Dead Inside
Chapter Twenty Eight
I Own Nothing
Hiccup's P.O.V
I couldn't stand being their anymore, I need to get some fresh air before I go fucking a wall or punch Dagur in the face.
The cold wind hit me directly in the face, causing me to stiffen a bit to the new form of cold I was in, I didn't have anything warm to wear so that was kind of my fault, oh well then I've dealt with worse over the years, but later was going to be real fun. Having to deal with two parents screaming and cussing me out because I was too stubborn to listen or to even look at them, mostly my dad at this point.
Then again the few swings of booze was clouding my mind. I couldn't feel anything below my abdomen or hip where I was stabbed, my hair flowed right through the air, my body was covered in sweat. I hope none of my stitches come undone, that would be really bad if I started to bleed out and have nothing or no one to help me.
When a father harms his daughter the way he did to me yesterday, well you can expect some hostile reactions and me just being...me. It's not that I hate my dad, I just hate of what he has become over the years. When I was younger he used to be the man I looked up too, I felt like he was my protector, but over the years it just started to fade away, I just started being a problem to him and nothing more. I was just dumped onto him when we both thought my mother was dead, back when everything was so fucked up.
Even Toothless knew I was angry, he could feel my body starting to shake.
So here I am doing the same thing I did years ago, running away from my problems, avoiding almost all of human contact as much as possible. I wanted to leave to leave all the ones who had hurt me over the years, trying to pretend everything was alright. But I couldn't get over it, I thought suicide was my only solution to get out of all of this, but once again I was wrong, their was a way out of all of this, Toothless. If it weren't for Toothless I wouldn't have met my mom, I would have become the fierce dragon warrior I am today, I wouldn't have kicked ass in the first place if it weren't form my mom, teaching me how to survive this world. My dad never had the nerve to teach me anything because he thought I was a frail little flower that needed nothing but protection.
That was my one thing that always pissed me off, I wasn't weak anymore. My dad would always look at me with pity or anger when ever I did something wrong or made a fool out of myself, then other times I would beg him to sign me up for warrior training or even dragon training when I was dead set on killing dragons back then, but over and over I was told "no" Or "Your too small and weak for training Hiccup" So the only thing I was allowed to do was stick around in the forge with Gobber. If I were still stuck on Berk or married to Dagur I would have been dead a long time ago.
I huffed for a moment, not wanting to remember all of that. I wasn't being fake or lying to myself anymore, I wasn't a hiccup anymore. I am in control of who I am now, and I'm noting going to just forget of what has happened, all of the shit I got put through is not just going to all magically go away.
I think I rather be kidnapped and held captive by Drago Bludvist then go back home right now, and that's saying a lot.
I sighed laying down on Toothless's back as he kept flying to gods know where, I didn't even give him an explanation on where we were going, all I knew is that we were miles away from home now, away from everyone at the moment. It felt nice not hearing anything or anyone, just peace and quiet, nothing but the sweet ocean and wing rocking us in the light blue sky.
Mom was probably really pissed at me at right now, just walking up and leaving with a serious injury. I kinda wondered if she was going to come after me and drag me back home to try to fix our relationship with dad, I doubt it though, she was never the type of parent to drag me and be raid me like some small misbehaving child. No, she was never like that, mom was always understanding and was never lectured me, that's was my blessing from her.
"What now bud?" I whispered to him.
Toothless grumbled at me softly.
"Maybe we can just fly until we reach the other side of the earth." I said to my lizard friend, sounds like a plan to me, might not be one of my best ideas but it sounds like something.
Toothless then gave me a moan, not liking the idea at all
"Yeah that really wasn't one my most brightest ideas." I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply, smelling the salt water from the sea. Maybe I should just drop myself in the ocean right now, let the salty water fill up my lungs as I scream my very last breath, but Toothless wouldn't be having it, he would head straight down and pull me up with him, trying to get me to breath.
But I couldn't help it, I gently pulled myself up and stared right down at the water, almost illuminated to me, sparkling down at me like blue crystals clustered together into one wide space. I grabbed my left leg, pulling it over, shaking at bit at what I was getting ready to do. Toothless didn't even notice what I was going to do, his wings were just gliding, running through the light white puffy clouds.
Then without even blinking an eyelash I jumped.
I didn't want to die, I just wanted to feel the adrenaline pumping, flooding through my veins, and it felt so good as if I was losing my mind just being so reckless. The wind running through my hair, I felt completely weightless as I fell straight down, waiting to be greeted by the cool fresh salt water.
But that didn't last long, I felt something grab me by the waist, pulling me up.
I opened my eyes and locked on to a pair devious dark green, I gasped, looking at the sight before me.
"Dagur." I said almost shocked looking at him on top of his Skrill, looking seriously pissed off at me.
"What the hell were you thinking?!" he yelled, causing me to squirm a bit in his lap at his sudden outburst. Dagur was not letting me go anytime soon, his thick strong arms wrapped around my waist, looking at me almost terrified yet still angry with me for being such an idiot, but hey at least he was wearing a shirt this time and not walking around shirtless.
"I...I" I couldn't even get out the proper words out of my mouth, my whole body had stiffen to his touch once again.
I sighed heavily."Just tell what happened." He looked at me deeply."Why did you jump off Toothless Hiccup?." The Beserker kept looking at me this time with a bit of a softer tone, not looking at me with pity or anger.
