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Chapter 26: Hidden Emotions

"Clara?" she looked at River. "Can I talk to you?"

"Sure."

"But not here. Jack wants to speak with the Doctor." Jack looked up at her.

"I do?" she hit his shoulder. "Yeah, I do. It really hurt Mels."

"I'm sorry! Come with me!" Clara nodded and followed River to another room. On the wall there were many notes.

"What are these notes?" she stepped closer to it. She couldn't read it because it was in gallifreyen.

"I made these notes about the Doctor so I can get to know him. My book is already full so I wrote it down on papers and put it on the wall."

"I see." Clara sat on the couch and River sat in front of her. "What did you want to talk about?"

"About the Doctor." Clara squeezed her skirt. Hearing the Doctor's name made her nervous and her heart was beating faster.

"A-about the Do-Doctor?" she stammered. She tried to be calm but in this moment it seemed impossible.

"Are you nervous?"

"Nooo." she shook her head.

"When I said the Doctor's name you stutter."

"I just…"

"You're confused. If I didn't understand my own feelings I would be confused too."

"What do you mean?"

"You feel something for the Doctor, right?"

"I…"

"You can tell me. I wanted to talk about you because of this."

"I don't know what I feel. I'm confused. Since Trenzalore it's like something changed between us."

"What do you mean?"

"Our relationship became stronger."

"Did you do something?"

"We kissed…"

"When?

"After Trenzalore… when the Doctor was weak…"

"And what was it like?"

"It was good…" all she could say because she remembered the kiss. She felt the Doctor's lips on hers, she felt his touch.

"Clara? Clara!" River clapped her hand. Clara woke up from her daydream. "Are you okay?"

"No, I'm not okay. I don't know what's happening to me." River stood up and sat next to her. She put her arm around her shoulder. Clara put her head on River's shoulder.

"I know you're confused. This is why I'm here. I want you to realize your own feelings. You said that you feel something for the Doctor, right?"

"Yeah, kind of."

"Tell me," Clara lifted her head, took River's hand and looked at her.

"I didn't feel anything at the beginning but recently, I realized how much I miss him when he's not around. When I'm with him I become nervous and my heart beats faster. My knees become weak. My skin heats up and every part of my body is shouting after him. I want him to hold me, kiss me and never let me go. I can't breathe when I'm with him."

"I see. No wonder you're confused. You don't understand your feelings and you become confused. You don't know what your heart saying."

"Why? What does it say?"

"You are the only one who knows the answer, Clara. I can't understand your own heart, but I can tell you something."

"What? Please, tell me!"

"What you told me, I can tell that you love the Doctor."

"Of course I do. He's my friend."

"No, you are in love with the Doctor." she was a bit surprised. When she was handcuffed on Missy's ship she discovered these feelings too.

"It can't be…"

"It's true, Clara. You fell for the Doctor."

"But I can't be in love with the Doctor! I just can't. It would never work."

"We can't help who we fell in love with. Just like Romeo and Juliet. You didn't chose who you fall in love."

"What should I do? I'm still so confused…"

"Listen! Who you should listen to is your heart. It's always tell you the right way."

"But I don't even know what my heart says."

"I can't help you with this, I'm sorry." Clara stood up.

"I'll take a walk."

"Will you find the way back?"

"I lived half of my life here. I'll be fine." River stood up too and hugged her.

"Just don't be away for too long!" Clara smiled.

"Okay." River let go of her and she left the room. She went to the main entrance but before she could leave in the corner of her eyes she glanced at the Doctor. Their eyes met. Clara blushed and left the house quickly.

~~OoO~~

After Clara and River left the dining room the Doctor looked at Jack.

"What did you want to talk about Jack?"

"Erm… well… It was just an excuse so Clara can go with Mels. But I want to talk with you when Mels is here."

"You two are in a very good relationship."

"Of course, we grow up together. I love her very much. She's like a sister to me."

"It was hard for you and her to grow up like this. Why didn't you tell me this sooner?"

"Because I knew that you and Clara will meet one day. You know very well that you shouldn't say everything about the future especially yours."

"It took time to know who River is." after a minute of silence Jack asked him.

"What do you think of my sister, Doctor?"

"Clara? She's very different from the Ponds. She's extraordinary. And I really care about her. She's very important to me. She's the one who hold me back from my dark side. She did this when I first met her here. She brought me back to real life. She told me to go back to the Ponds and be with them as long as I can."

