God, I'm such an idiot. Sebastian's eyes are not really gone. They were dull like in the first couple chapters. I've spent less time focusing on my choice of words and now I don't have like, three thesauruses open next to me. I couldn't think of a better word and I thought of the word 'gone' and I just kind of went with it. God, I'm so stupid. And I'm so sorry. I'm too dramatic. 'Gone' made it sound… dramatic… at least that's what I thought. I guess it's because I basically know the rest of the story… and I wasn't thinking. I'm super, super sorry. Please don't be mad?

But maybe I can make it up to you. MAYBE, and this is a big maybe… I might do some slightly messed up fanfiction with some of our favorite characters in high school or something. (I'll do a serious one as well but this'll be fun… XD.) They're going to have some random party with random people… I need random people. If anyone has any ideas of a character or something… maybe yourself? *hint* *hint* I need a name (doesn't have to be your real name… if it is you after all), personality, outfit, height, any other interesting attributes, and maybe even your favorite Black Butler character… *grin* because you know… a party isn't a party without… Haha, nah it'd be rated T. Don't worry. Basically, I'm hoping a couple of you or your OCs want to be written into a fanfiction with Black Butler characters. Hopefully drunk. XD PM me or review if you do! (If enough people want to be… I might make a bunch of these types of things. Not necessarily always at a party…) Haha I'll shut up now.

Anyways, I think this chapter may have a bit of cursing. Now, now Ciel. Just because you're angry give you no reason to say such things. But I have a very good reason for him to be so angry all the time. Here we come, demon Ciel. XD

Sebastian's eyes were… gone. (Not really… XD)

Damn it! Not again.

Sebastian's eyes had reverted back to the horrible dull color they had been for three years after Ciel changed from human to demon. The color that had haunted Ciel's nightmares for months. The color they had been before their relationship changed dramatically.

Ciel plopped himself in his chair, directly opposite Sebastian, refusing to look at him. It didn't matter anyways, Sebastian was staring straight ahead, very intrigued by a painting on the wall.

Ciel needed a way to look absolutely adorable in front of Sebastian, just to make him jealous. But how was he supposed to act cute? He didn't even think he was cute until Sebastian told him. Luckily, Adelina was about to make Ciel's job easy…

"Ciel? What's that?" Adelina asked kindly, poking her slender finger towards Corvus, whose tail was slightly sticking out from behind Ciel.

Ciel had to fight back a smirk and acted embarrassed, "Oh this? This is no one."

"Oh, is it a person?"

Ciel giggled shyly, "N-No. This is a cat."

"A cat? Oh I know Sebastian loves cats. Can I see?"

Slowly, Ciel brought Sinta and Corvus out from behind his back. He introduced them and hid his face behind the two soft felines.

"Awwww! They're absolutely adorable! Can I hold one of them?" she gushed.

Ciel silently handed Sinta to Adelina, smiling slightly. As soon as the cat left his hand he buried his face into Corvus.

"He's so cute! Sebastian have you seen this cute little guy? Of course you have, you love cats!"

While Adelina was busy cooing over Sinta, Ciel glanced over at Sebastian again. His eyes were still dull and lifeless though there was something different about his face this time. He quickly hid his face again, loving the feel of fur against his skin.

Adelina continued ranting about how cute Sinta was and how cute Ciel was. Eventually, much to Ciel's happiness, Akantha broke the blabber streaming from the demoness' mouth, "Sebastian? Why don't you show me around a little bit? I know the general layout but I'd love to see more." Her voice was dripping with sarcasm and cruelty.

"Yes, Mother. Of course." Sebastian's voice on the other hand was dull and distant. Ciel wanted to break down and cry again, his body was already starting to produce tears, but couldn't let his butler see that. Not again. Not now.

Sebastian stood and led his mother out into the hallway. Ciel peeked at Adelina who was now silent, staring intently at the door much like a dog might watch a squirrel. The she started babbling again, "So Ciel? About Sebastian?"

That was all she said and it, needless to say, wasn't enough for Ciel to work on, "I'm sorry, what about… him?" Ciel still couldn't bring himself to utter that name. The one that so easily rolled off his tongue, the one he said so often.

"Well, what's up with you guys?"

Ciel was stunned. Did she know? He raised his face from its comfortable spot in Corvus' fur, "Um… what exactly- I'm not sure I- D-Do you mean to say that… we… like… um…"

"You know what I'm talking about. Are you guys, like, a thing?"

An hour ago, Ciel would have known the answer immediately. Yes. He and Sebastian were, as Adelina crudely put it, a thing. But… were they now? Had Ciel broken it off?

"I- I- I don't know… I- I mean- like- um…"

Adelina smirked but there wasn't anything remarkable about it. Unlike Sebastian's signature smirk. "Come now Ciel, I've heard your sixteen, right? You've had a girlfriend, right? Or… if you get right down to it… a boyfriend?"

Ciel blushed furiously, "I had a fiancée but…"

"You didn't think of her as anything more than a friend, right?"

Ciel nodded as another wave of heat enveloped his body.

