A/N hey! i've had some great reviews about the last chapter, thank you all!

i realise this has taken me a while, and i'm sorry for those who really want to know what happens next, but i find it quite difficult. Each chapter takes planning and thought, and then i want to write it correctly. but thank you to all the people who have stuck by Realisation. this won't have more than 30 chapters, i don't think.

STEPHANIE MEYERS OWNS THE CHARACTERS OKAY (except the ones i make up, obviously). anyway, enjoy!

previously: The last thing I saw was her bright red eyes darken as she lunged for my neck, her high pitch laugh filling my ears before all I saw was black.

BPOV

How long was I out? I wasn't sure. I slowly opened my eyes to find a man staring at me, and he looked absolutely terrified. Where was Maria, and who was this man with the fiery red eyes, who was tied up to a chair with chains?

"I know what you're thinking." He whispered, his blonde hair falling over his eyes. He looked so afraid that I wanted to hold my arms out to him, comfort him. He only had to be sixteen, seventeen at the latest. And from the look of it, Maria has just created him. He sat on the chair in torn up clothes, and absolutely filthy. He had to be days, if not hours old.

"Who are you?" I whispered back, looking around the room. It was a very creepy room, that made shivers run down my spine. It was very dark, small, and low. It was wooden, and had to be a shack of some sorts. A hut. Directly in front of me was a large mirror with glass spikes around the edges. I stared at myself. My brown eyes stared back at me, eyeing the remainder of my body. There was blood everywhere, wounds everywhere, and I only had my underwear on, and even that was in rags. I didn't even bother to feel self conscious. On my neck was very fresh tooth marks where Maria had bitten me, which were still dripping in blood.

She couldn't have wanted to drink my blood, because it's half venom, it would sting her mouth. No, she must have wanted something else. But what?

"Adam. My name is Adam." He whispered so quietly, that if I wasn't half vampire I wouldn't have been able to hear him. He's afraid to speak, and I don't blame him.

"Adam, I'm Bella. Why are you here?" I murmured.

"I.. I don't know. I was just at home with my girlfriend, Jayne, when.. she came into my house and killed Jayne." I didn't even have to ask who 'she' was. My insides turned at the thought of Maria doing this to an innocent girl. And I know it won't have been a clean death. Adam's face crumpled in pain, and I was actually surprised he could remember what happened. "Then she bit me.. and that's the last thing I remember. Then I woke up yesterday, and was brought in here with you.. covered in all that blood." His bright red eyes glistened as he stared at me.

I could almost feel the thirst he was feeling, remembering back to my newborn days.

"Have you fed at all?" I asked weakly. Adam just shook his head, and I felt so sorry for this boy, and so, so angry at Maria.

"Who is that woman? And that man she is with?" Adam barely breathed.

"Her name is Maria. And I don't know about the man, I have never met him. They are bad people.

Maria kidnapped me the night of my wedding. She has history with my husband.. my vampire husband. That is what you are now. A vampire." I told him, looking deep into his eyes, desperate for him to understand.

"The pain." He croaked. "The pain was so bad."

"I know, I remember it well." I didn't know how else to respond, how to comfort him.

"Why did Maria take you?" Adam's eyes held so much agony, he didn't understand anything.

"She wants my husband." I said after growling. Adam gasped, and I looked at him sympathetically. "But she's not going to get him. She tried to take him a while ago, but ended up killing three members of my family, and one of them was my husband, the father of my child. It was the worst time of my life. And then I found I was mated to Jasper." Adam's face looked up in confusion. "Like, vampire soulmates. So we got married, and he was meant to change me back into a full vampire. But then I was taken." Some where during telling Adam this, I started crying.

"What did she do to you?" Adam muttered, looking really annoyed and angry. Why should he? He doesn't know me. But already I felt an odd friendship forming, like we were allies in this.

"Well.. she hit me, obviously. And she forced me to drink human blood." I whispered softly, tears falling from my eyes at the memory. Adam winced at the thought of blood, and my heart ached for him.

"What's going to happen to us?" He asked brokenly.

"I don't know." I replied honestly after silence. "I hope my husband comes to rescue us."

