Chapter 28: The day that I'm going to regret every single second of
Eddie
I feel like I have been driving forever, when really it has only been about 20 minutes. I finally had reached the beach bungalow after what seemed like forever. Fortunately I actually saw my Dad's car here though, and even though it was there I still had doubts that he was actually here. I then got off my car only to come to a sudden halt as soon as I saw the gorgeous horizon line. Looking at it I was thinking to myself that I should have taken Loren with me to go find my Dad. She sure would have enjoyed this view, but I soon brushed off that thought though, because I assumed she would be fine without me for a couple days. I now was walking to the front door of the beach bungalow; as soon as I knocked on the front door suddenly memories came flooding back about the last time I was up here. The last time I was up here though is when my Mom was still alive, and I was also still just a kid. Boy do I miss those days so much, now looking back though, all the painful things I have been through helped me grow as a person. And I have undertaken a lot of pain these past few weeks, one of them being Loren in the hospital constantly. Thinking back now to this morning that I left I should have left Loren a note or something, but me being me had to let something like that slip away from my mind. I figured that after I found out my Dad was safe and in a stable condition I would then call Loren. This was a slight chance though because like I said I let things slip away from my mind easily. My thoughts were clouded the only thing that seemed to matter was making sure tragedy didn't strike with my Dad. I now snapped back into reality as I heard my Dad saying my name reputedly. I then actually opened my eyes and saw my Dad standing right before me, and he looked as if he hadn't slept for hours. There was bags under his eyes that were literally almost to the point of his nose, and also his eyes were red full of puffiness. Lastly his hair was messy; it looked like it had not been brushed out for days.
Max: "Eddie are you going to answer me or just stand there with a blank expression."'
Eddie: "Sorry Dad it's just that well... Don't take offense to this too much but you look like a wreck." My Dad now looked at me with confusion, almost as if he barley woke up from a hangover.
Max: "Well thanks Eddie it's nice to see you too, anyways what are you doing here shouldn't you be with Loren taking care of her."
Eddie: "You actually remembered Loren I thought for a second there you were suffering from a hangover or a concussion." I then let myself into the bungalow without my Dad's consent, but he didn't have an objection to this action.
Max: "Eddie really I'm fine just go back to Loren I just came down here to clear my head that's all." My father now rubbed his head a little and then sat down on the brown coated sofa.
Eddie: "Pops you're not fine look at you it seems to me like you haven't slept for a few days."
Max: "Eddie I'm a grown man I really don't need my son to be my caretaker right now."
Eddie: "Listen Pops I don't care what you say after all that has happened today you need me here. Now don't try to make me leave because I will not. I'm just going to stay here for tonight that's it just to make sure you don't harm yourself.
Max: "Fine Eddie you can stay but really you should be with Loren right now. I'm not going to force you to leave, but son you're probably making a mistake by being here.
Loren
I didn't know where my mind stood at this point, did I really want to leave my family and friends here in L.A. Although even if I did choose to go to New York I could still manage to see my friends somehow. Mel and Adam would probably be a little upset, but they could still budge without me, after all they always have each other. My Mom I wasn't too worried about because I knew I would visit her as much as possible. As for Eddie it seemed to me as if he forgot all about me and my feelings, and let's not forget all he had to do was call that's it, but no he hasn't even said two words to me since he left. Eddie was the main reason that I was stumped about leaving Los Angeles. Would he care if I left or would he be the happiest man on earth? I now was thinking back to a time where Mel had given great advice. I remember her saying "No matter if everything is pointing to the answer no; the only opinion that really matters is what your heart is telling you." This now made me move more towards the decision of leaving, but before I even thought about leaving I would just call Mel to tell her the news.
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I finally knew what I now wanted to do with my life and career. After having a long and thoughtful talk with Mel she seemed to support me and my dreams. She told me that even though she will miss terribly she'd rather have that than me not following my dreams. I'll admit she objected to it at first, but she soon realized that my dreams coming true would make her the happiest person on earth. This made me feel reassured that the decision I was making was wise. After all the best advice I could get by far was from Mel she understood me in so many different ways. After Mel and I ended our hour long talk on the phone I knew what my decision was, and I was positive that I wasn't going to change my mine. The decision that I was making was pretty obvious by now, and that decision was that I was going to New York. Since I wasn't going with my Mom to New York I figured I would just tell her to deliver a message to Eddie whenever he got back. I really hope and pray that he understands the message, and most importantly understand where I'm coming from. Things happen for a reason and this opportunity came upon me so that I would actually take it. There was no turning back from this point forward, no matter how much my head wanted to hole me back I would not listen, because the opinion that matter was mine and my heart's. I now decided to tell my Mom my decision I expected to get a bad reaction from her, but if this did happen I would explain to her how I can't pass up this amazing opportunity. I now walked into my Mom's room and she was just lying in her bed watching television. I almost felt as if I were 5 again afraid to tell my Mom I made a mess in the kitchen.
Loren: "Mom is it okay if I talk to you for a quick second about something." I asked her this shyly like I was afraid she would say no.
