Yeah I know, its been a while for this chapter. I sort of had to recooperate from the last one some. It caused me some major stress. Plus I have been busy with school stuff. Tests and quizzes don't type themselves you know.

Plus I have been back in the Twilight fan fiction reading mode lately. I have read a lot of great stuff and I have added them to my favorites so maybe check them out if you get a few minutes. I would like to dedicated this chapter to ashel-13 cause she is very, very talented and I enjoy her work a lot. Plus she dedicated a chapter to me so I figured that I can return the favor and just because I think she's a great person from what I can tell so far. You rock and keep the stories coming.

Chapter 25: Loving Revelations

When I first woke up, I wasn't exactly sure where I was. I was back in my bedroom and that was the only thing I sure of. That was when I began to panic. It couldn't have been a dream. I couldn't have dreamed about what I heard and said. It was too real. My lips still felt the warm burn of his kiss. The kiss was real. My heart couldn't deal if it wasn't real. My imagination wasn't that good.

"Why are you so confused my angel?"

I turned to see him across the room in a chair. I jumped from my bed where I had been laying into Edward's arms. He then became somewhat tense, so I then slowly began to try to remove myself. He locked his arms around me and smiled gently back at me.

"Where do you think you are going, Ms. Swan?"

"I felt you tense up. I thought I did something wrong… made you uncomfortable."

"No, my dear. You did nothing wrong, but smelling way too delicious."

I blushed. He traced the warm flushing areas of my face with the tips of his fingers. The way his touch affected me must have been similar to how heaven would feel. It was if it was velvet touching my skin. Though, I was still confused to why he tensed up in that way, especially since he smelt me all the time.

"What makes it any different than normal then? I mean don't I smell all the time though."

"You do, Bella, but when you came running over here your scent ended up flooding my senses. I have to be careful around you."

"I guess there is a lot of stuff that I still have to learn about you."

"Yes that is true. I still have a lot of stuff to learn about you as well."

With that, I curled up against his cold, stone-like chest. The silence that was emanating from the house was deafening and normally it would have bothered me, but it felt more like a safe haven at the moment. After what felt like forever to me, I realized something that I should have realized earlier. Edward was in my bedroom with me!

I tried to push myself away from him. I needed distance to get my thoughts together before I started to question him about this. I had to have the distance or I would never get it together, that I was sure of. However, he locked his arms around me again, preventing me from leaving his lap.

"I tell you how I fell about you and now you just keep trying to get away from me. Why is that?"

"You are in my bedroom."

"Yes, I am."

He smiled at me with a very sheepish smile. It was clear that he was well aware where he was. He especially found it funny how long it took me to realize he was there too. There wasn't really anything that I could do about it at the moment so I figured that I would let it go. I then turned to the clock to see that it was a little after six and that Charlie hadn't made it home yet. I was thankful for that because if he were to find Edward in my bedroom with me, I knew that he would for sure try to kill Edward and that I would never see the light of day again. Since Charlie wasn't home I realized that I did have the opportunity to question him to how he knew where my room was in the first place.

"How did you know where my bedroom was?"

"Bella, you know your house isn't that big. It wouldn't take long to find it. Plus there aren't that many places that it could be."

The questioning had to come to an abrupt halt when I heard the door to the Forks' police cruiser shut and that meant that its owner, Charlie Swan, was home as well. Edward released me quickly and I jumped from his lap to face him.

"Charlie is home. You can't be here, Edward."

"Go downstairs… he will never know I am here. Just act natural."

"I can't just leave you up here by yourself to wait on me."

"I'd wait an eternity for you."

I leaned in and kissed him on the cheek and I then dashed from the room and down the stairs to the living room. As soon as I reached the room, Charlie was pushing the door open. I went over to him to help him carry in what he had in his hands since it looked like he was about to drop everything all over the floor.

"Hey, Bells."

"Hi, Dad. Good day of fishing?"

"Yeah, I caught a lot. I didn't do as well as Harry though since he caught so much more than I did. He always puts me to shame."

I vaguely remembered his friend, Harry Clearwater from my childhood summers that I spent in Forks. Most of them consisted of Charlie laughing with both Harry and Billy about a variety of stuff. They were such good friends and it was hard to believe that it wasn't until recently that Charlie had mended his friendship with Billy too.

"Dad, you still caught enough fish to feed an army for months. I wouldn't be complaining."

