A/N: Okay, guys I'm back with a wonderful new chapter!!!!!!! I got SOOOOOOOOOOO many reviews for the last two chapters and I AM SOOOO HAPPY because of it!!!! I'm throwing out a special thanks to EVERYONE who reviewed…THANK YOU!!!!! (I'm sleep deprived, therefore semi-crazy right now) To the story!!!!!!

Disclaimer: Emmett: *calling off stage* Okay….who's responsible for not letting dancingwithEdward sleep?

Jasper *off stage*: Umm, you! You wouldn't leave her alone!! You were tickling her, pranking Edward-making her laugh insanely, threatening to burn Alice's favorite clothes…do I really need to continue?

Emmett: *remembering everything now* Oh, well seeing as she is too busy bouncing off walls-like Alice when I drug her food-I guess I gotta do the disclaimer thingy….*sigh* dancingwithEdward does not own Twilight!!!!!!! Now that that's done…..Oh EDDIE!!!!!!!!! I'M TAKING THE VOLVO FOR A SPIN!!! *runs off stage*

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EPOV

Okay, what am I going to do? How can I just go into her house and…talk to Bella about this? Alice was right, this wasn't the type of thing you discuss with your ex. I sighed.

By now I was standing under Bella's window again. All of the lights in the house were off, so she'd be going to sleep right now. I wouldn't want to wake her up, I mean that's rude…..No, I have to do this now! I took a deep-and quite unnecessary-breath, scaled her wall, and slipped through her window.

Her breathing was barely even, meaning that she was barely falling asleep. I considered waking her up, but after watching her sleep the past week I noticed that she tended to wake up in the middle of the night anyway. So, I'd just wait. I moved and sat against the wall with the window and prepared to wait, thinking about how this was going to go.

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BPOV (dream)

I was terrified. I hadn't dreamed about this in years. I was standing in the middle of the forest, looking around in panic. I was looking for something. No, someone…like the last time I've had these nightmares.

But, unlike those dreams, I found him.

He was standing with his back turned to me, his entire body rigid. I ran over to him, relief flowing through me that it wasn't exactly like those dreams. The closer I got, the more tense he became. Why was he so tense? I tentatively placed my hand on his arm from behind.

" Edward?" I asked. " What's wrong?" he flinched away from my touch and whipped around. I saw his face, and my heart stopped.

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EPOV

I was just sitting there, thinking about how I was going to bring up the subject, when the most frightening thing happened.

Bella's heart stopped.

I was by her side in a second. " Bella!" I called softly-so as not to wake up the kids. Maybe she was having a nightmare and just got scared. Maybe she was sick. Maybe it was stress.

I stopped thinking about maybe's when her heart stuttered back to life. I breathed a sigh of relief and made my way back to the wall. I didn't want to scare her when she was awake by being too close.

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BPOV

His eyes held the same expression as they always did when he starred in my dreams. Disgust and hatred.

" Bella, you can say you're sorry as much as you'd like, but that doesn't mean I forgive you." he hissed. I dropped my hand and stepped away. He was right. No matter how many times I apologized to him, it didn't take away the damage. It didn't make it right. It didn't mean he'd automatically forgive me.

I could apologize until the day I die, with my last dieing breath, and it wouldn't do any good.

" I'm so-"

" I don't want to hear it!" and with that, he turned his back on me and ran away from me.

" COME BACK!!!!!!" I shot up in my bed, breathing erratically and drenched in sweat. I just sat there for a minute, trying to control my heart when I heard a soft scraping noise coming from the window.

I looked over, and my heart stopped.

" AH!" I screamed, grabbing my chest and trying to get my breath back. He held very still for a moment before taking a cautious step forward.

" I'm sorry." he said quietly. I blinked rapidly.

" Yeah. Just. Give. Me a minute. To restart. My heart." I gasped out, and I really couldn't help the warm feeling that spread through my body as I remembered this whole scene playing out before-only with reversed placements. I vaguely heard him chuckle softly as he remembered also. I took a few deep breaths before I was sure I was calm.

" What are you doing?" I asked him, pulling the blankets off of me and getting out of bed. I flipped on the light and crossed my arms, looking at him, waiting for an answer. He looked sheepish and…embarrassed? Why on earth would he be embarrassed?

