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Chapter 26: Everything's Changed
Logan smiled as he watched Kendall talk to him about something. He wasn't really listening, since Kendall jut kept talking. He loved how passionate Kendall was. He really cared about things and he talked about them and Logan generally listened. Right now though, he was having a hard time focusing on what Kendall was saying when his hair was messed up like that.
"Logan are you even listening to me?" Kendall asked waving a hand in front of Logan's face.
"Yeah," Logan said, "you said…uh stuff," he said blushing.
"What's got you so distracted," Kendall asked crossing his arms over his chest.
"You," Logan said blushing. He stood up from his bed and walked over to his desk and placed his hands in Kendall's hair. "I just want to run my hands through your hair," he said. Kendall grinned and looked up at Logan. "And do this," he said. He leaned down and brushed his lips against Kendall's. Kendall groaned when Logan pulled away.
"Tease," Kendall said. Logan smiled and pulled on Kendall's hair earning a small moan from Kendall. He leaned in and sealed their lips together in a kiss.
Logan woke up with a headache. He sat up and looked around. He vaguely remembered falling asleep last night. He remembered everything that happened though. He and Kendall had broken up, and all because he lied about his name. He thought about it and there was more to it then that. He lied about who he was. He wasn't some bad ass who didn't care what other's thought about him. He was a nerd who did care. He had to care, otherwise he never would have lied.
Logan swung his legs over the edge of his bed and stood up. He noticed he was still dressed from last night minus his tie. He undressed and walked over to his dresser and grabbed a pair of sweat pants and a tank top. He then walked into his bathroom to take a shower. Logan showered and dressed. He then walked back into his room and fell onto his bed. He couldn't bring himself to leave his room. He looked over at his clock and realized it was after noon. He had never slept in past noon before.
Logan curled up into a ball and hugged his knees to his chest. He didn't want to ever get out of his bed again. It still hurt. He hated this pain, it was unbearable. Logan felt fresh tears come and he cried again. It was like there was a hole in his chest where his heart was. He had never thought Kendall would break his heart like this. He had let go of his reservations and gave Kendall everything. He had given him the power to make or break him.
Last night just seemed so surreal. He had a hard time believing it really happened, but the pain told him it did. Logan wanted nothing more than to go to sleep and never wake up. In his dreams things were better. In his dreams Kendall still wanted him. In his dreams he was happy.
A knock on his door brought him from his thoughts. Logan didn't move to open it or yell to let who ever it was know he was awake. He just laid there with his face in his pillow. He heard the door opening, but he couldn't muster up any energy to move to see who it was.
"Logan," Camille said.
"Go away," Logan said, "I don't wanna talk," he said. He really didn't want to talk. He wanted to forget everything and just move on.
"Logan," James said. He and Camille sat down on the edge of his bed. Logan groaned and moved away from them.
"I said I don't wanna talk, now leave me alone," Logan said.
"Logan we just wanna see who you're doing," Camille said placing a hand on Logan's leg.
"I'm fine now just go away," Logan said. He knew if he talked about Kendall he would lose it again. He didn't know if he could cry anymore.
"Fine we'll go," James said standing up. He grabbed Camille's arm and all but forced her out the door.
Logan sat up once they were gone. He looked at his door. He knew they meant well, but he just didn't want to talk yet. He may never want to talk about it. He was dreading Monday. He knew he couldn't avoid Kendall forever. They would have to talk eventually. Then there was Katie and Carlos. What did they think about all of this. He knew they would choose Kendall over him they had known him longer. Kendall was Katie's brother after all. She would probably be as mad as Kendall. Carlos had known Kendall since they were really little and for sure would choose Kendall over him.
Kendall groaned as Katie and Carlos pounded on his door. Kendall had gone down fore breakfast and then locked himself in his room afterwards. Katie had called Carlos and the two wanted to talk to him, but he didn't want to talk. If he talked he would think of Logan and he would lose it.
"Come on Kendall open the door," Katie yelled.
"I don't think so," Kendall yelled. He was sitting on his bed staring at his door waiting for them to give up. They couldn't keep this up much longer. He just wanted to be alone.
"Kendall, we just want to talk to you," Carlos said.
"Well I don't want to talk," Kendall said. He grabbed his iPod and put it on his ihome and turned the volume up. He hit play and the first song to come up was Nothing Even Matters. Kendall sighed and let the song play. He didn't care anymore. He finally let his tears fall. He couldn't hold back anymore. The pain was just too much. He could not believe what he did. He really did love Logan, but the hurt from his uncle was there. He cold not forget what he did.
Kendall and Katie laughed as they played in the back yard with James and Carlos. Today was the day their father, Kai, came home from a business trip with his brother Kurt. Kendall was six and Katie was five and they were excited.
