AN: guys my internet is down so I'm not sure how often I will update until it's fixed. Just to clear things up, Alex will most definitely not be cheating with Abbie. The thought repulsed me. Lol enjoy!
"Alex what the fuck have you done!" Serena exclaims as she bursts into Alex's office just as the taller blonde is preparing to leave for the day. Instead of waiting for a response, she grabs Alex by the sleeve of her blazer and drags her out of her office and down the hall towards one of the conference rooms where Kim and Abbie seem to be having a heated conversation.
"I haven't done anything. Let me go." Alex says flatly as she pulls away and begins straightening out her jacket. Her heart sinks however when she realizes just what's going on. "Oh no..."
Through the window they see that Kim has tears streaming down her face as she continues to vigorously shake her head. She covers her mouth with her hand and shakes her head another time before she can actually get a word out. "Please don't. Abbie please I-I'll try harder. I'll do anything just please don't...don't do this."
Abbie shakes her head and pries Kim's hands off of her. "No. I already told you. I'm done with this. You and Alex can sort out whatever it is you need to sort out, but I'm done with this. There will not be an 'us' as long as THIS is going on. I'm not going to deal with it anymore Kim, I'm done. Just figure out whatever you need to figure out on your own, but just know that I'm done with this."
"Is there anything I can do? I mean I'll do anything, you know I will just...we've come this far, please don't throw away what we have."
"I'm done Kim. Done. It's over."
"Abbie no! Please don't...don't do this."
"Over." Abbie states firmly before she shakes her head and exits the conference room, not even bothering to address the two blondes standing in the hall.
Kim stands completely still for a moment before she places her hand over her mouth once again. A whimper escapes her lips before she is unable to suppress her sobs. She plops down in one of the chairs and drops her head into her hands as she continues to sob.
"Do not stand there and tell me that you didn't have anything to do with what just happened." Serena snaps harshly as she turns to Alex. "They were doing fine before you found out they were together and you're jealousy reigned hell over everything."
Alex groans and drags a hand through her hair. "I didn't think Abbie was being serious when she said that she was going to break up with her. I had no idea that she would go and...I didn't intend to cause any trouble like this, really I didn't."
"What the fuck did you do!" Kim exclaims as she overhears the two women talking just outside the doorway. "Oh my god, it all makes sense now. She just left me because you were continuing to be a jealous bitch! Damnit Alex, why can't you ever just let me be happy!?"
Alex's mouth opens and closes several times before she is able to come up with something coherent and legible to say. "Now hold on, don't go an try to make it seem like I've never wanted your happiness."
"It sure as hell seems like it! Even when we were kids it practically killed you to even think about my happiness. It was your way or no way Alex. When I won homecoming queen senior year, you looked like you didn't even want to congratulate me. Why is that? Why do you always have to be so jealous of everyone's happiness that you have to ruin it? I was happy with Abbie, Alex. I-I fell in love with her when we were in high school but I never said anything because I didn't want to mess anything up. Now I finally had my chance to be happy with her and know why it finally feels like to have her love me and you just had to go and ruin all of it. How is that fair? How is it you get to live happily ever after with Casey yet you get to destroy my relationship as well. How is it that you get to have Casey, Serena can have Liv, but I'm not allowed to be with anyone? Do you have any idea of what it's like to have to go up against you and Serena? I always felt like the ugly stepsister of the group. No one would ever compliment me on anything, no one asked me on dates, no one told me they thought I was pretty. No one ever said any of that to me because they were always too busy drooling over the two of you! Then when someone finally comes along and tells me I'm beautiful, and tells me they love me, you just have to do something to make it all go away, Alex. It just isn't fair. It's almost as if you want for me to be alone for the rest of my life. It's like you don't want me to be happy. You never have. I just...I just wanted to know what it feels like to be loved by someone and to love someone back. I just wanted to know how it felt to have someone to go home to, or someone to hold me at night. Someone to spend romantic holidays with or to just go to a romantic movie with. I just wanted to finally be in love, and I was. Right after high school, I broke my leg during a dance recital. My aunts and grandparents told me that I would be wasting my life to try and get into dance again. They said being a dancer wasn't going to get me anywhere in life. They said, what if I got seriously injured and I wasn't able to dance anymore, then what would I do with my life? They told me that the dream I was trying to live was stupid and I was just wasting time. I was so torn up that I believed then. I let them get to me, and I gave up on my dream. Abbie found me again and she...she helped me. She made me feel loved for the first time. I was in love and I was happy. Then you...you just had to take it away. You ruined what little happiness I had left Alex, and I don't think I can ever forgive you."