A high pitched laugh interrupted us, making Adam cringe.

"You hope Jasper comes to rescue you? And now him as well?" Maria snickered, pointing at Adam. "That useless piece of nothing?" Adam flinched, which made me really angry. I saw the white rage before I heard it from my voice.

"You know what?!" I yelled. "You're a fucking bitch. What gives you the right to do this to him! What did he do to you? He's just a kid! He had a girlfriend, a life.. everything."

"Yes, his girlfriend. She was delicious." She taunted. Adam growled and hissed, trying desperately to free himself from his restraints, but they were too tough, that even a newborn vampire could not free himself from them.

"Don't you dare talk about her." He barked, which made Maria laugh.

"Why did you do this to him?" I roared.

"Because I wanted to, you little whore." She spat, crossing over to me as fast as lightning, grabbing my jaw again. "Now listen to me again. You will do as I say. You will not ask questions. And you will never see Jasper again." Before I could react, she slapped me on the face again, so hard that I heard a crack. I whimpered in pain as Adam continued growling.

"You'll never get Jasper." I sobbed, determined to hold on to the one thought that kept me going, that Jasper would always be safe.

"Oh really? Well. We'll see about that." She drawled in her heavy accent before biting hard into my neck, which made me fall into darkness yet again.

An hour later.

The pain. Oh, the pain. It took over everything. Everything. I screamed, letting the pain take me over completely, not caring about who heard me.

Maria. Why did she do this to me.. I was so happy. So happy.. and she took it all away.

I had been burning for about an hour, and already, it was starting to fade. I almost didn't want to wake up. But no. I had to be strong. To get home to Jasper, to Renesmee.

And Maria has to die. Whatever it took. Even if that meant Jasper being half human. But could I do that to him? I'd have to. He would forgive me, I know he would.

The burning had died down enough that I could hear talking, and I desperately listened in to the conversation that Maria was in.

"He's left Italy. Yesterday. He went there with some of his pathetic family to try and find her. I don't know where he is now, we need to find Jasper." She snapped angrily at this man.

Jasper!

He went to the Volturi to try and find me. He's coming. But who is with him?

All pain forgotten, all I can see is Jasper's face. His beautiful, soft face. His face when we kiss. When he laughs. When he's thinking. When he's happy. His face when we got married, when he was mine, and I was his.

So much want, and need is rising up in me, making me want to cry.

But I can't. I can't cry. It's no longer possible in this hard, inhuman form.

"Find him! Find Jasper!" Maria screamed, obviously throwing things around. Smashes, cracks, breaks. Everything and anything she can get her hands on.

My eyes snapped open, to find Adam sitting over me, holding my hand. He caught my eye, then put his finger to his lips, telling me to stay quiet. We listened to Maria yell at this unknown man for a little longer, and eventually, we heard a door slam, and Maria burst into the room we were in.

"Look here. Two little red eyed vampires!" I felt my insides curl, and Adam looked at me sadly, then growled at Maria. Red eyes?

No, no, no.

How could this happen? Jasper.. Jasper is going to be so disappointed. What will he think of me?

And why was Maria letting Adam and I sit without any chains, any restraints?

Maria's eyes fell on our linked hands, and she laughed.

"Well. Getting Jasper back isn't going to be as hard as I thought. You've already moved on to another one." She said sweetly, laughing to herself.

Before she could react, I lunged for her throat, all the anger and pain I felt flooding out of me.

"You bitch! How dare you? How dare you do this to me! To my family." I clawed onto her skin, her clothes anything. I tried to bite into her throat, but she regained enough control to push me backwards onto Adam. But that didn't stop me. I attacked again, but she seen it coming this time. She managed to grab me by my throat, and lifted me up.

This didn't make any sense, I was a newborn.. maybe it was different because it was only a half transaction. But she was stronger than me, and she manged to hold me up above her head by my throat. I grabbed onto her hands trying to pry her fingers off of my throat, which she was almost crushing.

"Don't ever do that again." She roared, and then threw me down facing the door, which swung open suddenly.

Jasper flew in the room, staring at my new bright red eyes, the shock clear on his face.

A/N a short chapter! review with your thoughts.