I finally emerged from the bathroom to find Jake lying on his side, on top of the flat sheet that was on the mattress, with the comforter folded at his feet. The fitted sheet was nowhere to be found, but I had heard him run up and down the stairs, probably to rid of it. He had turned the lights back off, and the candle was still flickering light into the room. His gorgeous back was facing me. I admired the muscles in his back, as I had the ones on his chest and stomach earlier. I didn't know how he kept such definition, but I wasn't complaining. I crawled over him again, sliding in close to him to see his eyes closed. I knew he wasn't sleeping yet, as he wasn't breathing heavily enough. He sighed and pulled me into him. I gladded tucked in against his warm skin. His lips kissed my forehead as I slid my leg between his.

"You tired?" I asked.

"Not really, just enjoying you." He breathed in my hair and kissed it down. His free arm rose up and brushed down my head. "You?"

"No, not really." I was wide-awake, buzzing almost.

"Hmmm" he agreed . He seemed like he just wanted to have me close.

"you ok?" I had to ask. He seemed almost too peaceful.

"Couldn't be better." He smiled, keeping his eyes closed, and squeezing me slightly.

"I knew we would get here." I reminded him.

"Mmm" he smiled, finally opening his eyes. Once I caught his look, I burrowed my face back into him. "It was great Nes. I am so in love with you. I am happy we can do this, like we were meant to."

"I know." He had a way to say things, without saying them directly. Something I think he may have gotten from time with my dad. "It was, you know, ok? Right?" I felt comfortable enough to ask him now.

He nodded his head. "Too good, almost too good."

"Worth the wait?" I probed.

"Definitely. I know it wasn't a long wait for you, but was it, better this time?" I felt his insecurity, but also he needed a little reassurance.

"I felt like we have waited a while for this. It was perfect and better then I thought it could or would be." I stuttered a little. He squeezed me again. I felt like I knew he was smiling, even though I couldn't see his face. "and… You are so good at it already." I squeezed him a little this time.

"I have good inspiration."

"Ha. How do you know what to do? Are you sure you haven't done this before?"

"I have." he whispered into my hair.

My whole body froze. Sure, now was a good time to tell me.. What could I say? Could I blame him? he had waited for me for 8 years. When though? Thoughts tore through my mind. Was it before I was alive? Was it with my mom? Oh god. Not that. I finally let one response out of my mouth.

"Oh"

"2 hours ago." He laughed. I pulled out of his embrace to see the smile on his face. "Never before that." He smirked.

"Jacob, that wasn't really funny." I hit his arm, now sitting above him.

"I've told you about imprinting about 60 times a year." He laughed. "You really think I could?"

"Well maybe before me."

"Don't be ridiculous." He pulled me back down to him. " you are the only one." He shifted his body and pulled me in to kiss my cheek. "Always." He reassured again. Brushing his hand where his lips had been.

I rolled to lay on my stomach so that I could face him. I closed my eyes so that I could tell him. Tell him how I really felt, how much I loved him. "Always" I concurred. It was all I could get out. It was ridiculous that I could make love with him, but not say love to him.

I reached up to touch his face. His eyes were closed again, smiling slightly, looking peaceful. Always. I repeated.

He nodded pulling his arm over my back, feeling my bare skin. He smiled larger as he made contact.

"You feel so good." He said

"That's what I should say." I laughed.

"Are you happy?"

"Um hmm. Of course."

"You're ok with this?"

"ya. I couldn't have waited another day." I admitted.

"Ya, me neither. I think we thought we would wait longer, but I just had to… show you… " he smiled slowly opening his eyes again. "I am sorry I wasn't safe this time."

I shook my head to tell him he was being silly. "I wasn't worried about that." I smiled. "I just want it to be good for you."

"Cant you tell, it is?"

"I just feel like I didn't do much."

"no no, nes." He laughed. "You do so much." He whispered. "You have no idea how it feels when you touch me. not to mention the noises" he paused and smiled. "…..and your body." He rubbed my back again, closing his eyes. "It was almost too much. It was too much the first time."

I grinned, reaching out for to touch his warm skin.

"Even if it wasn't great, which it was, we have lots of time to practice." He smirked.

I agreed by pulling myself in closer to him; finding his feet under the sheets and closing my eyes to sleep. I felt his lips touch me a few more times before falling fully asleep.

I woke up in a slightly different, but equally pleasant position. I was on my side facing away from Jake, but his body was wrapped around me. I could tell he was still asleep by his breathing. He was holding on to me tightly, our legs were tangled together, and he was more then happy to wake up to my bum into his crotch. I smiled to myself again. Waking up to him had been part of my favorite thing about our relationship. Everything about sleeping with him; going to bed, bedtime activities, waking up, all of it.