Kendall didn't like his uncle Kurt. Jennifer called him a liar and he had a gambling problem whatever that meant. He knew lying was bad and gonna get his uncle Kurt in trouble on of these days.
Yelling erupted form inside. Kendall and Katie froze. They recognized Jennifer's voice and uncle Kurt's as well. They four kids ran to the door and inside to see what was going on. They stopped when they saw the two adults in the living room. They were yelling at one another.
"Mom what's going on?" Kendall asked.
"Kendall," Jennifer said stopping.
"What's going on?" Kendall asked.
"Go back outside you four," Jennifer said.
Kendall and James nodded and pushed Carlos and Katei outside. They knew better than to not listen to her, especially when she was mad. They all stopped in the back yard. They all sat down and listened to the yelling. They got bits and pieces of what was begin said. Jennifer was mad at Kurt for something he did. Something bad had happened to Kai. Kendall wanted to know why he wasn't here.
A few hours later Kurt left and James and Carlos' parents came to get them. They said good bye and left. Katie and Kendall looked at Jennifer as she stood by the door tears in her eyes.
"Mom where's dad?" Kendall asked.
"Kendall, Katie, come here," Jennifer said walking over to the couch.
"Mom what's wrong?" Kendall asked as he and Katie climbed up onto the couch next to Jennifer.
Kendall shuddered at the memory. That was when Kendall really learned lying was bad. He had never lied to his mom about anything again. He had also never talked to his uncle again. Kendall had come to hate people who lied after that. He couldn't stand liars. It was because his uncle lied, his dad wasn't here.
Kendall looked at his iPod as the song Apologize by OneRepublic came on. He sighed and turned to the next song which was So Sick by Ne-Yo. Kendall shook his head. It was like his iPod was trying to tell him something. He put on a play list that had all his favorite songs none of which were break up songs. He laid back on his bed and closed his eyes.
He could no longer hear Katie and Carlos at his door. Kendall was glad they were leaving him alone for now. He didn't want to talk about Logan. He knew he would have to face him in school they had almost all their classes together. He didn't know what he was going to do. They were both on the hockey team as well. He didn't know how it would affect their playing. Kendall knew coach Parks would be mad if it affected their ability to play and he would make them work it out. Kendall didn't know if he could do that just yet.
James and Camille sighed as they walked to the food court. Katie had called them asking them to meet them here. James looked around for any sign of them. He spotted them alone in the corner of the food court.
"Katie," James said as he sat down next to her.
"James," Katie said smiling at him.
"How' Logan?" Carlos asked.
"Pretty bad," James said, "what about Kendall?" he asked.
"He locked himself in his room and he won't come out," Katie said sadly.
"Why did Logan lie to us?" Carlos asked, "I mean it was only about his name right?" he asked.
"Not exactly," Camille said, "back in Jackson Logan got picked on by Curt and Dak Zevon and he was, well, a nerd," she said.
"When we moved Logan didn't want to go through all of that again and he changed everything about himself," James said.
"I'm guessing he made you two promise not to tell," Katie asked.
"Basically," Camille said.
"He lied to stop himself from being teased?" Katie asked.
"Yeah, he just wanted to make it through high school without being the center of attention," Camille said, "he created Logan to get people to leave him alone. I don't think he planned on meeting Kendall," she said.
"Kendall ruined his plans didn't he?" Katie asked.
"Pretty much," James said. "Logan never thought of falling for someone. He figured he wouldn't find someone like Kendall in high school," he said.
"I know Kendall never thought he'd find someone like Logan," Katie said, "seeing him with Logan was the happiest I've ever seen him with someone," she said.
"What are we gonna do now?" Carlos asked, "they broke up, and as much as I hate it they're gonna want us to choose sides," he said.
"I know," Camille said.
"Kendall's my best friend, but Logan's my brother I don't think I can choose sides," James said, "especially since I kind of agree with both sides of the argument," he said.
"What do you mean?" Katie asked confused.
"Kendall hates liars remember," James said.
"Oh my god I forgot," Katie said.
"I'm not surprised," James said, "you were really young and probably don't even remember," he said.
"I know," Katie said.
"You talking about his uncle?" Carlos asked. James nodded.
"Why else would he over react like that," James asked.
"I think he reacted pretty normal for him," Katie said.
"Katie he didn't even give Logan a chance to explain," James said, "if he had listened maybe Logan wouldn't be at home right now crying his eyes out," he said.
"Well if he hadn't lied in the first place then we wouldn't even have to deal with this right now," Katie said. James and Katie stared at one another before both getting up and walking away.
