[Disclaimer] Everything Twilight belongs to Mrs. Stephenie Meyer
[A/N] I want to thank those of you who encourage me with your supportive feedback. It's your love for my stories that motivates me to keep going, even when I sometimes feel more like giving up.
To the haters out there – why are you even bothering to read my works if you think they suck? If you don't like what I'm doing, feel free to leave. I don't need your negative energy around to ruin the fun I have in writing with your bitterness.
FAQ's
Are we going to meet Alice's parents at some point?
Yes, definitely. Also, Charlie and Renee but it may take a while.
Will Alice get pregnant?
Maybe yes, maybe no…I haven't decided about that yet.
**28**
The warmth inside her feels amazing as her small body moves up and down on my hard length. My left hand grabs her hip, trying somehow to control her movements until both of us find the same rhythm.
Pearly sweat trickles down between her breasts and when I lean forward to lick it up, my shaft glides even deeper inside her tightness. This is so beyond good. She's so close to me and it's heavenly, like her body was always meant to be connected with mine.
Her hands find my breasts and I groan against her lips, when she rolls the sensitive tips between her delicate fingers. Is there some secret connection between my nipples and my throbbing dick?
"Does this feel good for you?" she whimpers, rocking back and forth so fast that her perky breasts bounce up and down.
Instead of answering her, I let my tongue glide between her velvety lips, swirling it around to explore the inside of her mouth. My balls tighten and I try to still completely inside her for a moment.
"Is something wrong?"
"Just give me a minute. I don't want this to be over yet."
"Me too," she moans leaning her head against my shoulder. I caress the damp curls of her hair and run my fingertip down her bare spine.
"I love having you inside me. So full…it's like you're filling me up completely. I never thought I would enjoy this so much but it turns me on so much to have you in me, so deep in me."
"Alice, I'm going to come if you say stuff like this."
Her hand glides down between our joined bodies to touch her clit and when I feel her inner walls tightening around my cock a few minutes later, my eyes roll back in my head. The lust pulses throughout me and I spill into the latex cover around my dick. At least I remembered wearing one this time.
Trying to move her from my length, I kiss her tenderly and shift us around until she's underneath me.
"Stay inside me."
"I'll be right back." I tell her, standing up from the bed. I rush into the bathroom to throw the condom into the trash underneath the sink. My heart is pounding in my chest as I wipe myself clean again.
Are you a guy now? A guy who enjoys fucking his girlfriend with his cock?
The thought is so painful to me that I'm almost crying when I make it back to Alice's bedroom. Inside here it always smells like paint and then there's the very musky scent of sweat and sex in the air.
"Did I do something wrong? You seem upset."
"It's nothing."
She sighs and pulls me towards her, wrapping a blanket around us before she cuddles against my chest.
"I don't like when you're sad."
"I know."
"Then tell me what's wrong with you. When we made love I thought that you enjoyed it as much as I did."
"I did. See, that's the problem."
"I don't think I understand. If you like it and I like it, how can that be a problem?"
I clear my throat nervously and pull her closer against my chest. I love her. I love her so much and I don't want to lose her. But if she wants me to be the guy in this relationship I can't give that to her. It would kill me.
"I can't be a man for you." I tell her, my voice breaking more with every word I speak. "I can't be a man. It's just impossible."
"Bella, I don't expect you to be a man. I don't even like men. Never have, never will. I like sleeping with you. I like it because it's with you."
She cups my face in her hands, putting the long wisps of my hair behind my ears.
"I want you as a woman who wants another woman. Please, don't doubt that."
"I'm just scared. Everything is so complicated to me at the moment and I'm afraid I won't be able to handle it."
"You don't have to be scared. I will always be here for you."
I kiss her mouth, then the tip of her nose before brushing my lips gently over the silkiness of her tiny eyelashes.
"You're perfect."
"No, I'm not. You'll find out about that soon enough and I hope you'll still like me when it happens."
My cell starts ringing and I lean down to fumble it out of my handbag.
"Hello."
"Hi sweetie, it's me. I'm not disturbing you. Am I?"
"Hey, Erica. How's it going?"
"I wanted to ask if you'd like to go out with me and the others to celebrate some great news I just received."
"What kind of news?" I ask her, sitting up straight in the bed.
"They changed my birth certificate! Isn't that wonderful? I can't wait for Eric Yorkie to disappear from the surface of the world forever. I'm so happy."
"Yeah, that's some good news. I'm happy for you." I mumble, trying to suppress the jealousy in my voice.
"You don't sound too happy. Oh sweetie, once you get your own vaginoplasty, all of this is possible for you too."
"I'm not sure about the operation yet." I confess, nibbling nervously on a curl of my hair.
"You know that you can't change your papers here in Washington unless you get a bottom surgery?"
"Yes, I know that. Thanks for reminding me, Erica."
"I can help you. I know someone who knows a shrink who is willing to sign the necessary papers, if you reward his time with some extra cash."
"I don't want that."
"Why? I thought you were sure about this. I thought you wanted to get rid of this disgusting thing between your legs."
"I want time. I need some time."
"You're not serious. Is that the influence of your little girlfriend?"
"It has nothing to do with her. This is about me, not Alice."
