Authors Note- Alright, Friday is here. I hope you guys enjoy this chapter and your weekend!
Disclaimer- S. Meyer owns all things Twilight.
Chapter Song: I'm Here to Take The Sky- Destroy Rebuild Until God Shows (DRUGS)
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January 8th
Wednesday
BPOV
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It was my last day of freedom before school started. I took my time sleeping in, seeing as I had the day off of work; thank god. At around ten I got out of bed and tossed my hair up in a ponytail, put on a pair of shorts and a fitted pullover hoodie. I was planning on going down to get some breakfast and work out at the fitness center in the main floor of Third Avenue North.
I really like the building itself, and most things about the area. There are plenty of residential brownstones, movie theaters and small shops. Also some music clubs and a variety of restaurants, they are almost at every corner.
The great part is that by car it's five minutes from RBC coffee shop where I work, the only downside is that it's not that close to campus that much. But there is good parking so I can drive to Washington Square for the day and just walk around to my classes
But the rooms are spacious, and in each residence hall until have its own bath, kitchen and dining area, and it's pretty nice to have it so close instead of sharing shower units in one big room with a whole bunch of girls. It's all like small apartments, which is pretty nice. The kitchen has a fridge, stove, oven and sink. Then a small dining area with an even smaller table, but it's cool. Makenna brought silverware, pots, pans and plates, which is pretty nice. I had some wooden spoons, whisks and a few other appliances from when I had the apartment in December and November, so I was able to add to that, but I did also bring the television, too. We also have free internet and our own number to share in the room, even though we do have cell phones, but it's nice to have a main phone. We also have cable, and luckily I had connecting cords and what not. As for laundry, there is one main room in the resident hall to do it ourselves.
Then we have the study lounge, TV lounge, music and practice rooms, the main courtyard, fitness center ( which I definitely will make use of), the game room and a mini-theater, which I bet nobody will use because of the theater so close to us that we can walk there.
In the dining hall I had a turkey and avocado wrap and then went to the fitness center to do some running. Not many people were in here, but I popped in my ear buds and started running on the treadmill. I jogged for about an hour before going upstairs to shower and get dressed.
Once I was dressed I decided to head out and explore more of New York. I stopped at the Starbucks on 2nd Avenue and 9th and got myself a Peppermint Mocha and walked deeper into downtown to the shops, completely unable to resist going into Forever 21 and a few other shops. I bought a few things, but didn't want to spend too much.
As I was stepping out of the grocery store with two bags of things, I was heading to my car when I saw someone leaning against it casually. My entire body froze when I saw his face, and my heart leapt in my chest. It took everything in me not to drop all of my bags and run to him. Then I remember I had bread and that it wouldn't look good flat. I strode towards him, keeping my balance in my black ankle boots.
When I was face to face, standing less than a foot away from him I felt both of his hands come up to gently cradle my face. I moved from him and wretched open my door to the truck, setting the bags down on the bench seat before I turned to him and wrapped my arms tightly around his mid-section; holding him so tight that I was sure it proabably hurt. He didn't say anything to me, he just held me and rested his chin on the top of my head, rubbing my back softly and holding onto me just as tightly as I held him.
My body shuddered, not from the cold air, but from the familiar touch that set my body ablaze, and only he could do that to me. Edward was the only man who could make me feel the way I did in that moment.
" You're here." I choked out in pure disbelief.
" Don't cry, Angel." he whispered.
" What are you doing here? I mean, when did you get back?" I asked, pulling away from him.
He took both of my hands and rested them against his chest. " Last night I flew in. I came out today, and when I saw your car I just...Bella, I can't be away from you anymore. I've missed you so much."
" I missed you, too."
His arms locked around my waist and he held me closely to him. I sighed as I let myself go slack against him and let my body remember this feeling. It felt like forever. My entire body tingled and I felt his cold lips on my temple.
" I missed you so much, fuck, Bella. You have no idea."
" Everybody is probably staring at us."
" I know."
" We need to talk sometime." I whispered.
" Can it wait?" he asked hopefully.
