You are Sollux Captor, and you are not jealous. You are currently not staring at your ex matesprit with some random girl laughing with each other. She says something to him and he starts laughing again, and you can see him wiping away tears. She's not allowed to make him laugh like that, she doesn't know him like you do.
"Sollux are you listening?" You turn back to Feferi who looks concerned.
"Oh uh yeah thorry." You say shaking your head.
"You eeling ok?" She puts a hand in your forehead for what you're assuming as feeling for a temperature. You take her hand and remove it gently.
"Yeah jutht zoned out for a thecond. Nothing'th wrong."
"If you say so," The princess giggles and drags you over to Aradia who smiles and greets the two of you. As the girls talk, your eyes wander back to Eridan and the girl. It's seems that Karkat, John, Dave, and Terezi joined them. Why is she so close to him? Eridan needs his space and she's invaded his bubble a while ago.
Feferi hugs you out of nowhere which startles you.
"He's just so sweet!" She giggles which makes Aradia laugh.
"If you squeeze him to hard I think he'll snap in half." Aradia jabs you in the gut and winks.
"Haha tho funny," you mock, looking over your shoulder to the group again. You want to go over there and pull her away from him. She's not supposed to touch him or smile at him like that.
"Hey Sollux, you want to go get a bite to eat?" Feferi asks looking up at you. Feferi. She's the reminder that you and Eridan are done because he believe you and her belong together, and he wants you to be happy. But you were happy with him, you couldn't get enough of him.
"Sollux? Did you hear me?" She waves a hand in front of you. But you were with Feferi now, so you need to focus on her.
"Yeah I could eat." She takes a hold of your hand and links as with Araida and leads you away towards a the picnic area where Kanaya and Rose sat guarding it so no one are everything.
You got bored of the girly exchange quickly and resorted to your phone. The next time you looked up, Eridan was coming over, a smile on his face. He didn't look at you, mostly tried to talk with the girls.
"Is there any more wwater bottles?"
"Of course," Kanaya reached inside of the large cooler and pulled one out, handing it to him.
"Thanks Kan," he moved in your direction but kept his head down.
"Excuse me, I need to get behind you." He murmured. You side stepped and he thanked you quietly. He grabbed two vanilla cookies and began to move away. Why aren't you saying anything?! Say something dammit!
"Wait E.D, you need a napkin?" You're fucking smooth aren't you. He stops and halfway turns around.
"Uh, sure." At least he said yes. You grab a napkin from the pile and hand it to him which he hesitantly accepts.
"Thanks." He says.
"No problem, just don't make a mess." You mentally facepalm. What are you, his lusus?
"Y-yeah." Eridan quickly walks away back to his little group. You are so dumb. Of all the things to say to him.
"He doesn't have to be shy every time he comes near us, we're his fronds." You hear Feferi say behind you.
"He's never been the most outgoing. Mostly kept to himself."
"He'th never been "outgoing" cauthe no one bethideth dancethor and K.K'th dancethor ever cared for him before." You correct them. "And not to mention how everyone would go out of their way to thtay away from him."
The girls were quiet after you spoke got awkward quick.
Kanaya clapped her hands.
"Well, he's better now and that's all that matters!" You agree with her. Eridan is better, and he's happy, but he stays away from you now and that's the only thing that bothers you the most.
"Let's eat, I'm gonna starve." Aradia groans and accepts a plate of food from Rose.
You lost your appetite by the time they get to you. You're too busy thinking about what you could have done to have keep him with you. The more you think about it the more you think about your mistake. The mistake you made worse. You think you may know what you need to do, but it may your other relationship. But right now it doesn't matter, you need to need fix what you fucked up.
You are still Sollux Captor and you are about to fix your mistake. You are currently on the couch at Feferi's hive watching tv as she watches with your, curled up on your side.
"This show has no plot," she giggles at some point.
"That'th why I don't watch it." She giggles again and moves deeper into your side. You take a deep breathe because it's now or never.
"He F.F, can we talk?"
"Aboat what?" She sits up to look at you.
"Uth."
"What about us?"
"I don't think... I don't think thith ith right."
"Water you talking aboat Sollux? Is somefin wrong?" She looks worried, scared even. But you have to do this.
"Back at H.Q, when you athked me to be your matethprit, I should have thaid no. It'th not your fault I jutht-"
"Still like Eridan?" She finishes for you. You nod cause yeah, you still want him.
She sighs and smiles sadly.
"I already knew. I just wanted to let the moments we had together last cause I really am flushed for you Sol." Feferi's looks at you winks. "I just want you to be happy."
"You too; and bethideth, you detherve better than me."
"What, and Eridan does?"
"No. You both detherve better, but Eridan it'th jutht different."
The princess sighs.
"You pity him hard. I respect that," She says. "Just wish some of that love could fall on me. But of course I won't force you. Do what you want and go get that boy back!" She exclaims with a giggle.
"Thankth F.F, you're the betht." She hugs you and for once you hug her back.
"I better get going, I got thome more thinking to do." You stand and go to the door and Feferi sees you out.
"Bye Sollux! Come back over soon!"
You wave to here and leave, glad her new hive is on land. You make your back to your own hive and about halfway there your phone's ringtone goes off. You see that it's Karkat.
"What'th up K.K,find a new way to break your huthktop-"
"SOLLUX,MAN, GET OVER TO ERIDAN's HIVE NOW!" You can feel a pit grow in your stomach.
"What'th wrong?
"HE'S ABOUT TO DO SOMETHING REALLY FUCKING STUPID JUST GET OVER HERE NOW! HE'L LISTEN TO YOU!"
"Alright I'm on my way."
"HURRY UP MAN, CAUSE SOON THERE WON'T BE AN ERIDAN."
You hang up and start running as fast as your lanky legs will take you to the seadweller's hive. The entire way over there, you prayed that he was ok by the time you got there and weren't too late.
