Pulling Me Through
Sorry for not updating in a while but I was completing my Andy Six story called Never Give In. You should check it out! Hope you enjoy this chapter and please review!
Chapter Twenty-Six
One Week Later
Riley's POV
The past week had been boring because Andy still had to go to school. He said that today he would take the day off so he could spend it with me. I had to ring up today so I could get a baby scan. I still didn't have any idea if I wanted to keep it. It would be a huge responsibility and I still wasn't sure if Andy and I could handle this.
When I swung my legs over the edge of the bed I felt Andy's hand grope for my own. I smiled down at him and held onto his hand and watched his eyes flutter open. When his eyes settled on mine he smiled as they flickered down to my stomach and I knew exactly why. He was probably thinking about how his baby is inside there. The only reason I know that is because I think about it all the time every time I look in the mirror and see myself.
"How are you feeling?" He asked me. This was normally the first thing he would say to me every morning. Ever since he found out that I was pregnant he got worried about me all the time. I didn't want to be treat like the invalid of the group but there was nothing I could do to stop them so I just took it and tried not to complain too much about it. I didn't feel like being any more of a bother than I probably already was. It must be boring trying to look after the pregnant girl.
"I'm feeling great" I sighed as I put on a fake smile. I was surprised that Andy couldn't tell it was fake but I didn't think much about it at all. I attempted to get out of bed but Andy's hand felt like it was made of stone and he wasn't letting me out of its grip. I turned around to glare at him in a playful way but he still wouldn't let me out of his grip. I tried to squirm away but it wasn't working and I was only making a fool out of myself.
"Why don't you just stay in here with me?" He asked. When Andy said that we would spend the day together I thought he meant that we would be doing something that requires moving around instead of just lying in bed for the day. I shook my head as Andy pouted at me and then I managed to get away from him and stood across the room just in case he tried to get me to lie down. Andy sat up in bed but he didn't look like he was ready to get out of it and smiled at me. I smiled back even though I really wanted to drag him out of bed.
"We're going out" I stated. I had wanted to visit the outside world because ever since I got pregnant I hadn't been out. It was as though people thought that pregnant people couldn't go outside. I remembered then that we had to make an appointment for a baby scan. Andy didn't know about this because it wasn't really his area of expertise. I took the phone from the little stand on the desk and went back over to the bed with it in my hand. Andy gave me a confused look.
"Why do you need a phone?" He asked. I sighed and pointed to my stomach but he looked even more confused. Why were some people so oblivious to everything around them? I sighed again but got ready to explain.
"We need a baby scan" I said and Andy finally understood what I was talking about. He took the phone out of my hand but I quickly scrambled to get it back out of his hands but to no avail, he got it back.
"I'll do it for us" He sighed but before I could even stop him he was dialling the number and walking away. He went to the bathroom and locked the door before I even had a chance to call him back. I sighed again as I waited for him to come out and when he did he had a smile planted on his face.
"What did you do?" I asked. I was scared to ask in case he done something stupid.
"It's next week at twelve" He said. I sighed in relief as Andy tried to make his way back to the bed but I stopped him from sitting down. He couldn't honestly think that I would let him get away with sitting in bed for the day that easily.
"Come on, we're going out" I said as I took his hand and practically dragged him out of the bed. What's with his huge obsession with staying in bed anyway? He reluctantly stood up and got into the bathroom to change. When he was done I went inside and took my top off so I could change into a fresh one. I caught a glimpse in the mirror so I went over to it to see if I was showing. I wasn't and for some reason it made me slightly disappointed. I wanted people to make way for me because they knew I was pregnant. As selfish as it sounds, I was excited for that. I shrugged and grabbed my top that was folded up on the counter and then I pulled it over my head and down onto my body. When I was done I walked back out the room to see Andy looking at himself closely in the mirror. At first I didn't understand what he was doing but when I got closer I could see him applying eye liner. I rolled my eyes and grinned as I wrapped an arm around him.
"What are you doing?" He asked. To some it may have sounded impatient but I could see the love in his gaze.
"You're such a girl" I sighed.