"So, you really have no idea? What your status is?"

"Well- it's complicated… Wait. Why do you want to know? I thought you liked him?"

Adelina suddenly looked rather uncomfortable, "That's not what we're discussing here, Ciel. Let's break this down. Do you like him? Do you love Sebastian Michaelis?"

"I- I- I barely know you! Why- Why in hell- would I-"

Adelina smiled, "Please, Ciel? I promise I won't tell anyone."

Ciel knew he wanted to talk to her. He knew he wanted to talk to someone. And that someone could not be his butler.

"Y-Yes. I do love Sebastian Michaelis."

"Does he love you?"

Ciel remembered all the times Sebastian held him. He remembered all the time Sebastian had said he loved him. He remembered the first time they kissed. He remembered how Sebastian had comforted him when he was upset. He remembered exactly how he felt when all this had been going on. Then he remembered Sebastian's tears back in his bedroom. His own tears started to prick at his eyes as he blinked madly to keep them back.

"I- don't know. He- he said so but then- he- and you- and I- and we- but I said some stuff, he did some things and now… I just don't know."

Adelina pulled him into a brief hug. As she pulled away she said, "If he said he loves you then he loves you. He wouldn't lie like that."

Yeah? Well what do you know? It's just because you showed up here! This is all your fault! Why couldn't you and that other terrible woman just stay away? You ruined everything!

Ciel glared at the woman and opened his mouth to speak but was cut off rather quickly, "Have you seen his eyes?"

"What? I mean, of course, they're on his face, of course I've seen them."

"No, I mean they're much less bright than they were when I saw him first."

"Of course I've noticed that! You know nothing! His eyes were like that for three years! Three goddamn years! If they change and then revert back then of course I'm going to notice! What do you think?" Ciel knew she had no way of knowing but felt the need to show her he knew more about Sebastian than she did.

Adelina seemed really taken aback, "Th-they were? Why?" She genuinely wanted to help Ciel talk his way through this. Even through all his anger.

"They were like that after I turned into a demon! It was because he only wanted me for my soul! Now that his prize was gone he had nothing else he wanted! He hated me!" looked down at his clenched hands. Specks of blood were running down his hands to his wrists, "He hated me… He hates me. He lied to me. He hates me." Tears were starting to spring to his eyes.

"Are you sure about that, Ciel? Did he tell you that? Did he say that himself? What exactly did he say?"

"His pathetic excuse was his parents! That bastard lied! He hated me and I know it!"

"Ciel, I doubt that. I saw the way he looks at you. He would never do anything to hurt you. I think… he's afraid to hurt you. He knows how hard this is for you. He wants to help you."

"No! No one knows how hard this is! Not you! Not Sebastian! No one!"

Adelina smiled at Ciel again, "Then why don't you help me understand?"

"No!" And with that, Ciel jumped up and ran across the room.

"Ciel, wait! Please!" He felt Adelina's hand wrap around his arm.

Ciel yanked his arm away and shut his eyes tight, "No! Stay away from me! This is all your fault!" He ran out the door and into the hallway. He tore his way through the house, tears pouring down his face.

No! I told myself I wouldn't cry! Not again! Not like a baby! I am still Ciel Phantomhive!

Unsure of where he was going, Ciel found himself running in circles around a few hallways.

What? I've been here before! This hallway. Those eyes. I've done this all before!

Being the terrible athlete he is, Ciel soon found himself out of breath. He collapsed on a wall and sank down. He hugged his knees and rocked back and forth slightly. Enough to make him look mentally ill.

Is something wrong with me? Soon enough he started to feel a little woozy.

Why am I feeling this way?

It's so dizzy.

So familiar.

So strange.

So welcome.

Why was the world rocking? Why was there blood on his hands? Why wasn't Sebastian there to comfort him?

Sebastian… I- I- don't know. I just don't.

Sebastian was the last thing on his mind before he blacked out.

Okay, how was that? I'm excited. Anyways, I'm going to waste a bit of your time and tell you some stuff…

First off! I wrote a one-shot fanfiction where Ciel and Sebastian go skating a while ago. So the wonderful, wonderful InvaderPhantom16 drew this. invader phantom16. /#/d5ail8a I just love it to bits and Ciel is SUPER cute in it. Please go and just click on the link. And if you say anything bad about it I will sic my evil Sebastian on you. XD I mean, having someone draw something based on something you write is just awesome.

Secondly! I just now remembered I'm going to Canada for like, two weeks or something. I'll still be updating but first we have a long trip there without internet but I'll be writing and your patience will be rewarded with another chapter or two and probably a couple one-shots. 'Cuz those are cool.

Thirdly! Don't forget my offer I mentioned at the beginning. The one about the random party. Please, just consider it. If no one does I'll look stupid. Remember, name (doesn't have to be your real name… if it is you after all), personality, outfit, height, any other interesting attributes, and maybe even your favorite Black Butler character. XD You know… for pairing reasons… there will be much alcohol consumption hopefully.

Fourthly! I love you all and I love your reviews and I love writing! You guys are just the best-est ever!