Against Your Will
By: Kigen and Faraway Dawn
Because of my recent turning of Faraway Dawn into a Narutard; our love for NaruSasu, and the fact that there are few good Sasuke uke fics, I bribed Faraway Dawn into a roleplay. ... And this would be the twisted result.
IMPORTANT NOTE: A conclusion has been reached. From now on, I will write Against Your Will alone. Faraway Dawn has decided to take a step back and let me do things. As of right now, I have officially used up the remains of the rp, and am now writing this all by my lonesome.
Many apologies for the late update. Writing this alone killed me, and I hope this is still as enjoyable as it was before.
Disclaimer: We totally abused the curse seal in this rp. If Naruto was ours, this would be the result. Warning for pouting, stubborn Sasuke and optimistic Naruto.
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"He knows now. Why do we need to keep doing this?" Sasuke stared at the gray haired jounin.
"We need to keep doing this because the Hokage's orders are orders. And there is a point to it all Sasuke just trust me on that. So let's talk."
"About what?"
"Whatever you want to talk about. Naruto, your revenge, your brother, how you're feeling now that you're recovering faster, the weather..."
Sasuke snorted. "I haven't seen outside this room in months, aside from a few minutes outside. And I didn't particularly have a chance to contemplate on whether it was going to rain or not."
Kakashi chuckled slightly. "Of course. But seriously Sasuke, just talk. That's the point this time, for you to talk. Ask questions even if you'd like. I might have answers, and I might not. But this time you simply have to do most of the talking."
"When can I leave?" that was the most important thing on his mind.
"I don't have an answer for that yet."
"Not Konoha, this room. I can't stand laying down all the time."
"Probably in a few days, you'll likely be permitted to walk around provided someone is with you. We understand that you need to move around."
Sasuke nodded. A few days was too long in is opinion. "I'm still going to kill my brother, and I'm still not going to do anything with Naruto. Him knowing only makes things awkward."
"You think so? Naruto's certainly been in a much better mood."
"Because he thinks he has a chance now. And he doesn't. We can't be together."
"Your clan..."
The boy nodded. "Naruto can't have my children, I doubt he could even if he used sexy-no-jutsu. So, there's no point in even doing something temporary."
"And I doubt you'd consider one of the alternatives..."
"What alternatives? Having some random woman have it?" Sasuke didn't know much about having babies other than a man and a woman have sex and nine months later a baby pops out.
"A surrogate mother is an alternative, but I doubt you'd want that."
"No." Taking a baby away from a woman was too much to ask. "Why do you keep encouraging it when it can't happen?"
"Because there might be ways to make it happen. Why do you keep saying it can't happen when you want it to?"
"It doesn't matter what I want. I have my duties. You know that Kakashi. I have to continue the Uchiha name, and the sharingan. No one else can."
"Well technically..." Don't. He's just going to get mad.
Sasuke tensed. "Don't even say it Kakashi. I will kill him before he has a chance. There is no one else."
So still dead set on revenge... figured. "Right."
"Can we stop now? You know the answers to the questions."
"Nope." Kakashi grinned. "I'm supposed to be in here another twenty minutes."
"Doing what?"
"Talking. So talk."
"I think the hokage is a pervert and is getting off on this."
The jounin chuckled slightly. No arguments there.
Seeing as he was not getting out of it, Sasuke readjusted so he was sitting up. "Doesn't she have a grasp on the fact I'm not crazy yet?"
"We know you aren't crazy. There's more to this that determining if you are sane or not."
"I'm not suicidal or running for the door either."
"That's not the point either though."
"Then what else is there to determine?" Sasuke asked.
"You were the one so eager for punishment. We're trying to determine the best form of punishment."
"So I am going to be punished?"
"More than likely." And only because you want to be.
"How?" Sasuke remembered Orochimaru's punishments, wondering how his would compare. He wasn't sure wether to be glad, or scared.
"I'm not sure. Jiraiya and Tsunade will be deciding later today."
Sasuke nodded absentmindedly. He knew Tsunade had a sadistic streak, but would the punishment be physical or maybe mental? She was a medic nin so probably not physical, especially after all the healing... He was starting to over think things again.
"Sasuke, don't think about it too much."
"I don't have much else to do."
"Tell me more about Naruto. And not all the reasons why it can't happen. I want you to explain to me how you feel. And if you can, tell me why you think you feel it."
"I told you why it can't happen. I can't be in a relationship at all until I kill him. And even if I could, I can't just tease him by being with him for a few years, then leaving him to start a family."
"I know all that. I want you to explain to me how you feel about him though. I want to know why you feel it too, and of course, for how long have you felt it?"