Andy's POV
"You're such a girl" She sighed to me. I couldn't stop the grin that was forming. When I turned around I bent down and our lips met. She tasted sweet and I found myself hungry for more but I managed to pull away from her and smile.
"It's why you love me" I whispered in her ear as she giggled. She took my hand and we went downstairs to see Jake getting ready to leave for school.
"Do you want a ride?" Jake asked. I shook my head and he gave me a confused look when he saw the clock. "You'll be late"
"I'm not going today" I informed. Jake still gave me a confused look but decided to just drop the matter. He slung his school bag over his shoulder and disappeared from our sight. The door slammed to show us that he had left the house. I reached over to get my shoes and Riley's that were lying near the television set and I handed Riley hers. She slipped them on and was standing up before I even had a chance to slip one shoe on. I sighed and got the other one on before standing up and taking her hand. She grinned slightly and pulled me towards the door. I didn't mind since I would go anyway that she went. When we got outside she got into the car but I insisted that I drove. I knew that she would think that I was being too over protective but I didn't want her to do much if she was pregnant.
"Where do you want to go?" She asked. I looked at her closely as I tried to think about what would be safe for a pregnant girl. I came up blank.
"Do you want to go to the beach?" I asked since it was the first thing that popped into my head. She looked as though she was weighing out her options and then finally she nodded. I put the key in ignition and soon we were on our way to enjoy some sand. There, she would be able to relax but at home I think she gets stressed about anything. When we got out of the car I suddenly started feeling like a family man and not the hopeful rockstar. I took her hand again as we walked down the steps that led to the sand. Once our feet touched the sand we slipped our shoes off and walked barefoot across the beach. We walked in complete silence, the silence that was too comfortable to break. When we found a spot that seemed almost level we sat down. It wasn't too cold today but I wouldn't class it as hot. It was average and it bored me but as soon as Riley's hand connected with mine everything seemed that little bit brighter. It sounded so cliché, I know, but it's the honest truth. When Riley's by your side you forget everything that's dull and dreary and you can't help but focus on the positive things and the fact that she's carrying my child makes it even better.
"What are you thinking about?" She asked. I hadn't noticed that we hadn't spoken in a while because I had been so wrapped up in my thoughts. Every time I tried to look at her so I could tell her my thoughts I ended up smiling.
"I was thinking about how great it is to be here with you" I sighed. I could see her turn away and I had a feeling that she was blushing. It was cute and made me want to stop there and kiss her but I didn't.
"Weird, I was thinking the same thing" She laughed. I chuckled lightly and let my arm drape over her shoulders as hers rested on the small of my back.
"Have you ever heard the poem footsteps in the sand?" I asked. I understood that it was out of the blue but for some reason it made me think of this moment.
"Isn't that about God?" She asked. I couldn't help but laugh and nod. Even though it had nothing to do with two people in love, it still reminded me of now.
"It's about support and I like to think that we're supporting each other" I explained. She looked up at me and smiled warmly before letting her lips rest on mine for a moment before pulling away and resting her head on my shoulder slightly.
"You support me" She sighed. She was so oblivious to all the help she had given me. I had felt like the only thing in my life was the band and that was good but as soon as I saw her I felt like I had even more meaning.
"You've done things for me too" I said. I could hear her scoff and knew that at the moment it would be pointless trying to convince her. She suddenly stood up and I followed her exact movements.
"Do you want to go get something to eat?" She asked. I looked around as I tried to see if there was anywhere we could go to get some food and in the distance I could see what looked like a fish shop. I took her hand and we started our walk towards it. When we got there I took her over to the counter and there was no queue.
"What can I get you?" The woman behind the counter asked. I looked over at Riley to signal that she could order first.
"Can I just get a portion of chips?" She asked. The woman nodded and turned away before handing Riley a bag of chips. Riley thanked her and went over to the table in the corner and sat down while I ordered.
