A/N. Just a warning this is rated M for self hurt.
Days have gone by and I'm trying to bring myself on how I am going to tell the town that my mother is dead. I'm trying to figure out the funereal but it's so hard as I never thought of the day not for a long time where I would be planning my mothers funereal. F.P has been helping me with everything but it's so hard, harder than anything iv'e ever done. In some way I wish I could just hear her voice one last time. I just want to say goodbye, all I want is to say goodbye to my mum. Yes Alice Cooper was a stubborn person who was horrible to the Southside but she was true to herself. I haven't been eating much lately, well not at all. If I eat I just find myself getting rid of it. I shouldn't eat when I have so much to do, plus I don't need or want food, I need and want my mother! Food can come later when I get her back. looking Online for caskets, flowers and a place for the funereal is so not easy. I know what I need to do. Betty "Hi Mayor Lodge I was hoping that you could help me with something" Hermione "what can I do for you Betty" Betty "I need to make an announcement to the whole entire town right away today and I need some help" Hermione "meet me where your mother made that announcement a year back and everything will be setup for you" Betty "thank you heaps Mayor Lodge". I am at the trailer on my own. I lock up the house and get onto my bike that I am now allowed on.
I reach the exact spot I was told to meet at. Mayor Lodge is standing there and the whole town is watching me walk up. Camera man everything. I stand by Mayor Lodge, I look down to see my old friends there with there parents. "People of Riverdale I am here to inform everyone that one of our own has fallen" take a breath, faces are confused, just breath Betty. I clench my fist and feel the pressure of my nails dig into my palms. "Alice Cooper my Mother is dead" it's out. tears are coming out of the towns eyes, gasps are happening "how" they shout "She was murdered by Penny Peabody who shot her because of me" I speak, Mayor Lodge's hand touches my shoulder.
sitting at the Wyrm while Betty is at home i hate doing but something came up. My phone goes off. ARCHIE: wherever you are go to channel 7. what could be so important "Toni put the TV on channel 7 now" I order. That's when it changes, Betty is standing there. The caption reads Alice Cooper shot, Elizabeth Cooper speaks the news. "oh F, I need to get to her Tones, um are you ok here" Crap Betty "Don't worry Jones you stay here with Toni and sort out this stuff i'll go and get her, how about you meet us at Pop's with Toni" Sweet-Pea speaks "thank you heaps Pea I owe you one" I answer.
I am getting so many questions now. I am getting flusted and hot now. Too many questions and too many answers, that's when I see Sweat-Pea on his bike. sh*t. "No more" he yells, "princess come on let's go" he shouts, I go over to him and we ride away.
Sweet-Pea
"were meeting Toni, and Jug and Pop's" I say filling her in. "thank you for coming to get me, I don't know what i was thinking to tell the town about my mother but it had to be done and" I cut her off "you don't need to explain to me Betty, I understand, Just try and relax I can feel you tensing up as your tightening your fist on my jacket" "oh, what about my bike" she worries "don't worry I got that covered Fangs is going to pick it up for you and take it back to the trailer for you" thank god I asked him before I left. "Betty when you see Jones just stay calm ok" "i'll try" she responds.
We arrive at Pop's and Betty is very scared almost. she is walking slower and looks thiner, and pale. "you ok Princess?" I ask "Yea" she speaks. we go into Pop's and sit in the booth with Jug and Toni. Jug swaps places with me so he is sitting with Betty. Pop comes over to us "Betty you are a very brave girl doing what you did, and I have all the sympathy for you, what can I get for you" he says, Her face looks down to her hands "ah i'm good" no she isn't "she will have a small salad and a milkshake" I order for her. Her face gives me a sharp look. "I said I was good"she speaks "you look unwell so food you are eating" I answer, she scoffs at me "Betty what were you thinking telling the truth about Alice"
Jug asks me "they needed to know plus i'm trying to organise the funereal and they need to know, i'm sorry Juggie if that annoys you" I declare "I'm with Betty on this one Jones they deserved to know that one of them has been taken away" Toni speaks up. Pop comes over with my food i don't want. I just have to eat this and then make it go away. I sip at the shake to be honest it's good but it's not what I want. I pick at the salad and let Toni steal a few Tomato's here and there. I push the plate a little forward and I still have a half of the shake left but I don't want anymore. 'Betty you barley touched any of this" Jug says, "ah, I have to go to the bathroom" I get up from the booth and head the ladies room. I go into a cubical and lock it shut. The usual. I stick my middle and index finger down my throat. Gags, and then my stomach blurts out. This is for the best. I don't need to food I need a mother, my Father is rotting in Jail, and My mother is dead, both parents are gone. I'm alone. I have F.P and Jug plus the Serpents but My family is gone. another shot, when I feel that I have finished puking my guts out, I sit back against the wall, breathing. I flush the toilet, "Betty I know you are in here" crap Jughead. I unlock the door, "yea i'm ok" lie, "Betty I know what your'e doing" jee, "what am I doing Jug, because i'm in the girls bathroom last i checked" play dumb "your starving yourself and then when you eat you force yourself to chuck it back up, your trying to turn yourself bulimic" he explains "that's not true, Jug look i'm fine" I grab a hold of his hands "look me in the eye and tell me you are fine" I try to do what he says but I just can't "you got me, fine I will stop, but I am not eating unless I want to otherwise it goes back to this" I tell him "ok Baby but you need to stop beating your self up over the death of your mother" he says, "okay" I say. we go back to the others.
it's a while later and were back at the trailer, I'm paying off things for the funereal and F.P is helping, "F.P I was wondering if you would like to say something in respects of my mother at the funereal?" I hope, "I would be honored to, only if you are ok with it" he answers "of course, I just thought because you two had a connection you would want to" I answer "thank you so much Betty really I will, your mum and I got together a couple of times before she left for the job she was on, as when I said I was going out I was seeing your mum" news to me F.P and my mother were hooking up.
flashback
she lies there with me, leg wrapped around mine. only sheets to cover us up. I'm curling her hair in my fingers. "just like high school, F.p" Alice says "not quite, back then we were totally different people, now we have children who made some of the same mistakes we made" I answer. "We really should stop meeting up like this, I still haven't told Betty" she says "I haven't told Jughead, this can be our little secret" "Alice Smith" her old name I still remember "Fosythe Pendelton Jones JR" she giggles "I can't believe I named Jughead that name" we laugh...
