D:Mark and Addison were married. Well, when we were interns, we were all best friends. Mark had met Addison in med school. They fit together and complimented each other really well. After a while, Mark became absent. He stopped coming home at night, he stopped calling, he started asking me to take her out and such. Things that he should have been doing. Well, after a while, I started falling for her, and one night, one thing led to another and we were in bed together. It just so happened that Mark happened to have come home early that night. He caught us in their bed.

M:Well, I would hate you too.

D:Yeah, I guess so.

M:Ok, so, what happened? You seem to have missed a few details. I remember clearly reading a letter stating that you had to return to your wife. I think you better fill in the blanks, and quickly.

D:After a while, Mark and Addison got divorced. She came to New York, and we found each other working at the same hospital, again. Not here, NY General.

M:I wasn't asking.

D:But I know what you are thinking.

M:Ok, are you going to continue?

D:Well, we started seeing each other, and one day she tells me she's pregnant.

Meredith just looks at him.

D:So, we decide to get married, you know, for the baby. I never loved her, she never loved me, it was just a front. So, after we get married, everything is going fine, except, she's absent. She stops coming home, she stops calling, she almost disappears. I figure that it's just because of her pregnancy, that it's fatigue. But then one day I see Mark at the hospital. He was standing in her office, and he had his hand on my wife's abdomen. He was caressing my baby, and Addison was just looking at him. That night, when she eventually came home, I asked her how her day was. She told me that she had had her OBGYN appointment and that everything was fine. I was wondering why she didn't tell me about it, I told her that I would have liked to have been there. She laughed. Then it dawned on me, it wasn't my baby. It was Marks.

Meredith didn't look up at him. She just stared at the floor. She could tell that he was crying, but she couldn't say anything, she just let him continue.

D:So, then, when she admitted it finally, I left. I left New York and came to Seattle. I left and found you. When I left 4 years ago, it was because Addison had miscarried. She was 35 weeks. The baby was in distress, and there was nothing they could have done to save her. Addison's mom called me. They guilted me into coming out to Greenwhich to take care of her. They told me she was dying, only it wasn't completely true. She was dying, just emotionally, not physically. I found out after I got there. I couldn't just leave her. She was so broken. After all, she was my wife.

I know that I owed her nothing, I know that I didn't love her, I know that I had no obligation for her or the baby; but I just couldn't say no. When I got there, the only person she would talk to was me. Even Mark had been there, but she would just cry. She went deeper into her depression. For some reason, she opened up to me. I think that it had to do with the fact that we had been friends for so long. Anyways, after about a year, she was able to get back on her feet. She had even started working again. That's when she told me, that's when she told me that she was still in love with Mark. And she knew about you.

M:Looked up at him. You told her about me?