Carla had no more visitors for the rest of that night. However early next morning there was a quiet knock on her hospital door, a knock that sounded hesistant.

"Only me." Nick nervously smiles. "Car I'm so sorry about yesterday."

"No I'm sorry, I was being so over dramatic. I'm just a mess right now." She mutters sadly.

"Well I've got just the thing to cheer you up." He says cheerfully, confusing Carla.

"What?" She questions.

"Look whose come to see you" he opens the door further to reveal Hayley whose holding his hand.

As soon as Hayley sets eyes on her mother she drops the teddy she's carrying and instantly runs to hug her.

"Careful Hales; I told you mummy's poorly right now."

"Oh baby girl I missed you so so much" Carla cries kissing her daughters head repeatedly.

"Love you mummy" Hayley says.

"Here do you want me to carry her on the bed?" Nick asks sweetly.

"Yeah. Careful of the wires though." She mutters through the tears.

Half an hour later Carla is laying in bed with her arm around Hayley who seems to be a lot more relaxed since being in her mothers arms again.

She's sucking her thumb and closing her eyes briefly as she snuggles into Carla.

"This is the happiest I've seen you since...since it happened."

"Well Hales has that effect on me. She always manages to make mummy happy." Carla replies stroking Hayleys hair.

"Look the things I heard you say yesterday...did you mean them?" Nick says after a short silence.

"What did I say?" Carla mutters.

"You know Carla..."

"I just want you to feel like you can talk to me, that's what makes us work. Remember what happened last time you refused to talk to me. One word: Robert."

"Nick that's enough! I'm hardly gonna sleep with one of the doctors or something am I?! I can hardly flamin walk." She snaps.

"I'm just saying you need to talk to me. Or Michelle, Johnny, Roy..."

"This is my problem, I will deal with it." She breaks eye contact with him.

"I'm your husband Carla!"

"Well it doesn't feel like it! I'm sick of this; I'm sick of being the victim, I can handle this myself so mind your own!"

"Are we seriously going to have another argument..." he sighs.

"Carla I have some good news!" A nurse says happily coming into the room.

"Good news?! Thought that was impossible." Carla mumbles.

"You're aloud to hold baby! We'll wheel you down there after you've got someone to look after this little one yeah?" She refers to Hayley.

"Really? Already?" Carla smiles. A genuine smile.

"Yep, She seems to be getting stronger by the day...must get that from her mum!" The nurse replies.

"I'll get the wheelchair now." She adds leaving the room.

"Oh my god nick we can finally hold the baby. I can't believe it." Carla says.

"We still need to decide on a name."

"Yeah we will but I barely even know her yet. I feel so disconnected with her compared to how it was with Hayley."

"Well now is your chance to change that" nick smiles.

After agreeing a nurse that Carla and nick get along with really well is keeping an eye on a sleeping Hayley in Carlas hospital room whilst they see baby tilsley.

"Right she may be strong enough to hold but she's still extremely fragile and has many wires connected okay?" The nurse says slowly putting her baby in Carlas arms.

"Oh my-..." she whispers. "It feels so much more real now."

"She's so beautiful" nick says in amazement.

"I actually feel like her mum. That's the first time since everything happened,"

"Hello baby. I'm your mummy" Carla adds talking to the tiny baby.

"And I'm your daddy" nick murmurs contently.

"Emilia."

"What?" Nick asks.

"Emilia. Let's call her Emilia." Carla beams.

"Why Emilia?" He chuckles.

"I don't know. I've always liked the name throughout the pregnancy but now I'm looking at her properly; she looks like an Emilia." She explains.

"Emilia tilsley. I love it." Nick says.

"You can think of the middle name."

"Ummm...Catrin? It has no meaning behind it but Emilia catrin tilsley sounds just perfect."

"Catrin. Yeah I think it's just right. Welcome to the family Emilia catrin tilsley, we love you."

"Hayley-may Barlow and Emilia catrin tilsley. My gorgeous girls." Carla adds.

An hour later, nicks held her and she's back to Carla who can't keep the smile off of her face.

Until now.

"Nick can you take her." Carla mutters.

"What? Why?" He says carrying Emilia.

"Sorry I thought I was gonna drop her...oh god" she starts to get emotional.

"Carla if you're feeling tired you can always come back to her another time?" The nurse interrupts.

"Hey hey hey! Don't cry, you're still really ill" nick comforts Carla as a tear runs down her cheek.

"I'm a faliure" she whispers.

"Carla you're not. Look at me; you're not."

Later that day, Johnny picked up Hayley and it's now early hours of the morning.

Nick stayed with Carla that night because he's been worrying about her like crazy since he overheard her speaking negatively the day before and from today.

He dozed off in the chair before hearing quiet whimpers coming from Carla at 1:00am.

"Carla what's wrong?" He whispers.

"Nothing...go back to sleep."

"You're shaking, come here" he gently pulls her into a hug as she winces slightly. "Sorry."

"I'm so useless." She sobs.

"I can't even hold my baby because I felt too weak and thought I was going to drop her. Is that what life will be for now on? I can't ever remember things and I'm in constant pain. I can't handle it anymore nick"

"You'll be back to normal in a few weeks. Give yourself time sweetheart."

"How much time though nick? I can't do anything. I'm a terrible mother."

"Don't you ever call yourself that Carla. You're many things but a terrible mother is not one." He tells her seriously.

"I just want to be myself again. I can't cope being this weak"

"It'll get better I promise you!"

What do you think of the name Emilia catrin? They're just names I like so I thought why not? Leave reviews and check out my new one- shot called 'time to tell the truth' xxx