"And do you feel something for her?"

"What do you mean?"

"You love her, right?"

"Of course I do. She's very special to me."

"The way you look at each other, I can tell that you don't love her as a friend."

"You want me to say that I'm in love with her, don't you? Okay, fine. Yes, I really love her. I loved her from the very beginning. The connection between us got stronger since Trenzalore. The elves told me that when I returned to the place where we first met."

"Well, it was easier than I thought. Then why didn't you tell her?"

"Lot of things happened to her. She learned that she has a brother, she met her father and she don't know what River gave her when she was a baby. I shouldn't tell her right now. Maybe she doesn't feel the same way."

"I think you're wrong. I can tell that she loves you. She just doesn't realize her own feelings. Mels wanted to speak with her because of it like I should do it with you. It seems like I had an easier job." in that moment the door opened and Clara stepped out and walked to the door. She stopped and glanced at the Doctor. He looked at her. Their eyes met for a second. She quickly left the house. "Okay. That was weird." River stepped in the dining room and sat next to Jack. "Well?"

"We should leave her alone for a bit. She has a lot to think about. But if we're talking about this. Doctor…"

"I talked about it with Jack, River. I know what I feel for Clara. The elves told me. But I can't tell her. She has a lot of problems and she doesn't need another one." the Doctor stood up and went to the entrance.

"Where are you going?" River asked. The Doctor was staring at latch. "You are going after her?" he looked at her.

"She'll need me."

"How do you know?"

"Because I'll need her. She's scared and she'll need someone." the Doctor stepped out of the house.

~~OoO~~

Clara was walking in London's streets hands in her pockets. She didn't watch where she's going. She was thinking. The people stared at her because of her weird clothes but she didn't listen to them. She was thinking about the Doctor. River is right. I really feel something for the Doctor. I love him. I really do. But should I risk our friendship because of my feelings? What if he doesn't love me like I do? I couldn't manage the pain what I would feel. I couldn't bare the pain. – she thought. She went to a bridge and sat down on the ground. She hugged her knees and sighed.

"What should I do? The Doctor would hate me if I told him."

"You're wrong, Clara." she lifted her head. The Doctor was standing in front of her. In that moment she realized how tall is the Doctor. He stands above people. Humans must look speck of dust in his eyes.

"How did you find me?" he sat next to her. Their shoulders touched.

"I just followed my feelings. I will always find you because you pull me to yourself. Like a magnet."

"Why did you come after me?"

"Because I know you're scared. But however scared you are, you should know that I'm here for you."

"I'm not scared."

"You are. You're scared of your own feelings." she pulled her legs closer to her. How can the Doctor know her so well?

"Why do you know me so well?" he took her hand.

"Because Clara Oswald, you are special. To me you are a very special person and I will always be there for you. I get to know you. I know when you're lonely, scared or happy. It's written in your face and I can see that." she put her head on his shoulder.

"Then you know what I feel."

"If you're hiding it from me then I won't know." he put his hand on her shoulder and turned her to himself so he can look into her eyes. "But I know that you care about me like I do and it's good." he took out something from his pocket and put it in her hand.

"What's this?" he kissed her hand.

"I'll give you something very important piece of my life." she looked at her hand. It was a TARDIS key. She looked up at him.

"A key to the TARDIS?"

"Yes. You're really important to me. I'm not giving free key to my home to everyone. And because you're not with me all the time you'll need it. You're building a beautiful life to yourself. Don't give that up! But don't find someone else to my place!" Clara laughed and hugged him.

"How can I find someone else who can step in your place? There are not too many mad man who wears bow ties on Earth."

"Oi! Bow ties are cool."

"I know." she kissed his cheek. "Thank you."

"You're welcome. I think we should go back and go somewhere else?"

"And where should we go, chin boy?"

"Oi! What is wrong with my chin?"

"It's your nickname. I like it." Clara stood up.

"Well, I don't."

"It's your own problem. Come on!" she held out her hand. "Let's go and drink a coffee, chin boy!" the Doctor smiled. He stood up and took her hand.

"Okay."

"It's a date. You pay."

"What man would I be if I didn't pay a coffee for a lady?"

"A dalek."

"Very funny." they went back to the house to say goodbye then they went to the best coffee shop in the world. They both know that they love each other but they don't want to tell. Not yet. While they can act like friends then it is unnecessary to tell the truth. Inside they both know what the other feel. That's why they don't need words. It's enough if they can be together…