"I... I care about him." Sasuke admitted. "I don't want to hurt him unnecessarily. I don't know why or how long. Is twenty minutes up yet?"
"You've got ten more still."
"What does me liking Naruto have to do with an exam? You know everything you need to."
"Sasuke, answer honestly. If there were a way, would you want to be with Naruto?"
"There is no way." his voice sounded just the tiniest, littlest bit saddened as he spoke.
"If there were?" Kakashi pressed.
"There isn't."
"Ignore that fact. If there were Sasuke?"
"Don't mock me with thing that can't happen. It's like asking if I wouldn't kill him if the massacre never happened."
"So I should take that as a yes? If there were a way you would want to be with Naruto?"
"There is no way. Stop asking."
"All you have to do is answer."
Sasuke took a deep breath. Shaking with suppressed anger, he mumbled an almost unheard, very fake; "No."
"You're a bad liar Sasuke. Well that's it. Time's up."
"I'm not lying." Sasuke muttered to himself.
"You just keep telling yourself that Sasuke. You're only fooling yourself, and not even doing much of that anymore." With those words, Kakashi left Sasuke alone in the room.
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"Does this answer any of your questions Naruto?" Tsunade had let him watch the entire session.
"Not really. He's still going to fight it."
"But he wants it as much as you do."
"And he's still trying to deny it." Naruto argued.
"To Kakashi. He admitted it to you, didn't he? And you know what the only thing holding him back is."
Naruto muttered. "Yeah..."
"Naruto, what did you picture your life to be like growing up? Did you imagine yourself getting married or having children?"
"Not really." Naruto admitted. "I've always been an outcast. I figured none of that was meant for me. I just imagined being Hokage, leading the village, finally having people see that I'm not worthless."
"Now, what do you want?" Tsunade asked.
"I still want all that..." Naruto glanced at the screen. "But I want someone there with me too."
"Are you willing to wait Naruto?"
Naruto looked at Tsunade. "Wait?"
"Sasuke loves you, there's no changing that. But, he still thinks he needs to carry on his clan, that he needs to kill his brother. He's been taught that for a long time, it will take time to convince him differently."
"I wish he'd just shut up and stop being an idiot..." Naruto muttered, looking at the scene wistfully. "But yeah, I'll wait for him."
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"Think he'll be satisfied with probation?" Tsunade asked Jiraiya, watching the tapes with half an eye.
"It should keep him pacified." Jiraiya chuckled. "Naruto will certainly love it. Sasuke won't be out of anyone's sight for a long time."
"But something as simple as probation?" Tsunade sighed. "If he does anything to break it, then we'll just increase the punishment."
Jiraiya nodded, leaning over to take a closer look at the papers Tsunade had in front of her. The hokage stiffened a moment at his close presence. She could feel the steady stream of his breath against her ear. Taking a deep breath, she steadied herself. She wasn't a teenage girl anymore. She was hokage. It was going to take much more than that to make her lose her cool.
"We'll start tomorrow. I've already had Sakura and Shizune prepare a place for Sasuke to stay at." Tsunade explained. "Kakashi has taken the mission of guarding Sasuke when Naruto's training. Anbu will also be keeping surveillance while Kakashi is not there until the threat from Orochimaru has diminished, or Sasuke's been completely reinstated as a Konoha nin."
Jiraiya raised an eyebrow, but did not comment on her sudden rant. "All right. Should I tell Naruto or would you like to have that honor?"
"Let me do it. It's not as if he won't end up here anyways." Tsunade sighed.
Jiraiya was silent a moment, before asking, "How many cameras did you have set up in Sasuke's new house?"
"One for each room, but the video feeds won't be fully set up until tomorrow night." Tsunade wasn't pouting like a child. "Until then, we'll only have one in the living room, which Kakashi will return to us after the others are connected."
"Ah." Jiraiya noted. "And how long until they find and destroy those?"
"Who knows." Tsunade leaned back in her seat. "But I plan on enjoying every second of it. Speaking of that, where's the newest chapter you said you'd have for me?"
"Not finished. Damn brat's being taking up all my free time begging me to train him. I'll have it tomorrow. I promise."
"Good. I'll be waiting. Until then, good night Jiraiya."
"Good night Tsunade."
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"Sasuke's not in there." Tsunade announced to the blond when he arrived the next morning.
Naruto jerked turning to her. Please, please. Don't tell me he's run off again. "Where is he then?"
"Calm down brat. He's with Kakashi. His punishment started today."
Punishment? "Punishment?"
"Yes." Tsunade scribbled absentmindedly on her paperwork. Who thought it would be so boring without constant video feed to entertain her.
