AN – ok guys, sorry this took a while, I was waiting for a few more reviews, but that never happened so you know, here it is anyhow.

*puppy dog eyes* I really think I need some constructive criticism on this so... at the end please tell me what you think.

I'm pretty sure about half my readers won't like this chapter, and I forgive you for that, it's not the happiest chapter ever, but just remember, I do have a happy ending planned for this story, so please don't give up on me just yet!

This one is dedicated to meilzdoggg01, who I know will understand where this chapter is coming from. Love you always babes.

Alice's POV

After Jasper's mother had left the Cullen's house, it was decided, by Carlisle and Esme, without any objection from the rest of us, that Jasper and Emmett would move into the Cullen's at the end of the week, before school started up again.

Two days after the incident with Jasper's mother, I was sitting on Jasper's bed, waiting for him to come back from the shops. He had wanted me to go, but I really didn't feel up to going out. In fact; I wasn't really feeling up to much lately. I tried to tell myself that I was 'all better', that I wasn't depressed anymore, but the fact is, a boy, no matter how much I love him, and he loves me, isn't going to make this go away.

I clutched the blade in my hand, not using it, just looking at it. It helped, to just look at the blade. Jasper would probably freak out if he knew I had this blade. I know I needed to talk to him about this, but it wasn't that easy. I'm not sure he understood depression, or whatever the hell this was. It doesn't just leave all of a sudden.

I have bouts of good and bad, and admittedly, the past few months have been better than good, but I couldn't promise myself that it wouldn't turn bad very quickly. When it did, I know that it would be even harder than before to just pick myself up again.

I heard the front door open and Jasper yell "Alice! I'm back!" I quickly shoved the blade in the back pocket of my jeans, and hopped off the bed to go help him bring in food.

I ran down the stairs, plastering the best smile I could on my face, and came to a halt in front of Jasper, before taking the bags of food from his arms, and giving him a quick kiss on the cheek before taking them into the kitchen to start unpacking them.

There wasn't much to unpack, because we only needed enough for a couple of mornings breakfast and then a couple of lunches. Dinner's we would be having at the Cullen's most of the time.

Jasper came up behind me and spun me around, pulling me to him, and kissing me. I smiled into the kiss before pulling back.

"Hungry? I was thinking of making toasted sandwiches..."

"Hmmm... I don't know... I was thinking I was hungry for something else..."

His hands slipped into my back pockets, and my hearts started speeding up, I was starting to panic. His right hand moved a little, and I felt his fingers close around the blade, and his eyes narrowed.

He pulled his hand out of my pocket. Taking a step back, he looked at the blade, and a look of absolute devastation took over his face.

"What the hell is going on Alice?" His voice was a mix of hurt, anger and confusion.

AN – ok guys, that was hella short I know, but I kinda wanted to leave that conversation for the next chapter.

I just wanted to ask you to review, because they're dropping dramatically, and I really need your advice and encouragement!

Just to clarify, NO, she did not hurt herself again...yet...not saying she definitely will, just that it's on the cards.