Title: Watching in the darkness.
Summary: Kurt Hummel had always felt a presence around him, ever since he was a little boy. Now after ten years of seeing a pair of beautiful eyes that swirled with every shade of brown watching him, and of questions building up inside him. He may just get his answer. But would he rather have stayed not knowing when he finds out the truth?
Fiction rating: M- Mature.
Chapter title: The Last Goodbye
Chapter rating: M- Mature
Twitter: Unic0rn_H0bbit
Warning: VERY strong language
Kurt didn't know it was possible to be crying so hard so quickly. Dylan's words took a few seconds to settle in his brain and heart rejected them when they did. His grip on his phone tightened and tears were forcing their way out of his eyes and painting in cheeks in droplets of disbelief and terror.
"No," He sobbed, "No, no, no, no."
"Kurt? Kurt what's wrong?" Blaine was up on his knees sounding panicked, "Kurt, look at me. Honey?"
"No, no, no, no, no, no, no," Was the only words Kurt's lips seemed to be able to form. His heart was racing in his chest, so hard that it was like it was trying to work it's way out of his body so he wouldn't feel such pain. His lungs struggled to take in oxygen through his gasping sobs and his chest ached from their effort.
"I'm so sorry Kurt," Dylan's voice was barley audible above Kurt's sobs, "I'm so, so sorry."
"No, no, please," Kurt cried, his whole body curling in on itself, "No, no, no."
"Kurt, sweetheart look at me," Blaine cupped Kurt's wet face and stared deep into his eyes, "What is it?"
"M' not...not ready, no. please. You can't," Kurt cried lunging forward and dropping his phone in the process, he wrapped his arms around Blaine's neck, sobbing heavily into his shoulder.
"Kurt please, you're scaring me," Blaine's voice shook as he wrapped his arms around Kurt's fragile and shaking body, holding him close to his chest, "What's going on?"
Kurt just shook his head, trying to pull Blaine closer to him closer though it was impossible, "Don't. Don't no, no, no."
Kurt was struggling for breath, his chest was heaving in and out desperately like he was having an asthma attack.
"Kurt, Kurt please calm down. Please, breathe, breathe sweetheart," Blaine's hand were shaking, rubbing up and down Kurt's back, "It's okay, I'll be okay. Whatever it is, I promise. I'll make it okay, whatever it takes."
"Dylan...Your Dad...Working...leaving," Kurt managed between gasps and tears, "You...Can't."
Blaine frowned, "Kurt please calm down, I can't fix it until I know what's going on."
Kurt honestly did his best. Squeezing his eyes shut and trying to level out his breathing, Blaine remained patient, whispering comforts in his ear and kissing Kurt's head while rubbing his back. Somehow with Blaine scent so strong around him Kurt managed to calm his gasping breathes to small but often hiccups and his crying just silent tears streaming in a heavy flow back his cheeks.
"Blaine, you're leaving me," He said, his voice breaking and his grip around Blaine's neck tightening.
"Wha...?Oh," The realization hit Blaine a tonne of bricks, "Oh Kurt."
"It's too soon, too soon. I'm not ready. Blaine please, I'm not ready," Kurt cried, pulling his face away from Blaine's shoulder to look at him.
Silent tears welled up in Blaine's and spilled down over his cheeks, "M' sorry sweetheart."
"No. No there must be something we can do!" Kurt begged, "There has to be."
Blaine shook his head, "It's not my decision."
"Why not? It's your life Blaine! It's yours why, why?!" Kurt screamed, deafening Blaine as they were so close.
"Kurt, please don't make this harder then it already is," Blaine begged, his hands tracing softly down Kurt's face.
"No." Kurt replied firmly, "I refuse to let them take you from me."
"Kurt..."
"Blaine, they can't. I need you. I need you here," Kurt's eyes were drooping from exhaustion, "I can't live without you."
Blaine's breathing faltered and he hid his face in Kurt's neck, "Of course you can. You're amazing."
"No," Kurt pressed his naked body against Blaine, both the boys skin was boiling hot, "You're my anchor."
Blaine bit his lip hard, "You'll find someone else."
"I don't want anyone else," Kurt yelled, making Blaine jump, "I only want you," Kurt's voice turned soft.