Alex is rendered completely speechless as Kim pushes past her and exits the conference room. Done sighs heavily and pinches the bridge of her nose, refraining from meeting Serena's gaze. "Rena, don't...please... I already feel bad enough."
"Good. I'm not going to lie and say you shouldn't." Serena says firmly before she sighs heavily. "You know I love you right? I just...sometimes you do the dumbest things. Please just...get over it. It was a long time ago. Just let it go."
"I wish it was that easy...really I do."
Later That Evening
"Are you happy with what you've done?" Casey asks firmly as she folds her arms.
Alex shamefully shakes her head and slumps her shoulders as if she is a small child that is being scolded for some kind of wrong doing. "No. I'm not. I feel like a jerk."
"From the sound of it, you acted like one. Look Alex, there's something I need to ask you." Casey states, pausing as she takes a deep breath. "Are you even in this anymore? Ever since Abbie has come around again, you're a lot more focused on being angry at her than you are being happy with me. Why is that?"
"Casey, you're exaggerating. I have not been thinking about her that much."
"But you have! All you ever think about is how much you hate Abbie for hurting you, but I'm starting to wonder other wide. Are you still in love with her Alex? Are you even in love with me?"
Alex's jaw drops at the question and the look on Casey's face practically breaks her heart. "Of course I'm on love with you Casey. You're my everything."
Casey snorts humorlessly and folds her arms across her chest once again as she looks away sadly. "I sure as hell don't feel like it. I feel like you're jealous of Abbie's relationship with Kim...I feel like you just aren't into us anymore."
Alex gets off of the sofa and glides across the room towards her lover. "Casey, I love you and only you. Please believe that. There is nothing and no one on this planet that has my heart like you do. I love you so much it hurts. I just...the feeling of hurt and betrayal just got to be too much. But I don't care about Abbie anymore. I don't care about who she dates, when she dates them, or why. I don't care about all of that because I care about you and I want to be with you. I don't want anyone else, I just want you."
Casey wraps her arms around Alex's waist and pulls her closer where she rests their foreheads together. "You're my perfect princess, you know that?"
Alex giggles and she's her head as she runs her fingers through crimson locks. "I'm far from perfect, but I am your princess none the less."
A Few Days Later
"Dude no...don't even. You would think that she was a lot smarter than that right? But it's whatever. It's not like I really care now." Abbie states into her phone as she talks to one of her old high school teammates. "I swear, it's like some things haven't even changed. Alex is still the same clingy bitch she was back then and we aren't even together anymore. Really, its ridiculous."
Kim makes her way down the hall of the office in an attempt to surprise Abbie at work and hopefully plead a rather convincing case on then getting back together. Just as she is about to step inside, she hears Alex's name mentioned and she decides to listen in for a moment.
"Seriously Stace, it's like Alex has made it her life goal to be out to get me and it's super annoying. I hate that she just can't fucking get over the past. You know what hilarious though? I went out with her best friend to piss her off, then I broke up with her because I knew she'd blame Alex for everything."
"Dude, that's kinda messed up." Stacey states from her end of the phone.
"Nah not really. That whole trio of friends is extremely gullible. You drop a few nice words and a few dollars on them and the next thing you know they're opening their legs for you; and I've had two of them. Probably would've had all three but the last one is married; and even some things I don't swing at."
