Glancing around the department it hadn't changed in the slightest since he left. Not that it was that long ago or that he really expected it to, to be honest. The people had changed though, there were quite a few faces he didn't recognize in A&E but then that happened quite often in these kind of departments. Luckily he hadn't ran into Charlie or Megan, not that he expected them to say anything if he did. They were both too professional for that but he still would rather avoid them. He knew all too well that they'd pass onto Lisa that they'd seen him and she'd sure as hell question him which was the last thing he wanted. It wasn't that he didn't want her to know he'd applied for a job in Holby or that he thought she'd be annoyed. He was sure she'd see that he was making a commitment to her and the baby. but he'd rather they were on better terms before she found out. Plus he also wanted to know if he got the job before he mentioned it to anyone especially Lisa. Walking past the entrance to A&E he spots a nurse he didn't recognize, must be new. He was tall, dark skinned and had that flustered look all new A&E staff got, even if they'd worked in a similar department before. Heading towards him he knew this chap could be of use to him.
"Hello. Excuse me is Sister Duffin working today?" Stopping on noticing the man was talking to him he turns and tries to see if he knows the man. He'd never been in A&E, not since he'd started anyway, before and Ash couldn't help but be curious at to why he was after Duffy. At first he assumes it's her ex but then Megan, and a few others, had made it really clear he was not around. Must be someone else. He seemed nice enough. But he wasn't giving him too much information. God knows who it was and Duffy seemed the type not to be pleased about people discussing her no matter what the reasons were.
"No Sorry. Mr Fairhead is though. Would you like to speak to him? I can however get someone to pass on a message to Sister Duffin if you like?" Ha! That was the last thing he wanted to do was to speak to Charlie or Lisa to find out about this. At least he knew she would most likely be at home when he went round.
"No thanks. It doesn't matter. I'm just a friend of Duffy's thought I'd catch up if she was here. Thanks for your help though." Biting his tongue he cursed himself. He'd just about called her Lisa there. That really would give them game away, no matter how new this guy was he was sure as hell he'd heard what had happened. He'd guess no casual friend would be calling her Lisa. Not once he'd twigged even Megan called her Duffy after all.
"I can tell her you were here if you want?" Hmm. He couldn't help but be curious and no one he'd expect to know this man seemed to be around. Maybe he could get his name, that would help. Not that it really had anything to do with him anyway.
"Oh no. It's fine. I'll catch up with her another time. Thanks." Taking his chance to go before he got questioned anymore he begins to head out the department. He was risking enough as it was, best to head before he really did it caught.
She was quite happily pottering around the flat when the door went. Why could she not just get a normal quiet day off? Why did someone always turn up? She didn't care who it was, she just really wasn't up to any conversation. Yesterdays shift really exhausted her and it was only six hours. They were really getting too much for her to cope with but she stayed strong in denial, choosing to blame Andrews sudden appearance for her exhaustion rather than the real reason of her pushing herself too far. It was easier to blame someone else. Plus he didn't help her. But the real truth was yesterdays shift was maniac due to a large car crash and she was still feeling the effects of running around for six hour straight. Yawning she lets the duster fall onto the sofa before forcing herself out into the hall to answer the door. Just as she reaches to open the door she recognizes the outline of the person she is about to greet. Not him again. When was he going to leave her alone? For a brief second she considered ignoring it and going back to her pottering but the last thing she wanted was him yelling again. The neighbours knew quite enough of her personal life after yesterday thank you very much. Once more she only opens a small section of the door just so he can only see her face.
"What now Andrew?" He attempted to smile at her, showing he really was happy to see her, not that he really expected it to work. This was Lisa and she was by no means an easy person to win round.
"I want to see you." Turning her head away she considers her reply,telling herself to be nice.
"Well I don't want to see you." He got the feeling that each time she did look up it wasn't to look at him but rather to check for signs of anyone listening. It was an easy bet they found more out about her yesterday than they did in the whole time she'd lived there. Not that either of them thought of that yesterday as the stood screaming at each other.
"Lisa Please. We need to talk." Shutting her eyes tightly she begins to move from the door, giving in rather quickly this time, and biting back the need to stop him calling her Lisa but then she didn't want him to call her anything. She didn't want him there. But no matter how much she tried to forget he was the father of her child and he did have rights. Yes he had none right now but she knew it would be harder to get on with him once she had the added stress of no sleep and the worry of been a first time mum. She had to make an effort and give him a chance. But it was easier said than done. Her head constantly screamed at her not to trust him again but another voice, a much quieter one, told her to stop denying the fact she still had feelings for him. She could deny it all she wanted but they were still there and him being here wasn't helping her get over them. He had a lot of charm and bloody well knew it. She was terrified he'd win her round and then what chance did their child have of a good relationship with both of them if they split up again?
Following her into the living room once more he had to admit he'd got in easier than he thought. He half expected another argument after she was so cold and short the day before. Not that he blamed her really. If the cards were switched he'd most likely behave just the same. He did understand it wasn't just her she had to protect now. She offered him coffee which he politely turned down before she began the difficult task of sitting down. He could see it wasn't easy for her but didn't want to make out he noticed or offer her any help, she'd only bite his head off. He chose to sit across from her, knowing she wouldn't want him too close.
"Shift go okay then?" The eyes said it all, she didn't need to reply but she threw one in there anyway. It was an innocent question and deep down she knew that but a voice in her head told her he was taking a dig at the fact she hadn't given up work. Still she managed to force the reply she really felt like giving him away and be a little more friendly. Only a little.
"Surely you've not come round here to talk about work Andrew." Rolling his eyes he can't help but sigh. She really didn't make this easy did she?
"Well no of course not. Just been polite. I'm just trying to be nice."
"You don't need to be." Her voice wasn't snapping or harsh and he knew she was making an effort although he didn't really understand why her protest at him been back was so strong. At least they were both trying to be nice to each other.
"I know but I want to be. I'm not here out of some guilt or anything. I'm here because I want to be Lisa." Her eyes finally reached his and this time she really looked at him before letting a little of the wall she'd built fall and even managed a quite genuine smile. She wasn't letting him back into her life, not if she could help it but she couldn't keep him out of the babies. She wasn't that cold.
"I know you are Andrew. I'm sorry. I'm not been snappy on purpose. It's just a rather large shock. I didn't expect to see you ever again."
"I know your not and I do understand that. I should never have left in the first place..." She could feel that wall crumbling around her as the other part of her panicky tried to rebuild it. Why was he so charming?
