It was the start of the new semester and you should probably be at lunch finding all your friends but, here you were checking and repairing the props from the drama club's upcoming play. It was your favorite and you really hoped you got a main role this year. Frowning slightly at a large tear in one of the costumes you grab a spool of thread and started sewing it close. Kanaya did an amazing job on giving a lot of the costumes a new look but, she only had so much time so could spend on them so a few still needed some fixing up. You were so caught up in your work you hadn't even noticed someone had come in and was wondering around the stage until they started making a bunch of noise. Getting a little frustrated you got up and went to investigate.
"Ladies and Gentlemen! Boys and Girls! Step right up, Step right up! Come closer!" You heard from the other side of the curtain. Pulling it open a tiny crack you saw a person standing center stage facing a non-existent audience. "You won't believe your eyes behind this curtain witness something you've never SEEN Before, HEARD Before, DREAMT BEFORE! THE MOST AMAZING SHOW ON EARTH! " The figure threw his arms out wide and beckoned crowds only he could see as he stretched a hand out to them.
"Do you want want to be Wildly Entertained? People to Know your Name? Do YOU CRAVE FAME? Well, they say things aren't always what they seem to be..." You watched drawn in by the loud, inviting voice of what could easily be the ringmaster at a world famous circus. The dark haired teen's voice changed slightly, it was still inviting but, something was off... Just enough to sent off little warning bells in the back of your mind as he counted to welcome people to his carnival. "Even your greatest fantasies! YOU BELIEVE your EYES! WON'T EVEN RECOGNIZE! The Wonderment that lies.. behind the Shimmer and the Lights!" Again the voice changed, taking on a harder, darker edge but, the tone was still just as warm and inviting as always.
"Is it true what they say? Is it all just fun and Games? Or IS THERE MORE behind the Makeup and the Faces Full of paint? So I Ask You: DO YOU WANT TO COME AND PLAY?" He asked the would be frightened and trapped audience before lowering his voice. "Get the world to come and play..." He said quietly, almost afriad and you recognized the voice.
"g-Gamzee?" You asked and the boy in front of you turned looking wild and surprised before letting a dopey smile creep across his...blood smeared face. It was really starting to get to you how often you would find your friend covered in his own blood.
"HeYy Tav! What is a motherfucker all up to be doin' back here? Doncha up'nd want to get some motherfuckin food or some shit?" Gamzee asked his violet eyes clear but rimmed red and his makeup heavily smeared.
"o-Oh yES! I do but, uh, I thought that i-I would h-Help Kanaya out and um, w-Well f-f-Fix some of the costumes before um, she uh, gets them." You flushed, you had been so caught up in Gamzee's performance you had forgotten why you were here in the first place. "Umm...g-Gamzee?" You started and tried to find your stage voice, it was a lot easier to talk normally now but, for some reason Gamzee made you stutter.
"Yeah Tav..?" He asked gaining the usual rumble in his voice returned as he wrinkled his face and rubbed one of his scars. Forgetting your question you grab your friend and led him back stage.
"h-Here. Let me h-Help clean your cuts. If um, that's okay..." Flushing you watched the lankier teen tug off his shirt and take a seat on the makeup counter.
"Sure bro." He smiled lazily but, something was off about it. Carefully dabbing off the already worn face paint and the blood you noticed how quiet your best friend had become. Looking at his now clean face you could see how puffy his eyes were and the long tear along the scar that had almost taken his right eye.
"g-Gamzee...Are you uh, a-All right?" He looked upset, worse than you've ever seen him before. It was clear he had been crying pretty recently and from the way he was acting he seemed pretty sober. It took a moment before the words seemed to sink in but, the taller teen nodded.
"Yeah Tav... Yeah... everythin's just motherfuckin' fine."
wHaT's WrOnG wItH mE? Why were you lying to all your friends? Why did everything hurt? i WaNt To BuRrY iT...trap it, kill it, burn it... JUST MAKE IT STOP! Everything hurt. Your heart, your head...and it just. Just wouldn't stop.. You felt sick and helpless to stop it. Everything was too quiet, after years of the screaming, the crying and night terrors. After not be able to hear yourself think, the silence was unbearable...It let you hear all the thoughts you had forgotten, realize things you never wanted to know.
"Gamzee..?" Tavros asked gently tipping your head down to look in your eyes. Worry was plastered on his face as he watched every facial tics and shift of your eyes. You wanted the noise back! You didn't like the thoughts you had as the copper colored teen wrapped his arms around you and pulled you into a hug.
kill him
nO!
PAINT THE WALLS WITH HIS BlOOD
nO! nO! i WoN't! i DoN't WaNt To!
pretty colors inside
ALL THE MOTHERFUCKING MIRACLES
will drip from his veins
sToP! StOp! sToP sToP sToP! STOP!
THE MOTHERFUCKER IS SCARED
so pathetic... just die
i'M nOt WoRtHlEsS..
"Gamzee...?" Tavros squeaked hugging you tighter as you cried. "w-Whats wrong? Why are you crying?" You just shook your head. How could you?
"I'm fine Tavbro... just... just all up'nd heard some wicked bad news is all."
Sorry for another cliff hanger (not really but, ^^) I feel bad for our poor little Bard TT^TT I'm so mean to him... Well on the plus I MIGHT be able to get some work done this weekend so stay tuned! ^^ of and please check my new story Secrets if you'd like. It's kinda fun story filled with randomness but, it keeps the block at bay and it's fun ^^ and who know it may turn out good so gives me some feed Back ^^ well gonna go this note is WAYYYYYYYYYYY to long
bye for now Knox ^^