F.P explains to me about him and my mother. My mind wants to shut off as it's making me think of her. His phone goes off, "ah excuse me" he says getting up to take the phone call, Jug comes out of his room, "hey beautiful I was thinking I could go and get some dinner for us soon" He suggests F.P walks back in "Jug, Betty I have to go and meet up with Gladys about something to do with JB I will be back later" he informs us and leaves in a hurry, "so how about you go gt dinner and then we can maybe go for a ride" I answer as this is all an act, "ok I should be gone about half an hour maybe longer" he says, he kisses me before he leaves. As the door shuts behind him my phones starts going off. Instagram: things about my mother. some Alice Cooper R.I.P, others Burn in Hell traitor, Just like her husband hook ups never changed, May we write an message about her on who the beautiful person she was. I can't take this pain anymore. My eyes are fuddling up with tears that I can not hold anymore. I go to the bathroom and close the door, I lock it. My body isn't perfect, i'm not perfect, I am not what my mother wanted me to be, I am a disgrace, I'm just a reminder of my mother. I sit on the tiles on the hard ground floor. My eyes keep staring up to my shaver, and tweezers. I grab them off the shelf. This pain is all I can feel, the guilt, the suffering, I just want it to go away, I just want the pain to go away and feel something else. I do the one thing I thought I would never do. Tear away me.
I come home but not to see Betty in the lounge. I check my room and put the food on the table. "Betty, Bets" I bellow. I check the toilet but no, I turn the nob on the handle but it's locked "Betty open up, it's me", no response "come on baby let me in", yet still nothing. I can either kick down the door or get my dad, but my dad will take to long to get here so i'm left up to kick the door down. "Betty if you don't open the door I'm kicking it down" NOTHING. I put all my strength into the door. it falls down to reveal my baby lying unconscious on the floor in a pool of blood. i rush over to her, I look to her thigh to see cuts, her hands are holding her pale pink shaver and tweezers. I dial triple zero . Jughead "I need an ambulance, Southside trailer park with the two bikes out the front, my girlfriend has hurt herself and she has lost a lot of blood" Hospital "ok, the ambulance is on there way, try to get her to wake up and stay calm" the tell me. I call my dad F.P "hey son you ok do you want to speak to your mum or JB" Jughead "dad it's Betty, we have an ambulance on the way, she was self harming herself she was cutting dad I don't know how to wake her up" F.P "stay calm Jug, try and talk to her, if she doesn't wake up um I will meet you at the hospital" Jughead "dad,I think the ambulance is here please get to the hospital" F.P "It's ok Jug I will see you there" he says. I end the call so I can help the paramedics. I lead them to my Baby. They put her on a carrier and put her in the ambulance. I ride along with them.
I need Betty to wake up. We get to the hospital. The paramedics rush her into a room in the hospital, I see my dad sitting waiting for me. I go over to him, I hug him. "oh son" he says "she is not good, dad we need to get her past the funereal otherwise this will be worse" I rant "how did this all start, you know what i mean?" he questions, "at first she wasn't eating and then she forced herself bring it back up, and then I knocked down the door and there she was lying there in blood because of what she did, dad I don't know what to do" I explain "she'll be ok, we new she would fall but not this bad, i'll talk to her after you have been to see her" he says.
it's an hour or two later when i get told that she is awake and i can see her. I go to her room. I walk in to see her lying there quite pale and a little thiner than normal. "Hey baby" I hope she talks to me "you probably don't want to talk to me" she speaks "I do, Betty why, I thought we talked about it?" I'm confused myself "I got these things on Instagram about my mother and i just broke again, Jug i'm going crazy, the funereal I will be worse, Jug" she is making me feel so hurt "I understand I just want to help you that's all" I say, I kiss her and walk out of the room, as my dad walks in.
Lying here sucks, my body aches, my head hurts, what was i thinking doing this, that's the thing I wasn't thinking at all. F.P walks in, oh no. "F.P please don't yell at me or lecture me" I hope "I'm not going to Betty, you are like another daughter to me and yes I know that sounds weird because of you and Jug being together but it's true, that' s why I can't bare to watch you go through this guilt, When Jug wrung me and told me he found you like that with blood everywhere my first thought was I can't loose another Cooper woman, Betty your mother would kill me if I ever let something happen to you so I am going to protect you, let Jug and I help you, yes the funereal is going to be a massive struggle and yes you may break but it's ok to cry and break because you loved Alice so much and others should see what she meant to you, so please Betty stop shredding yourself apart because we love you for who you are, your blond locks, writers thought, and just you" he explains, "F.P you basically are the father figure i never had, you supported my mother and I throughout so many crises and thank you, I will stop I guess I wasn't or just aren't thinking straight but I will from now on" I answer. He smiles and leaves me to rest.
I know now that I am going to break at the funereal and who cares what people think of me because I'm Elizabeth Cooper and I am proud to be the daughter of Alice Cooper!
so what did you think. it was a far bit longer hey. so the next chapter is the funereal.
until next time...