So...the title of this chapter really has nothing to do with it, well maybe somewhat, but I have had this song stuck in my head for weeks now, I absolutely love it. You should check it out. It's by Ron Pope. Anyways, enjoy today's chapter!

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Part 2: Chapter 12: A Drop In The Ocean

DPOV

This week has been amazing, everyday with Rose was better than the one before. The best part, I was able to actually stop thinking about baseball and the upcoming games. I was so distracted by being here, I couldn't be bothered to worry about what was still to come.

After the fishing incident with Ivan, I was in a great mood. I haven't laughed that hard in a very long time. It was nice to just hang out with my best friend and do something random. I was not a fisher by any means, but it sounded like something you should try once in life.

When we got back, however, my mood plummeted, rapidly. I had no idea Rose wanted to be a singer, I mean, I know she is amazing at it, but I didn't know she had already started recording and had made plans for a career. I was shocked to say the least and I guess it came off the wrong way. When she walked away, my heart broke and I wanted to go after her.

She yelled at me not to follow her, but I couldn't just let her wander around. I would worry myself sick if I just let her go off in the middle of the night. So I waited about five minutes after I heard the elevator ding for the bottom floor. If I knew my Roza as well as I hoped, she would be somewhere she could see the stars. She always like to look up at them when she was upset.

I walked around the pools for about ten minutes before I spotted her. She was talking to some guy. I couldn't see much, his back was to me, but I could see her. The emotions running on her face spoke volumes. There was anger, sadness, love and fear. I understood the anger and the love, but why sadness and fear. Well, maybe I could understand why she was sad, but fear, that I couldn't comprehend at all.

I watched them for several minutes, then she reached out to him, laying her hand on his. What was going on? She doesn't even know this guy and she is talking to him, in the middle of the night, in a secluded area, and she's touching him! My vision tinged in red. Calm down, calm down, it's probably not what you are thinking, Dimitri, I tried to reason myself.

I moved further into the shadows, trying my hardest for her not to see me, that would only make her more upset. After almost an hour of watching them, they were now laughing like hyenas, I walked away. Obviously, she is fine without you. That's why she wants to leave, she doesn't need you. The voice in the back of my mind was really pissing me off. She wouldn't just run off with the first guy she met, she wasn't like that. Besides, we just had a disagreement, we were still together, nothing has changed. We both just need to clear our heads and discuss our plans after we have had some sleep.

My mind however, was still running, there was no sleep in my future. I headed to the gym, desperate for some type of physical exertion that would occupy my mind for a while. I ran on the treadmill for five miles, then moved to the punching bag. I haven't resorted to that in a very long time, since I beat my father. I had taken boxing and martial arts as a kid. I was really good, too, but I poured my focus into baseball in my teenage years. As my fist made contact with the bag the first time, I felt an overwhelming power. Something I haven't felt since I was thirteen.

Again and again I hit the bag, making it swing back and forth. Throwing in a few combo hits here and there, I was starting to feel better. I let out all my pent up anger at the bag. Anger for making Roza upset and having her walk away. Anger for never being able to beat the shit out of Jesse for what he did. Anger for not being there for Roza while she battled her demons. Anger. That was all I could feel, my vision started to blur and I pushed harder. I started kicking out, going full battle mode on the enemies in my life.

Is this the beginning of the end? Will we be able to make it another year, two or five? How long will she stick around before finally growing tired of waiting for me? Does she want to go away and see what else the world offers, who else is out there? I can't lose her, but if that is what she chooses I will have to let her go. I never wanted to hold her back or give anything up, but could I walk away from the only woman I will ever love?

I have no idea how long I was at it for, I just kept going and going. Until I saw nothing,thought nothing, I blacked out.

RPOV

Where was he? Did he leave? No, he couldn't have, the keys to the SUV are here. His room key is gone, so he planned on returning from where ever he was. I pocketed my key and headed for Ivan and Vika's room, maybe he went to talk to his sister and best friend.

It took three rounds of knocking before Ivan finally opened the door. He was in his boxers and the lights were off in the room, they had been sleeping.

"Rose, what's wrong?"

"Dimitri and I got into an argument, have you seen him? He's not in our room."

"No, he never came by. If he was upset he is probably in the gym. You know he likes to run when he gets mad."

