Tosh sat in her car seat. She had thought about seeing Owen for days now but only just worked up the courage to sit in her car with the keys in the ignition. How could she face him? She practically allowed him to be tortured so she could escape! How could she ever make that better? How could he ever forgive her? She loved him so much and she had to watch him cry out for help, for her help and she could do nothing. He took such a beating down there and there was nothing she could do to ease his suffering.

She turned the key and the car started. The car was moving and she was driving to his apartment. And before she even knew it she was sitting in his driveway. She hopped out of the car and headed for his door.

KNOCK KNOCK

Tosh stood motionless as she heard a click and the door opened slowly. Owen's face peered out from the small crack between the door and outside. He quickly opened the door wider when he saw Tosh standing outside.

"Tosh? What are you doing here?" Owen asked.

"I, I wanted to see you. I wanted to see how you were." Tosh explained.

"I'm alright. A bit sore but hey, thats to be expected." He smiled a bit.

Tosh smiled back half heartedly.

"Come inside, its cold out." He opened the door wider to allow her inside his home.

Tosh walked in slowly and turned to see Owen was not wearing a shirt. His back was bandaged up alonmg with his arms and hands.

He turned around and smiled at Tosh. "You're looking better I think."

"Yes, I do feel better...physically." She sat down on the edge of his bed.

"What about mentally?"

Tosh smiled. "I'm fine."

"I can tell when you're lying Tosh, and that was a lie"

devastation finally reached her face. How could she hold it back? Owen was a mess! Bandages everywhere, bruises on his face and everywhere else that wasn't covered in bandages and cuts all over him, head to toe.

"Tosh?" Owen nudged.

"I don't know how to talk..." Tosh answered.

"You're talking right now." Owen joked.

"I mean about what I did to you."

"you didnt do anything to me."

"I did! Owen I could have stopped the pain! I could have stopped it! But I didnt! I watched you suffer for an hour and I did nothing!"

Owen fulled a face. "I did nothing too you know. I let it happen."

"For me! You did it for me! You did so much for me and for everyone else and you asked nothing in return."

"Since when is that a bad thing?"

"Its not! Thats what I'm saying! I was selfish and I let you down!"

"You weren't selfish! You saved us! Jack mentioned that you figured out everything. Without you we would still be down there and I'd be Weevil food."

Tosh sobbed. "I can't get it out of my mind!"

"What?" Owen moved closer to his friend. "What part?"

She couldn't speak. Her mouth was dry. Her voice cracked out muffled words. "Yo be meeee..."

"What?" Owen asked. "I didn't understand."

Tosh cleared her throat. "You...you begged me. You begged me to help you and all I could do was watch you plead." Tosh broke down. She put her face in her hands and cried uncontrollably.

Owen watched her as he processed what she had said. He could remember asking her to help him but all his words were muffled by the pain in his body. It made him shiver to remember that pain. Soon he hit reality once more and found was sitting next to her with his arms wrapped around Tosh. Pain seared in his arms. He hadn't used them for anything in a while. Basically eating and sleeping was his life for the past few days.

Tosh Croaked another sentence. "I wanted to hold you so much...when you asked me to help you...I wanted to..."

"I know. You have me now though so you don't have to worry about anything. I'm here and you're here. We're alive and I have you in my arms. Don't cry." Owen had never felt himself be so loving it wasn't something that he was used to. It was like he felt what she was feeling and it killed him that she was feeling that way.

Soon Tosh had made her way to his pillow and was fast asleep on his bed. Owen crawled up beside her and put his arm around her waist. When she would wake he would make sure no more tears fell from her eyes.