Riley's POV
I opened the bag of chips and started to eat them. When I was in the middle of eating my second one, Andy came over and sat in the seat opposite me. I smiled brightly as I let the warmth of the cafe engulf me. It had started off as an average day but as time went on when we were on the beach it grew considerably colder. Andy had ordered the same as me and was eating quite slowly whereas I was like a robot. As soon as one chip was in the next one came in. I was starving and I didn't know if it was just greed or pregnancy. I had been enjoying this day so far as it made me feel like I was still an average school girl who wasn't expecting in just over eight months. It felt nice to intertwine my fingers with Andy's as though we were just falling in love again. I didn't want to sound as though I had been in a relationship with Andy for so long when I hadn't but I felt as though Andy and I had overcome so much together.
"I'm enjoying today" Andy said as though he could read my mind. I was still too busy stuffing my face with the salty goodness to even think about answering him so I just managed a nod in reply. I finally finished off my last chip so I was able to talk to Andy again.
"We still need to decide what we want to do with the baby" I sighed. I knew that that would instantly make the day seem that little bit crap but it needed to be discussed. We kept saying we'd think about it later but we were never going to get round to it if we kept avoiding it.
"I think we should decide next week after we see the baby scan" Andy voiced. When I thought about it I realised how much logic his answer actually held. It made sense to wait until after we'd seen our baby. When we see it on the screen we could make a connection with it and realise that we could never part with our baby. I would never get an abortion but I wasn't as closed minded about adoption. If I thought that would be best then I would do it but until I've seen our baby then I don't know about my feelings.
"I think that's the smartest thing we've done in a while" I laughed. Andy let out a small bubble of laughter before sighing again. I knew exactly what he was thinking and I think I have a pretty good idea on what he's going to say next.
"I still can't believe we're in this situation" Andy sighed. I nodded since I felt exactly the same. I was carrying life inside me and I didn't even know what to do with it. I knew that so many people would kill to be in my situation.
"When you're young you always think that having a baby will be some magical thing but when you mature you start thinking about the consequences" I voiced. Andy nodded and sighed again.
"I always thought it would be pushing prams" He admitted. I felt stupid for thinking the exact same thing. When you're young everything seems so new and you don't think about anything bad in the world. Everything seems amazing to you and look at how you feel now. When you get older and seems like the only news that is delivered is bad.
"We should really stop talking about things that will get us depressed" I said as I tried to manage a small smile but I completely failed. How did a nice afternoon turn to into a miserable one? Andy nodded at me as he picked up our rubbish and threw into one of the bins that wasn't too far away from us and he held my hand again. I could tell that he was going to try and say something profound.
"Whatever happens, I'll be there and I can tell you that we will be fine" He said. I could feel tears stinging my eyes but I tried to keep myself composed. It wasn't working for me, though and soon a tear rolled down my cheek.
"Every guy says things like that" I said without even thinking. That was what I was afraid off. I was scared in case Andy left me. I wouldn't know what to do if I didn't have Andy's support. I'd have Jake by my side but that wouldn't be the same. I could see Andy give me a look of pity.
"You don't have to worry about that" Andy whispered as he pressed his lips to my forehead. I sighed in relief as it was the first time I truly felt safe while pregnant. I was beginning to feel as though Andy would stick by me through this whole thing. I needed him there for me and respected that.
"We should be getting back" I said as I looked at my watch to see that Jake would be coming home soon and he would probably invite the band round in hope of practice. Andy reluctantly pulled away from him and looked at his own watch to realise the same thing as me. He took my hand again and we left the fish shop and walked up the promenade until our car was in sight. It dawned on me then that that car may end up being a family car with a booster seat in. I couldn't help but smile at myself when I thought about Andy and I trying to sort a booster seat out.
"I'll be driving" Andy said as he took the car keys off me and got in the driver's side. I sat next to him and soon we were driving back home.
Andy's POV
About twenty minutes later we arrived back at the house. I opened the door for Riley and helped her out even though I knew she didn't need it. I was enjoying being there for her but I was guessing that Riley wasn't judging by the scowl on her face. I instantly felt apologetic but when her lips met my cheek I felt better. We walked up the patio and I slotted the key in the door and pushed it open. When we walked into the house we saw Jake and Jinxx sitting on the sofa. When they heard us they looked up and smiled.