"Well?" Naruto asked annoyed after a few minutes with no further explanation. "What's his punishment?"
"Constant supervision by a Konoha nin at all times. He has a small house just inside the old Uchiha compound.
"Okay, later baa-chan."
"Where do you think you're going brat?" Tsunade twitched. He hadn't even been standing still for two minutes.
"Where else? I'm going to Sasuke's!"
Tsunade sighed, slumping in her seat before chuckling. The brat would never change.
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Naruto raced through the village, quickly coming to the abandoned Uchiha compounds. It wasn't hard to find. It was the only house that had the windows open, and didn't look haunted. It was kinda freakish really; the fresh coat of pain, the landscaping in the yard... the flowering plants that bloomed everywhere...
Naruto had a sinking feeling Sakura, Ino, or both were put in charge of preparing the house.
Stepping into the house that smelled too strongly of pine for Naruto's liking, he pulled off the shoes. "Sasuke?" He called walking on the freshly polished wood floor. "Sas-" Naruto was shocked into the silence by the scene before him.
Really, knowing the man, it shouldn't have been so strange to see... But Kakashi wearing a pink flowered apron and rubber gloves wasn't an everyday occurrence.
"Quiet. It took forever for him to settle down." Gesturing to the room he had just stepped out of, Naruto stuck his head inside. There, he saw the second scene that made him fall into silence. He knew Sasuke looked, dare he say cute; while he slept, but seeing him curled up on the edge of the couch, covered in a yellow blanket was just too precious.
"He's not too used to moving around these past few months. Wore himself out whether he'll admit it or not." Kakashi tsked with a good natured smile.
Naruto nodded, eyes not leaving the raven.
"I'm going to finish cleaning some of the other rooms. Don't wake him." Kakashi turned and padded down the hall.
"Okay." Naruto said softly padding over to the couch. Sasuke... he really looks peaceful sleeping there. Naruto smiled softly, brushing his bangs away from his face, fingers brushing his cheek. He couldn't resist. Leaning down, he pressed his lips softly to Sasuke's cheek.
Sitting down next to Sasuke, Naruto twined his fingers with the raven's. A nap sounds like a good idea. Naruto thought, his head falling against Sasuke's.
Rubbing the back of Sasuke's hand with his thumb, he closed his eyes and fell asleep.
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"Stay out." Sasuke shut the door in the blond's face.
"That wasn't very nice Sasuke-kun. You know he's just concerned." Sakura tsked.
"I don't care. He can be concerned from out there if he needs to be." Sasuke scowled.
"Naruto knows your condition Sasuke. You shouldn't feel bad. You're remarkably strong for someone who's been on two months of bed rest. Most people wouldn't be able to walk, let alone help move into an apartment."
"I was pathetic." Sasuke glared at the wall. He had been tired after only a few minutes of walking around. After an hour, Kakashi had insisted he sit down and rest. Then, he had fallen asleep and slept for hours. Sasuke had awoken next to (he refused to use the term cuddled) the blond idiot, who was holding his hand and sleeping.
"I heard how you did from Kakashi sensei. You did much better then most people in your condition would have." Sakura sighed. His pride wouldn't let him show any weakness. Typical male.
"Well, let's get started with your exercises. The sooner we start, the sooner you'll be walking around like before."
"This is ridiculous." Sasuke said after a few moments of stretches, Sakura guiding his body at a few points. Her hands were warm and soft and felt all wrong.
"I know it's embarrassing Sasuke-kun, but you need to build your strength back up."
"I don't need any of this." Sasuke grunted, pulling away.
"Sasuke, don't be stubborn. I hate to say this, but you're acting like a child."
"I don't care. I'm finished." Sasuke hated how he had to struggle to get to his feet; how easy Sakura held him in his place. He knew the only reason he could jerk away is because Sakura had let go.
He was powerless. And that was the most horrible truth of all.
"Sasuke?" Naruto jerked from his seat when the door opened with a bang. "Sasuke? Sakura?" Naruto shot the frowning girl a look before following Sasuke.
"Sasuke, what did you do? You were supposed to be in there for at least half an hour. It's only been a few minutes. Stop ignoring me and answer me Sasuke." Naruto grabbed Sasuke's wrist, holding him still.
Sasuke spun around and slapped him with his free hand. He saw how Naruto's eyes widened, and felt a twisting in his gut.
His hand... he had slapped Naruto with all he could muster, but the flesh wasn't even slightly discolored.
"Don't. Touch. Me." Sasuke panted, jerking away and stomping to his room. He didn't bother locking his door. All of the doors in the house had their locks removed, and it wasn't like a bit of metal would stop Naruto anyways.