" I needed to talk to you." he said, looking down. This confused me.

" And it couldn't wait?" I asked. He shook his head, not looking up. I've never seen him like this. Sure he usually didn't look at me when I was speaking with him or he to me, but he has never held this stance before. The air around him felt as if he were nervous, embarrassed, and unsure. Oh god, I'm turning into Jasper.

" Okay, but let's talk in the kitchen. I need a drink anyway." I said, turning and walking out the door without waiting for an answer. But, instead of heading for the stairs, I headed for Al's room.

" The kitchen?" he asked me quietly. I chuckled, peeking my head in her door. Yep, I saw her curled up in her blankets. Then I checked Owens room, he was there sprawled out on his bed with the blankets strewn on the floor-a little drool rolling out of his mouth I might add. I laughed and checked on Grace-sleeping like an angel of course.

Edward was looking at me with his eyebrows raised.

" When Al and Owen were two, they had a phase where they slept walk." I said heading for the stairs. " One time I woke up and they weren't in there beds. Actually, they weren't in the house." I shuddered as I remembered how scared I was at that. Waking up and finding that your two toddlers weren't sleeping and weren't in the house has to be the worst feeling any mother could have.

" Where were they?" he asked as we reached the base of the stairs. I chuckled.

" In the tree in the backyard. Curled up on the lowest branch, with a tiny kitten in between them. They woke up as I was getting them down, and I asked what they were thinking, and they said 'the kitty was lonely'." we both laughed at that. I grabbed the cup from the sink that I'd used when Alice was here, washed it, and then filled it with water.

Edward was standing against the doorframe, looking unsure. I took a sip of water.

" You wanted to talk to me?" I reminded him. He nodded his head. I took another sip of water and hoisted myself up on the counter, waiting for him to say something.

" Can I ask you something?" he asked me. Being around three teenagers, I mentally said you just did, but I knew better than to say that aloud. I shrugged taking a longer sip of water. " What happened between you and Jacob?" he asked.

Water sprayed from my mouth. What can I say? I wasn't expecting him to ask that question. I blinked, wiped my mouth with my arm, and looked at him to see if he was serious. He was looking at me intently. So this was why he was so unsure, he didn't know whether to ask or not. He was quiet, waiting for an answer.

I blinked again. This wasn't really the conversation I wanted to have with him. AT least not now.

" Ummm," what to tell him. " it just didn't work." I said, refilling my cup. Please take the bait and don't ask anymore. I looked at him when he didn't say anything and saw a skeptical look on his face.

" Can you be any more specific?" he asked quietly. I shrugged again. I really didn't feel like being specific right now. Especially not now. He groaned in frustration.

" Alice knows." he stated.

" She found out on her own." I said, shrugging again. He crossed his arms, still leaning against the doorframe.

" Carlisle knows" he said, his eyes boring into my face. Wait!!!!! What??? Carlisle knows??!!!??? I starred at him for a second, before I got it. Carlisle knew about the 'accident' not about the actual thing.

" Carlisle's a neutral person." I said, which was true. Carlisle was able to look at something from a professional point of view. He knew that he was under the patient/doctor confidentiality rule, and he couldn't say anything. Besides, he probably wouldn't want to do anything that may betray my trust in him.

Edward's eyes narrowed for a second and then he sighed and looked at me pleadingly.

" Please Bella." he pleaded. I shook my head.

" Sorry Edward. But, that's what you're getting right now." I said, taking a chug of water-and swallowing it quickly before he could surprise me again. I ended up chugging the whole glass, and I was left sitting there, turning the empty glass in my hands. I didn't look at Edward for a while, not wanting to see his face as he processed my words.

I only looked up when his hands darted out and he took the glass from me. He wasn't looking at me, but at the glass that was now in his hand. Then he moved and he was leaning against the counter beside me. I looked at him, waiting for him to say something. He was starring ahead now, looking at the wall opposite us as if it were extremely interesting.

This was the closest he's been to me since he came back. His shoulder was almost touching my arm, and I could feel that electric charge filling the air the longer he was there. I barely noticed that my heart was speeding up gradually. And the glass in his hands moved faster, until it was just a blur.

