A/N So here is another update. This story is just speaking to me more than my others right now. I have already started the next chapter as well. Read and let me know what you think. It makes me write faster!

SPOV

The next month seemed to fly by. Halloween was uneventful. I sat at home handing out candy to trick or treaters. I bought way more candy than I needed which was a good thing since I ate at least half of it all by myself. I wanted to feel bad about doing that, but I couldn't.

Every time that the doorbell rang I was hoping to find a little fairy standing there, but she never came. I fought back the disappointment that I was feeling. This was my own doing and I would have to deal with it.

I could have gone to the bar for the annual Halloween party, but I didn't want to be around all that smoke and those drunks in my condition. I had passed all of my responsibilities for the night over to Alcide and he was happy to step in for me.

Thanksgiving I celebrated with Alcide and his sister Janice at his place. I did the cooking and I made enough for an army. It helped me take my mind off of everything for a little while anyway. I tried to be happy that day, I had so many things to be thankful for; the diner would be ready to open just after the first of the year, I had my friends and my little Pumpkin growing in my tummy and starting to make it's presence known. But I couldn't be as happy as I wanted to be without Eric.

During the days I was able to keep busy running errands, working on the diner or hanging out with Alcide, but at night I didn't have any of those distractions. I hadn't spent the night in my own bed since I left having taken up residence in the guest room. I couldn't stand being in there. I would sit up in bed and dial his number more than a dozen times, but I wouldn't let the call go through. I wanted to talk to him, to hear his voice more than anything, but I was too much of a coward.

I talked to Pam everyday and even went to see her a couple of times in the park where I first met her. It always made me feel better to be with her and to play and spend time with her, but leaving her just kept getting harder and harder, that still didn't stop me though.

No matter how depressed I felt, the day after Thanksgiving made me smile. That was my next appointment and I was so excited to see my Pumpkin. As long at it was cooperating I would finally be able to find out if it was a boy or a girl.

I had Alcide drive me since I was so excited I couldn't sit still, that and I didn't want to find out on my own, I wanted to share this with my very best friend.

When we got there I was taken right in. Alcide waited outside while the doctor did her exam, then he came back in when she was doing the ultrasound. Janice was the nurse there again, so I asked her to stay as well. I wasn't as close with her as I was with Alcide, but she was still like a sister to me.

As she started the ultrasound I was still amazed at seeing this little person that was growing inside of me. I could see that it was bigger than before, even if I could tell my ever expanding waistline, but it still made me smile. Dr. Ludwig moved the wand around and there was a full frontal view of my baby, of my son. I couldn't stop the tears from rolling down my cheeks. I should have been happy seeing him and knowing that I was having a boy, but I wasn't. The one person in the world who needed to be here wasn't. In that moment seeing my son for the first time I knew that somehow I needed to make up for the many mistakes that I had made recently, but I had no idea how I was going to do that.

I went through the rest of the visit in a fog. I barely noticed when Alcide went to wait out in the car while I talked to the doctor. I got that everything was going good with both me and the baby, we were both healthy and right on schedule. She handed me another envelope with pictures and DVD's and led me out to make my next appointment.

When I was done I went out and got into Alcide's car, but I didn't say anything to him. I sat there looking out the window and letting the silent tears fall down my cheeks. My mind was spinning and I didn't know what I was going to do now.

He pulled into my driveway and I didn't go to get out right away. "I fucked everything up Alcide. Eric should have been there today. I took that away from him. I took his opportunity to see his son for the first time away from him and I can't ever give that back to him."

"Yes you did, but you can give him so much more than that, and you know it."

"Yeah, but how do I do that? I'm the who left and now I don't know how to go back." I wanted to stay and find out what advice he could give me, but I was exhausted and hungry and I need to figure this out for myself. I was going to fix this fucked up situation that I'd gotten myself into no matter what.

Alcide's POV

I had about reached my breaking point with these two. Both of them had their heads so far up their asses that they couldn't see what was right in front of them. Sookie told me that she was in love with Eric and a blind could see that Eric was in love with Sookie. They just needed to get their shit together and talk to each other.

I had promised myself that I wouldn't get in the middle of this cluster fuck, but this was getting ridiculous. But what really clenched my change of heart is when she left the latest envelope from the doctor in my car. The previous she'd held onto like it was made of gold. She was really in a state this time and as her best friend I felt it my duty to step in to fix this if I could.

I steered clear of Sookie over the weekend so that she wouldn't think about the envelope in my possession and I called Eric on his cell Monday morning, "Hello?"

"Hey Eric, it's Alcide."

"Hey, what's up?"

"I need to talk to you about Sookie."

"Is she all right?" I could hear the panic in his voice and I knew that I was doing the right thing.