"I'll talk to her," Carlos said.
"I'll talk to James," Camille said.
Monday rolled around too soon for Logan's liking. Logan showered and dressed in a numb state. He knew today was going to be the hardest. He was going to have to see Kendall. He didn't know if he could do it. Logan looked at himself in his mirror. He had bags under his eyes from lack of sleep, and he didn't even bother with his hair. He was wearing a white short sleeved t-shirt and a sweater. He was wearing a pair of skinny jeans and his vans. Logan looked down at his dresser and saw his contact and glasses.
"Logan if you don't hurry up, we're going to be late," Camille called up the stairs. Logan grabbed his glasses not wanting to waste time with his contacts. Logan grabbed his bag and headed down stairs. Camille was standing at the bottom of the stairs. "No contacts?" she asked.
"I lost one," Logan lied, "and don't act like everything is ok when you know it's not," he said.
"Logan," Camille said.
"Don't," Logan said, "everything has changed I know it. James and Katie are fighting and Kendall and I broke up, and did I mention the whole school thinks I'm a liar," he said.
"Logan you're over reacting," Camille said.
"I am not," Logan said walking past her into the kitchen. Logan looked at the plate set for him and his stomach flopped. He couldn't eat. He sat down and started on the toast. He knew Joanna would be mad if he didn't eat anything.
"Logan eat," Joanna said.
"I can't," Logan said standing up. He picked his bag up and walked from the room. James and Camille followed him out to the car. Logan dug around in his pocket for his keys. He couldn't find them. He groaned and tossed his bag onto his seat and walked back inside and into the kitchen and looked in the key dish to find his keys weren't there. "Where are my keys?" he asked Joanna and Jack.
"Did you bring them up to your room?" Joanna asked. Logan let out a frustrated groan and walked up to his room. Logan looked around for his keys and couldn't find them.
"I can't fins my keys," he yelled.
"Check your pants from the other night," Joanna yelled. Logan walked over to his dirty clothes hamper and dug his pants from Friday night out. He dug in his pockets and found his keys and his wallet. He grabbed them both.
"I found them," he yelled as he walked back down the stairs.
"Have a good day," Joanna said.
"Doubtful," Logan called back as he walked outside. Logan got in her car where James and Camille were already waiting for him.
"We'll be lucky to make it before homeroom," Camille said.
"Sorry I could not find my keys," Logan said as he started the car.
Kendall was nervous about seeing Logan. He didn't know what would happen. Part of him wanted to see him while another part didn't want to. He didn't know if he could forgive Logan so easily. He knew he was over reacting, but he really felt strongly about liars. It was who he was.
"Come on Kendall you have to get out of the car sooner or later," Katie said leaning against his open window.
"I know that," Kendall said. He pulled his leys out of the ignition and got out of his car. He locked his car and pocketed his keys as Logan pulled into the parking lot. He parked as far away from Kendall as he could. Kendall felt his heart sink at that. Everything was different now. Kendall sighed and followed Katie inside. He didn't look back at Logan or the others. Kendall didn't know what this meant for his friendship with James and Camille. He knew James and Katie were fighting now because of him and Logan. He had told her not to fight his battle but she was just as stubborn as him.
The bell for homeroom rang and Katie said good bye to Kendall. Kendall made his way to his homeroom and saw Carlos sitting in his usual seat. He walked over to him and sat down.
"Hey," Carlos said. Kendall nodded his head in his direction. He really didn't want to talk.
"Kendall, look I am not gonna choose sides, Logan's my friend too," Carlos said.
"I don't expect you to choose sides Carlitos," Kendall said.
"I just want to say I think you're being stupid though," Carlos said.
"I am not going back on my beliefs for what is probably just a high school crush," Kendall said, "I'll get over it and so will he, eventually," he said.
"Camille said he was in pretty rough shape," Carlos said. Kendall turned away form Carlos in time to see Logan, Camille, and James enter the room. Logan sat on the other side of the room and looked away from Kendall. James sat down next to him. Carlos stood up and walked over to the Camille. They met in the middle of the room. Kendall looked away form them not wanting to deal with that right now. He listened to them talk though.
"How is he doin?" Carlos asked.
"Ok," Camille said, "he won't eat and he hardly left his room all weekend," she said in a low voice.
"How was he when he got here?" Carlos asked.
"People are staring at him and it's worse than before," she said.
Kendall closed his eyes and tried to ignore it. He had noticed people staring at him as well. He was sure a few people had seen his and Logan's fight. He knew it was going to happen a lot over the next few days. He was worried about hockey practice.