He laughed as he went into the kitchen. I followed him there, trying to act as normal as possible and not think about the fact that Edward was up in my bedroom waiting on me. To keep myself busy, I went to the refrigerator and pulled out some cold cuts to make some sandwiches with. As I was making the sandwiches though, Charlie was hard at work preparing the fish to be frozen. I finished the sandwiches as he was finishing and I was placing them on the plates along with some potato chips on the table. Charlie washed his hands quickly and was at the table eating before I could realize it. However, before I could be seated, Charlie spoke to me.

"Bells, could you get me some milk?"

I took down a couple of glasses and went to the fridge to get the milk. I as I pulled the bottle out my mind began to drift back to the god-like boy that was in my bedroom. When Charlie spoke again, it jolted my thoughts back to the present.

"How was your day, Bella? Have a nice day shopping?"

The milk bottle shattered on the floor. Milk dripped down the counter and cabinets. I scrambled to clean up the broken glass when I seen that Charlie was there helping as well.

"Sorry Dad."

"It's okay. I would be more worried if you were cut or hurt. Its just like I said something that spooked you, that's all."

He didn't know the half of it, but he had spooked me. In that moment before he spoke my mind drifted back to the kiss that I shared with Edward and how much passion that was there with it. It didn't take much to realize that I was blushing too."

"I had a great day, Dad. I didn't go shopping though. Just hung out around town, but mostly just sat around and read a couple of books."

Luckily, I had broken the bottle of milk that was almost empty and I was able to go ahead and get milk to drink and just act as everything was normal, though it was far from being normal. It didn't take long for us both to eat and for me to clear away the mess. While I was working around the kitchen, Charlie was working through some of his paperwork from work. As I was finishing, I had to think of a reasonable excuse to get out of Charlie's sight and back up to my room where Edward was waiting for me. Finally, I came up with something perfect.

"Dad, got anything else you need me to do?"

"Not really, Bella."

"I guess I'll go up to my room and email Mom. You know how she gets if I don't keep her up to date on all the events in my life. I think she might send out the National Guard to find me if I didn't."

"You are probably right about that too. It's just because she loves and misses you though. Tell her I said hello."

I walked over and gave him a sort of side hug and walked as slow as possible up the stairs. I knew when I mentioned my mother that I would be bring up old memories for Charlie and I hated to see him like that. It hurt him that she left the way that she did because he did love her dearly. It was very clear especially when you looked into his eyes. He still to this day missed her and I honestly thought that he would never truly be over her, even though she is married to Phil now.

I finally reached the door to my room and opened it to see that Edward was no where in sight. I glanced around and still didn't see him. Where could he be? I whispered into the room.

"Edward?"

I heard a chuckle come from the other side of the room. I turned to see him on my bed with a book in his hands. I must have looked somewhat faint because he dropped the book and had his arms around me pulling me toward the bed.

"Bella…"

I pulled myself closer to him. I needed to be near him. It was the place that I knew that would calm me down.

"Bella, are you okay?"

"I am now."

"You were worried that I left you, weren't you?"

"That was part of it, and you startled me a little. Didn't expect you to be where you were."

He reached up to stroke my face. He looked deeply into my eyes as well, and I knew what he was looking for. He was looking for forgiveness for making me think that he would leave and for startling me. However, he should have known that he was forgiven as soon as I laid eyes on him. The question that he asked next surprised me, but then again it didn't.

"What made you break that bottle of milk in the kitchen?"

I blushed. I looked at my hands, trying not to make eye contact with him. He would want to search my face for the truth that I wasn't really willing to share at that moment, but I then felt him touch my skin causing me to feel an electric charge shoot throughout my body. Edward then leaned in and spoke to me again.

"Tell me."

"When Charlie asked what I had done today, I thought of something that sort of shocked me."

"You seem to be startled easily lately. What happened today that might have caused you to drop a bottle of milk…?"

I buried my head in his chest, to keep my eyes from his view. I tried to concentrate on his breathing to keep myself from hyperventilating. He began to rub my back in hopes of trying to calm me down. I could tell that he wasn't going to let this go because I knew that avoiding his question was just going to make him more curious.

"Is it that my primal nature wants to taste your blood?"

"No."

"Maybe it's because you smell so heavenly?"

"That's part of it, but not really in a bad way."

"I see… Well, could it be that you shared a special moment with me?"