" Only for a little while." I replied.
He lifted me up into his arms and I wrapped my legs around his waist, holding him in a tight grip. It felt like it had been years since I felt him against me like this. He held me up, his arms strong and his embrace warm and comforting. God, I'd missed this so much, feeling the tingling sensation just when he touched me, the feeling of being safe and secure; knowing nothing can hurt me,
I didn't care about all of the people around us, watching and probably thinking we were crazy and too affectionate.
This was a moment I'd always remember.
Too soon he set me down and pressed his lips to my forehead.
" How'd you get out here?" I asked.
" A friend."
" Oh, okay."
He wrapped his arms around my waist, " Do you happen to know someone else who can drive me around since I was ditched?"
" Maybe."
" Nice earrings." he complimented, sweeping my hair behind me.
I couldn't fight the smile, " Thanks, you might know the person who bought them for me."
" Sounds like a somewhat nice guy."
I shrugged and he leaned down once more and kissed my forehead, my cheeks, my nose, my chin...
" I adore you." he whispered, pressing his forehead to mine.
I wrapped my hand around his, " I love you."
" I love you, too. So much. I hope you never forgot that."
My head shook back and forth, " Never."
" Have you been okay here, all alone?"
" Edward, I can take care of myself." I said in a slightly defensive tone.
He cupped my cheek gently and rubbed his thumb over my cheekbone, " I know, you're a badass bitch, remember?"
I leaned into him once again, breathing in his scent. It smelled like he was wearing cologne, but there was also the familiar musk and cinnamon smell lingering.
" Want to go get some coffee or something?" he asked, running his fingers through my hair.
" I already got myself coffee earlier, but we can go anyways."
" Okay."
Edward kissed the top of my head before getting in on the other side of the car. I started it up and the engine roared to life. When he shut the door I leaned back and looked at him. He just smiled at me and grabbed my hand. Arriving at starbucks, I sat down on one of the couches while he got his coffee and then joined me. Probably trying to be respectful, he sat a good two feet away from me.
I cocked my eyebrow at him before scooting closer and leaning into him.
" I don't care that we had a falling out, or that you've been gone; we can talk about all of that after today. I just want to be close to you." I told him quietly.
His arm wrapped around my waist and sipped his coffee, " Okay." he said just as softly as I spoke.
" How was home?"
" Alright. I missed you like hell."
" How's school going?"
" Good, I like it. You excited to start?"
I nodded, " Yeah, I've been working constantly."
" Where?"
" RBC Coffee shop."
" Oh, really? They have great cider."
I squeezed his hand and chuckled quietly at him.
After we got coffee, Edward asked me if he could drop me off on campus. I did, and wasn't exactly happy about having to let him go, but he had my number, and I had his. He promised to call me tomorrow so we could go out to dinner and talk about things. He left me with a long, lingering kiss on my forehead. I wondered if he was purposely not actually kissing me; but I didn't let it get to me.
When I got back to the dorms, I slinked into my bed after a long day and looked at a picture of us from the summer that Alice took. We'd been napping on the loungers outside his house, our bodies tangled together with a beach towel covering our legs. The second picture in the frame was us at Prom. I smiled and went to my closet, grabbing a t-shirt, and then pajama shorts from the bin under my bed. With my hair tossed up, I went into the kitchen and unloaded the two bags of things. It was just cereal, bread, Jalapeño Frito's, Amp energy and a few other addictions of mine.
In my bedroom I opened up the window, feeling the cool air on my skin. I leaned out the window as I smoke a cigarette, I didn't want the smell in the room considering at the end of the month the DA comes in to check our rooms and the apartment's overall condition. When I was finished I put the filter in the pack and secured it in a drawer.
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When I awoke the next morning, it was the obnoxious sound of Makenna's alarm going off.
In the .room.
I groaned and rolled over, glad that my first class was at ten thirty. The alarm stopped and I sighed, curling up in my blanket and ignoring the sound of her bumping around. It sucked that the walls were thin, but at least we had our own rooms.
