CHAPTER 27
Kendall PoV
I was shaking watching the three men around us. One of them was smiling, like he enjoyed killing so much that he was looking forward to putting a bullet across my chest; the next one had a bored expression, like he was used to this shit…and the third one.
Jett
Standing in the center of the alley, his gun up and looking at me in the eye. I had never thought that it would come to this; I had never even considered that he was the one to finish the job. He had always looked dangerous, but not to me, I had even thought that he kind of liked me enough to let me live.
How fucking wrong I was.
"H-he was nothing to do with this, Jett" I spoke stepping in front of James not daring to look at him. This was what I had been afraid all my life, putting someone in danger just because I let them too close.
"Stop!" yelled James moving beside me "I can pay you, all you want" at this the minions began to laugh.
"Sure thing pretty boy" snorted the smiling one giving him a complete look. James paled and I felt my blood boil.
"Enough" spoke Jett "Time to go to the next life Kenny" after he said this, everything went in slow motion. I heard two l loud BANGS and closed my eyes just before I felt a strong hand pushing me away...
NO!
6 Hours Earlier
James PoV
I rolled around the bed expecting to find the warm body of my husband ready to cuddle, but instead I found cold sheets. Groaning I opened my eyes and blinked a few times before turning to look for him, the room was empty but the door to the outside was open.
"Can´t you just sleep late for once?" I asked to the air before moving out of the bed, putting on my pajama pants and walking out. He was sitting on the sand with his legs crossed and on top of them he had his mother´s urn. I sighed feeling my heart clench, with everything that had been going on with us it was easy to forget about the huge gap Mrs. Knight had left inside of him. I made my way until I was standing behind him and sat down reaching for his body and embracing him strongly.
His cheeks were wet. His body trembling.
He moved until his back was resting on my chest with his eyes closed, probably mortified because I had caught him crying. I rolled my eyes, even after everything he hated looking weak. I kissed his temple before turning my gaze to the sea; it was pretty calm and relaxing.
"I was thinking…" he began after a while "She knew who you are, didn't she?"
"Yeah, she figured out right away" he grimaced.
"How is it that I couldn't? I mean now that I see you, I can see the resemblance, but before all of this I could have never thought that you and Jimmy were the same person" he grasped my hand.
"Because now you are looking for that resemblance…besides she found out because of that tree, it was just a matter of connecting the dots" I looked at the urn before letting my finger trail through it "I´m glad she knew, that way she had time to give me her approval" Kendall grinned.
"Yeah well, she didn't have all the facts" I snorted.
"She kind of did" I shrugged "Anyway, she helped me to finally crack you, so I´ll be eternally grateful" he glared at me.
"You make me sound so disturbed"
"You are disturbed love" he rolled his eyes "What are we doing today?"
"I was thinking about staying here and have tons of newlywed sex" he spoke raising his shoulders with a fake suffering sigh before regaining his solemn expression "But I think we should take her to the rocks first"
"Does that mean that you will take her to the place where she met your father?" I saw his gaze darkened.
"Yes…even if I hate the bastard, she loved him"
"I´m not sure she did" he turned until he was facing me.
"Did she tell you anything?"
"Yeah, I´m pretty sure she only stayed married to him because of you, because she thought you didn't know" he let out a breath closing his eyes.
"Then why did she want me to take her there?" I raised my hand cupping his jaw.
"Because of you love" I kissed frowning forehead "You were her entire world and that place was where she met the man that made you possible, I can assure you that the reason why she wanted to rest there was because of you, not your father" he looked down at the urn letting his fingers caress it.
"You might be right" he mumbled "Come on, I made breakfast" he smiled getting up "We need to eat because I need to go to the hockey rink at five"
"Why?" I certainly did not whine.
"Because I need something to do, I can´t stay home forever…I refuse to even seem like a trophy wife" he spat scowling.
"You´ll have to be a slut for that and we both know that you´re not" I said getting up and following him "I might as well go and see you, get all those hormonal teens out of the way before they get into the sexy assistant coach"
"They are not into me" he rolled his eyes "I have no idea what you see in me, but I´m certainly not the sexy coach" we got inside the house and began climbing up the stairs as I gaped at him.
"NOT sexy! Kendall, are you fucking blind?" he shook his head amused.
"I know I´m not ugly…but I´m nothing special either" he shrugged and I just had the urge to slap him.
"You´re serious!" I ran to get in front of him seeing that he was frowning at me but other than that, he had no particular expression, like he was just stating the facts "Kendall, I´ve been gawking after you for a lot of time…even when I thought I hated you, I couldn't keep myself away! You are freaking HOT, you hear me? Capital letters and all"
"Love is blind, they say" he mumbled looking away as I saw an adorable blush covering his nose.
