CHAPTER 28
AUTHORS NOTE
I KNOW I KNOW IAM A BAD PERSON BUT HERE I AM WRITING AGAIN FOR YOU GUYS. I MAKE A DECISION FOR THE SITUATION HOPE YOU AGREE WITH ME.. IM THINKING PRETTY MUCH HAVE TIME JUMP SOON…
TO ALL THE ONE THE SEND ME YOUR VOTES I HEAR YOU GUYS BUT AT THE END I STILL HAD A PLAN FOR THIS DECISION I JUST WANTED TO SEE BOTH SCENARIOS.
EMILY POV:
We stay late outside watching the stars, in silence, holding hands.
Paige: You should sleep.
Emily: If I close my eyes this will end and we will be back to our real life.
Paige: Im sorry.
Emily: For what?
Paige: Hurting you.
Emily: You are wrong, you are not hurting me.
Paige: Not yet.
Emily: Paige, I know you care about me, I know you feel something for me too, but I also know that is not the right time I get it. Im here for you for whatever you want.
Paige: Well at least we follow Ash advice today.
Emily: Advice?
Paige: Gorgeous girl kissing me.
Emily: Hey, if I remember correctly you kiss me first.
Paige: Yeah, I did. Come on lets go inside is late party is over and we stay here all night.
We went inside it was late like 3 am I wanted to ask her if she will come to my room, just to sleep but I cant push it.
Paige: Good night Em, see you tomorrow.
Emily: Are you sure you gonna sleep in here? there is another bed in my room Paige.
Paige: Is more safe for you that I sleep here.
Emily: Safe come on Paige we are adults.
Paige: Em, if I sleep near you I don't know if I can control myself, still in our reality right now. But tomorrow when I wake up and see your naked body with me I will go crazy again, Im trying here, please work with me.
Emily: Okay.
Paige: Good night gorgeous.
Emily: Good night Paige.
PAIGE POV:
Of course I didn't sleep right away, I look around the house trying my hardest not to go and open that room, my body, my head, my skin wanted to open.
Ezra: I don't think is a good idea to start drinking that today.
Paige: SHIT! You scare me.
Ezra: I see that.
Paige: Im just picking up the bottles asshole cleaning a little bit, I cant sleep.
Ezra: You are cleaning but have a cup with alcohol in your hand.
Paige: I just…
Ezra: I know is has being difficult couple of weeks Paige, but alcohol will take you to the wrong road again and I don't want that for you.
Paige: I know.
Ezra: Why don't you sleep a little bit, we will clean up tomorrow.
Paige: Because my head is telling me to go to that room and kiss the girl inside.
Ezra: And why don't you do it?
Paige: Because tomorrow my head will tell me that I fuck it up again and she will get hurt for that.
Ezra: Is funny you know, you are dying inside to love that girl, but you prefer to die outside not to do it. Just don't drink please, leave this I will help you tomorrow.
I walk to the living room, sit down at the window.
Paige: Come on Ash, please don't make me do it, please don't let me go, just let me stay here, make me strong.
Hannah: If I remember correctly she say kiss the gorgeous girl, so she is telling you to go and open that door.
Paige: SHIT! Why is people scary me tonight.
Hannah: Sorry I just wanted water and I hear you talking to somebody.
Paige: I cant.
Hannah: Okay, but if I tell you that I know her and she is awake waiting for you, will it change your mind?
Paige: I cant.
Hannah: Okay, goodnight Paige, just last two things, she is waiting, but she wont wait for long.
Paige: Okay.
HANNAH POV:
I walk away to my room but I stay outside, I hear somebody open another room and I put the finger in my mouth and shhh her.
Spencer: What are you doing?
Hannah: Waiting.
Spencer: For what?
Hannah: That and I point her.
Paige waiting outside of Emily´s room, her hand in the knot.
Hannah: Come on Paige, you can do it.
