10 Things Tobias Snape is Ashamed of

1. He is afraid of his own son. So sometimes he hits Severus.

2. Once he found his wife's wand at the bottom of her underwear drawer. And when he'd imitated the why she would flourished it while saying those strange words he sometimes heard her say, nothing had happened. And he'd cried.

3. By the time he was 10 he'd memorized the entire periodic table, and when he was 16 he was given an award for being at the top of his year in science. But his father had never even finished school and his mother was convinced that apples had special scientific properties after Tobias once tried to explain how Newton discovered gravity.

4. When he was sure nobody was around, he listened to The Supremes' records he'd stolen, because he couldn't bring himself to buy them.

5. He'd applied to Oxford and Cambridge and hadn't bothered applying anywhere else because his ego had assured him he didn't need to. And when both universities turned him down, he resigned himself to an entry-level job at the factory where his father worked.

6. He drank because emptying a bottle of whiskey was easier then going back and trying again.

7. When Eileen told him she was pregnant for the second time, he'd been piss drunk and he'd yelled at her to get an abortion. So she had.

8. The only time he'd met his in-laws, they'd told him he was 'mud-veined muggle who was raping their daughter' and they wouldn't allow him past the front door. He never forgot those words, even though he didn't fully understand them until much later.

9. He'd walked out on Eileen for a total of seven days when he learned the significance of what her parents had said to him. He'd been afraid she was using him, for what he didn't know, though he hadn't trusted that she loved him.

10. When he was younger he'd idolized Marie Curie. When he was older he'd married the first woman who'd reminded him of her. When he was much older he regarded this decision as the reason his life hadn't turned out the way he'd wanted it to. So he abused her instead of himself. He beat her instead of himself. He punished her instead of himself.

Because he didn't want to be alone in his misery.


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A/N: if you liked this Tobias sketch, put me on your alerts, cause I have something Tobias-themed planned, and it would be A SHAME for you to miss it.