~ hey guys so I got a comment asking for a chapter with Loren's POV so here it is!

just an FYI it's 3 am and the chapter just came to me so it might suck. I did no editing to it so it's raw! so here it is please read and let me know what you think ?!

Thanks ~

Who would of thought winning a song writing contest would eventually get me pregnant all in less then a year all before my high school graduation.

Getting pregnant was never on my big career plan. I had it all planned out. Graduate high school at the top of my class, apply to brown. Become a lawyer and make the big dough to help mom. Then maybe after a year or two at a law firm , I would meet a very cute lawyer ,date em , get married then possibly kids.

That plan sounds reasonable right?

I think so.

Instead of following my original plan I got convinced to do the contest . Which I never thought in a million years I would win . Hell I didn't even make it there on time .. I was seconds away from being disqualified but wasn't .

Sometimes I wish I was disqualified . Maybe I wouldn't be we're I'm at now

Because now I'm 19 years old who won Eddie Durans song writing contest / fell in love with the guy to boot , which landed me getting a manager who was eddies assistant wanting to make my career which was all great and I was grateful ... But in the middle of all that... I gave in to the love of my life and finally had sex with him .

The sex was great don't get me wrong but never in a million years did I ever think after having sex twice I would be in this situation . I'm to young to be a mother .

My careers barely starting, Eddie and I have only known each other for a year. We've only had sex twice . The first time was after our first date after he got exonerated with the whole Chloe fiasco . Which felt right . Hell we we're safe I was on the pill and we even used a condom.

Our second time we'll was a celebratory date for signing to label . Sure we had the condom but I was so nervous I totally forgot to take my pill. At the time I thought the condom would be more then enough. The moment was to powerful that we both didn't stop. If I had known this was gonna be my outcome , Eddie and I never would of had sex that night .

Finding out your pregnant when your young is pretty much the most traumatizing thing ever .

To me finding out your pregnant is like dealing with 10 of mels mom.

And if you knew Mel's mom like I do.. You definitely would know what I'm talking about.

When finding out your pregnant , there all sorts of things you have to do right .

Which I was gonna need help.

First I need to know how the hell was I gonna grown a damn pair of balls and tell my very famous boyfriend I'm was possibly knocked up. I couldn't very well tell him straight up and have it end up in a question.

I could hear me now .

" umm Eddie i took a pregnancy test and umm ... Plus sign means positive right ?" How stupid would that of made me ,

Knowing how clumsy I am I couldn't tell him like that. Telling him and scaring the shit out of him not even sure if I was 100% pregnant.

I needed to make sure I was pregnant first I needed to see a doctor .

But being 18 I really didn't know who was a good doctor and didn't have the money to afford a good one. I couldn't tell my mom , If I'm not ready to tell Eddie , I sure as hell wasn't ready to tell her . So that left them out . I couldn't tell Kelly . I figured it would be best to tell her when I was absolutely certain that way she could be the one to figure out how to tell the world that I LOREN TATE was pregnant DURANS CHILD . Yeah that's a big burden.

I couldn't tell Mel yet, she wasn't really great at keeping secrets ..so Instead I got eddies cousin to help . She was really my back bone in it all.

Found away to get to San Francisco, lied my way there .

I left to her house told her everything . She helped me telling Eddie which by the way I never thought Eddie would follow me . Turns out I'm a horrible liar .

I avoided seeing him the week before

Which he couldn't take and landed him playing detective finding me with his cousin . He got so frustrated I couldn't spend time and lied about having the flu but felt good enough to travel to san Francisco to see his cousin. Had he just waited three days he would of found out I was only there to ask for her help , trying to figure out how to tell him I was 100% pregnant with his child . Instead of three days it was more 3 hours of me freaking out . And telling him I might be pregnant .

It wasn't the best way but hey it was a start Eddie knew my predicament and could help me . I wasn't alone

Which I wasn't. I immediately saw a doctor who wound up being her uncles ex wife who loved Layla as her niece.

Which she confirmed my night mare .

I indeed was 100 % pregnant .

That part actually wasn't so scary I was already pregnant . There was nothing i could do.

The scary part was telling our family and the world .

I was so scared I finally decided I need to tell Mel and also ask for her help. I had Eddie and Layla drop me off at her house .

I was so scared about wondering how to tell our family I didn't even stop to wonder how Eddie was doing .Eddie was obviously doing pretty shitting because

After my visit with Mel .

The car ride to maxs house was bad. There was so much tension In the car you could cut it with a knife . I tried asking what was wrong but they both said nothing was wrong. I knew they were lying. But I really was in no position to pry .

Telling my mom and max . Wasn't as bad as I thought mostly because I was worried about Eddie . He wasn't in the mood to be there and I was focused on trying to figure out what in the world happened while Eddie and Layla were together . Which ended up me crying and Eddie storming out .

That situation made me being pregnant seem like a piece of cake. Eddie storming out of our parents house for a reason that didn't involve me . It was worst because it just made me realize . I didn't know Eddie at all.

Which turns out I was right . Turns out right after i was dropped off at Mel's Eddie and Layla went to rumor for lunch only to bump into Eddie ex girlfriend before Chloe . Who dumped Eddie without telling him why. The reason being . Eddie knocked her up to.

Can you believe I fell for a guy who had a six year old son.

What hell am I suppose to do ?

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