"I was headed there next, I was just hoping maybe he was with you guys. Sorry to wake you."

"It's okay, text me when you find him. Please."

"Yeah." I walked back down the hall and got back in the elevator.

As I approached the gym, I couldn't hear anything. If he was running, I would have heard it, but it was eerily quiet. Opening the gym door, my heart broke, Dimitri was in the fetal position on the ground. He must have really been upset. As I got closer, my heart almost stopped. There was blood and a lot of it.

"Dimitri! Dimitri, Wake up, baby!" I yelled for him, shaking his shoulder, he didn't respond.

I called Ivan and told him to get me some help, then I called 9-1-1.

"9-1-1, Where is your emergency?"

"Hi, my name is Rose Mazur and I am at the Henderson Resort, in the gym. My boyfriend is bleeding and he is not responding. Please help me."

"Remain calm ma'am, I am getting help sent that way. Can you check his breathing? Make sure he is on his back with his head tilted back slightly."

"Okay." I rolled Dimitri onto his back, glad to find his chest rising and falling evenly, checking his pulse, it was fast, really fast. "He is breathing okay, his pulse is a really fast though. He was working out, so maybe he hasn't been like this long."

"Okay, You're doing great, Rose, just keep an eye on him for me okay. Let me know if anything changes. You did say he was bleeding, where from?"

"His hands, he was using the punching bag."

He had to have been really mad for this to happen. Dimitri was always the calm, rational one. How could he be so angry to cause this much damage to himself and pass out. Ivan ran into the gym as I was having my internal battle. He took one look at Dimitri and his eyes showed recognition, he has seen this before.

"Ivan, do you know what happened?"

"I am guessing that he let out everything he has been holding back. I haven't seen this happen since we were teens."

The paramedics arrived just then and loaded him onto a stretcher. Ivan and I went back to get Viktoria and the keys to the car and followed the ambulance to the hospital. I called my Dad on the way to let him know what was going on. He offered to fly down right away, but I told him that it wasn't necessary right now. We were supposed to be on a plane in sixteen hours headed back to Tennessee anyways. I prayed Dimitri would wake up soon and there would be no lasting damage to him.

We waited for four hours, before I finally told Ivan to take Vika back to the hotel and try to catch some sleep. I would call them as soon as he woke up.

I sat next to his bed for another ten minutes, holding his hand and praying to whoever would listen. I was upset over multiple things right now, but my anger diminished as I looked at his face. He always looked so peaceful when he slept, no worries or cares about anything. I knew I would have to tell him about meeting Ben last night. I wasn't sure how he would take that, but hopefully once I explain why, he will be okay. I love him, no one else, one day he will completely understand that and we won't have these stupid fights.

I still couldn't comprehend why I let his words affect me so much. I knew in my heart he would never ask me to give up my dreams, that wasn't what he was trying to say. I did throw new information at him, he just didn't know how to react. But with my mother calling and everything, I guess I couldn't think straight. Just as I thought last night, I overreacted to his words and blew everything out of proportion. This is all my fault, I should have stayed and talked to him, I should have heard him out.

"Comrade, I am so sorry. I love you, you have to know that. Please, wake up so I can tell you again and again."

I squeezed into his side, resting my head on his shoulder and drifted off to sleep.

DPOV

I felt heavy, something was weighing down my right side. I opened my eyes, only to shut them immediately after, damn that light is bright. My throat felt rough and dry and my head was killing me. I shifted a little, trying to figure out what had my right side feeling so much heavier than my left. Something moved and the weight was gone. It was a body, Roza's body, I could smell her shampoo.

"Comrade, are you awake?"

"Ro...wa…." I couldn't talk, my voice was hoarse and I was so thirsty.

I felt something touch my lips, "Drink, slowly." she said.

I swear that water came from Jesus himself, because it was a sweet as wine right now. I tried to open my eyes again, slower this time. The bright lights hit me full force and I had to keep blinking. Finally, they adjusted and I looked into the brown depths of the woman I love.

"Roza, what happened?"

"I found you passed out on the gym floor. Your hands split and bleeding." She spoke so soft, I almost didn't hear her.

