"[F/N], will you come here for a second?" Mukuro ordered politely, if that was even possible, and you obeyed like a puppy on a leash. Once you were standing next to his couch, he smiled up at you, stood up and pecked you on your lips.

"Let's have nothing but fun."

Feeling blue over desiring the impossible
Everyone is seeking tranquillity
You're struggling, but you've had enough
Now you're chasing after a shadow of love

He was killing you on the inside. Maybe he knew, maybe he didn't. You loved him, but he didn't love you. You were just his puppet that he was using to entertain himself with. His affection for you was fake, and killing you.

I'm gonna tell you the truth
I chose an unforeseeable painful path
and you came to support me
You're the only one I can call a friend

Your own fault, you knew. Despite the unbearable pain, you didn't regret it, and you never would. Even though all the feelings were one-sided, you wouldn't give up. It gave you a reason to live and that made you happy.

No, you weren't going to give up living if that meant not being able to be killed and 'loved' by Mukuro anymore.