I felt my pulse accelerate and I knew that it wouldn't go unnoticed by Edward either. He gently pulled my face up level with his. His honey-colored eyes sparkled as he looked into mine. In his eyes, I saw everything. I saw his joy… his excitement… his love… his desire. He pulled my face just inches from his face and whispered to me.

"Or was it because of this…"

He pressed his lips to mine again, but this time, I didn't go wild like the first time it happened. When I let myself savor the moment, it was like pure magic. The sensation that I got from this was indescribable and I never wanted it to end. He pulled away from me slowly and looked at me again.

"What is it, Edward?"

"This feeling that I am experiencing here with you goes beyond anything I could have ever imagined. I never thought someone like you would feel the same way about me."

"Meaning?"

"The way Mike Newton thought about you since you have come to Forks. He desires you more than you could ever know. When I realized that you were special and that I wanted to be with you the thoughts that Mike had about you made me want to hurt him. I saw what he fantasized about. He wanted to touch you… kiss you… I thought of a million ways to destroy him for thinking so impurely about you."

"You were jealous of Mike?"

"I was, but I am not anymore. I know now that you do not want him in that way and that you love me as I love you."

I could tell by the look in his eyes and the tone of his voice that thinking about that was difficult for him. I pulled myself closer to him and reached out and touched his hands. He slowly wrapped his fingers around mine and continued to speak.

"I asked myself many times why someone like you would want me… a stone-cold vampire who couldn't have what a mortal man could give you. They do not have to be like me. I have to be so careful to keep from hurting or killing you. Its pure torture for me."

When he said that, I was shocked. Something about his tone told me that what he said was a statement of fact not just a random statement. I looked into his eyes to see the sadness of his eyes at the admission of this detail.

"Edward…"

"Bella, you have no idea how fragile you are in comparison to me. If I wasn't constantly watching my actions, I could hurt you or kill you before I could even know I did it."

"But you won't."

"I hope not, for since I found you, I can't exist without you."

Hearing him say that he wanted and needed me was like pure ecstasy to my heart, but it was so hard to know he suffered so much because of what he was. It became rather clear that he hated what he was… a vampire, especially when it came to me.

Edward suddenly stiffened and jumped from the bed. I turned to see him looking concerned.

"Charlie is coming up to check on you."

"Edward you got to…"

When I turned to look at him, he was nowhere to be found. I scanned the room looking for him, but he was nowhere to be seen. In a low whisper I called out to him.

"Edward, where are you?"

"Here, but…"

The knock on the door made me jump. I went over to the door, but before I could open it completely, Charlie opened the door just a crack.

"How's your mom Bells?"

"Good."

Luckily, I had read my email yesterday so I knew that she and Phil were great and enjoying the Florida sun. So, I honestly didn't feel like I was lying, well not completely at least.

"I'm going to bed, Bella. Going fishing with Harry again."

"Night, Dad."

I pushed the door shut and sighed to myself. When I turned back to my bed, Edward was already there. He reached out and pulled me back to the bed and sat me beside him.

"If Charlie had my hearing, he would have known something was going on with you since your heart beat is so fast."

"Well, thankfully he can't or we would both be in trouble."

I laid my head on his shoulder and he wrapped his arms around me. We sat like that for a long time. The whole moment was being savored by both of us and I could tell that neither of us wanted it to end. Finally, I began to yawn and Edward stroked my face with his finger tips and spoke.

"You should sleep."

"I don't want you to leave though."

"I never said I was leaving, did I?"

"You mean…"

"When I say I want to be with you, I mean it in all its meanings."

I wrapped my arms around him and I thought to myself how lucky I was to have found Edward. Never could I have invented someone as wonderful as him. When I released him, the traced his finger down my nose and whispered to me.

"Do you plan on sleeping in that or do you plan on changing into something else?"

I looked over at the clock to see it was well past midnight and knew that I really did need to change clothes. I climbed from the bed and collected my toiletries and a t-shirt and a pair of pajama pants.

"I need a human moment."

"I'll be waiting."

I slipped from my room to the bathroom without waking Charlie. I climbed into the shower and let the warm waters run over me. The feeling of the water was both relaxing to my mind and to my aching body. I let my mind go places in that moment that I shouldn't have let them, but as soon as I turned off the waters, my mind went back to the present and that meant the fact that Edward was in my bedroom waiting on me. I pulled my clothes and slowly went back to my room.