Spencer: Are you crazy, why are you supporting this.
Hannah: Don't you see it, they love each other.
Spencer: She is gonna hurt her, don't you see it:
Hannah: She wont, she is alive because of her, trust me in this one Spencer, for once Im right.
Spencer: I don't want to be a part of this, goodnight.
Hannah: Goodnight Spence.
And just like that, she open the door.
Hannah: That's my girl, goodnight Em and Paige. Goodnight Ashley I get it what you saw in this two, I see it too.
PAIGE POV:
I enter the room without making noises and I see her awake looking at me. And I walk to the other bed
Paige: This is so wrong.
Emily: You couldn't sleep.
Paige: I shouldn't be here.
Emily: Come on Paige, it wont kill you, take the other bed, don't worry.
Paige: is still the day?
Emily: What day?
Paige: The day when we are in another reality, out reality without all this bullshit around us.
Emily: I haven't close my eyes yet, Im kind of scare this reality wont be real anymore.
Paige: Yeah me too.
Emily: So that's why you cant sleep.
Paige: Yeah.
Emily: Why are you here Paige?
Paige: Because I couldn't sleep.
Emily: Are you sure?
I hear her getting up of her bed, I close my eyes and I just think to myself please don't come here please don't come here, and I feel the bed move and I know she just sit down in my bed.
Paige: Don't do this.
Emily: Do what?
Paige: If you are this near me I don't know if I can control myself.
Emily: Paige, sometimes you need to lose control.
Paige: The last time I lost control I went to rehab.
Emily: Do you think that, I can make you an addict?
Paige: I am already addicted to you, don't you get it.
Emily: I don't.
Paige: Im here, I shouldn't come back here, I should have gone to my dad´s and forget about this place.
Emily: But Ezra is here.
Paige: I didn't come back because of him.
Emily: You did it for me.
Paige: Yeah.
Emily: So why you push me away.
Paige: Because Im scare.
Emily: Of what?
Paige: Of losing you too.
Emily: Come on Paige, Im here.
Paige: yeah, my mom was here too, Ash was here and then they are gonne.
Emily: Paige.
Paige: This is a mistake, sorry for being here, I gonna go back to my place, sleep good Em.
I got up and walk to the door the next thing I know she stop me and close the door turn me around.
Emily: Lets live our reality just for tonight.
Paige: Tomorrow you will wake up wanting something more. And I don't know if I will wake up regretting this.
Emily: Maybe tomorrow you will wake up wanting something more, and I will wake up giving it to you.
Paige: Em.
Emily: Don't think about, let me love you tonight, tomorrow we will face the consequences, but tonight, let me love you.
Just like that she take my hair away of my face and kiss me, I felt my heart bit faster than I ever did. My hands take their own decision to hold her tight close to my body, I hear her moan when she fell my body, she start to walk holding me to the bed.
Paige: Em..
Emily: Shh, just for tonight, our reality is this one.
Feel her hands under my shirt, I remember all the times I touch her, this is the first time I let her touch me, my mind doesn't control my body anymore, it feels alive for the first time in months.
Emily: I gonna take this off, okay?
Paige: Okay.
Emily: God you are so beautiful.
The only thing in my body is long boxers that if she take it off, she will see the small marks in my body, the small scars that wont disappear and will always make me remember the life of drugs and hurting myself that I had long time ago.
EMILY POV:
I feel her skin get goosebumps when I touch her, is like she was waiting for me, Hannah is right her body is amazing, I take her breast in my hands, I hear her moan, I feel her hands under my shirt and I decide to take it off, is not about me tonight, is about her I wanted to feel something to feel my love, I feel her getting wet with my knee and move, so I get my hand down and take her boxers out, when I use my other hand to do it I saw them. Those little scars in her legs so when I took her boxers off I go back and touch each of them looking at her in the eyes.
Paige: Em.
Emily: Don't say anything, this are part of you, your story, and I love you so all this little scars are loved by me.