Logan walked down the hall with Camille. It was lunch and he wasn't hungry. Logan told Camille he would catch up with her later and left her. He just wandered around the halls until he found himself at Kendall's locker. Logan looked at it before turning around and walking away. Logan ran into a bathroom and into a stalk and threw up. He sat there for a moment and flushed the toilet. Logan stood up and wiped his tears before exiting the stall. He walked over to the sink and splashed his face with water. Logan put his glasses back on as the door opened and Kendall walked in.
Kendall froze when he saw Logan. They stared at one another for a moment. Logan wanted to run to him and hold him close, but then he remembered that Kendall had broken up with him. He had ended it. Logan stood there not sure what to do. He was torn. Kendall turned and left and Logan felt his heart shatter even more. He felt fresh tears come to his eyes.
Logan wiped his tears and walked out of the bathroom. The bell signaling lunch was over rang. Logan made his way to his Spanish class and sat down in his usual seat. Carlos walked into the room and sat down beside him like usual.
"Hey Logan," he said.
"Hey," Logan said looking down at his desk. He knew his eyes had to be blood shot seeing as he had been crying so much today.
"You ok?" Carlos asked.
"Don't act like everything's ok I told Camille the same thing," Logan said, "nothing is ok so just stop," he said.
"Logan I just wanna know how you are," Carlos said.
"Then don't talk down to me like I'm dumb," Logan said his anger rising.
"I wasn't talking down to you," Carlos said.
"Carlos I am not dumb," Logan said.
"Boys is there something wrong?" Ms. Montez asked.
"No," Logan said looking up at her.
"Logan I didn't mean to upset you," Carlos said quietly as Ms. Montez talked to the class. "I just want you to know I am still you're friend," he said. Logan looked over at him and gave him a small smiled.
"Sorry," Logan said, "I'm just a little upset and thanks," he said. The two then turned their attention to Ms. Montez and what she was saying.
After the class ended Logan and Carlos said good bye and Logan left to his pre-calc class. Logan walked into the room and saw Camille sitting in his usual seat and he was glad she was there. She was talking to Kendall though. He knew she was still friends with Kendall and he didn't care. It was her decision like it was Carlos' to still be his friend. Logan had yet to see Katie and talk to her. He hoped she was still gonna be his friend. He didn't want to lose her.
Logan focused on what the teacher was saying. He was vigorously taking notes. He didn't want to look at Kendall. He didn't even glance over at the blonde. Once the bell rang Logan quickly put his things away and ran from the room. He didn't look back. He knew Kendall didn't want to see him. Logan walked into his English class and froze when he saw Jo. He looked at her as he walked over to his seat. Jo was looking at him as well.
It was her fault Kendall broke up with him. It was her fault everybody stared at him in the hallway. It was her fault he was in so much pain. He wanted to go over to her and just hit her and yell at her. He knew she was expecting him to do something. The smirk on her face didn't help. Logan tried to ignore her but he could feel her staring at him.
After the bell rang Logan gathered his things and left the room with Jo right behind him. He tried to ignore her, but she called out to him. "What's the matter Hortense not happy to see me?" she asked. Logan stopped and turned around.
"Why would I be happy to see the skank that ruined everything for me?" Logan asked viciously.
"Oh I am so hurt," Jo said.
"I know it was you, and Curt and Dak," Logan said moving closer to her as people stopped to watch them. "I find it hard to believe that a girl with two dads is homophobic," he said.
"I am not homophobic," Jo said, "I just can't stand you," she said. Logan snapped and raised his hand to slap her. He froze as he stared at her. All he had to do was move his hand and he would hit her. He shook his head and lowered his hand.
"I may hate you but I don't hit girls," Logan said. He shook his head and walked away. He walked to his next class, the last class of the day. Logan knew this was going to be the hardest class. He walked into the room and saw James, Carlos and Kendall sitting together and talking. Logan sat down away from them. James moved over to him.
"Hey," James said.
"Go back James," Logan said, "I don't care if you want to be friends with him, I am just gonna work on my notes," he said pulling a notebook out of his bag.
"You sure," James asked.
"Yeah, you three were friends way before I came along," Logan said. James nodded and walked back over to Kendall and Carlos. It took everything Logan had not to cry right then and there. Logan took a few deep breaths and calmed himself down. Logan read over his notes and underlined what he thought was important and added some things.
Finally the bell rang and Logan gathered his things and made his way to his locker. He placed his things in his locker and made his way out to the parking lot. He started over to where he usually parked by habit. He stopped halfway there and turned and went the other way fighting more tears. Logan walked over to his car and waited for James and Camille. He drummed his fingers on his thigh as he waited. He wanted to get out of here as soon as possible.
"Logan," Katie called as she walked across the lot. Logan froze he didn't know what she wanted. He hoped it was good.