As I opened the door, I came to find that Edward has already pulled back the covers of my bed back and had found a spot in the floor with one of my books. He turned to me and his eyes smoldered as he examined me. He stood with his eyes never leaving mine and walked toward me. I didn't even realize it until it was finished, but he had me scooped up into his arms and had me placed in my bed. After he pulled the covers up around my shoulders, I then felt him lay down next to me and him wrapping his arms around me. He came in close and whispered in my ear.

"This is nice. I wondered what it would be like to do this."

"Is it what you thought it would be?"

"It's more than I could have imagined it to be. You look lovely when you sleep, but now you look stunning."

"How do you know what I look like when I sleep?"

I rolled over to look in his eyes and he was staring deeply into mine with a mischievous smile. I wanted to know and he just kept staring… I quickly realized that he was trying to get my mind off of the question.

"Edward, how do you know what I look like when I sleep?"

"Will you be mad at my answer?"

"It depends on the answer."

"When I realized that I had this draw to you, I was out running and I ended up in front of your house. I saw the window open. I came up and sat in the chair and watched you sleep."

"So, you broke into my house and watched me sleep?"

"I listened to you talk as well. That is what gave me the courage to be near you."

"Listened?"

"You talk in your sleep."

Oh, no. What could I have said that would make Edward so interested in me? I laid there for a moment, and finally tried to push Edward away from me for a moment, though he pulled me closer to him.

"I'm sorry. I knew you would be upset by what I did, that is why I didn't tell you about it. I never did anything but watch you."

"I'm not really angry. Just more shocked."

His eyes flooded with a look of being ashamed of what he done. I didn't want him to beat himself up for something that wasn't really an issue. I would have done the same thing if I was given the chance. I pulled myself close enough and I kissed him on his nose gently.

"You shouldn't be worried about that, my love, but that has me wondering, why do you watch me sleep, don't you sleep yourself?"

"No. I don't sleep. So watching you sleep is relaxing to my mind."

"I just keep learning things about you."

"I guess so."

I rolled over again and we laid there in silence for a while. Edward then began to hum softly in my ear. It was so soothing and relaxing, almost like a lullaby. I listened to him and it made my mind wander to a place that looked very old and ancient. It was like I was in a novel about ancient times. When he stopped though, the thoughts faded away and it was only us there again.

I yawned again. Edward pulled close to my ear again and whispered.

"Sleep, angel. I will not be gone when you wake."

"I know… but I am not ready for this to end yet. I want it to last forever."

"As do I, love, but you need rest."

I lay there in silence for a while, thinking. My mind traveled again to places that it should not travel. Having Edward that close to me, I wondered if he wanted what I wanted from him. Did he desire me as much as I desired him? He pulled himself up close enough to my ear, and whispered to me.

"What are you thinking about?"

"You."

"I could guess that. What in particular?"

"It's nothing to be worried about."

"Please, Bella, tell me."

"I feel silly."

"You never have to feel silly about anything you have to say to me."

"Do you find me… well… desirable?"

I rolled over to look at him and the look he gave told me the answer I wanted.

"Bella… I may not be a human, but yes, I do desire you. You are the first woman that I have ever felt any desire for."

I blushed at that response. He kissed me gently.

"Bella, go to sleep. We have a much to do tomorrow."

"Like what?"

"It's a surprise. Just sleep, my darling."

I yawned again. I pulled myself close to Edward and felt my mind begin to drift toward slumber. Edward pulled me close and began to hum a song to me. I was almost asleep when I felt a sharp pain in my lower back. I twitched with the pain.

"Bella?"

"I'm okay. My back just hurt a little."

"May I look?"

I rolled over on my stomach and I felt him pull up my shirt a little. His touch on my back as sort of cold, but it felt wonderful to my skin.

"Did you know you had a birthmark?"

"What?"

"It looks like a small star."

"No I didn't know it."

"I don't see anything that looks unusual."

I rolled back over to look at him. I pulled myself up to him and he wrapped his arms around me and began to hum again. I felt myself drift off again and began to dream.

It wasn't me in the dream. It was a woman. It looked as if I was in some ancient place. I see another beautiful woman coming toward me. She has an evil looking smile on her face. She has me by the throat… she is choking me… she leans her head in and I feel her teeth break my skin. I hear a scream… and then silence.

Hopefully you won't have to wait forever for the next chapter. I am going to start the next one soon since I have a three day weekend. Thank you Presidents!!! lol
I hope that you guys enjoy the next chapter cause its going to open Edward's mind a little more. Happy Reading to all. MB