I saw a tear scape her eyes, and I knew that this beautiful girl had a difficult live, and if my love can make her happy again I will do it. I went down kissing each of her scars, every time I did, I hear her scape a sob, that made me tear up too, then I knew she need me, so I just went for it, her taste is amazing, she was so ready for me, I felt her hand holding my hair, I look up to see her, having pleasure, I almost cum just to see her like that, so free so happy, so out of this world. I work her up and I felt her hand pushing me up to kiss her, she taste herself in my mouth, her kisses became fervent, hungrier, lips eager to taste more, to fell more, every inch. I move my hand down and I felt her hand get in inside my panties, we both moan at the same time, we move at the same time, kiss each other and look each other in the eyes and then I hear her.
Paige: I love you Em.
We both cum at the same time, I kiss her head saw her she was tired.
Emily: Sleep my love, I love you too.
I see her eyes close and a tear scape her eye, our reality is over and I just couldn't sleep just looking at her, I don't know how many hours I just look at her sleep touching her, my hand keep touching her skin and her skin keep getting goosebumps, and she was sleep at 7 am I got up, I didn't want to freak up, so I just let a note took my bikini and when for a swim.
PAIGE POV:
I wake up I saw the watch it 8 am and a little note.
You look beautiful sleeping I didn't want to wake you up, I went for a swim, when you wake up breakfast for sure be ready, don't worry about anything welcome back to the world, last night was amazing.
With love Em.
And it was amazing and I will love to stay here and live this life.
Ezra: Well good morning sleeping head, is this the first time I know you sleep so late? What happen to Paige 4 am all days.
Paige: Shut up.
Hannah: Glad you sleep good Paige.
Paige: where is Em?
Spencer: There getting out of the pool, did you make her train here too?
Paige: No, is there coffee left?
Aria: Yeah here.
Paige: Thanks.
I walk out took the towel and bring her to her with the cup of coffee.
Emily: Hey, thank you.
Paige: Why are you swimming?
Emily: I just felt like it.
Paige: sorry about that.
Emily: What?
Paige: That mark in your neck.
Emily: Is okay, don't worry about it.
Paige: You look beautiful in the morning.
Emily: I really will like to kiss you right now.
Paige: I think everybody is watching us behind me.
Emily: They are.
Paige: If I kiss you, will it be this place that makes us be in another reality.
Emily: Maybe is the place.
Paige: Can we stay here forever.
Emily: Come on Paige, sooner or later we will need to go back.
I kiss her in the head and walk by her side.
Paige: Breakfast is ready.
Emily: Thank god Im so hungry.
EZRA POV:
I see them, there is something different about her, it seems free, without problems, without sadness. They both are in the kitchen serving food in their plates.
Ezra: What the hell happen last night?
Hannah: Emily happen last night.
Ezra: She went inside.
Spencer: Yeah, Hannah here make her do it.
Hannah: Hey I didn't force her, she did it on her own.
Ezra: Oh God. She is not ready Hannah.
Hannah: She is being ready, since she met her Ezra, don't you see that, look at her, look her eyes they show you life again.
Ezra: This fairytale is gonna end at soon as we go out of here.
Aria: I don't think so Ezra, she is different, and I think Hannah is right.
Ezra: She still needs to figure it out some stuff and this is gonna complicate that.
Paige: So are you gonna still talking about me or we gonna eat, because Im hungry.
Emily: Yeah me too.
Caleb: Yeah we too.
PAIGE POV:
We sit at the table of course I sit near Em, that I keep looking at her and smiling like a fool, I look around because of course I feel eyes on me, Ezra and Spencer eyes on me, I think Em has a new guardian dog now.
Paige: This is great thank you.
Aria: Glad you like it.
Mike: So do we really need to clean up?
Ezra: Just a little bit, our van will be here at 12 pm, you all can get ready, Paige and I will clean up.
