Weeks were drifting by, slowly moulding into one another, just becoming something else we suffered when we woke up out of cold, tormented sleep. James and Sirius were the worst. They did activities with us, going for walks, shopping, eating or just sitting around but they did it in complete silence and when people spoke to them they had cold chipped and dead voices. I cringed every time James spoke, it was horrible. Deep down I knew I was the same when my parents were murdered.
'STOP IT' I screamed to them on the thirtieth afternoon. 'JAMES STOP IT' I sobbed falling onto the floor suddenly crying. 'Stop what?' he asked confused, 'you're just so, stupid. Your parents just died in an accident at the ministry. Stop walking around so, dead. It scares me' I told him refusing to look into his hurt hazel eyes.
'I'm sorry I, I don't know what to do' he whimpered and to my horror tears were seeping out his eyes before we could stop them. 'James don't cry. James, I'm sorry, I know what you're going through please James' I sobbed through ragged breaths as I kissed his tears away. 'Don't worry, just think of them as living it off in a better place James' I whispered to him, I stroked his hair and kissed his cheeks and lips trying to calm him down and persuade him it will all get better, the pain will not fade away completely, I would know, but it will ebb into something you learn to live with.
Slowly as months drifted and became one James, with the speed of a snail, recovered from his horrific cage, Sirius trailing along behind him. Mrs. Longbottom, Frank's mother came round weekly always helping us clean up or make meals. 'Thank you' I mumbled to her as she got prepared to leave one day. 'Not to worry my dear, you have all been through unbearable losses I am sure. Frank and I ourselves suffer at the hand of the Death Eaters quite a lot too. Don't look so shocked' she smiled wearily patting my cheek. 'We're pureblood's, we're suppose to support you-know-who but of course we don't' she smiled before leaving.
I decided, on a bitter cold night as I lay with James in my bed, that I did like Mrs. Longbottom even if she is rather strict and demanding. She kept everything in order. 'Come with me' I whispered to James slipping the warm sheets of me and letting the cold take over my body. I summoned some clothes and changed into them and I pulled on a long coat that went to my feet. I waited patiently for him downstairs as he got dressed and told the others we were leaving.
'C'mon then' I said taking his hand in mine and walking out the door. Tonight we act like muggles, using transport that muggles are stuck with, talking like muggles and going to muggle places. 'Lily' he muttered and I shoved him playfully. 'One rule tonight Potter, no being all pathetic' I told him and he flushed, 'don't be embarrassed I must have been worse, it's just you're meant to be fun and I'm really, really impatient so I'm going to force it out of you' he grinned like he forgot he was supposed to be sad then he remembered and I frowned.
'James quit it!' I tried to laugh and slap his hand, as though this was just a game and I was trying to get him to stop. Okay then, plan B I thought miserably to myself and stopped walking and pulled him to stand in front of me. 'What?' he asked innocently his dead eyes staring straight at me. 'Stop being so bloody miserable' I growled and kissed him full on the mouth quite deeply putting as much force in it as I could.
'You aren't trying to kiss me awake are you Lily Evans?' he muttered in my ear in the cocky voice I knew so well. 'Mm, might be trying that. Got a problem with it Potter?' I asked chipping a little at his ear and he shook his head. Success! We stood on the sidewalk in the towering shadow of a tree for a while kissing each other and such things. I tried everything I knew, that didn't include taking my clothes off, and maybe just a little it worked because, unless I am much mistaken, James actually smiled and made other Marauder-like comebacks that night.
'You really never do cease to amaze me Lil's' he grinned as I kissed him goodnight outside the door to his bedroom. 'As long as you never leave me, I'll always be there for you James' I whispered kissing him again before tiptoeing back to my room. I looked at Alice and Rose as they lay in their beds snoring gently in their sleep before I slipped in my own and fell asleep full dressed.