Three hours later at nine I got out of bed. Makenna was long gone and I got in the shower and got ready for the day. I let my hair air dry while I did my makeup and got dressed in my boots, a pair of dark wash skinny jeans, and a lace long sleeved shirt with a wide v-neck line over it that fell slightly off my shoulders. I took time curling my long hair, sprayed on my perfume and went into the kitchen to eat some cereal, and then brush my teeth. I never understood why people brushed their teeth and then ate breakfast...
After loading up my heavy as fuck school bag, I got into my car and headed to Washington Square, main campus. I knew my classes after having touring around so I wouldn't be running around campus like a fucking idiot not knowing where to go.
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I had a Journalism and Society class, Journalism and Literature, Methods and Practice, Journalism Seminar, Journalistic Inquiry and Topics in Media Criticism. All these classes I was going to be taking throughout the entire week. I didn't have to take an extra required math classes, because I had taken them all in high school so I wouldn't have to take them here. Thank fuck.
Today, Wednesday, I only had Topics and Media Criticism from ten thirty to one and the Journalism and Society from four to six thirty. I liked my professors, they seemed nice and I enjoyed them pretty well.
Monday I had Journalism and Literature, and it was from noon to two fifteen, and then I had two thirty to five Journalism and Society class, and then had an hour and a half to get something to eat before I had my class at six thirty to nine thirty Seminar class.
Tuesday I had Journalistic Inquiry at eight in the morning until ten thirty, and then a class from twelve fifteen until two which was Methods and Practice.
Thursday was only Journalism Seminar from six thirty at night until nine thirty, which kind of sucked considering it was my only class that day.
Friday was Journalism and Literature but it was at eleven until one fifteen, and then Methods and Practice from one thirty until two forty five.
Between that schedules, I worked a little bit, but still made sure I would have time for homework and what not. I was really looking forward to all the classes, and my first day had actually gone pretty fantastically.
On my way back to Third North, I stopped at a Jimmy John's on campus and picked up a sandwich because I'd not even really had that much of a dinner. When I got back to my dorm, my great day didn't end.
As I walked through the door, my phone went off and I saw it was Edward calling me. Immediately I answered the phone to talk to him. He wanted us to go out tomorrow and talk, but I had class tomorrow from six thirty to nine thirty, and the hours didn't mix. We planned instead to meet on Friday, because my last class gets out at two forty five, and his at around six. So we planned to meet up at seven at Red Lobster
Makenna was back by ten that and we watched Friend's on my television. Hey, at least the girl liked that show. I could stand her a little bit more. Edward was going to be surprised when I told him this. I just hoped it wouldn't be awkward.
" So, what's your boyfriend's name?" Makenna asked randomly. " You never did tell me."
I kept my face composed and casually looked over at her, trying to pull out an effortless look. but what the hell, I probably looked scared.
" Uh...Edward."
She laughed, " Really? I dated an Edward, in high school. He was so hot. Also my first, but then I totally got with his best friend. Plus, Edward was like all about his medical problems. He had all these issues, and had something stupid called like...Martians something. I don't know. Well, his family was all about that after, and he was like depressed. So I just moved on. He was pretty good in bed though for his first time."
" I see." I said shortly, trying not to claw her eyes out at the last comment.
" Yeah, well, he's probably ugly now or something. Wait, you said you met in Forks? and his name is Edward?"
" Look, Ma-"
Her phone saved the fucking day.
Again.
Praise the lord, her phone.
"Whatever, as I said, my ex is ugly probably. And I know you wouldn't date him. You look like a preppy guy type, huh?" she said before answering her phone.
Fuck you, bitch.
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My second and third day of classes was also pretty great, and when I got to the coffee shop for work I was stuck with Kelsey. She's a bitch to me for some reason I don't even know, but it was only a few hours this afternoon after school, and then I could go see Edward. I'd driven to work today, because I didn't exactly want to walk in my Jimmy Choo ankle boots. I also wore a pair of dark skinny jeans, a grey sweater with short gathering sleeves, with a sharp dropped blazer, and then used my colorful coach bag for color.