Paige: Wait what? I was cleaning last night and you told me that we all we clean today, and now I clean it up alone?
Ezra: You are not clean it up alone, I will help you.
Paige: Come on Ezra, if you have something to say, do it, don't use the cleaning situation to be alone with me.
Ezra: Paige not right now.
Paige: Is your fault you know.
Ezra: What is my fault?
Aria: Guys…
Paige: If I will continue clean up, my head will eventually had control over me.
Ezra: Paige.
Paige: You want me to feel sorry, well I don't.
Ezra: Paige, enough.
Paige: Fuck you Ezra.
Emily: PAIGE!
Paige: Im done. You can clean up alone now.
I walk away to grab my stuff and to take a shower, I was so angry that everybody is thinking the worse of me, that everybody think I gonna hurt her, you don't hurt the person you love, I didn't know I was crying until I enter the room.
ARIA POV:
Ezra: What is wrong with her?
Mike: I think, you cross a line buddy.
Ezra: What? I didn't do anything wrong.
Emily: I gonna go and see her, I will help you clean up Ezra don't worry.
Aria: Actually you stay Em, Im gonna go, don't worry about it.
Ezra: Aria, I don't think is a good idea.
Aria: Ezra you try to handle your way is time I try mine, okay baby?
Ezra: Okay.
I walk to the room and knock.
Paige: Is open.
Aria: Hey.
Paige: Hey, sorry is your birthday and Im already making drama.
Aria: Well, believe it or not, Ezra is the one making drama. Are you okay?
Paige: Is hard you know.
Aria: What is hard?
Paige: Trying to do things right, yesterday was amazing I just live in another reality for a little bit, trying to be happy for once and I woke up in this reality with the idea that maybe if I try hard enough I could live happy, but I just enter the kitchen and I felt all eyes on me judge me, like if I kill somebody and maybe I did I kill the old me and now I felt that it was wrong, and I don't want to feel that, because she doesn't deserve that.
Aria: I didn't judge you Paige, I saw it.
Paige: What did you see.
Aria: You being free, and that was something new and amazing for me, I do believe you have a lot of things to work on, but I do believe Em is a big girl and she can make her own decision, we don't need to protect her, not for you anyway.
Paige: Ezra, is mad I know he is.
Aria: Well, he will need to suck it up Paige, he is worry, that this will had a bad effect on you.
Paige: But why is he so negative.
Aria: Well, he is keeping a promise.
Paige: Ash.
Aria: Is funny, everybody is always telling you what to do with your life, and the moment that you make a decision everybody has something to say.
Paige: is because Im always making bad decision.
Aria: I don't think this one was a bad decision, I think it was step for you to follow your heart.
Paige: It was.
Aria: Well that's good Paige, Im happy you are moving forward.
Emily: Hey is everything okay.
Aria: Yeah it is.
Paige: Yeah.
Emily: Okay, I gonna help Ezra clean up.
Paige: Don't worry I will do it.
She went out of the room and put a kiss in her head, you can see that Em is confuse for the change attitude and demonstration of affection.
Emily: Something is different with her.
Aria: You must be really good in bed my friend.
Emily: ARIA!
Aria: What?
Emily: Im serious.
Aria: Me too, for the first time in months I don't see her regretting anything about you. So you must be good in bed.
Emily: Do you think last night change her.
Aria: Well I telling you, maybe you are a sex bomb.
Emily: We talk too you know, we didn't just have sex.
Aria: So you too have sex.
Emily: Why are we talking about this?
Aria: Im not I just saying something happen last night and I think is good for her, and maybe just maybe is good for you too.
Emily: Hope so last night was…
Aria: Amazing, she already said that.
Emily: Well I will not make my hopes up, I know this can go either way.
Aria: I think is a start.
PAIGE POV:
I walk to the kitchen and I see him, there pick up trash.
Paige: Hey.
Ezra: Hey.