"You feel that way now, it'll get better though Baby," Blaine promised, "You'll find someone who loves you, and who you love back just as much."
"I won't."
"Kurt," Blaine snapped, "You will. Stop arguing with me."
"No, because you're wrong," Kurt pushed Blaine back against the bed and climbed onto of him, "If you really think getting over each other is going to be that easy, then I obviously love you a lot more then you love me."
"I never said it was going to be easy Kurt, I just said it would happen," Blaine sighed, his hands running over Kurt's sweaty chest.
"I don't want it to happen," Kurt growled, "I don't want to move on."
"You have to let go," Blaine pushed, "You'll always love you Kurt, but we can't hang on. It'll hurt too much."
"I'm never letting go of you," Kurt's voice dripped with anger, "We're connected, right here," His hand covered Blaine's heart, feeling it beat manically under his skin, "Nothing can brake that. Not matter how far apart we are. I Love You."
Blaine's eyes closed and he took a huge breath, "We should shower. Then I have to...have to go."
"And what? I just never see you again?" Kurt asked, moving to lie on Blaine's chest.
"That's how it works," Blaine winced, "Just...remember me okay?"
"Screw that, I'm coming with you. To your house," Kurt announced.
"Kurt...no, it'll just make things harder, and my parents will be there. I really don't think..."
"Do you think I care?" Kurt asked, pressing his forehead against Blaine's, "What are they going to do? Kill me? Maybe that will just stop me from hurting so much."
"Urgh, Kurt please don't talk like that," Blaine shuddered, "You can't come. We'll say goodbye here."
"I'm not going to. I'm not saying goodbye," Kurt winced, "I...I can't."
"Okay, okay we won't say goodbye," Blaine agreed, "But you're not coming with me."
"I am, I don't' care if I have to wait till you leave and run all the way to your house," Kurt threatened, "I'm coming."
Blaine jaw clenched, "Uh, you're so fucking stubborn."
"I know," Kurt declared, "Let's just shower, I feel disgusting."
"You can go first," Blaine offered, "I'll wait here. I'm in no hurry to leave, believe me."
"Um...I was...actually thinking we could...you know, shower together," Kurt suggested, "If you want?"
Blaine's face creased with surprise, "Oh, of course. I'd love too."
Kurt climbed off of Blaine's naked body and took his hand, pulling him to his feet as the teenagers walked over to the bathroom. Kurt let go of Blaine's hand to get the water flowing, turning the taps as he tried to find the right temperature.
"Did I ever tell you how beautiful you are?" Blaine asked, his eyes scanning Kurt's naked form.
Kurt blushed despite of himself, "A few times yes."
"It never gets any less true."
Kurt laughed, "Stop staring!"
"You're my boyfriend, I'm allowed to stare," Blaine smirked, walking towards Kurt.
"Wait...does this mean we're braking up?" Kurt asked, spinning around in terror.
Blaine froze a little, "Yeah...yeah it does Kurt, I'm sorry."
Kurt let out a sharp breath, "Do we have to?"
"Kurt we're not...not going to see each other again," Blaine winced, "We don't have choice."
"We will," Kurt whispered, "We will see each other. You promised. You said we'd always find each other."
"Kurt...I don't...I don't think..."
"You promised!" Kurt screamed, "How are you so calm? You've barley even cried! Don't you love me at all?"
Blaine's face was painted with shock, "Of course I do! How could you even fucking think otherwise?"
"You don't even care! You don't even care you'll never see me again!" Kurt sobbed, wrapping his arms around himself.
"Shut up. Just shut the fuck up, you spoiled brat! I've done everything for you! I joined your school for fuck sake, been nice to your pathetic friends to keep you happy! You think I don't care? Just because I'm not crying my eyes out, you think I don't feel like doing that? One of us has to be strong about this Kurt. And it's me! It's always me having to carry you on my shoulders because you're a weak, stupid little human" Blaine pushed Kurt backwards and he fell into the shower, his legs still hanging over the side as steaming water poured over him.
Blaine froze in shock of his action, "Of my God, Kurt I'm so sorry," He ran forward, "Are you okay?"
Kurt pulled his legs under himself so he was sat cross-legged under the waterfall and nodded, wrapping his arms around himself, "I'm fine."