James had taken me to a secluded little area where the grass was wet with dribbles of rain and the sun shinned down at us, the trees swayed happily in the breeze, the little lakes water chattered away as birds and other creatures sung their songs. I was wearing a light velvety dress with elegant patterns and James was in a fancy outfit but tried to not look too out there. He was setting down the blanket on the grass as I danced around with the basket of food telling him how excited I was.
We sat down smiling at each other kissing each other lightly and telling stories of our day. James poured some expensive champagne into our fancy glasses and we made a toast to each other. 'I love you Lil's' he whispered as I leant forward for a kiss, 'I love you James' I told him and his eyes lit up. We clinked our glasses together and drank a little sip. I jumped up with my glass in my hand and played with the lake, dipping my feet in and out testing the water. James laughed but hopped up to join me.
We flicked little sprays of the clear water at each other laughing in enjoyment as it jumped on our legs. We stayed like that for a while before James walked over to his coat and pulled out something and sat next to me in our new spot next to the water. 'Lily Evans, I've loved you since the day I met you on that blasted school's train. My name has gone down in Hogwarts history not just as a famous Marauder but for being the only guy to ask out the girl who says no to everything about him.
'You hate me, and yet here you are now dating me. Clearly the Great Squid wasn't the best date. I've kept everything in check and have sworn not to go back to the terrible ways I was before. I will drop everything for you even if it is just a broken nail, because that is just how much I love you. Every detention I made schemes to get you to go on a date. And hell, here I am now completely in love with you and you, finally may I add, love me back' he said and I giggled but nodded and said 'I love you James.'
'Then please Lily, would you marry me? Will Lily Evans do the unthinkable and become a Potter?' He asked his eyes dancing with fear and passion as he pulled out the velvet box and unclasped it to reveal the glittering diamond ring inside. 'J-James! I do, I yes!' I squealed and he slipped it on my finger and we kissed and kissed each other. It was perfect, it was everything and it was all I ever wanted.
It was also a dream. I woke up and instantly grasped my hand feeling desperately for the ring I knew would not be there. Disappointment welled up inside me as I shoved the blanket of my body and looked around my room a tingling of sadness in my stomach. 'You alright?' a voice beside me made me jump and I saw James looking at me concerned. 'Why wouldn't I be?' I asked sliding of the bed and walking over to the bathroom with James right behind me.
'You looked upset' James said as Rose and Alice giggled and mucking around in the corner of the room. 'I'm fine James, honestly how could I be upset with you as my boyfriend' I laughed airily and he grinned. I changed into some simple muggle clothes, the casual tee and jeans but when James saw it he shook his head. 'Nope, something nice missy' he said and I rolled my eyes but changed into clean jeans and a top. 'Really?' he asked and threw some velvety material to me.
I changed into it and found it was a dress I wore stockings underneath though; it was after all soon becoming winter. He nodded in appreciation and he took my arm in his. 'Breakfast out today and lunch and dinner. A true muggle day out' he grinned an old grin I missed before apparating to a secluded place somewhere I've never been. 'What are we doing James?' I snorted as he pranced around making me spin with him. 'WE ARE HAVING A DATE IN THE... "NORMAL" WORLD' he grinned a flashy grin to onlookers and they all cheered as I blushed a deep ugly red.
Snap, snap, snap. I flicked my head up and saw James smirking while clicking at a camera. Taking. My. Pictures. 'You sure do have some nerve James' I called and he winked. People were watching us, little kids danced around James' feet and little girls handed me flowers that James slipped in my hair. 'C'mon!' James laughed and pulling me with him, he spun up and down the streets laughing loudly at little kids as they tried to copy us. But not everyone joined; some looked at us as if we fell out a tree and landed on our heads.
'James' I laughed as we finally stopped outside a comfy looking cafe. 'Yes my darling?' he asked bowing and kissing my hand all over. I yanked it out of his grasp and burst into a fit of giggles. The kids made their way home and James sat me at the table where we'd soon be eating our breakfast. It seems like I was in for a very interesting day.
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