I curled my hair and went the extra mile with makeup, something I haven't done in awhile.
Work seemed to go by quick, and when I found myself walking towards the table at Red Lobster towards Edward, everything seemed so surreal. He slipped out of the booth and took me into his arms briefly, kissing the top of my head. I smiled and set my bag down at the end of the bench, and slipped my blazer off.
" Hey." I breathed.
" Hi."
I smiled at him and grabbed my menu. A waitress came over for drinks and we also gave her our food order. I already knew what I wanted and Edward had been here first so he'd already gotten a chance. After the waitress left, Edward leaned back with a sigh; staring at me.
" Where do we start."
" I'm rooming with your ex." I blurted out without thought.
He looked confused, " What?"
" Makenna? You're ex-girlfriend? Yeah, she's my fucking roommate. Small world, huh?"
" You're messing with me."
" Nope."
" Wow...Uhm, is that going okay?"
" Well, she doesn't know I'm with you. She told me all about your nice relationship, and how you got 'Martians something'. Apparently she failed two years in high school, and she just started this semester because her dad 'pulled some strings'."
Edward laughed, " Seriously?"
" Yeah. She also called you hot, and then finished off by saying you're probably ugly now."
He frowned, " That's discouraging."
" You aren't ugly, knock it off."
" I'm just going to be upfront. I'm not going to be a fucking pansy ass and dance around it. We should have talked more. A lot more. And I shouldn't have been insensitive towards the end. I know your tough, but I think we both know the vulnerability and dependency when it comes to each other. I'm a fucking, man, but I'll admit it. "
I nodded and let him have the table so to speak.
" Bella, I'm sorry for all of the stupid fights that I started, about all of it; especially when it came to James. I was acting like an insecure little bitch, and you didn't deserve to deal with that. I flat out told James I wanted him to keep an eye on you, and I was contradicting my words when I told you everything I did. And the whole drunk text situation… All of it was completely out of line and it only added to a downfall, but I hope you know that nothing happened that night. I wanted us to go on a break because I didn't want us to be ruined... I didn't want to continue on that path and have it all come crashing down on our fucking heads. When you couldn't make it out to Halloween, fuck I was devastated. The first few weeks were hard here without you, and I should have thought it was just the same for you. When I thought about Halloween, I was so excited. I know that your life can't revolve around me and the same for you. I should have understood that you had work, and not ignored you when you called. I feel like an asshole for doing that to you, because you'd never do that to me; ever. I just hope you understand that I know I made those mistakes, and I am sorry about it."
" I'm sorry, too..I freaked out over stupid things...And about Halloween; Edward I wanted to be there but I couldn't. I was working so much to get my mind off of you not being there, and I know that I was starting to act distant and bitchy. I shouldn't have gotten drunk at James' though. I knew it was a bad idea then, and I know it now. Nothing happened, but after his confession that summer I should have been careful anyways. Both you and I had expressed what we felt about the situation, and I should have respected the fact that you didn't feel comfortable with me getting drunk with James. But you need to trust me."
" I did trust you. It was my insecurity of us being so far away from you. I felt like I couldn't protect you and that's all that I've wanted to do all along. And you weren't acting bitchy; I knew why you were getting distant. It's what you do when you're upset, and I can't blame you. I apologize for everything, but I won't apologize for having us take a break. We both needed to be able to get what we needed straightened out. I wish that I could have been there when everything with your dad happened, though."
" It's not your fault, Edward. I wanted you to come here. This was your dream, and I wouldn't have ever made you give it up. You belong here, Edward. You deserve to live out your dream after all of the things you've been through."
" Don't you see that you do, too." he said, reaching out to stroke my jaw.
" That's irrelevant."
" Bella..."
" We need to forgive and move on. Both of us are here now. So unless that break embargo is still on..."
He rolled his eyes, " Have you not heard me you stubborn, beautiful girl? I want to be with you. I can't not be with you."
" Is this the cheesy moment when we say we need to start over?"
" We aren't cheesy or typical."
" I know."