I tried to remember. I remembered fighting with Rose, her leaving and following her, even though she didn't know it. Seeing her talking to some guy, then going to the gym. The anger. My worrying thoughts. Punching and kicking the bag as if it would eliminate all the evil in my life.

"I was mad, really mad, I must have lost it for a minute. I remember using the punching bag, then I couldn't see right and then nothing."

"You blacked out, I found you and called 9-1-1. They got you banaged up, put you on a drip to rehydrate you, that's why you passed out. You were severely dehydrated when we came in."

"I didn't mean to go that far. I am sorry, Rose."

"I am just glad you are okay."

"No, I am sorry for arguing with you." she put a hand up.

"We can talk about that later. Right now, I need to get the Doctor to come look at you. Then we need to get you back to the hotel, we had to cancel the flight, we won't make it in time. Dad said, we can drive home or rebook and fly tomorrow." She leaned out the door to tell the nurse I was awake.

I thought about it for a minute, it would take seven hours with traffic to drive back to Tampa. It would take the same amount of time to just drive to Nashville. So we may as well just head home. Oh, that was going to cost a fortune to drop the car off in another state.

"We might as well drive straight home, it's the same distance either way. It's going to cost your father a lot of money though."

"He doesn't care about the money, Dimitri. As he put it, "Make sure my son returns in one piece"."

Abe has been calling me his son for some time now, but it still makes me happy to hear him address me that way to other people, especially Rose. The Doctor walked in and Rose excused herself. Saying she needed to call Ivan and let him know I was up.

"How are we feeling, Mr. Belikov?"

"Better. I think I was just over tired and exhausted too much energy."

"You can say that again. I don't recommend doing that kind of workout, when you are already physically and mentally tired. Anyhow, you are free to go, we give you plenty of fluids and you just need to take it easy for a few days. Make sure you take in at least a gallon of water a day. Keep your hands cleaned and bandaged during the day, you can take them off when you sleep."

"Thank you, Doc."

Rose returned with some clothes and I got dressed. My other ones were in a plastic bag, blood and sweat soaked the fabric. I walked out to the waiting area and was attacked by Viktoria.

"Dimka, don't you ever scare me like that again. Do you understand me!"

"I am sorry, Vika." I said, embracing my baby sister, I have always been closest to her. "You didn't tell Mama, right?"

She put her head down against my chest and stayed silent. Great, now I surely had a panicking mother to explain this to. She mumbled a "sorry" as she felt my body tense slightly.

"It's okay, I will call her when we get to the hotel."

With that, we took our leave from the hospital. The ride was quiet, no one was speaking of what had happened last night. I know Ivan and Viktoria had questions, that is, if Rose hadn't already told them about the fight. Thankfully, the drive was only about five minutes, I couldn't take the silence anymore.

Rose and I walked into our room and I fell straight onto the bed. I may have been asleep for the last ten hours, but it didn't feel that way. I was still exhausted. Rose walked around, packing up the last of our things. We were supposed to go on the catamaran sail this morning, I ruined that. Feeling my self loathing, she turned to me.

"Do you want to talk about it now, or are you going to sulk until we get home?"

"I don't even really know where to start. There is a million things running through my mind about what and how this happened."

"Start from the beginning, why were you so angry? I know we fought, I overreacted a bit, but I didn't think you were that upset."

"It wasn't the fight." I took a deep breath, to tell her why I got so upset, I had to tell her I did indeed follow her last night. "I saw you talking to some guy at the pool last night. You looked...happy. Before you yell at me for following you, I just wanted to make sure you were okay. I didn't like the idea of you being out in the middle of the night, in a unfamiliar place."

"I'm not mad, I figured you would come after me, but I expected you to come and talk to me. When you didn't I thought you stayed in the room, or went to talk to Ivan."

"I was going to, but you were talking to that guy. I didn't know what to make of you laughing and being so, I don't know, at ease with him. I starting thinking, maybe you didn't want to be with me anymore. So I walked away and went to the gym. I let out all the anger and frustration I had been holding in since Jesse."

She came over to the bed, sitting beside me and taking my hand in her tiny one.

"The guy I was talking to, his name is Ben. He found me crying and asked if I was okay. I don't know why I talked to him so much, but he reminded me of Adrian and myself, a bit. So I told him about our fight and he told me about himself. We are actually a lot alike, he has had some bad times, just like I have. So we talked, that's it. I told him if he needs a friend, he can trust me. I know what it's like to go through the darkness alone." she was almost whispering by the end.