"I didn't mean any of that, I'm so stupid," Blaine broke out into a sob, sliding into the shower next to Kurt and sitting on the floor, "I'm not angry at you Baby, I'm so, so sorry."
"It's okay," Kurt muttered, letting Blaine pull him onto his lap and rock him slowly back and forward.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry," Blaine repeated, tears still tumbling down his face though it was undetectable as the shower poured down on them.
"It's okay, I'm angry too," Kurt sighed, "I'm sorry about not being strong."
"You are Kurt, you are strong. You're the strongest person I know," Blaine stated, kissing all over Kurt's neck that was hot from the steam of the shower. The hot water washing away and cleansing the hurtful words.
"I cry about everything," Kurt replied, snuggling into Blaine's chest as his dripping hair fell down in his face.
"That just means you care," Blaine squeezed Kurt gently.
Kurt smiled, "I love you."
"I love you too," Blaine sighed, "I don't know what I'm going to do without you."
Kurt winced, "Can't you run away? Can't we run away? Together, let's just go, right now."
"They'd find us Kurt, they'd find us so easily," Blaine shook his head, "And you can't just be on the run all the time, I won't let you have that life."
"I'll come with you then, with your parents and you and Dylan," Kurt said, "I don't care about this life, I hate this life. We can start afresh."
"My parents would never allow it," Blaine shook his head again, "And you can't leave your friends, your Dad, Carole."
Kurt slumped in Blaine's arms, his body physically and emotionally exhausted from crying, screaming and..."I'm glad that we...that we had sex before you left."
Blaine kissed Kurt's head, "Me too. Even if it was only once."
"I've never felt more connected to anyone in my life," Kurt mumbled as he blushed, "I wouldn't want to be that connected to anyone but you."
"It was perfect," Blaine sighed, "The perfect night before our final goodbye."
Kurt tensed, crying softly into Blaine's shoulder while Blaine cried into Kurt's hair.
"Come on, stand up," Blaine instructed wiping his eyes," We can't just stay like this all night."
"Why not?" Kurt grumbled, sniffing.
"Because the water will go cold," Blaine tried for a small smile as the two clambered to their tired feet.
Kurt swayed on the spot, his body threatening to fall until Blaine caught him protectively around the waist, "You need to sleep, Kurt," He said seriously.
"I will...sometime," Kurt mumbled, leaning against Blaine.
Blaine sighed, "Can you wake up a little bit? Just enough for us to shower?"
Kurt nodded, rubbing his eyes and standing up straight, he stretched his arms above his head and stood on his toes, wincing and shrinking again, "Ouch."
"What?" Blaine asked, frowning a little.
"My ass," Kurt complained.
Blaine laughed, "Aw, baby I'm so sorry."
Kurt smirked, "You should be, you're a bully," He pouted childishly, he grabbed a bottle of shower gel and popped the cap, squirting it out over Blaine who squealed.
"Kurt!" He laughed, wrestling the bottle from him, the cold blue gel flying over them both in ribbons.
The bottle fell to the floor and Blaine grabbed Kurt around the waist, pulling him close as the both laughed. Blaine covered Kurt face with kisses before he was rubbing the gel over Kurt's chest and shoulders while Kurt let out a groan. Blaine hands moved down Kurt's chest and over his abdomen, his fingers massaging at Kurt's hips before sliding up his back while Kurt started to do the same. Caring touches and kisses where exchanged at the two cleaned each other off, however soon the water being to turn colder and rushed to wash their hair. Luckily they were done before the temperature became too uncomfortable and were able to turn off the water and hop out of the shower, walking back into Kurt's room with tightly joined hands.
They got redressed quickly before Blaine grabbed Kurt from behind causing him to squeal in surprise as they fell back on the bed together, laying on their sides with their nose touching, occasionally sharing Eskimo kisses. Neither of the boys said a word, they only stared into each others eyes.
"This can't be it," Kurt whispered, "This can't be the end."
Blaine's eyes closed in a sigh, "But it is. Come on, we should go, if you really have to come with me."
A/n: As this fiction is slowly drawing to a close, with only 2-3 more chapters left, follow me on twitter to find out more about upcoming fictions if you're interested:)