Nora: "Honey what kind of question is that you know you could always talk to me whenever you choose too." My Mom then sat up and patted on the bed signaling for me to sit down next to her.
Loren: "Mom promise me after I tell you what I need too that you won't get mad and go into mama grizzly mode." My Mom the chuckled a little, but then had a very serious look on her face.
Nora: "Loren now you know that you could talk to me about anything, and I won't go into mama grizzly mode until you explain the whole situation."
Loren: A light smile then crept on my face, and I now began to speak. "Well Mom Kelly called me this afternoon telling me about this amazing opportunity I had."
Nora: "Well what is this amazing opportunity you speak of?" My Mom said this in such a humorous way that I couldn't help but laugh.
Loren: "Mom seriously stop making me laugh I need to talk."
Nora: "Fine instead of being the fun and cool mom I'll change into serious Mom; anyways continue what you were saying."
Loren: "Okay like I was saying the amazing opportunity she said I had was that… well I have been offered a record deal from one of the most major record labels in the world, but in order for me to get the deal I have to move to New York where the record label is." I then closed my eyes because I was afraid of what her reaction was going to be.
Nora: "Honey why are you closing your eyes is the sunlight from the window blinding you, because I will go close the curtains."
Loren: "Mom no it's not the sunlight that made me close my eyes, it was actually because I was afraid of your reaction to what I just said." My Mom now had the most confused face because of what I just said.
Nora: "Well honestly I'm not too thrilled about the idea of you going half way across the world, but also I don't want to stand in the way of your happiness after everything that has happened you deserve some happiness though."
Loren: "Mom listen if you don't want me to do this I won't, I could just tell Kelly no and just become famous another way. After all I have my whole life to become a superstar."
Nora: "Loren I'm a bit objected to the idea, but I'm more willing to let you go to New York, and I don't want to be the cause of your dreams not coming true."
Loren: "Mom your serious you would actually let me go to New York."
Nora: My Mom was a tad bit hesitant at first but then said "Yes sweetie I'm giving my permission and my blessing to you, go ahead and go to New York." I then gave my Mom the biggest hug that I could possibly give her, and I didn't realize I was suffocating her.
Nora: "Sweetie I know your excited at my answer, but could you please stop suffocating me."
Loren: "Oh sorry Mom I didn't know that I was nearly killing you." I then noticed a tear slowly roll down my mother's left cheek.
Loren: "Mom what's wrong I though you wanted this for me."
Nora: "It's not that honey it's just that my baby is growing up so fast, and I can't stand the fact that I'm letting you go. As soon as my Mom finished her sentence I then gave her an even bigger hug than before. I now started to cry too at the fact that my Mom was crying.
Loren: I then let go of my mother's grip and looked her in the eyes "Mom are you going to be okay without me here."
Nora: "Loren I'm not going to be okay without you, but I will still try to manage after all you are going to visit me often right."
Loren: I now wiped away the tears knowing my Mom would be okay "Of course I'm going to visit you Mom, well I love you Mom make sure you stay sane okay." I then got up from her bed and was ready to get to packing.
Nora: "Loren I love you too make sure you be safe over there okay."
Loren: "Alright Mom I will be promise, I'm going to go pack okay Kelly said as soon as I made up my mind to go meet her at the studio."
Nora: "Your leaving today I thought I would get more time with my baby, but I guess I can't hold you up so get to packing honey I love you more than you will ever know."
Loren: "Right back at cha Mom." I then left the room to only head to mine, as soon as I headed to my room I immediately started to pack. I packed slowly though because as I was packing I looked at everything I cherished remembering every memory it carried within. My songbook was one of those cherishable things that I had packed in my purse not my suitcase. Mostly I packed all of my clothes in one big suitcase, and my jewelry and other sentimental items in a smaller suitcase. After I was done packing I took a good look at what I had left. The things that I had left was a few books, bracelets, and last but not least my Eddie Duran poster. Before leaving the room I gave one last look at it blowing it and air kiss and whispering to myself "I wish you were here to say goodbye." That reminded me that I needed to go give my Mom that note for Eddie. After I did that I slowly walked to the door remembering everything I had experienced in this very house. I took one last good look before exiting the house and I then said to myself "I sure am going to miss this place." With that I exited the house to pack my two suitcases in my trunk, and as for my purse I just put that in the seat next to me in the car. I then left the house on my way to the studio and then to New York.
Eddie
It was now about 5:00 and me and my Dad had fallen asleep on the couch. After talking to him for an awful long time I decided that he was in a stable condition to be by himself. I knew now that it would be okay for me to go back to Loren's house. I was so excited to see Loren when I got back I had missed her so much, but when I got back it would only bring more pain to my heart. I had no clue in the world that Loren was now heading to New York, and I really had no clue that what I did brought her so much pain. Going back to Loren's house thinking everything was going to be okay was not right, because when I get there nothing is ever going to be the same.
Hope you all liked the chapter it took me an awful long time to write this so hope you enjoyed. Please read and review thank you and don't give up on this story please like people say there's a bright side to everything. {btw the new chapter of my fanfic One True Love will be up soon}