Edward gave me a playful smirk, " I say we pick up from the night I left."
I rolled my eyes at him and he grabbed my hand over the table.
" Of course."
" Bella, I love you." he said, his eyes holding all the emotion that I could feel in the world.
" I love you, too."
He smiled and used his thumb to rub circles on my palm soothingly. I marveled at the feeling of his hand in mine, missing the feeling so much more than I had actually thought.
" How was your first days at class?"
" Good. I like it."
" I knew you would. Now we've just got to get you out to party."
" I'll save that for my roommate."
" God, I can't even believe that. How fucking awkward is that?"
I shrugged and leaned back on the bench, stabbing the food with my fork, " What, you don't want to have your previous girlfriend who you had sex with, with your recent girlfriend you have sex with to be in the same room?"
" You said 'have' not 'had'. Does that insinuate something?"
I rolled my eyes at him," You are such a guy."
He chuckled, " Fuck, I missed you. You know how badly I am dying to kiss you right now."
" I don't kiss until after the date."
" Hilarious. Do you maybe want to come to my dorm tonight? Brett is probably party-ing it up somewhere tonight and I want to spend some time with you."
" Okay."
He changed the subject, " Have you talked to your father at all since you've been here?"
" Not once."
" I wish I could have been there for you through it. I've hated not being able to see you...Your hair got really long."
I touched a lock with my finger, " Yeah. I haven't gotten it cut. Nice of you to notice."
" I missed your scent, your laugh, your fucking beautiful brown eyes. I missed everything about you. Even the way you get all defensive and I-can-do-it-myself when I try to help you with something."
" You know how to flatter a girl."
" Mm, not just any girl. My girl."
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When we got to Juilliard after a ride in my car, Edward had led me up to his dorm immediately, seeming very eager for me to see where he was living. He lived in a very nice building, hell; the buildings for classes were really nice. Edward definitely was not slumming it. He lived in the Rose Building, which was absolutely awesome with not only construction wise, but the view that it had.
Once he opened up his room, I looked around at the small space. Edward's bed was on the left with his desk at the end and a closet and organized space for his things. Everything seemed well put together, although his bed wasn't made; it was almost flawless. His music lay across the desk, his laptop there and a few books open. He had bins under his bed also, like I did.
But his roommate's side, Brett, was a total mess. Clothes were strewn everywhere and just all of his things lying on the floor on his side or on his bed. His desk wasn't even recognizable at this point; it was covered with empty soda cans, more clothes, papers and books with bent pages.
" Sorry about my slob of a roommate."
" It's not a big deal."
The walls in here were actually painted, and they were a dark red. I went over and sat on his bed, seeing my pillow tossed over it. I picked it up and it was saturated in his scent instead of mine as it once had been.
" Smells like you."
" Unfortunately."
He sat next to me and held my hand. I ran my free hand over his bed sheets and Edward stood up and shrugged off his jacket to hang it up. The room had a thick, manly smell to it, not in a bad way. I could smell Old Spice, Edward's rich cologne, Axe body spray, cinnamon and a slightly sweet scent that smelt a little bit like girls perfume.
" It smells like girl's perfume." I noted.
" Go over by his bed. I swear to god, I've walked in on him having sex more times than I can count."
" You're seeing naked women that aren't me?"
He chuckled, " I've seen a few scrawny asses or five. Maybe some boobs...Everything pales in comparison to you. Your ass is the cutest I've ever seen."
The clock said that it was eight twenty, and I was glad I was able to spend a few hours with him before leaving. Dorm hours on Friday for mine were all night, and for the rest of the days, Saturday through Thursday, were until midnight. His room was warm, and I stood up slowly and slipped my jacket off, draping it lightly over Edward's desk chair. I looked around the room for a moment before settling my eyes on him.
He sat back on his bed, long legs crossed at the ankles in an elegant manner. His eyes were on mine, and I felt myself shiver under his gaze. Edward watched me as I sat down on his bed, and I felt him reach forward to grasp my ankle. He slipped my shoes off, dropping them next to his bed.
