—Anastasia? —he asked me once more.
I put aside my thoughts and turned to him briefly. I had to answer him.
I stared at him, forgetting for a moment what was going on in the kitchen.
—I never thought I'd say this, but I'm excited. —I said to him while, without being able to avoid it, I looked back at the scene in the kitchen.
—There's nothing wrong with looking at Anastasia. —he whispered to me once more as I felt his hands tangling at my waist.
— I feel as if I were invading their privacy.
—They don't mind being looked at. —he said as he slid one hand from my belly to my sex.
I grabbed his hand between mine and closed my legs. I had drunk tequila, but not enough to let him touch me in front of the others.
—Christian! What are you doing?
—Checking to see if what you just told me is true.
—So I guess you've had sex in public? —I asked him as I turned to him briefly.
—Yes, and no.
—I don't understand you.
—I have participated in sexual exchanges, Elliot has always been with me in all of them, but no one has ever known who I was. —he paused. —I guess you know I slept with your friend once.
—Yes, she told me before she knew who you are, I told her that.
—So you want to know what it feels like to be watched while you're having sex?
—I don't think I'm ready for that, Christian.
— We all have something of voyeur Anastasia, plus you managed very well on the set.
—That's different.
—Different? Didn't they all see us? Anastasia is exactly the same. Just let yourself go and forget everything around you. —he said to me as he joined his lips with mine.
He put his tongue in my mouth and I forgot everything right there. When his lips touched mine I even forgot my name. I wrapped my hands around his neck and pulled him closer to me.
— I'm not going to undress you Anastasia, I'm not going to ask you so much today, but I do want to touch you and feel how excited you are to see others having sex in your kitchen. —he said to me as he put a hand inside my jeans.
And I didn't stop him.
I let his hand explore and touch between my legs.
—God! You're so wet. —he whispered to me as he put a finger inside me.
I arch my body back involuntarily and Christian took the opportunity to lie me down on the sofa. And then his lips came desperately over mine while his other hand massaged one of my breasts. His lips came down to my neck.
Biting.
Sucking.
And I can't stop a moan from escaping mine. I lowered my hands down his body to the button of his jeans, loosening it and putting one of my hands inside. I needed to touch him, to feel him.
His hot limb vibrated and stiffened in my hand. And I knew exactly what I wanted.
—Anastasia! Let's go to the room, I need to possess you, feel you, bury me in you. —he say to me as I began to pull down his jeans and pull his limb from the inside.
I continued to massage him while he groaned now against my lips.
—Anastasia! You're playing with fire and I'm going to take you right here. —he said to me as he stared me in the eyes.
—Then take me. —I said to him with my breathing accelerated.
I didn't care about anything, I just needed to feel it inside me.
And then Christian quickly pulled down my jeans just enough to be able to bury himself in me, pulling out a moan. And then I bit my lower lip to contain it.
—Don't do it, listening to someone moan can increase sexual excitement. —he said to me as he began to move inside me.
And then I felt them.
I felt Elliot and Kate's moans much louder now and that, combined with Christian's movements inside me made me even more excited. I could no longer contain the moans that escaped my lips. I wrapped my legs around Christian's waist. I needed more of him. I needed to feel it deep inside me, to reach places I had not reached before.
I lowered one of my legs and squeezed it by the buttocks. And he just smiled at me.
—Is that what you want? To be possessed savagely?
—Yes. —I said in a gasp.
Christian finished taking out my jeans, he lifted one of my legs and placed it on his shoulder, and the other lifted it up to my chest.
—God! —I closed my eyes.
This way I felt it deep inside me as it moved quickly inside me. This was exactly what we both liked.
Hard sex.
And the moans, I could at least control, this way were uncontrollable. My walls began to tighten around him. This was too much for me.
Christian's moans mixed with Kate and Elliot's on the other side of the room. I don't think I can take much more.
This was too much. A groan on the other side of the room made me open my eyes. It was not a normal moan, it was a series of rapid moans that could only mean one thing.
Orgasm.
And that was enough to make me reach orgasm as well while I clung tightly to my legs. I stared into Christian's eyes as my body shuddered completely with pleasure and I felt it filling me completely.
