

"Oh yeah, she greeted me"

"And..?"

"She did it in the gym while everybody was there and she was with all the cheerios"

"Where were you?" I ask Quinn.

"I was in the principal's office, I had to change some documents"

"They all stared at me"Rachel continues.

"Quinn greets you and nobody says anything"

"Well they all think I'm weird now, they know something is off with me" Quinn says.

"What do you want me to say? She's trying to be .. Better? I don't know, she's trying, so leave her alone"

"Ahw, look at you, all in defense mode for her girlfriend" Rachel says smiling and Quinn laughs.

"I liked you two better when you hated each other!"

"Shut up" Quinn says.

Almost at the end of lunch time Santana enters the room, I can see she isn't happy about something and I don't know if I should question her, here. Before I can think about what to do she sits with us, I know she isn't bothered about the others right now because Quinn is with us so it's really safe.

"Something wrong?" I ask.

"Yeah this school" she says looking around.

"What happened?"

"I bet Rachel already told you"

"I'm still not used to hear you say my name" Rachel says and Quinn smiles.

"I'm so proud of you" I say and she rolls her eyes making me smile.

"They are all so stupid and JBI is following me around to know why I said hi to Rachel as there's some kind of story or bet behind"

"There isn't right?"Rachel asks widening her eyes.

"Don't make them bother you San, we are all happy about what you did, you are great" Quinn says.

"Yeah I have a personal support squad all for myself!" Santana says and we stop talking about it.

At the end of the day JBI got slushied from the cheerios and I closed him into the girl's bathroom until the end of the lessons so the hall was full of people and when he got out everybody was laughing. I come back home with Quinn, she had to change a lot of documents today, it have must be really hard, Maribel was there with her thankfully and Santana unconsciously got the attentions of everybody away from her. What Santana did today was the step I was talking about, she's trying, so she's telling me she wants this to go on, she wants to be with me. So now I'm trying to organize something for her, something romantic.. Like a date, maybe I could ask her to be my girlfriend, we're seeing each other for awhile, I want her, she wants me so.. Yeah I 'm going to take her out to a date, our first date and ask her to be my girlfriend! And she's gonna say yes.

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-Deb