Paige: Sorry about my little drama number a minute ago.
Ezra: Yeah, don't worry.
Paige: Is just like, for once I do something for myself and I see all eyes on me.
Ezra: I worry about you, you haven't make a decision about this Friday and you will hear Ash will this Wednesday and I don't want you to drag Em into this mess without a decision.
Paige: Fist of all, I will make a decision and I talk about it with Emily, the will is nothing new for me it is what it is.
Ezra: Is good you talk to her.
Paige: Ezra, for the first time in months I felt alive and is because of her, I felt that this life is worth living it and is because of her.
Ezra: Paige.
Paige: I finally realize why I come back.
Ezra: Because of her.
Paige: Yeah, I didn't know, well I did but I didn't wanted to know.
Ezra: Paige just don't do this to fast okay.
Paige: I wont, she knows I have some stuff to figure it out. I ..
Ezra: Love her.
Paige: Yeah.
Ezra: Okay, P lets make this a hug and move forward.
Mike: Perfect so we all going for dinner right? I already make table for six reservations.
Ezra: Yeah.
We got ready and pick up our stuff, Hannah, Caleb, Spencer and Toby will going straight to the Airport and then I will go to my apartment and Ezra will go to his, and the girls and Mike and her girlfriend will go to Aria´s Apartment.
EMILY POV:
I sleep all ride back, I was so tired of not sleeping last night, when I woke up I can see her looking at me, and thinking so hard.
Hannah: Well is time for us to go, Aria we will see you on Christmas in Rosewood, if you need help with the wedding let me know and I will love to help you.
Aria: Thank you Han, I so happy you all came.
Spencer: We are happy we came, keep celebrating your birthday and we will see you on Christmas.
Emily: I see you later.
Hannah: You are coming to Rosewood this Christmas right?
Emily: I will let you know soon enough don't worry.
Hannah: Okay, Paige so happy to meet you, by the way you welcome.
Emily: For what?
Hannah: Secret between Paige and I.
Paige: Nice you meet you blondie, see you around. Spencer.
Spencer: Paige.
Aria: See you guys have a safe fly. Love you.
The next destination was our apartment, I know we need to talk about last night but if I let the things go with the flow maybe this will work.
Ezra: I will pick you around 8 for dinner okay?
Aria: Sure baby. Bye Paige see you at 8.
Paige: Yeah I will see you at the restaurant.
Emily: Bye See you later.
Paige: Bye see you later.
I didn't know if I could or should kiss her, so I just hug her, and she hug me back, that's all that matters. And then they went off.
Aria: That's a start, she doesn't look uncomfortable, but you kind of look.
Emily: I don't know what is good or what is out of the limits, I just need to clarify all this.
Aria: Don't worry too much Em, everything will work out.
Dinner was amazing, everybody was so happy for Aria and Ezra wedding, making plans for the future, but reality was kicking back and Paige was serious about everything, I knew tomorrow we will back to the swimming pool, where she is my coach and Im just a student.
Emily: Everything alright?
Paige: Yeah, this next week is gonna be a little hard on me.
Emily: Well if you need help with anything just let me know okay?
Paige: Okay, by the way you look so beautiful tonight.
Emily: Are we still in our world?
Paige: For now.
Emily: Sounds good.
Aria: So I was thinking that maybe we are gonna do an engaged party on Christmas vacation Em, so you must go home.
Emily: Aria.
Aria: Paige for sure is going right?
Paige: To Rosewood? Sure why not.
Aria: See Em, you should go home it will be fun is has being almost two years you don't go back home.
Emily: I will think about okay?
Aria: That's all I ask for.
Christmas was a special holiday for my dad, he always come back on Christmas time, that was our deal, since he die I stop going home, especially on Christmas time it was hard enough to be there and to remember his favorite holiday. If she continue with this idea of the party at Christmas time I cant missed it, so I will need to go back home.
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