He laid on his bed, facing the wall, and waited for Naruto to come to him.
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"I see. Sorry about that Sakura. I'll have a talk with him." Kakashi sighed after talking to Sakura. And here, Sasuke had been doing so good.
"Go away." Sasuke muttered when the door opened.
"Now, now Sasuke. Don't be that way." Kakashi sat on the foot of the bed. "Sakura told me what you did. Aren't we getting a little old for temper tantrums?"
Sasuke stayed silent, glaring at the wall.
"She also said that you didn't let Naruto in the room." Kakashi sighed inwardly when Sasuke didn't move. Why was he feeling like the father of a teenager again? He thought tying Sasuke to a tree years ago and forcing him to accept the truth was the only father/son moment they would ever have.
Not that, that turned out well either...
"How long are you going to keep hiding from everything you don't want to admit?"
"I'm not hiding from anything." Sasuke mumbled, the familiar lull of all those conversations in the hospital room settling again.
"Fighting then. You're not as strong as you once were Sasuke. You need to build yourself back up to that level."
"I know." Sasuke's hands balled into fists. He knew he was weak. He knew he needed to work long and hard to get strong again. But that didn't make it any less frustrating. He gave up everything he had for power, and now he was back weaker than he had started.
And Naruto was still stronger than him. Only now, a genin would be more of a match for the blond then he was.
"I know it's frustrating Sasuke, but pouting in your room isn't going to change anything."
Sasuke's shoulders tensed. Him? Pouting? He wasn't a child. He did not pout.
"Nor will taking it out on Naruto. Embarrassment is no reason to hit him." Kakashi tsked, opening his orange book.
Seeing as Sasuke wasn't going to respond anytime soon, Kakashi closed his book with another sigh. "Get some rest Sasuke. Sakura will be back tomorrow."
The bed creaked as Kakashi stood up. Sasuke listened to the soft padding of his slippered feet, the quiet 'click' as the door shut.
Pulling the blanket closer around himself, Sasuke closed his eyes. He might as well rest before Naruto came back into his room.
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"Oi, teme." Naruto knocked on the closed bedroom door. "You awake?" When he got no response, he opened the door a crack. He could see Sasuke's still form under the slate blue comforter. The Uchiha was probably sleeping... but it never hurt to check, right?
Slipping inside the room, Naruto crept over to the bed. Sure enough, the raven's eyes were shut as his chest rose with steady breaths.
"Now what was your fit about earlier?" he murmured softly to himself. Naruto let his hand ghost over the pale cheek, pulling away as the Uchiha shifted.
He held his break as dark eyes fluttered open, peering up at the blond and orange blur above him before focusing. "Naruto, what are you doing here?" Sasuke sat up.
"Checking on you." he answered truthfully, plopping onto the bed. "You were all pissy emo like earlier, so I got worried."
"You don't have to worry about every little thing I do dobe." Sasuke muttered, looking to the side.
"Sure I do. If I don't, who will?"
"I'm sure there's a great number of people interfering with my life right now that would love to do so." Sasuke spat bitterly.
He stiffened as he felt strong arms wrap around him and hold him tight. "Dammit Naruto. Let go of me!" Sasuke snarled, hands digging into Naruto's shoulders.
"Make me teme." Naruto's hands held the other still in his embrace. Granted Sasuke was in one of his 'touch me and die' moods, but a hug never hurt anyone.
"Naruto. Let go." he growled, struggling. He wasn't weak, he didn't need to be held!
"No, just relax Sasuke. Getting wound up isn't gonna do anything for ya." Naruto let out a deep breath, hand running through Sasuke's hair. "I'm here for you-"
"Na-ru-to." Sasuke hissed.
"No, listen. I'm here for you, and I'm not going anywhere Sasuke. So, just relax and go with it, okay? I don't know what's going on in your head or anything right now, and I probably won't unless you tell. You and I both know that's not gonna happen though unless I get Tsunade to slip you a few more of those drugs. So, even if you're not gonna tell me, just relax and know I'm here for you, okay?"
Sasuke muttered something Naruto couldn't quite make out, but the struggled stopped and his breath evened. Looking down, the blond could still see the annoyance clear on Sasuke's face, feel the angry little trembles; but it was better than nothing.
Nuzzling his face in Sasuke's hair and breathing in the scent, Naruto let out a content sigh.
This was much better than nothing.
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I hope you all enjoyed. Hopefully I'll be able to finish the next chapter much sooner than this time. Question though, any thoughts about bringing the rating of this fic up to M? When Orochimaru reappears, I think we'll be needing it.
Thanks for reading and please review.
Ja min'na-san!