But he didn't stop, he kept moving inside me. And I just stared at him. What was he proposing?
He brought his face closer to me.
—Have you ever had a multiple orgasm, Anastasia? —he asked me suddenly as he continued his movements.
And then I realized what he was proposing when my walls began to tighten around his limb once more time. I couldn't help it, the groans escaped my lips without me even noticing. And I quickly found myself enveloped in a devastating orgasm once again.
And after several more movements, Christian began to lower the rhythm of his movements until he stopped. He pulled my leg off his shoulder and stretched the other one.
—I promise you a massage later. —he whispered against my lips as he kissed me and pulled my lower lip. —Now let's get more decent. —he said to me as he sat on the sofa and pulled me towards him.
Christian stood up and pulled up his clothes and I did the same with mine. Then he sat next to me again.
—Why did you change your mind?
—I don't know, I let myself be carried away by the passion of the moment.
—I see that you have understood the essential, to let yourself be carried away by the moment and to forget everything. But I want you to answer sincerely what I'm going to ask you. What have you felt?
I thought about it for a moment. I had not felt shame, it had only been absolute pleasure from the beginning.
—Lust, lasciviousness...
—And you've only been an observer. Everything you have felt is multiplied by ten when you participate in the exchange.
—Really?
—Yes, how do I explain it to you? —he told me thinking about it for a moment. —It is as if all your life you have practiced sex in a normal way, where both parties are involved, and one day you submit to the will of someone to do with you what he wants. With the right person the sensations are...
—I know what you mean Christian. —and I knew it perfectly.
I didn't know what I was missing until I met him. I stared at him squinting for a moment.
—Can I ask you something without bothering you?
—You can ask whatever Ana. —he said to me as he slid one hand down my cheek.
—How long have you been in this world? —I inquired curiously.
—Several years ago now. —Now I was much more curious than before. Now I wanted to know how it all started.
That's when Kate and Elliot came back to our side. And Kate sat next to me smiling perversely. And I knew what that smile meant. When we were alone, an interrogation awaited me. And this was going to be one of the good ones.
— What movie you' re going to see? —Elliot asked as he sat casually on the opposite end of the sofa next to Kate.
The four of us were sitting on the sofa as if it were the most normal thing in the world. As if nothing had happened just a few minutes ago.
—What weren't passing through? —Kate asked curiously.
But I knew very well that her question was coming, she wanted to continue with our girls' night.
—We were, it doesn't make much sense to go out tonight, does it, Christian? —Elliot asked as Christian stopped looking at me and smiled at him.
—Right, no sense. Let's see the film. —he said as he held me in his arms.
Elliot and Kate left in the early hours of the morning in Christian's car. We said goodbye to them and entered the house. I dropped on the couch while Christian closed the door. Christian got to where I was and took one of my hands and made me get up.
—Come on, I promised you a massage. —he wrapped my body in his arms and led me to the room.
As soon as we got to the room, Christian slowly undressed me.
—Ready, now to bed. I guess you don't have any massage oil, do you?
—No. —I replied as I sat on the bed.
—And some cream?
—In the bathroom.
Christian went to the bathroom and came back with my favorite cream.
—Face down. —he said to me in an authoritative voice.
—Yes, sir. —I laughed as a joke.
I could feel Christian laughing as he sat beside me in bed. I felt him open the cream tube and spread a little on my back.
—Vanilla?
—I really like that smell. —I replied.
—Me too. —he said to me as he began to rub gently.
—Mmm.
Christian massaged my back like a professional. I never expected this.
—You told me I could ask you anything.
—What do you want to know, Ana?
—How did you get into this world?
Christian's hands stopped on my back. Apparently I had touched on a sensitive issue. I turned on the bed and sat down to stare him in the eyes.
—I don't want to get involved in what I don't care about Christian, sorry, I was just curious.
—Don't apologize, Ana. You just took me by surprise, I didn't imagine that's what you wanted to know.
—I repeat, you don't have to tell me if you don't want to.
—I want to tell you. For the first time, I want to share that part of my life with someone important to me. Also, I think you need to know how it all happened. Lie down, Anastasia.
I did what he asked me to do. Christian started his massage again. And then he began to tell me his story. The one that nobody knew but him, and now me.