I shrugged."I just wanted to feel the adrenaline rush, just something to get my mind off my-" I did't want to bring up my dad again, or else Dagur would bring up the whole conversation of him wanting to bring me to the Beserker tribe and me being his pity little girlfriend, he just wants to protect me and I get it. But I think he gets so possessive over me because I didn't become his wife when I was supposed to be, when my dad tried to get me married off years ago, it was like he lost something that was supposed to be his.
I turned away shaking my head."I'm sorry, I wasn't thinking." I started looking back down at the sea, wanting to jump again.
"Are you okay then?" You didn't tear any of your stitches out did you?"
"No...no I'm fine." I placed my hand on the side of my patched up wound, feeling it starting to throb a bit due to my jump. But Dagur didn't seem convinced, so the next thing I know he's places his hand under my shirt, running his fingers gently along the line of the cut, I jumped a little as he held me down.
"Easy, I'm just making sure."
"I said I'm fine." I said sternly, wanting him to stop.
But of course my words didn't seem to get past him, but soon he was done playing"doctor" on me.
"Now what?" I arched a brow, waiting for him to take me home so I would have to face my parents who are probably going to kill me as I walk through door, or this case iceberg."Are you going to drag me back home?"
He looked at me for a few moments in silence."No."
I looked at him with a bit if shock."Really? how come?" Oh great what was he planning to do with me now? I'm stuck on his lap, with a freaking skrill flying us around and Toothless right behind us.
Then he smirked at me."Because this could be my only chance right now to get you all to myself." He looked at me devilishly, now he was starting to creep me out.
"Oh boy how exciting." I said sarcastically.
"Hey! I'm not that bad to be around, I can be fun."
I rolled my eyes."Yeah besides killing anything that moves and fighting everybody, oh yes I'm sure your a real blast to be around Dagur."
Then I felt him cup my chin gently.
"Don't be that way Hiccup." Then I felt another hand travel up my back, forcing my to lean in closer to him, our lips just inches away from each other."I can show you so much more then you can imagine."
Then once again our lips locked, I leaned in forward as we both got lost in each other. Dagur was holding me gently as I straddled his lap, his fingers we tangled in my hair, running then through. Dagur was becoming more and more of a gentle kisser, he wasn't being as rough as he was before, Hell he acted more like beast at first, but now he was trying to change, everyone sees him as a killer, a monster. I don't see him like that anymore, he's changing.
He then pulled away, leaving me out of breath, cupping half of my face with his large hand.
"Do you have any idea of what went through my head when I saw you bleeding out?" He brought that up suddenly, making me a bit uncomfortable."I actually thought you were going to die Hiccup, and I wanted to kill your father because it reminded me of what my father almost did to me once." He pushed a few parts of my hair away, putting it behind my ear."I want to make sure no one ever hurts you again."
"I know Dagur."
He smiled at me, planting a small kiss on my forehead.
"Do you want to go back to Berk?"
"No." I said softly, I don't know if I really want to go back or not.
"Do you want to come with me to my tribe?"
Now here comes the hard question.
"How am I going to come with you? My dad is not just going to let me just walk away and go with you." I looked at him worriedly.
"Their is one way Hiccup." He gave me another smirk.
I looked at him confused."How?" What could be the bright idea to let me live and stay with him.
Then he grabbed my left hand, looking at me hard and then...
"Marry me." He said sternly."Marry me and all your worries will be over."
But before I could answer, we both heard yells and screams coming down below us. We both looked down to our horror, oh and just keeps getting better.
"DRAGON RIDERS!"
The next thing we know nets and bolas started flying at us, tangling us both up as we started to free fall, heading straight for the cold icy ground. Me, Dagur his Skrill and Toothless were all tangled up in the thick ropes from the dragon trappers.
Eret and his men had just shot us down.
Now we were screwed.
OKAY GUYS THAT'S CHAPTER 28! I HOPE YOU LIKED IT AND THE CLIFFHANGER!
ALSO BIG NEWS I HAVE ANOTHER DAGCUP FEM HICCUP STORY IDEA, AND I NEED SOME OF YOUR GUYS OPINIONS OF WHAT YOU THINK.
TAKES PLACE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FIRST MOVIE, SO HICCUP IS CHOSEN TO KILL THE NIGHTMARE AND DECIDES TO RUN OFF AFTER SHE IS CHOSEN, SO HER AND TOOTHLESS TAKE OFF AND BY ACCIDENT THEY END UP ON THE BESERKER ISLAND OR DUE TO A STORM, I DON'T KNOW YET, BUT ANYWAY HICCUP GET DISCOVERED AND HIDES TOOTHLESS IN THE DEEPER PARTS OF THE WOODS, WHILE HICCUP IS BEING HELD CAPTIVE BY DAGUR, BLHA BLHA BLHA SOME STOCKHOLM SYNDROME HERE AND THERE AND SOME LEMONS LATER ON AND SO ON MAYBE.
THAT'S HOW MUCH I'M GOING TO TELL YOU GUYS, I ALREADY THE WHOLE PLOT FIGURED OUT ALREADY AND I'M NOT GOING TO RUIN IT.
SO WHAT DO YOU THINK? TRASH THE IDEA OR WRITE IT OUT? LET ME KNOW IN TH COMMENTS.
ALRIGHT NOW I AM GOING TO WORK ON ESCAPING FROM HARM'S WAY NEXT! BYE SEE YE THERE!
