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Chapter 26 : It's Over
Spencer's POV
I never would have thought that a sentence could make someone feel so many different emotions. Like when Emily told me that her dad will live on the base now and how I made her realize what it meant. I'm so happy for her that her dad won't be risking his life everyday now, but I feel like she is still so fragile and it is so not a good idea for her to move in a different country. I told her that everything would be okay, but I'm not even sure who I was trying to convince.
"What's on your mind sweetheart?" I asked her.
"I just can't believe that this is happening. How can one sentence make me feel like this?"
"It's not about the sentence; it's about the meaning of it… But I know what you mean. Do you know what your parents had planned?"
"No, I don't but that's probably what they are talking about right now and it is killing me…"
"Don't… Don't think about it for now. We are both here right now… That's what matter."
"What if it's the last time Spence…? What if I never get to be in your arms again?" Emily said as tears were streaming down her face.
She sat up and hugged her knees, sobbing. I sat up as well and wrapped my arms around her. After a few minutes, I move so I was facing her. I put my hands on her face and forced her to look at me.
"It will never be the last time. I don't care where you live, I'll always find a way for us to be together, do you understand that. I love you Em, and that will never change… Never!"
"I don't want to leave Spence. I can't, not right now."
"I know and we will do everything we can to make sure that you don't"
"I love you Spencer"
"I love you too Emily"
I lay back down and she lay next to me. I wrapped my arms around her and I saw her smile in the corner of my eye. I instantly smiled like an idiot because I knew that I was the one who made her smiled. That's the only thing I was hoping for in so long.
Emily's POV
I can't leave. I won't leave, no matter what it cost me. I'd do anything to stay here with her, with Hanna and Aria. I felt like I was drowning in emotions. I got up from the bed, told Spencer I needed to pee and wouldn't take long and locked myself in the bathroom. I sat down on the floor trying to get a hold of myself. I took a few deep breaths trying to calm these overpowering emotions. My skin was itching, asking to be cut. I closed my eyes so tight that it actually hurt. I wanted to block everything out. When I opened my eyes again, I saw the razor blade that my head was begging me to use. I was trying as hard as I could to fight it. I got up and walked towards it. I took it in my hand and looked at it. I put it on my wrist. I stopped. I closed my eyes again. I took a deep breath.
"I love you Spencer and I need to be with you, whatever it cost me."
As soon as those words left my mouth, I knew what I had to do. I opened my eyes, looked at my reflection in the mirror. I looked back at my wrist. And then I closed my eyes again.
Spencer's POV
I looked up at the ceiling while I was waiting for Emily. I saw the stars that we had put there when we were younger. We imagined what it would be like to leave earth and go in space for a while, to just leave our problems behind for once. Since that day with her, I knew that I love her, that I love to be with her, that she was it for me and that we would always be there for each other. I looked back at the bathroom door, smiling like an idiot. My smile faltered when I saw the door open and the look on her face. It's something that I would never forget. Her eyes were empty. They were empty of the joy I had seen earlier. They were empty of hope. They were empty of everything that makes them hers. I will never forget how they filled with love when she saw me though. I will never forget the way she was clutching to something in her hand. I will never forget the drops of blood that found their way to her carpet. I will never forget the look of regret on her face. I will never forget that day.
I know that probably a lot of you won't like this ending but I had to leave it a that so next chapter will be easier to write... Anyway, I'd love to know what you think about it...?