"Really? You're going to sit there and try to convince me that you of all people WOULDN'T mess with a married woman? Try that on somebody who doesn't know you Abigail."
"It's not about her being married, it's about who she's married to. Olivia would have no probably separating my head from my shoulders for messing with her wife."
"Benson? Yeah, she would definitely beat your ass!"
Abbie rolls her eyes and leans back further in her chair. "Whatever. It was so much easier dating Kim though. She wasn't always on my ass about where I was and what I was doing, which would've made it so much easier to have a little bit on the side."
"You didn't."
"You're right, I didn't, but I thought about it though. She was just so sweet you know? It was almost sickening considering her personality. I couldn't do that to her. But yeah, she was a real sweetheart, a hell of a lay too, almost makes me feel bad I dumped her, but it is what it is. Between you and me, she was a great lay though. I got back as much as I gave with her, that's for sure."
"Can't believe you did all that just to get back at Alex."
"It is what it is. I intend to make Alex's life hell, just because it's what she tried to do to mine. I'm telling you, the best part about this is the fact that Kim is blaming her for why we brine up. Literally, it's one if the best things to witness. Kinda almost makes me want to take her back just to get another rise out of Alex. She practically got on her knees and begged me not to leave so I know she'd say yes in a heartbeat."
"Would she?"
The new voice in her doorway nearly causes Abbie to drop her phone as she spins around in her chair. "Hey Stace, I'll talk to you later alright? It was great catching up but I gotta go." She says into the phone before ending her call. "Hey Kim, I was literally just thinking about you."
"Sounds like it." Kim responds as she tightly folds her arms. "I can't believe I was so stupid as to believe you and I fell for your stupid games."
"What're you talking about? Not once have I ever thought about this as a game." Abbie tries to plead as she stands up from her chair and advances on the shorter woman. "I was thinking about us getting back together, yeah? I'll buy you anything you want. A car, condo, anything, just tell me what you want and I'll get it."
"I want you to go jump off a bridge. I fucking heard you on the phone Abbie. I heard you talking about how gullible I am. Jesus I should have listened to Alex. She was right. You're an ass."
"Let's not get into name calling, alright? This has to be just a misunderstand, you probably heard wrong and-"
"I was standing right outside the door Abbie! I heard you! God I can't believe I actually fell for you! You never really cared about me, did you? All you ever cared about was making Alex's life miserable and you were just using me to do that. Seriously, I just can't believe I was so stupid as to believe you could actually be in love with me."
Abbie snaps her mouth closed and shoves her hands in her pockets. "I did love you. I still DO love you." She attempts to explain softly as she gently rests her hand on Kim's shoulder.
Kim shakes her head vigorously and flinches away from the touch as if she had been burned. "Don't even. I'm done with your lies."
"C'mon Babe, don't be like that." Abbie sighs exasperatedly as she tries to pull the angry woman closer to her. What she doesn't anticipate is for Kim to wiggle free, shove her, and then slap her hard across the face. "Ow! What the fuck!?"
"That was for Alex. She was right. You are a pig." Kim says flatly before she shakes her head and spins on her heel to leave, not even bothering to let Abbie have the satisfaction of seeing her cry.
Abbie scowls darkly as she runs the sure spot on her face. She trudges around her desk and swears when she looks in the mirror and sees the reddening hand print forming on her cheek.
Kim wipes her eyes as she briskly walks down the hallway. She swiftly bursts into Alex's office without knocking and closes the door without word.
"What do you want..." Alex questions darkly, thoroughly surprised when she feels arms wrapped tightly around her and her blazer instantly becomes wet with tears.
"Please. No I told you so, no gloating, none of that; but you were right. I don't need an I told you so right now, I just-I need my best friend."
Alex raises her eyebrows in surprise but she quickly relaxes as she wraps the distraught woman into a hug. Despite how she's feeling on the inside, she knows she needs to be a best friend right now. She'll comfort now and ask questions later.
Hmm...leave your thoughts?