I wasn't feeling great about the fact that she confided in a complete stranger, but I can see why she did it. She felt a kindred spirit, someone who had or was dealing with some of the same things she was. Still, I wasn't okay with it, sure she had other male friends, but I have known them since childhood. This guy, I didn't know at all. I let it go for now though, we could talk about him later.

"I am sorry, Rose. I didn't mean to make you feel like I wanted you to give up your dreams for me. I just...I don't want to be apart anymore. This week has shown me how much I long for you when we're away from each other. I don't want to do that anymore, but it will happen, no matter what. Both of us have to chase our dreams, but we will make this work."

That I was sure of, we would make it work. She is my life, my light, my soulmate, I would do everything I can to make it work.

"I know we will. Now, help me get the last little bit together so we can go home."

I helped her finish and we walked down to the lobby, meeting Ivan and Vika. I went to go and get the SUV, when I returned, the guy from last night was talking to Rose.

RPOV

"Are you going to tell us what really happened?" Vika asked as Dimitri left to get the car.

"We had an argument last night, he followed me and saw me talking to a guy I met by the pool. He got angrier, so he went to the gym and over exhausted himself." I tried to roll over the details, they didn't need to know everything.

I was still feeling a bit down after talking with him. I know why he got mad, I can understand. If the roles had been reversed and I saw him talking to an attractive female, I would have been pissed to.

"Are you guys okay now?" Ivan asked.

"Yeah, we will be. We still need to talk about what is to come for both our futures, but for now we are okay."

I saw Ben walk into the lobby from the back entrance and called him over. I was glad I had seen him, I didn't tell him we were leaving today and I wanted to say goodbye.

"Hey Ben, these are my friends, Viktoria and Ivan." I said, they shared small waves in acknowledgement.

"Where is Dimitri? I was hoping I could meet him."

"He's getting the car. We are headed home today."

"Oh, so soon, we just met." he chuckled. "Is everything okay now?"

"Yes, thanks again."

"No problem, thanks to you, I actually called home this morning, I decided that is where I need to be."

"That's great! Just remember, I am available if you ever need to talk."

I looked over to Vika and Ivan, they were watching our exchange with a strange look on their faces. Vika rose one eyebrow the same way Dimitri does, I always hated they could do that and I couldn't. I just shook my head at her, I would tell her more about Ben later.

"I will.." Ben started, but was interrupted by Dimitri walking in the door.

I wish I could describe the look on his face, well both their faces. Dimitri looked a little green with jealousy, but was trying hard to hide it. Ben, well he looked almost like he had seen a ghost. I figured he didn't meet many people that could tower him, but Dimitri sure did. Plus the fact that he is built like a tank, didn't help. Dimitri walked over and put his arm around my waist and kissed my hair, possessive much, men.

"Dimitri, this is Ben. Ben, My boyfriend, Dimitri."

"So this is the lucky man. It's nice to meet you." Ben said, reaching out to shake Dimitri's hand.

He took it like the gentleman he was, even if he gave him a death glare while doing so. I elbowed him lightly and gave him a look of my own.

"Yes, it's nice to meet you too, Ben. Thank you for looking out for My Roza last night." again, men.

"No problem at all. She was great company in my own pity party." he laughed and I joined him.

"We should be getting on the road, it's a long drive home." Dimitri said.

I looked over to Ivan and Vika again, they were still watching us all, same looks on their faces.

"I will talk to you later, Ben. I hope you get better with being back home." I reached forward and gave him a half hug, like one gives to a sibling, just so Dimitri wouldn't get mad.

"You too, Rose. Thanks again.", he looked a little sad. I understood, he just made a friend that understands him and we are going our separate ways. We could text and call, but honestly, having someone that knows your situation nearby helps a lot.

As we walked out to the car, I took one last look back. Ben was still standing in the middle of the lobby, small smile on his face as he gave me a wave. I returned with a full smile of my own. Dimitri may not like that I made a male friend, but I was happy. He was really a great person, even if I had only met him yesterday. I could just feel it, me and him would be friends for a long time.