" As I've always said, sexy as hell, but you should take them off."
I smiled and kneeled up on the bed, wrapping my arms around his neck. Our eyes connected and I leaned my body into his, his eyes slowly closing in a lusty gaze.
" Kiss me?"
He didn't have to be asked twice.
His lips crashed down on mine in a searing kiss and it was something so different from all the kisses we've shared. I felt all of the longing and want, the desperation and finally the meeting of a kiss that we've been waiting for.
My fingers wound through his bronze hair, and his hand touched my waist, squeezing gently. I wrapped my free arm around him and pressed my chest to his. The feeling of his body against mine was breathtaking, and I felt him slowly lying back on the bed.
Every nerve in my body was on edge, and I finally felt connected to him again. It had been so long since I'd felt his lips on mine. The passion and now the love that was put into it made it even more intense. I didn't want to let him go. It had been too long.
His lips were soft and urgent against mine, and the way his tongue flicked over my lip ring drove me absolutely crazy as it always has. I only returned the favor and earned a quiet noise from him in return. Nothing felt rushed, but it was still fierce and lust-filled. I rested my body on top of his, melting slowly into him.
I felt him shifting below me, and his firm grip on my waist suddenly found me being pushed to the edge of the bed with him above me, straddling my waist as he moved his hips against mine in a slow rhythm.
" God I missed this." he moaned, slanting his mouth over mine and delving his tongue into my mouth, cradling my face in his hands.
I ran my hands down his sides and returned his kiss, giving into him and letting my body take over for awhile. His hands moved over me, as if he was re-familiarizing himself with my body and what I enjoyed. Just feeling his hands on me was enough to set me on fire. The feel of his soft tongue on mine, massaging against my own and tasting my mouth. God, it left me breathless.
We laid in his bed after making out in his bed shamelessly like the teenagers we were. I lay with my head on his chest, my hand resting on his stomach with slow movements. His hand ran up and down my arm, making me doze off just the slightest. I always slept better in his arms. Peaceful.
" I missed this." he murmured.
" I did, too."
" Just laying with you...It's enough."
I snuggled into his chest and ran my hand over his stomach and his rib cage. He'd gotten skinnier, if that was even possible. He's always been so skinny. I knew that he wasn't the only one who lost weight though.
" You need to gain some weight. I can tell you lost some."
" Just a little. Don't worry." he assured, kissing my forehead.
" I can't not worry."
" You know how many nights I'd dream of this...I'd tell myself that you were waiting outside the building to get in, and I'd sneak you in, and we'd come up here."
I smirked, " Is that the end of that fantasy?"
" Mm, well...It included some lingerie...and some really tight shorts and a tank top. Maybe we'd sneak into bed for a little something."
" Only a little?"
" Okay, alot."
I smiled and buried my face into his neck, laughing and missing being silly with him and talking about mindless things.
" Do you think that if we couldn't make it long distance, that we won't be able to..."
" To, what, Edward?"
" Long-term."
I sat up and looked at him.
" No. When I'm with you everything is fucking perfect. And things were okay when we were away from each other, I just missed you so much that it drove me a little crazy and I lost sight of the important things."
" You're not worried?"
I shook my head and ran my hand down his jaw, " No, because I'm not going anywhere."
Edward smiled, " I wouldn't let you anyways. You're fucking mine, now."
He leaned down to kiss me fiercely before resting his head next to mine, his face close to mine.
" I still can't believe those assholes at Columbia didn't accept you."
" It doesn't matter. NYU is great, and it's ten minutes away from what I need most. Yeah, Columbia would have looked good down the line for jobs, but this will suffice."
We laid in Edward's bed for awhile, talking about what had been going on while he was gone, and also laughing about other things. Unfortunately, at some point, I had to head back to my dorm because it was a little late. He walked me downstairs and gave me a long, lingering kiss by the car, whispering that he couldn't wait to see me soon.
And I couldn't wait either.
Authors Note- Back together, but there are still a lot of things to work out. Like what happens when Summer comes around? What about Charlie? Hmmm,
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