"We're back" Riley called as she took her coat off and put it on the hook by the door. When she got into the living room Jake beckoned for her to go over. I couldn't hear exactly what they were talking about but it sounded a bit like school. I shrugged it off though and went into the kitchen where Sammi and Sandra were sitting, talking.
"Are the rest of the guys here" I asked, meaning Ashley and CC. They both nodded at me but Sammi proceeded to tell me where they actually were.
"They're downstairs waiting for you to get home so you can practice" She informed with a small smile at the end. I nodded and went downstairs just as Jake and Jinxx came in to do the same thing I was doing. When I got downstairs I could CC sitting at his drums and Ashley was trying to talk to him about something. When they heard footsteps they looked up and smiled.
"What song are we playing first?" I asked. They looked at the little list that they had prepared and took a look at the first song that was written.
"We're playing Heaven's Calling" CC replied. I was just about to start setting up my mic but Jake's hand stopped me from doing anything.
"We need to talk to you first" He said. I had a feeling that I knew what this was about before they actually said anything.
"What are you doing about the baby?" Ashley asked. He had always been the one who was blunt about things so it didn't surprise me that he would be the one to ask. They all expected me to be touchy on the subject but I wasn't. Riley and I had been a bit stupid and now she was pregnant, we had to face the consequences. What right do I have to shout at them for saying something to me about a mistake I made?
"We're having a baby scan next week and we're going to decide then" I answered. I wasn't going to hide anything from them since they were also a part of this to me. They were like my brothers so it wasn't right for me to lock them out. I'm going to tell them everything I know from here on out.
"That makes sense" Jake commented. I smiled at him but I had a feeling that they weren't done talking about it. It didn't bother me but I would rather that they just beat around the bush instead of trying to hint at things.
"Just spit it out" I urged. This time Ashley didn't look like he was going to talk. I looked at each one and they all looked away. The last person I looked at was Jinxx. He held my gaze before opening his mouth to speak.
"Will you having a baby affect the band?" He asked. That didn't hurt me either but I wasn't sure on how to explain in.
"No, Riley and I can handle it. I will never quit this band" I explained. They all seemed relieved at my answer. I would always look after my child but I would still be in the band. I really believe that Riley and I could handle it together.
"Can we practice now?" CC asked. It was the first time he had spoken and I felt like maybe he didn't know if it was his place to speak when we were talking about the baby. I smiled and nodded as I took my place behind the mic.
Riley's POV
As soon as the guys had went downstairs, Sammi and Sandra sat up straight. I knew that they were going to bombard me with questions.
"Did you and Andy talk about the baby?" Sammi asked. I grinned at how forward she was at me but I didn't find it offensive.
"Yes we did" I answered. I knew that they were pissed with me for not expanding but it was funny to watch them desperate for news on me and Andy.
"Well what did you say?" Sandra asked. When you look at Sandra you don't expect her to get excited by things like this but she really does.
"We're going to decide next week when we have the baby scan" I answered. Sandra didn't seem to understand why but Sammi did.
"Then you can see if you feel a connection" Sammi said, practically quoting my exact words.
"My thoughts exactly" I muttered. They seemed pleased with the information they got out of me and decided to leave me alone for a little while. The rest of the time spent together was silent until the guys came back up from downstairs. When I saw Andy I went over to him.
"Are you ok?" He asked. I swear if he doesn't stop worrying over me I'll end up slapping him.
"I'm fine but I'm going to go to bed" I answered. Andy nodded and our lips met. I didn't want it to be one of the passionate kisses that we have because I knew that all the guys were watching us and that would just be awkward.
"I'll be up soon" He whispered in my ear. I nodded and turned to go upstairs. When I was halfway up I heard someone from downstairs.
"Goodnight" They called. I knew it was Jake and I couldn't help but smile.
"Goodnight" I called back before I climbed the rest of the stairs and closed the bedroom door. I didn't even bother to get changed since I was too tired. I walked over to the bed and closed my eyes. Was it normal to be this tired? They do say that sea air makes you sleepy. My last thought was about symptoms of pregnancy. It had to be normal.
Well this chapter turned out longer than expected. Hope you enjoy and please review!