As Ryan hung up the phone, he looked at the clock on the living room wall. It was after 5:30 and Summer had yet to return from the dna test with Stephanie, which they had left for two and a half hours earlier. Ryan had just got off the phone after ordering a pizza, the girls were laying on a big blanket that Ryan had laid out in the front room, along with a few toys for each of them.
Ryan smiled at them widely as he sat down on the couch next to the blanket and picked up some papers he had put on the small table next to the end of the couch and continued reading them from where he left off. But as he was reading, he began thinking about the way that Summer had acted when he got home to watch Mikki and Abby.
He knew Summer would be hesitant about going to take the dna test, but he knew that it was more than that. He knew his wife well enough to know that she was scared about the test and everything that was going to come after that. But to make matters worse, he knew she was even scared to admit it to anyone, even herself.
Ryan was startled out of his thoughts by a knock on the front door. He looked at Michelle and Abigail, who were happily playing with their feet, before he stood up and walked to the front door and opened the door to find the delivery boy with his pizza. After paying, Ryan began to close the door, but stopped when he heard a car pulling into the drive way.
When he looked at the car, he realized it was his wife and estranged sister in law. He opened the door wider and waited for them to walk in.
" Hey. " Ryan said with a smile upon seeing Summer as she got closer to the front door.
" Hey. " Summer said in a voice just above a whisper. She quickly kissed Ryan before continuing to walk into the house.
" Hey, how did it go ? " Ryan asked as he turned to Stephanie after watching his wife's retreating figure.
" It went. We wont know the results for 3 days to a week. " Stephanie responded.
" Ahh. " Ryan said with a nod.
Ryan turned after shutting the front door and followed Stephanie into the front room, where Summer was sitting on the edge of the blanket and played with her daughters while they laughed and smiled back at her.
" I ordered a pepperoni pizza. " Ryan said as he stopped next to the couch and looked between Summer and Stephanie.
" Cool. I am going to use the bathroom and then I can get a piece. " Stephanie said as she stood up and walked out of the room.
" Are you alright Sum ? " Ryan asked and he looked at his wife with a loving gaze.
Summer looked up at her husband and smiled slightly before saying " I'm fine baby. "
After a moment, Ryan responded by asking " Ok. Do you want some pizza ? "
Summer just nodded as she turned back to her children on the blanket.
Ryan watched Summer for a minute before walking into the kitchen and getting some plates down from the cupboard. As he put a slice of pizza on each plate, he called out to Summer and asked " What do you want to drink ? "
" A sprite if we have any. " Summer responded.
Ryan went to the refrigerator and got their drinks and picked up the plates before walking into the front room. He put Summer plate and sprite on the coffee table before sitting on the couch behind her.
" Have Michelle and Abigail eaten ? " Summer asked as she turned towards Ryan.
" Yeah, I gave them a bottle each before I ordered the pizza. " Ryan said.
" Ok. I am going to put them down for their nap then. " Summer said and picked up Abby. She tried to pick up Michelle, but it was harder than she thought.
After watching Summer try and pick up Mikki, Ryan put his plate on the small end table next to the couch and stood up.
" Here. " Ryan said and picked up Michelle and handed her to Summer once she was standing.
" Thanks. " Summer said with a small smile.
Ryan smiled and nodded, then
sat back on the couch as he watched Summer walk up the stairs
carrying his daughters.
Summer
walked into the nursery with a smile on her face, she loved what her
life had come to. She had two beautiful daughters and a loving
husband and in her opinion her husband had a great body, so she
wasn't complaining. Even with the stress of what happened when Seth
and Marissa returned to Newport, she wouldn't change anything.
After she put Mikki and Abby in their cribs, she sat in a
rocking chair near the door and watched them as they drifted off to
sleep. Before she realized it, she had tears running down her face as
she thought ' How could anyone leave their child ? I would never be
able to leave Ryan, let alone the girls for anything, I love them to
much to give them up. But why did she leave me !? '
Ryan
sat on the couch eating his pizza, while Stephanie sat in the
recliner and ate her slice of pizza and they watched Rush Hour.
As the time slowly drifted by, Ryan noticed that Summer hadn't returned from putting the girls down for their nap. He wanted nothing more than to go up there and hold her in his arms and make all her problems with her mother disappear, but he couldn't do that. No matter how much he wanted to, Summer needed to think about this by herself.
