*OMG... I am soooo sorry it's taken so long to update! :( I got super busy after the last chapter was posted then, I went trough a little funk where I felt like everything I wrote sucked. BUT I'm back! :D anyway, I'll try my hardest to get the next chapter up soon!


Dean woke up almost instantly when he heard a tiny whimper, considering he was usually a heavy sleeper, he just rolled his eyes and carefully slipped out of Cas' grip. "Hey, shhh it's alright." Dean whispered and carefully picked up his son, who calmed down almost right away; Dean carefully slid back into the bed wincing a little as he went and brought his knees up so he could place Henry in his lap.

Dean just sat there and stared at his son, who had his finger in a death grip. This was real, he actually had a baby, with Cas, they boy he loved. Henry blinked open his eyes and just stared at Dean, "hey buddy." Dean smiled and started to panic a little with Henry's face scrunched up and his eyes began to water; "no, no, don't cry… Shhh daddy's got you." he said bringing the pup to his chest and started patting his back a little.

Henry's whimpers got stronger until he let out a full out wail causing Cas to shoot up, "what's wrong?" he asked looking round. "Shhh, Henry it's okay…" Dean said rubbing his little back, "Dean, he might be hungry…" Cas mentioned and Dean nodded lowering Henry to his arms and Cas helped him with the hospital gown. He held Henry to a nipple but the pup just cried and wouldn't latch, "Cas…" Dean said becoming emotional himself.

"It's okay Dean, uh diaper change?" Cas asked and Dean passed Henry to Cas so he could fix his gown and Cas got to work on the diaper. "He's a little wet, but he's still pretty fussy." he said, "does he feel a little warm to you?" Cas asked and Dean placed a hand on top of Henry's head, "yeah, he feel's a little warm… I-I'm going to call a nurse in." Dean said and hit the call button right as Henry started gasping for breath.

"CAS?!" Dean yelled, Cas was frozen, why was their pup gasping for air, there was nothing that could have caused him oxygen loss. "Dean, I-" Cas started but a few nurses came in. "What's the problem?" one asked and Dean was to hysterical to answer, "we don't know! Henry, he woke up and Dean was holding him so we-we tried feeding him and I changed his diaper and now he's gasping for air!" Cas rushed out handing the baby to the nurse and they both ran out of the room with Henry in their arms.

"Cas?" Dean gasped staring at the door the nurses just disappeared through, "my baby!" Dean sobbed, "he's going to be okay." Cas said for the both of them and pulled his mate close. He finally got Dean calmed down when one of the nurses came back in. "Dean, Castiel, Henry is going to be fine." she stared and they both let out a breath of relief.

"What's wrong with him?" Dean asked, "well he has a high fever that we are trying to get down, and while he was crying he forgot to breath a little so that's why he started gasping. Now, the original plan was to dismiss you both tomorrow, but we would like to keep Henry for at least a week to monitor his fever." she explained and Dean started panicking again.

"Dean, baby calm down, he's going to be okay." Cas said trying to calm him down but he flinched away, "don't touch me! I need to see my baby." Dean wheezed and tried to get out of the bed, "Dean. It's best if you stay and rest, it's very early." the nurse said pushing him back into the bed. "No, my pup needs me." Dean struggled and the nurse pulled a needle out of her pocket and put it in Dean's iv. "What's that, what're you doing!?" Dean shouted and started loosing consciousness. "Don't worry, it's just a sedative. I'll let Mary know what happened when she gets here." The nurse said quietly to Cas, who just nodded.

Cas couldn't sleep much after so he turned on the TV in the room and had it on low. By time 7:30 rolled around, Dean was still out but there was a soft knock on the door. Cas slid out of the bed and pulled the door open and gasped; "mother? W-what are you doing here?" he asked, "your father and I had a very long argument about this, but I-I needed to see me grandchild." Naomi said a little teary eyed.

"Oh, uh… Well I guess I can take you to him." Cas said glancing behind him to make sure Dean was still asleep. "I'm assuming you'll be taking me to the NICU?" Naomi said, "yes… Oh, um you have a grandson. His name is Henry James he's a little small, he unfortunately is deaf in his left ear." Cas explained on their way to the elevator.