I felt his breathing change, and though he could be waking up. I pushed my bum back into him just to make sure. Either way, I knew he wouldn't mind. It was such a good feeling to not ever feel insecure or that I couldn't totally be myself. I most of all knew, that he wouldn't be upset to me making advances at him.

He kissed the back of my neck, reconfirming that he was awake. His arms wrapped further around me; pulling me closer to him. "Morning." He whispered. "what time is it?"

"eight" I answered, eyeing the clock myself.

"You must have slept well. You crashed last night?" he said kissing my neck again. I could feel every hard inch of him through his pajama pants, pressed along my backside. It was kind of exciting me that he woke up that way.

"Tired me out, ya know?" I teased.

"I could say the same thing about you. I haven't slept that well in months. Since before all of this, since before my dad, and I didn't even have that dream." He said nuzzling into my hair.

"You still have that dream?" I did not know it was that re-occurring.

"Not last night…. must have done something right, or different anyway." I felt him smile against my shoulder before kissing it again.

"right and different" I confirmed.

"thank you Nes, I don't think I said thank you." Jake was suddenly serious. His lips pressed against my back. He sealed his appreciation with another kiss.

"I think you did say thank you, and you showed your gratification quite well actually."

"I want it to be as good for you as it is for me."

"I want it to be as good for you as it is for me." I rolled over and tucked myself into his chest and touched his face. I replayed what it looked like for me with him on top of me; how amazing it felt and was.

"I will never get use to that." He shook his head

"well maybe you should, because I think you are stuck with me now…." I laughed and kissed his chest. I could have stayed like that for hours. I twisted my leg in between his. I slid his pajama pants up his leg so that I could touch his skin. His hand crept down my back to the top of my bum. He slid his hand under my tank top and rubbed my lower back. I did the same thing to him, but slid my free hand straight down his pants and lightly touched his bum; knowing exactly the reaction I would get. He squirmed immediately and pulled me into him, and trapped my arm under his. He laughed, but pushed into me. his wake up call below the belt was still present. I didn't think I was helping, but I didn't want it to go away. I would always want to wake up to that reaction whether I caused it or, it was just a normal reaction for all men.

Despite my tickling attempt, we lay silently in each others arms for a while without saying a word before I broke the silence with a thought of my parents.
"I guess my mom and dad never had this"

"what do you mean?"

"well, my dad never slept. She never got to wake up to him, like this." I had many references to 'this.'

"Ya, but they got to sleep, or be together almost every night without any parents knowing or caring. But no, I guess they weren't exactly like this." He laughed.

"Must have been hard, not to be able to be like this all the time."

"can you imagine the hormones your dad must have had built up." He chuckled to himself. "I thought I had to wait a long time. God, the guy was over one hundred years old when they got married… and finally… well you know… I guess, made you." He kissed my head. "I don't really understand the, waiting until marriage thing on your dad's part, if he knew he was going to turn her anyway, but I didn't push the issue there. It was none of my business."

"I am happy she didn't take the other option that was probably available to her." I knew jake was her other option, but at that moment, and always, I had been so thankful that she went with Dad. Really, he was the best thing for her. The people I know today in my mom and Jake, never would have lasted anyway. "I guess they have subjected us to making up for Dad's lost time though." I laughed. I was sure jake and I were both reminded of the many times we knew what was going on through the night, or in the other room for that matter.

"You aren't mad we didn't wait until marriage then?" jake smirked at me.

"Pretty sure I wouldn't have been able to wait that long."

"Do you think it's that far away?"

"Probably" I wasn't interested in being married at all. "I don't think it's necessary, I think it's perfect to be the way we are. We both know this is it."

"Right." He sounded hesitant, tucking my head into his chest more, resting his head on top of mine.

"What? Is that what you want?" I had to ask.

"No, not right now, but I do want that, with you. I guess that is just more definite reassurance for me."

"This is definite for me."

"I guess I just get worried. It's stupid. Forget it." He kissed my head and rubbed my back, down to my bum.

I would forget it; it was stupid. I would show him how much of his I was...

We lay together for another few minutes before Jake suggested breakfast and showers.

I had to hunt; I had to try to get away from him for an hour this weekend. It had been weeks. I had drank my 0-negative emergency supply last week, but needed something more satisfying, any easy form of deer would tide me over for a few weeks. My tolerance and need last me much longer then my family, although Grandpa could almost last as long as me.