Once the movie was over, Ryan picked up Summer uneaten slice of pizza and soda and put it in the refrigerator, along with the rest of the pizza and walked up stairs. He walked in the nursery and found Summer had fallen asleep in the rocking chair. He began to rethink his decision of not coming up stairs earlier, as he saw tear stains on Summer's face.
He quietly walked over the cribs and checked on the girls before walking over to the rocking chair and picking up his slumbering wife. As he walked out of the room and towards their own bedroom, Summer cuddled more into Ryan's chest, which made Ryan want all her stress to disappear even more.
Once he laid her on the bed and had changed into a pair of sweat pants and a wife beater, he changed Summer out of her clothes and into some more comfortable clothes to sleep in as quietly as possible. Once he was done, he crawled into bed and wrapped the covers around Summer and himself before wrapping his arms tightly around Summer.
She began moving and held his breath, hoping
he hadn't woken her, but soon realized she was just backing up so
her back was flush against his chest. Once she stopped moving, Ryan
let out his breath along with a sigh and hoped that by tomorrow, some
of her stress would be gone.
Summer
woke up later and looked at the alarm clock on the nightstand and saw
that it was 3:15 in the morning. She knew she wouldn't be able to
go back to sleep and started to get out of bed, but she was stopped
as she soon realized that she was wrapped in her husband's strong
arms.
She turned over slightly and smiled at the sight of her sleeping husband. She let out a sigh as the memories of the previous day flashed through her head and the feelings came along with them.
She wiggled herself Ryan's arms quietly got out of bed, hoping Ryan wouldn't wake up. Once out of bed, she walked over to the seat under the big window in their room and sat down and looked over the ocean as it shimmered with the reflection of the full moon.
She began to think about the thought of Stephanie being her actual sister. She had never told anyone, but she had always wanted an older brother or sister or even a younger brother or sister. Just someone that she could look up to or someone that would look up to her, hopefully she would have that sort of relationship now.
She was startled when she Ryan wrap his arms around her and sit down behind her.
" You ok ? " Ryan asked.
" I'm not sure. " Summer admitted.
" Do you want to talk about it ? " Ryan asked after kissing Summer on the top of her head.
Summer sighed and nodded her, than began " Its not that I am nervous about having a sister. Its just that everyone time I look at Mikki and Abby, I wonder how someone could leave their child. It hurts more than anything and I can't figure out why she left me. "
Ryan was silent as he thought about his choice of words. He tightened his grip and said " Believe, I know what you mean. I have thought about why my... why Dawn left when I was sixteen, but I never can figure out the real reason. " Ryan paused for a minute and continued " Do you remember what you told me why I got worried about us getting married ? " Ryan asked.
Summer thought about it for a minute and said " I told you that everything will be ok and we will get through anything as long as we are together and love each other. "
" Exactly, the same principal works here. Just because we can't figure out why they left us, it doesn't mean we will ever leave our kids. Just like I am not going to turn out like Dawn, your not going to turn out like your mother. Your a greater person than she ever was or ever will be. " Ryan explained.
( The name of the song is " Follow Me " by Uncle Kracker. )
You don't know how you met me You don't know why You can't turn around and say goodbye All you know is when I'm with you, I make you free And swim through your veins like a fish in the sea I'm singin
Follow me everything is alright I'll be the one to tuck you in at night And if you Want to leave I can guarantee You won't find nobody else like me
I'm not worried bout the ring you wear Cause as long as I know one knows than nobody can care You're feelin guilty and I'm well aware But you don't look ashamed and baby I don't care I'm singin
Follow me everything is alright I'll be the one to tuck you in at night And if you Want to leave I can guarantee You won't find nobody else like me
Won't give you money I can't give you the sky Your better off if you don't ask why I'm not the reason that you go astray And we'll be alright if you don't ask me stay
Follow me everything is alright I'll be the one to tuck you in at night And if you Want to leave I can guarantee You won't find nobody else like me
You don't know how you met me You don't know why You can't turn around and say goodbye All you know is when I'm with you I make you free And swim through your veins like a fish in the sea I'm singin
Follow me everything is alright I'll be the one to tuck you in at night And if you Want to leave I can guarantee You won't find nobody else like me
I'm singing Follow me everything is alright I'll be the one to tuck you in at night And if you Want to leave I can guarantee You won't find nobody else like me
I'm singin Follow me everything is alright I'll be the one to tuck you in at night And if you Want to leave I can guarantee You won't find nobody else like me
Summer didn't respond, but turned and cried into Ryan's chest as he rubbed his hand up and down her back and kissed the top of her head. While the full moon continued to shine on the ocean and their love.