"Poor thing… How's Dean?" she asked, all this time Cas was still trying to figure out why she was really here, 'was it to make sure the pup was actually mine?' he thought. "He's okay, the nurses had to give him a sedative. They had to rush Henry to the NICU in the middle of the night, he was okay enough to be out of it at the time but he got a high fever and started gasping for breath… So I'm not sure if we'll be able to go in, but we may be able to see him through the glass." Cas explained suddenly becoming nervous to what he would be seeing.

They stepped off the elevator and made their way down the hall. As they got closer, Cas saw one of the nurses that took Henry this morning come out of the NICU. "Cas! I was just about to come give you an update. Uh, who's this?" She asked eyeing Naomi. "Oh, uh Clair, this is my mother, Naomi." Cas introduced the two, "oh, nice to meet you, now Cas, we've got Henry's temp stable, it's still a little high, but you can go in and see him and hold him for a little bit. Is Dean still asleep?" she asked.

"Great, and yes he was when we left the room." Cas explained and led his mother into the room. "Oh my god…" Cas gasped when he saw all of the other premature babies that were far worse than Henry, he just stared for a moment and jerked back to reality when he felt his mother pat his shoulder. He quickly found his son and started getting a little teary eyed, Henry was fine, he was wrapped in a blue blanket sleeping and had a small iv in his arm.

"Oh Castiel, he's beautiful." Naomi whispered, "may I?" she asked and Cas just nodded and watch her carefully pick his son up. Henry whimpered at the movement but never woke, "he's got your hair." Naomi smiled and Cas saw a tear roll down her cheek, "he's got Dean's nose too." he smiled.

"Mother, I'm happy you're here to see him, but; why are you really here?" Cas asked and Naomi's smile disappeared. "I came to say goodbye. You're father doesn't like being here anymore. He says he doesn't want to be near his son's who have betrayed him." She started and Cas didn't know if he should be angry or upset.

"I'm only a beta so I can't really do anything to stop him, but just know Castiel, that I didn't want you to leave, or Gabriel. I'm sorry for how things have gone down, but we're moving to California… I'll try to keep in touch with you but I can't make any promises." Naomi said and handed Henry over. "Goodbye Castiel." she whispered and for the first time since Cas was little, Naomi kissed his cheek. She ran a finger down Henry's cheek and left.

Cas just stood there in shock, his mother was leaving and he didn't know if he'd ever hear from her again. Sure, they never had any contact when they kicked him out, but now… Knowing that she's going to be so far away made him feel like a little kid again. He sat down in the chair they place by all babies and just stared at his son. "I promise you I will never treat you like my parents did." he whispered and let a tear fall.

Cas didn't know how long he sat there looking at his son, but he was snapped out of his daze when he heard Dean. "Cas? D-did I just see Naomi leaving?" he asked. When he looked up he saw Mary pushing Dean closer in a wheel chair. "Uh, yeah… She wanted to see him and-and say goodbye." he said quietly, "goodbye? She's leaving?" Dean asked, "I guess so… She said that her and father are moving to California." Cas said and silently gave Dean their son.

"I'm sorry honey." Mary said looking upset, "it's alright." Cas gave a small smile, "Dean honey why don't you try feeding him again." Mary suggested and he nodded. Cas got up to help him with the gown and this time Henry latched immediately causing Dean to hiss. "Still feels freaking weird." he muttered. "I know it does, but you'll get used to it." Mary chuckled, "look I need to start my rounds, but I'll be back in your room in about an hour so you can check out and change but you can come back up here. I don't know how long they'll let you stay." Mary said and kissed Dean's forehead before leaving.

Cas and Dean just sat there silently watching their son nurse, "I wish we could bring him home…" Dean said quietly, "me too." Cas mumbled and took Henry so he could burp him while Dean fixed his gown. "Come on, lets go get you signed out." Cas whispered as he put a now sleeping Henry back into the bassinet.