"Physically, yes, emotionally, not so much. She misses you like crazy."

"Then why the hell did she just up and leave me the way that she did?"

"That's what I wanted to talk to you about. Can you come over to my place for lunch today? I can't cook, but I can order take out like no other."

"Yeah, that's fine."

"Great, I'll see you around noon?"

"See you then." I was definitely doing the right thing.

EPOV

Keeping my promise to stay away from Sookie and giving her the space that she needed was harder than I thought it would be. I thought about her everyday no matter where I was or what I was doing. I dialed her number everyday, but I would never let it ring. I would drive by the club hoping to see her, but I would never stop.

I hadn't had a decent night sleep since before she left. I would toss and turn in my very empty feeling bed and when I did drift off to sleep it was never restful. I missed curling up next to her at night and waking up next to her in the morning. I missed the sex too, but more than anything I missed her company, her presence in my home. It didn't feel like a home anymore without her in it.

I spent as much time with Pam as I could and the rest of the time I spent buried in my work. That part was harder than it used to be. I was losing interest in my work. I hadn't really been a hundred into my work in a long time, but this was different. I was feeling like I needed a change in my life. I wanted to do something where I had more flexible hours and so that I could spend more time with my daughter. It was just a thought for me to ponder, but the Friday before Thanksgiving made me make it a reality.

I was in the office later than I had planned. I was trying to get ahead so that I could have a short week next week with the holiday coming up. I had come out of my office to get something to drink when I saw the last person I ever expected to see go into Russell's office; John Quinn.

I stood there completely gob smacked. What was worse was the look on Russell's face. He actually looked happy to see that piece of utter shit. I couldn't stop my feet from making their way down the hall and into Russell's office.

They both looked up at me when I came into the room. I held myself back from decking the Mr. Clean wannabe, but just barely. "Russell, what the fuck is this piece of shit doing here?"

"I have decided to take on his case. He says that he's been wrongly accused and I believe him."

"He attacked my girlfriend!"

"Any woman that I've ever touched begged me for it."

I really wanted to beat the shit out of this guy, but with everything in me I held back. Instead I did the next best thing. "Fuck you Russell, I quit." I stormed back to my office and loaded all of my personal items into my briefcase, not caring about the rest. I dropped of my case files at the receptionist desk and walked out without looking back.

The passed couple of weeks Russell had been taking on some rather shady cases. I don't know why, but I hadn't said anything about it, but this was the last straw. This was not what I wanted to be doing and I was glad to get out of that mess.

I should have felt bad or useless now that I was unemployed, but I had more than enough money from my parents and Sophie's life insurance policies that I never had to work again if I didn't want to. Now I was just happy to spend more time with Pam and that was all that really mattered.

Isabel and Alain came over to the house for Thanksgiving. It was nice, but it didn't seem right without Sookie there. I could tell that Pam felt her absence as much as I did, but neither of us said anything about her.

I realized now that I had all of this extra time on my hands that I needed Sookie back. I felt empty inside without her and I didn't like it. I needed to tell her that I loved her and that no matter what had happened to make her leave that I would always love her and needed her with me.

I was thinking about her Monday morning when Alcide called me. I was afraid that something was wrong with Sookie, but he said he just needed to talk to me about why she left. I was more than curious about that, so I agreed to come over. Hopefully he could help me get her back.

I pulled up to his house just before noon right behind him. I got out of my car and jogged over to him. "Hey Eric. How are you? I picked up subs for lunch." He looked at me and noticed that I was wearing sneakers, jeans and a long sleeved t-shirt. "Is this a causal day at the office for you or something?"

"I've been better and I actually quit my job. I was at home when you called, but I don't really want to talk about that now. How is Sookie?"

He led me into the house and to the kitchen. "She's hanging in there. She really misses you."

"I miss her too." I looked at him and asked the question that I needed the answer to more than anything. "Alcide, why did she leave like that?"

"Why don't we eat lunch first and then I'll show you."

"Okay." I only managed to eat half of my lunch and Alcide seemed to take forever to finish his. When he was finally done I couldn't take it anymore. "Please Alcide, I'm dying over here."

"Okay." I watched him disappear for a minute, then he came back in carrying his laptop. He set it down in front of me and pressed a button before sitting back down.

The room was instantly filled with what sounded like galloping horses. I looked at the screen and it was a picture of something that I hadn't seen in a long time. It was a baby all snuggled up in a womb. I was confused for a moment before I took a closer look at the whole picture. In the corner I saw the name of the mother; Sookie Stackhouse. "Oh my God!" It felt like my heart was going to beat right out of my chest. This couldn't really be real could it?

"Eric, I'd like you to meet your son."

So he knows! What do you think he is going to do next? Stay tuned!