Another Dragon

Disclaimer: I do not own American Dragon. Wish I did though.

A/N: I am so sorry for the lack of updates, this is due to lack of computer. Bought myself a laptop with some of my wages. Be prepared for quicker updates, I promise.

Chapter 28

Sam was at a loss for words, she didn't know what her feelings for Jake were and how untidy they were in her head like toys scattered all across the room.

She needed to sort them out before she even had the nerve to face him. If she ever did and how she wanted to find the fight that she used whenever she was with him. To tell would be the thing to set her free from the shackles of doubt and confusion. All of those emotions were holding her fast and she wanted to be free of it. To tell would the hardest thing she had ever done, but she knew for a fact that she needed to do this.

Trixie noticed that Sam had kind of zoned out with her own thoughts and there was probably not much that would bring her out of it.

"I'll just go now, leave you alone with your thoughts." Trixie saw the girl nod in response.

Sam heard the door close, but stayed in the position that she was in. How could she be so blind? Why did it have to be this difficult?

Jake would probably always want Rose over Sam and Sam didn't know if she could handle that. Because she didn't want to share him if she decided to take that leap of faith.

She didn't understand her own emotions because of the fact that she didn't have time to psychoanalyse her won issues if she were in a life or death situation. It was as if each of her emotions was a different shape and she didn't recognise any of them.

The life she led sometimes made her want to cut off all links with anyone because it would hurt if you had to leave them or lost them. But it was like a big empty chasm in that it could never be filled and it kept growing, becoming ever bigger.

She was afraid of losing whatever she felt for Jake but at the same time she could lose it if she didn't tell him. She decided that maybe a good night's sleep would help with all of the confusion and headed up the stairs to her room, got dressed and went to sleep.

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Sam had a restless night, everything was churning inside her, making her feel nauseous. She woke up to find that it was extremely early still. But she couldn't stay still for another moment; it was getting on her nerves that she couldn't function properly right now.

She needed to have a clear conscience, to be able to think and feel like a new person right now because of all of this. Jake was constantly in her thoughts and she could not be free of him at this point in time.

Sam got out of her bed and headed to the bathroom for a shower, maybe the hot water would help her a little bit. It was all she wanted.

Sam stepped into the scalding hot spray, allowing herself a momentary reprieve of her own thoughts and feelings and just let them wash away. She felt better after the shower was over.

She got herself dried off and changed into some fresh clothes ready for the day at school. She brushed her hair and picked up her school bag before heading down the stairs. The shower had done her the world of good, removing the tiredness a little and giving her a little bit of focus.

Making her way into the kitchen, Sam made herself some breakfast, then sat down and put the television on. She got immersed in the antics of some animated cartoon; it was either road runner or Speedy Gonzalez. Something like that.

It was funny how a mouse could run that fast and it was Spanish, pure gold.

This kept Sam entertained for a while, keeping her mind off other things. The time passed on a bit more and it was now approaching seven o' clock in the morning. Sam decided now would be a good time to make a move.

She washed up her bowl and left it on the side to dry in the sunshine. Then she headed out the door and towards the school, thinking about heading to Jake's on the way there. Not to talk about what they needed to say to each other, but just needing some familiarity in her day.

She was in her own head right now, thinking all about what she would say to him, about how she would act, what to do in the worst case scenario if he did not feel the same way that she did.

She was already preparing herself mentally for that to happen; she thought to herself that she was not in the same league that Rose was. She had to deal with this fact once and for all. All the doubts were coming from her and not from Jake; he had never once compared her with Rose.

Rose was not what she was, they were the polar opposites and it hurt to think that they could ever be similar. The only thing that Sam knew they had in common was how much they care about Jake. But what they were on the inside might have been the same, those feelings, and those emotions, being different to each other was the catalyst that had brought Jake and Rose together in the first place.

Realising this made her feel numb, placing even more doubt as to the strength of her feelings for Jake and the strength that she had inside herself if the worst were to happen.

She had to stop this, thinking all these negative things, she didn't know what would happen in the future, if she did then her life would have been that much simpler. She would know what she needed to do, what she needed to say and what she needed to think.

Things could go the way she wanted them to. There was a chance that this could work out the way she wanted it to. These thoughts put her in a more positive mood, sometimes she felt like the weather, with its ever changing moods. One moment it was sunny, then it would be pouring down with rain.

She then started to walk again, heading towards Jake's home. Deciding this would be a new day and that she would want to start afresh with everything that had gone on between them. Leave it all at the door as it were.

She was at the street where he lived now and was steeling herself for what she thought would be an awkward moment because of the way the last conversation they had ended. The way she had been a coward, in her own opinion.

She walked up the stairs to his home and knocked on the door, Hayley once again answered the door. She smiled that little sister smile, which meant that she was up to something.

"JAKE! YOUR FRIENDS HERE!" Hayley announced to the world, Sam wouldn't be surprised if the whole street heard the outburst.

"Be a little louder, Hayley I don't think they heard you in Chicago." Jake came down the stairs, thinking that Trixie or Spud had been the one whose presence Hayley was announcing.

He looked surprised to see Sam standing there and smiled a little anxiously. He was obviously as uncertain as she was but maybe he had the answers that Sam wanted.

The answers they both needed.