They got back to Dean's room and Mary and Tessa were waiting. "Ready to go home Dean?" Tessa smiled, "yes and no." Dean mumbled getting out of the wheelchair. "I know you don't want to leave without Henry, but unless something goes wrong, which I highly doubt will, he can go home by the end this week." She said.

"Humph." Dean sighed and signed the paper and handed it back to Mary so she could also sign it, "alright sweetie, you're discharged. Now, I want you to go home and take it easy. Paint, draw or just lay down and watch tv. Ellen will be here any minute to pick you up and she'll stay with you guys till I get home tonight." Mary said, "but I wanna stay longer." Dean argued, "Dean, I know you do. I do too, but you're mom's right, don't you wanna relax at home?" Cas said, "ugh, fine. But I'm coming back tomorrow." He said grabbing his clothes out of the duffle and slowly walked to the bathroom.

"I'll see you boys at home." Mary said kissing the top of Cas' head on her way out. "Uh, Tessa… C-Can I ask you something?" Cas asked, "of course." she said turning back around to face him. "Uh, it's kind of embarrassing…" he started, "you want to know when it's safe to have sex again don't you?" she smirked and Cas turned bright red and just nodded and found the floor very interesting, "i-it's just that uh… My rut is coming up next month and I uh, I didn't know if I needed to stay with my brother so I wouldn't hurt him." Cas mumbled.

"Oh, Cas it's fine!" Tessa chuckled, "but you should be able to have sex again in a couple of weeks. Dean has a check up around that time so I'll let you two know. Oh, and make sure Dean uses that wheelchair out of here." She smiled and left before Cas could thank her. Dean shuffled out of the bathroom in his favorite AC/DC shirt and a pair of baggy black sweats. "You ready?" Cas asked and Dean just nodded and headed for the door, "hey, butt in the chair mister." Cas said pointing to the wheelchair.

"Caaasss, I can walk!" Dean groaned, "I know you can, but Tessa said to make sure you use it." Cas said and Dean rolled his eyes and slowly sat down in the chair, "grab the duffle." he huffed. Cas pushed the wheelchair out to the patient pick up area and Dean was out of it before they even stopped.

Ellen got out of her jeep to help the boys, "now, I'm sure you're itchin' to get home, so Bobby's there now making some lunch then we'll make some dinner before we leave. Jo really wanted to stay but she needed to head back to school." Ellen said as she helped Dean into the jeep.

Dean couldn't hold back a smile when they pulled into the driveway, there were blue balloons tied to the mailbox and a small banner tapped to the door reading 'it's a boy!'. Cas helped him out of the car and they slowly made their way inside, Dean could hear Lucy running at full speed towards them but luckily Cas took the brute of her when she jumped up.

"Hey girl…" Cas muttered and scratched her ears before leading her to the fenced off backyard. "Hope you're hungry boy, I made your favorite!" Bobby grinned as he brought in a tray of burgers. "Starving." Dean said eyeing the burgers, Sam came up the stairs, "what are you doing down there?" Dean asked. "Mom asked me to clean up a little down there for you guys." Sam said already heading to the island to fix his plate.

"Oh… Uh, thanks." he mumbled and grabbed a plate and slowly sat down, wincing just a little. "Dude, how are you so sore." Sam scoffed and Dean just stared at him like he had grown a second head. "Sam!" Ellen scolded, "you trie pushing something out of the size of a golfball." Dean glared and Sam went pale, "okay, ew. And sorry…" he mumbled ands shoved a fork full of salad in his mouth.

Cas finally sat down next to Dean and noticed he was picking at his burger. "Hey, what's wrong? I thought you were hungry." Cas stated, "I was…" Dean mumbled, "this is right Cas." Dean said a little louder. "What isn't right?" "he should be here! Not in the hospital still!" Dean said pushing his plate away and went downstairs before the waterworks started.

Cas sighed and followed him ignoring the stares from everyone, he poked his head in their room and when Dean wasn't in there he made his way to the nursery. Dean was rocking in the rocking chair with Cas' old teddy bear in his hands, crying silently. "Dean?" Cas asked softly and he saw watery green eyes look up.