"I didn't love you at the beginning and you know that" I grasped his shoulders.
"You just wanted another fuck, another whore to your bed" I saw his little flinch when he spoke of the bed.
"What on earth do you have against my bed?" I frowned. He grimaced turning a darker shade of red while he busied himself in putting the urn in a safe place.
"You´ve taken a fucking lot of whores to it…I don't like to know that you´ve fucked with other people and much less sleep on the same bed where you did it" I widen my eyes.
"You should´ve said something!" It made sense now that I thought about it.
"Now I´m saying something: Change the bed" he shrugged before going to the kitchen "Pancakes?" He grinned raising the pan. I nodded sitting at the table seeing him cook with a long sigh.
"When did you learn how to cook?"
"When I was about fourteen" he raised his shoulders "Someone needed to feed us when mom got sick" he stopped moving for a second while before he took a long breath and continued cooking.
"I know it´s hard…"
"When I woke up…I wanted to run into the hospital and tell her" he sniffed without turning back to me "I miss her so much…I thought that I was prepared, she had been sick for years…but…" I stood up and waked to stand behind him.
"She was your mother, it would be weird if you didn't grieve her death" I whispered snaking my arms around him.
"Move" he took my arms and got free form my embrace "I refuse to cry and you´re not helping"
"There´s nothing wrong with crying" I frowned before moving a step back to rest my hip on the table.
"No, but I won´t be weeping around like a girl" he raised his shoulders before turning to put a nice smelling set of pancakes in front of me.
"You will make me fat again" I raised an eyebrow.
"I´ve seen what you eat, eating pancakes in your honeymoon won´t harm you" he chuckled "You can see Carlos, he eats like a bull and he´s still slim"
"Carlos does not have my metabolism" I spoke just for good measure taking the pancakes and the maple syrup.
"You were a kid and you weren't that fat" I raised an eyebrow.
"You traumatized me my whole childhood and now you say that I wasn't that fat?" he flinched and for a second I felt kind of guilty about snapping like that, but really, had it really been all for nothing?
"Yeah…" he spoke weakly sitting in front of me "I already told you, you were there, you were an escape…" he passed his hand through his face "I´m sorry" he looked at me with his huge green eyes.
"It´s in the past" I took a bite "And this pancakes taste delicious, so yeah you´re forgiven" I grinned seeing a smile appear in his face "That´s better"
"I love you" he told me taking my hand.
"Ditto" I said with a mouthful of food.
"How romantic" he snorted shaking his head before he began to eat.
We finished eating in silence, just enjoying each other´s presence, finally without a false impression of our feelings. After we were done, we took a long shower together ending up back in our bed, getting to know each other´s bodies, finally having that intimacy that our relationship had been lacking since the beginning. I learned what made him gasp, what made him give out broken little moans…what made him scream my name in abandon s his body gave into me. I wanted to stay there with him, forever. With our legs tangled and our chest so close that I was able to feel his heartbeat.
"I want to go now" he whispered against my chest "I want to give her a proper goodbye"
"Okay" I kissed his forehead before we got up and began to change.
After we were ready, we got into the car and I drove to the cliff about an hour from the beach house, it was just besides a small dinner –where Mrs. Knight used to work according to Kendall-. The place was abandoned now, so it was a pretty secluded area. I parked and got out following my husband; he took my hand and led me to the cliff, where an amazing view greeted us. He took a breath before sitting at the edge crossing his legs and pulling me to sit next to him. His hands moved around the urn as while his eyes clouded.
"We´re here" he spoke looking at down "You always asked me not to bury you, you said that you had been trapped enough time, that you wanted to be free in this place" his hold grew stronger "I didn't want to do it, even if I promised you a thousand times that I would…I still can´t grasp the idea of you loving him, of seeing him in me and not hating me for that. You were an amazing woman, loving and wise in every breath…I´m glad you were my mom" he ducked his head to kiss the urn "I know you found out about the scholarship" I raised my eyebrow at this "And you thought I blamed you, I never did, I just thought that it was not meant to be…now I see that it was truth, now that I have hope, that I have a family, none of this would have been possible without you" ne turned his teary eyes to look at me "Or you" I moved to peck him in the lips.
"Always there for you" I whispered.
"She always liked you, when we were kids, she was the one that kept bugging me telling me that the maid´s son could be a great friend…sometimes I thought what would´ve happened if we had become friends"
"You would´ve friend-zoned me in an instant, that would´ve given me a lot of headaches" he chuckled.