I had never been a threat or thought of sacrificing a human, not even close. I just got more irritable and less patient. It was almost like my own PMS'ing. We all learned to try to avoid it, and I didn't want to ruin this weekend with being on-edge.

Jake showered first, I brushed my teeth while he hoped into the shower. His comfort to be naked with me was increasing, and I could not help but stare every time.

I opened the shower before I left the bathroom to kiss him with my fresh mouth.

"you are so gorgeous, you know that?" I kissed him again, and closed the door on him wanting more, starting to kiss me the way I knew what his intent was.

I decided to make him a feast, as he had been working up an appetite and I wanted to keep him, strong, energized for my own intentions for the rest of the day, and happy when I tried to sneak away for a few hours.

He emerged ten minutes later with wet hair and only shorts on. God he was beautiful. I smiled to myself.

"what do we have here?" he grabbed me from behind; hovering over my shoulders.

"fruit salad, toast, eggs, juice. I am steeping tea right now and I can make oatmeal if you think you'll eat more."

"wow, this is a lot, and I wasn't even gone that long."

"I am fast, you know?" I turned into him, standing on my toes, reaching up for his lips. He lowered down to me and slid his lips into mine, his tongue slipped lightly across my lips, surprising, but delighting me. As quickly as he had kissed me, he pulled away, grabbing at the fruit behind me.

"you should have joined me in the shower, you know?" he said, popping a grape into his mouth. He looked so good. His kiss and his lack of clothing made me forget about food and hunting myself.

I ran my hands up his bare chest and around his neck, pushing my body into his. "we don't have any plans today, do we?"

He shook his head, grinning at me.

"Then there can be plenty of time for whatever you want." I wanted to show him my thanks in many, many ways. I was getting more confident with us and our love and our relationship. He made me feel comfortable enough to say what I wanted, show him how I felt, and have me however he wanted me.

I kissed him again, I slipped my tongue in his mouth, tasting the grapes, but pulled away quickly, teasing him, and emphasizing more what I wanted to do all day.

He shook his head as I pulled away quickly.

I finished making him tea and he made up his plate of food. I caught him smiling at me a few times, and I couldn't help but smile with him. we were both glowing.

"I am going to go into town quickly today, I have a few things to do, but besides that, I am all yours, all weekend." Jake said as he finished washing the dishes.

I really just wanted to camp out here all day and experiment more with him and his body.

"Ok. Can I come?"

"Nope" he popped with his lips.

"Why not?" he barely ever said no to me. I had to pry.

"wouldn't you like to know…." He laughed. " I just want to cash my check, and I want to phase and try to get Seth, check in. we emailed and organized that we would try today, soon actually. So I need to get going and find a place. That ok?"

"Oh, sure... Why didn't you tell me sooner?" I hadn't thought of that sort of communication.

"I just got the note from him yesterday. I emailed him about it a while back, but Seth is slow getting on email."

"Make sure you don't tell him where you are. Or will he be able to tell?"

"No, I know Nes. He won't know. I want to see what kind of range I can get if I needed to."

Jake went to get dressed and I thought it might be a good opportunity for me to hunt alone. I would tell him afterwards, and he could get mad, but also see that nothing bad happened.

"Do you need anything while I am out? You grocery shopped yesterday, but do you want anything else? A few movies maybe?"

"Sure, whatever you feel like." I was happy just to be inside with him, all weekend, all week for that matter.

"I won't be too long, maybe an hour or two."

Jake left in the car, and I quickly got changed knowing that I only had an hour to run and find uninhabited area and prey and get back without him knowing. It was going to be tight, but I had to try.

I put on workout clothes incase I came across anyone, and headed out of town. Within 15 minutes I was out of town and away from anyone. It was a lot easier here to successfully get away from anyone. Once I was confident I was definitely away from anyone I tracked a pack of deer. It had been cold and they were weak, so it was an easy attack. I satiated my need with 2 bucks and headed back home. It was a vulgar act and I knew I looked like a monster while feeding, which reaffirmed my need to do this alone. I was mildly dirty, but it was nothing a quick shower and discarded clothes couldn't cover up. Did I even have to tell Jake? He would be mad if I told him, and I was sure I could cover it up. But did I want to lie?

Half an hour after I got out of the shower Jacob returned home. I was excited to see him after only being apart for 3 hours, but his face was somber.

"Nes, we need to talk." He was serious, too serious for Jacob. "let's sit down" he instructed, and I followed him to the couch. "There are some things that I have kept from you, that I cant any longer."

Worth the wait? I have had this chapter written for a while, I just needed to tweak it and wrap it up.

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