"I know this is hard, it's hard for me too, but you heard Tessa today, if Henry keeps improving the way his is, he'll be home in no time." Cas said moving closer, "I know… I just want him Cas, I wanna hold our baby." Dean said and let out a sob, "s'all my fault." he sniffled. "It is not your fault. Please don't blame yourself baby." Cas said and helped Dean out of the chair. "Come on, let's finish eating then we can come back down here for a nap." Cas suggested and Dean just nodded.

Cas followed his mate up the stairs and they went back to the kitchen, before Dean could sit down Sam threw his arms around his waist. "I'm sorry Dean." he mumbled and Dean squeezed him back, "it's okay Sammy, I overreacted… I guess I'm still a little hormonal." Dean said and broke their hug and went back to his burger.

...

"So Dean… It's been a while since we've met." Dr. Hansen started, "yeah…" Dean mumbled, "well for starters, congrats on your pup." he smiled. Which caused Dean to smile, "thanks… He's still in NICU, he's uh, he's deaf in his left ear." Dean said his smile fading just a little. "Uh huh, but how are you doing, I know some people can become depressed after birth."

"I'm okay… Don't think I'm depressed or anything, I mean, yeah it was hard going home the next day without Henry. But, Cas and my mom and everyone has been awesome. I'm just counting down the days for when I can bring my baby home." he grinned.

"I'm sure you are. Have you had any thoughts about self harm lately?" He asked, "uh, briefly shortly after I got home with out him but I didn't act on it… I just kinda ran across my mind." Dean said playing with his hands. "Well, good for not acting on it, now, if I believe, you haven't self harmed since your accident?" Dr. Hansen said and Dean nodded.

...

Dean left his session feeling better about Henry being in the NICU and he immediately went to the elevator to see him. Cas had to go back to school today and Mrs. Tran, Dean's tutor, was going to meet him at the house in about an hour.

He waved at a few nurses as he got closer to Henry and he felt his heart flutter a little when he saw his pup sleeping. He had his little hand in his mouth and he was sucking on it, Dean chuckled a little and carefully picked him up. Henry made little snuffling noises as Dean moved them into a chair; he smelt his father and Henry blinked open his eyes. "Hi baby." Dean whispered and smiled, "how's my boy doing today?" he asked and chuckled when Henry grunted, as if he was answering his daddy.

"You hungry?" Dean asked and unbuttoned his shirt a little and brought Henry up a little and he latched on immediately. "I'll take that as a yes." Dean chuckled and ran a free hand gently through Henry's hair.

20 minutes later a nurse came over to Dean, "Dean? We need to take Henry now for a quick clean up and do a little check up." she smiled. "Okay…" Dean said, he slowly transferred a sleeping pup into the nurse's arms and felt a twinge of sadness about leaving him here again. "He'll be home in no time." the nurse smiled, picking up on Dean's mood, he just nodded and followed the nurse out.

Dean pulled into the drive way right before Mrs. Tran, "hello Dean." she smiled. "Hi." he smiled back and unlocked the front door. "How's your pup?" She asked, "he's doing good. The nurse said he'll be home in no time." He smiled and grabbed a coke before going to the table where they would start on school. "I can't wait to meet him." she said pulling out everything they would need.

He worked on his homework long after Mrs. Tran left, so when Cas came home around 4 with Sam, they were both shocked to see Dean working. "Are my eyes deceiving me or is Dean doing homework?!" Cas teased, kissing the top of Dean's head as he walked by. "Shut up. I do my homework." he grumbled.

Sam went up to his room to do his homework in quiet and Cas grabbed a Dr. Pepper from the fridge and sat down next to Dean. "How's Henry?" he asked, cracking open the can, "a lot better. The nurse said he should be able to come home soon." Dean grinned and shut his history book. "Good, I'm ready for sleepless nights." Cas chuckled and pulled out his own homework, "do that downstairs… I wanna lay down but I don't wanna be alone." Dean said and Cas grabbed his stuff and followed his boyfriend downstairs.