Kendall PoV
"See? We got the big price with this one mom" I said getting a loud laugh out of James "Don't worry mom, I won´t let you go without a song, I know how much you love them…" I trailed my eyes to my side seeing my husband gaping at me.
"…you sing?" he asked.
"Yeah…" he groaned passing his hands through his face "What?"
"Really? I mean…God, you´re such a golden boy" he chuckled making me roll my eyes "What will you sing to her?"
"Some years ago I went to this Christian church…don't ask…and they were singing this beautiful song to a woman that had died. I asked and they taught it to me" I pressed my lips together looking down at the urn before starting to sing in a soft voice.
Fate - we say goodbye on this day
a Potter's field angel lay
The sunlight fills from your grace
and so much love gives this place the feel of warmth inside
I hear the words of your life
An angel gone... moved on
It's a beautiful end to a beautiful life
A beautiful night to a beautiful day
It's a beautiful end to a beautiful life
A beautiful soul gone this day
Flame - a candle burns in your stead
And roses line white and red
You rose up high above when
we felt a strength pass through us then
your body found your bones
but not the love of your soul
Your love goes on and on
It's a beautiful end to a beautiful life
A beautiful night to a beautiful day
It's a beautiful end to a beautiful life
A beautiful soul gone this day
Surrender, rest here angel, rest
Make us strong and calm all the oceans
It's a beautiful end to a beautiful life
A beautiful night to a beautiful day
And November said goodbye
Rest angel, rest
Rest angel, rest
I took a deep breath when I was done. My face was tear stained once again, but at least this time I was not alone because my husband was silently crying next to me. I raised the urn and gave it a small kiss, whispering how much I loved her and telling her that it wasn't a goodbye, I knew well enough that she would always be around me. I stood up getting closer to the cliff before opening the urn and letting her ashes fly away.
She was free at last.
"Come on" said James in a low voice, he took my hand as we began walking back. I opened my mouth to speak when I heard my phone start ringing. I grimaced thinking that the Diamonds might start bugging me because James refused to pick up his phone; I took it out and I felt my insides get cold when I saw the caller ID.
Jett
"Answer him" said James standing next to me "Put it on speakers" I nodded numbly before following his instructions.
"Hello Kenny! How´s the pretty boy treating you?"
"What do you want Jett?" I spat hating the fact that he knew about James.
"A little politeness might be good for a change" he whined "I told you I wanted another payment soon, and by soon I mean now" I raised my gaze to meet James´, he was wearing a hard expression, clearly hating the caller.
That made both of us.
"Where?" asked my husband ignoring my please to keep quiet.
"Jamesy! Hey! Kenny, why didn't you tell me that your dear fuck buddy was there with you?" I felt my stomach churn.
"Leave him out of this Jett" I tried to put as much steel in my voice as I could.
"No can´t do Kenny, I´m afraid, I´m going to ask you two to come and find me and give me my $5,000…"
"You said $1000!" I fisted my hands.
"Did I? Oh I´m sorry, I was mistaken" I closed my eyes defeated feeling James´ hand grasping my own.
"Where do you want us to go?" I asked feeling like an eighty year old again. I was completely tired of this.
"The little alley where we used to meet, near downtown" he spoke "I won´t wait more than an hour Kenny, you will be fast if you don't want me to shoot you when I see you"
"We´ll be there" I hung up not waiting to hear his goodbye´s. My eyes kept sealed to the ground not getting the courage to see James, he was probably waiting for his chance to bail, to tell me that I was too much trouble and that he couldn't risk his life for me, when he had his family to take care.
"Stop with the pity party" he said instead prior wrapping me in his arms "We´ll go to the bank and then downtown, nothing will happen, we will be okay"
"I´m sorry…you don't have to do this" I tugged his shirt between my fingers.
"Of course I have to! You are the most important person in my life, I won´t let anybody take you away from me" he pushed me back "Let´s go"
The way to the bank was short –or maybe I was too distracted to notice the time- and before I knew it we were getting near the alley.
"Leave the car here…they don't need to see it" I whispered seeing him nod while he parked two blocks away. We got out and joined hands before walking there. First I saw nothing, but the second we got closer to the alley hoping to find Jett in there, we saw two other man…both of them armed.
"I´m sorry Kenny, but keeping track of lost souls like yours it´s taking a tool on business so I´m afraid I´m going to have to fix that right away…nothing personal, you know, Hawk´s orders" said this he let out his gun and pointed directly at my chest…
:) Oh yes, next chapter: The End! Ohh! I´m so excited!
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P.S. Song used: A beautiful end by J.R. Richards