The silence dragged on.

Then-

" Alice says that you think that I hate you." he said. My heart skipped a beat. Stupid Alice!!!! What else had she said? I didn't say anything. " I was wondering….what makes you think that?" he asked me, not looking at me, and spinning the glass dangerously fast.

I looked away from him, and starred at my hands. I didn't say anything. What was I supposed to say? The truth perhaps, a part of me said. Then I sighed.

" You never look me in the eye anymore…" I started quietly. " you very rarely actually talk to me, only when I ask you a question or something…." I felt some tingling in my eyes. NOOOOO!!!!!!! I can NOT cry with him so close. He was quiet, waiting for more. He knew there was more. " you never come see me by yourself, you're always with Bianca…." my voice cracked at her name. God!!! Why was I even doing this to myself? To him? I couldn't go on, completely afraid that the tears would come if I did.

He was completely silent, and I was afraid of looking at him. Even a tiny glimpse to see what his face looked like would probably be too much.

" I completely understand though." I said so softly I barely heard it myself. " I deserve it. You deserve it." I stopped, the lump in my throat growing.

There was silence again. An uncomfortable silence that seemed to drag on for eternity. Then, so fast I couldn't comprehend it at first, Edward was in front of me again. His face just a few inches away from me, and he was holding my chin in his hand.

" You're wrong." he said fiercely. Then his lips crashed into mine.

The second his lips touched mine, everything I seemed to know ceased to be real. Every kiss I'd shared with Jacob was nothing, NOTHING, compared to this. This fire that was spreading through my body. It started in my lips, making breathing come quickly. Then it spread to my hands- my fingers found shelter in his hair, pulling him closer to me. Then it spread through my heart, dissolving any inhibitions I'd had. My legs wrapped around his waist, making it impossible to escape.

He didn't seem bothered at all about that.

But, then my miniscule time in heaven was destroyed as his fingers began to toy with the end of my shirt.

This was what I'd been afraid of, this is what I couldn't let happen. But, I couldn't find it in my heart to stop it. Edward's lips moved to my throat so I could breathe.

" The truth is," he muttered in between kisses. " I still love you." Tears overflowed. I couldn't help it. He loved me still, and yet I was too broken to even think of telling him that his love was reciprocated. His lips moved back to my face, and he kissed the tears away. Then he was kissing my lips again, making the tears only come faster.

What was wrong with me? I had to stop this now, before we both got hurt. I needed to- My thought train was thrown off balance when I felt his hand push against my back-just half an inch away from where my thickest scar was. I knew, that if he touched one, even through my shirt, he'd know what it was and he'd ask. And I couldn't have that.

I squeezed my eyes shut, and forced my fingers out of his hair. He responded by pulling me closer. How am I going to be able to do this? He's holding me as if I was his life line. I can't.

But his hand had drifted a little closer to the scar.

I hurriedly moved my hands to his chest and shoved. It wasn't strong, a frail porcelain doll had more strength than I did in that one moment, but it was enough to make him pull away.

I heard his breath come quickly and I avoided his gaze, tears still streaming from my eyes, but he wouldn't have it. He grabbed my chin-being as gentle as he could-and forced my eyes to meet his. Through the water, I could see the confused, hurt, betrayed look in Edward's eyes.

And I was going to have to hurt him more. Tears came faster as I realized this, pushing him away wasn't enough.

" I can't." was all I said, in barely an audible breath. I felt his fingers tighten marginally, and then they were gone. He was gone. I was alone, sitting on the counter, tears streaming down my face and soaking my shirt.

I pulled my knees up to my chest and leaned against the cabinets. There were no words for the pain that was rippling through me at this second. No amount of stabbing, hitting, or kicking could compare to it. No one knew pain, until they pushed away the love of their lives for the second time.

I put my forehead to knees and let the sobs come out.

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A/N: Okay, so I know it's not as long or as good as I thought it's be, but here it is. Poor Bella and Edward!!!!! I need reviews before I reveal what happens next!!!!!! So REVIEW!!!!! Eddie and Bella are hurting right now, reviews help!!!!!